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fanboy asks

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1: What book did you last finish? When was that?

Will Grayson Will Grayson, a couple weeks ago

2: What are you currently reading?

A lot of stuff that I need to finish

3: What book are you planning to read next?

Six of Crows

4: What was the last book you added to your tbr?

the whole ass Grishaverse

5: Which book did you last re-read?

I think it was Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire

6: Which book was the last one you really, really loved?

The Past and Other Things That Should Stay Buried

7: What was/were the last book/books you bought?

It was called The Art of Being Normal

8: Paperback or hardcover? Why?

Hardcover because paperback bends easily

9: YA, NA or Adult? Why?

A little bit of everything, I like variety

10: Sci-Fi or fantasy? Why?

Fantasy because DRAGONS

11: Classic or modern? Why?

Classic because I am a sucker for that type of thing

12: Political memoirs or comedic memoirs?

Comedic. David Sedaris is my hero. Politics are mostly boring

13: Name a book with a really bad movie/tv adaption

Percy Jackson

14: Name a book where the movie/tv adaption actually was better than the original

Catching Fire!

15: What book changed your life?

Sounds basic, but the HP books

16: If you could bring three books to a deserted island which would you bring and why?

How to build a raft, a guide to edible botany, and the Canterbury Tales

17: If you owned a bookshop what would you call it?

oh, that's a good one. Probably something cute and catchy.

18: Which character from a book is the most like you?

Will Herondale from The Infernal Devices

19: Which character from a book is the least like you?

Probably Hermione Granger

20: Best summer read?

The Sunset Island series

21: Best winter read?

Little Women

22: Pro or anti e-readers? Why?

pro, because technology is cool, but I don't really use my kindle

23: Bookdepository or Amazon?

Amazon

24: Do you prefer to buy books online or in a bookshop?

in a bookstore

25: If you could be a character from a book for just one day who would you be and why? (Bonus: any specific day in the story?)

Magnus Bane because he can teleport anywhere and has a great wardrobe and a hot boyfriend

26: If you could be a character from a book for their entire life who would you be and why?

Magnus Bane, see above. Also he's immortal so that helps


27: If you could change one thing about mainstream literature what would you change? (i.e. more diversity, better writing, better plot etc.)

more POC representation!

28: How many books have you read so far this year?

2

29: How do you sort your shelves? (i.e. by color, author, title etc.)

I have a cubby shelf and they're sorted by series


30: Who’s your favorite author?

Matthew Quick

31: Who’s your favorite contemporary author?

Matthew Quick

32: Who’s your favorite fantasy author?

JK Rowling (but she's highkey a shitty person lmao)

33: Who’s your favorite Sci-Fi author?

N/A

34: List five OTPs

Percy/Nico, Jace/Alec, Simon/Izzy, Clary/Jace, and Will/Tessa

35: Name a book you consider to be terribly underrated

Boneshaker by Cherie Priest

36: Name a book you consider to be terribly overrated

Looking for Alaska by John Green

37: How many books are actually in your bookshelf/shelves right now?

about 50

38: What language do you (most often) read in?

English

39: Name one of your favorite childhood books

The one Magic Treehouse book where they were stuck in Siberia

40: Name one of your favorite books from your teenage years

The House of Hades

41: Do you own a library card? How often do you use it?

Yes, not so much anymore because the library is closed for remodel

42: Which was the best book you had to read in school?

Uh, probably Pictures of Hollis Woods

43: Are you the kind of person who reads several books at once or the kind of person who can only read one book at a time?

I'm scatterbrained, so the former, although I wish I was the latter.

44: Do you like to listen to music when you read?

NO!

45: What is your favorite thing to eat when you read?

Something crunchy and cheesy

46: What is your favorite thing to drink when you read?

coffee


47: What do you do to get out of a reading slump?

Read a quick YA romance

48: Where is your favorite place to read?

On my fave couch

49: When is your favorite time to read?

Before bed

50: Why do you love to read?

WHY NOT (hide spoiler)]

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shipping stuff

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1. My favorite m/f ship

Reyna/Jason

2. My favorite f/f ship

hm, this one's hard.

3. My favorite m/m ship

Percico

4. My favorite nonbinary ship

hard because there's pretty much no NB representation in books that i've read.

5. My favorite canon ship

Clace

6. My favorite ship that never ever ever happen in universe

Percico

7. My weirdest ship

Dobby x the Sorting Hat (LMAO im kidding)

8. A terrible m/f ship

Percabeth :)

9. A terrible canon ship

PiperxJason

10. A ship that shouldn’t exist

Wincest :)

11. A ship you find gross which you’ve read fic about

Wincest

12. Who I ship myself with

Jem Carstairs (hide spoiler)]

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sometimes i sleep fine
other times, i can’t be silent without hearing the noise of your last breaths rattling inside of your chest

sometimes i’m okay
other times im choking back sobs because i walk past your room and see how everything looks the same except for the growing layer of dust. but things will never be the same.

sometimes i smile
other times i can’t breathe because i come across a picture of you and my whole world comes crashing down

sometimes i feel like it’ll be alright
most of the time, i realize that nothing will ever be alright without you.

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i fucking miss you so fucking much, i miss your stupid jokes and the memes you would send me and the way you would mess up my hair and even the way you would argue with me about dumb shit. i miss the way you held me against your chest that day that we found out you weren’t going to live another month. i miss the way you smell, the way you always wore that ugly camo hat, the way you always made me laugh. i fucking miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i know you’re not coming back, but i miss you. everything fucking hurts and i feel like i can’t breathe right half the time and everything just seems so wrong without you.

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i just feel that without you, i’m weak. fragile. like i’m made of glass stacked like a tower of cards, waiting for the slightest bit of wind to push me down so i’ll shatter into a million pieces.

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the only word in my head right now is “wet”. that’s the only way i can describe how you died. wet with tears, blood, wet and heaving breaths...

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when our cousin tried to comfort me, because i was on the floor of the kitchen curled up, she told me that you weren’t in any more pain. i screamed at her to get away from me. i yelled at anyone who came near me. i didn’t want to be touched, hugged, anything. i just wanted my brother back.

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i just want you to come back to me.

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i’m so tired lmao crying yourself to sleep really is it’s own form of workout

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aye it’s SPRING which means those fuzzy green almonds are IN SEASON, you bet your ass i’ve eaten a pound already

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resting heart rate is 160 bpm bc i drank 2 cloud macchiatos lol

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oh my gosh

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i’m slowly poisoning my body, aren’t i

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i’m going to get lung cancer

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or brain damage

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it’s another lonely night

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“at least i’m not sleeping with a random stranger thoooo”

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nah but srsly i need to get my fuckin life together ASAP

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i’m such an asshole lmao

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but seriously i’m pissing my life away

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maybe ...
get this....

maybe...

i should
yknow

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it’s 1:04 am and i’m stuck between:
a) wanting to sleep in his bed because i miss him
b) wanting to launch myself off of the nearest cliff bc i miss her

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bitttttttttcccccchhhh does grieving ever get any easier, what the fuck

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6. fuckin. months. he’s been dead SIX. MONTHS.

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anyway i want to die bc i miss someone who’s six feet under but i actually can’t kill myself because my life is too messy to even do that, i spend all of my time reading SHITTY fan fiction online while trying to fix the depresso with lots of espresso and i’m literally having panic attacks every day, i only remember to eat around 5 pm and once i do i just binge on whatever i can find, i’m slipping up with sobriety, and everyone around me is convinced that i’m jjst peachy! 🤪

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lmao that was messy

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rip my responsibilities

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my dad told me that i look like the black and white animal that lives by the sea

i was like ??? what???

spent 20 mins trying to figure out what animal.

turns out he meant “panda”

father pls

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long nights w dysphoria :////

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can i please get a waffle

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i really like kumquats :///

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my ugly ass self witnessed smthg i highkey never should’ve saw and tbh how to erase memories

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i hate those dreams where you wake up feeling so differently about someone :///

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fell asleep and it was normal, had the dream, woke up with her favorite song playing and thinking to myself “maybe we were meant to be together after all”

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long story short i turned off the Elvis and remembered that she has a baby now and probably doesn’t think twice about me :)

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also she’s only 17

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i think it’s a result of all the shitty fanfics i’ve been reading tbh

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me: gets attached to anyone who shows even a little bit of affection towards me

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me: is in my feels 25/8, is in no place to be in a relationship, can’t get over ex
also me: gets into random relationships

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lmao my coping skills are bandaids over stab wounds

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i had my appointment today and i told her i don’t wanna increase my meds and she listened and now i don’t go back till june

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bad move on my part, i know. but even though i’m probably the most selfish person ever, i had to think of my parents first

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why :) can’t :) my life :) be :) normal :) for once :)

[Lynx ~ 10/1 Never Forgotten]

I think that idea is more normal than you think lol

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we did a thing in the university center where we had a board and people could put sticky notes of trans people who inspire them for TGDOV and two of them said “jayson” 😍😍😍😍😍

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i was also wrapped in a pride flag lol

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it’s gr8

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i also stuck a mini flag in my hair lmao

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deciding which pic to post is the ~~~worst~~~

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anyway my knees hurt all the fuckin time and i am. sick. i am. in pain. maybe. i am. not.