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A-Z brutal honesty

A - IF I'M IN LOVE.

i am not. not at all.

B - WHO THE LAST PERSON I TALKED TO ON THE PHONE WAS.

my mom.

C - HOW LONG IT'S BEEN SINCE I'VE KISSED.

uhhhh a lonnnng time. maybe six months or more.

D - IF I HAVE A PREFERENCE FOR BOYS OR GIRLS.

boys but i like girls too!

E - HOW MANY PIERCINGS I HAVE.

one and a half-closed one.

F - GIVE ME ANY OPTIONS, LIKE 'HOT OR COLD?'

?

G - THE LAST PERSON I SAID 'I LOVE YOU' TO.

m.h.

H - THE LAST PERSON I HUGGED.

m.h.

I - THE LAST TIME I FELT JEALOUS, AND WHY.

prolly when my cats cuddle my mom instead of me :(

J - ARE YOU INSECURE. WHAT ABOUT?

yes, my body

K - WHAT MY FULL NAME IS.

jayson oliver s.

L - IF I HAVE SIBLINGS.

i have one sister

M - IF I FORGIVE BETRAYAL.

rarely

N - FAVOURITE ANIMAL?

cat, pig

O - WHERE WOULD I LIKE TO TRAVEL

everywhere omg

P - WHAT KIND OF MUSIC I LIKE.

all the good shit

Q - FAVOURITE FLOWER?

rose

R - IS CHEATING EVER OKAY?

nope

S - 2 HABITS.

my nail biting and my procrastination

T - 3 THINGS I LOVE UNCONDITIONALLY.

milo, misha, water

U - FAVOURITE TIME OF YEAR, AND WHY

fall because of the weather and starting school again

V - BIG DREAMS?

own a lake house up north

W - IF I'VE DONE SOMETHING I REGRET VERY MUCH.

very many things.

X - 3 TURN ONS

hair pulling, gentle touches, soft kisses

Y - 3 TURNS OFFS

feet, bloody/slobbery/messy kisses, and pain

Z - ASK ANY QUESTION YOU WANT.

im glad to be done with this because of the all caps

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1. selfie

nope you guys have already seen me lol

2. what would you name your future kids?

zayne, dean, eve

3. do you miss anyone?

yes

4. what are you looking forward to?

sleeping tonight

5. is there anyone who can always make you smile?

yes <3

6. is it hard for you to get over someone?

nope, not at all

7. what was your life like last year?

rough. very rough. 2018 was probs one of my worst years.

8. have you ever cried because you were so annoyed?

yes!

9. who did you last see in person?

i'm in a room with 4 other people, so i guess them?

10. are you good at hiding your feelings?

nope, im an open book

11. are you listening to music right now?

nope

12. what is something you want right now?

pasta!

13. how do you feel right now?

tired and hungry

14. when was the last time someone of the opposite sex hugged you?

uh MH hugged me earlier

15. personality description

funny, dry, dark, snarky, cocky

16. have you ever wanted to tell someone something but you didn’t?

yes!

17. opinion on insecurities.

they're perfectly fine to have

18. do you miss how things were a year ago?

yeah, i do. april of 2018 was my last sense of normalcy.

19. have you ever been to New York?

i haven't.

20. what is your favourite song at the moment?

uh, black hole sun by soundgarden

21. age and birthday?

18, june 17

22. description of crush.

5 pounds, white hair, blue eyes, cute pink nose, whiskers... jk guys im describing my cats whom i love very much


23. fear(s)

the dark, water, losing people i love

24. height

5 feet

25. role model

james w. loewen

26. idol(s)

i don't really have any??

27. things i hate

chewing, feet, bad smells, pain, blood, being sick

28. i’ll love you if…

you make me pasta <3

29. favourite film(s)

shawshank, se7en

30. favourite tv show(s)

lost, FNL, SPN

31. 3 random facts

luffas are a plant, luffas are a member of the cucumber family, synthetic luffas became popular in american during WWII when the luffa trade with japan stopped.

32. are your friends mainly girls or guys?

they're pretty much all NB lol

33. something you want to learn

how to grow luffas

34. most embarrassing moment

all of them. seriously. but probably a wrong text sent to the wrong groupchat.

35. favourite subject

science

36. 3 dreams you want to fulfill?

buy a house up north, be rich, help others.

37. favourite actor/actress

morgan freeman

38. favourite comedian(s)

david sedaris

39. favourite sport(s)

football, baseball

40. favourite memory

disney!!

41. relationship status

single

42. favourite book(s)

the HP series, TID series

43. favourite song ever

open arms, journey

44. age you get mistaken for

TWELVE

45. how you found out about your idol

i don't have an idol

46. what my last text message says

"lmaooo rip him"

47. turn ons

see above survey

48. turn offs

see above survey

49. where i want to be right now

on a beach in the sun

50. favourite picture of your idol

stop

51. starsign

gemini

52. something i’m talented at

speed reading

53. 5 things that make me happy

sunshine, crispy leaves, soap cutting videos, misha, milo

54. something thats worrying me at the moment

my exam tomorrow

55. tumblr friends

nope

56. favourite food(s)

pasta, lime corn

57. favourite animal(s)

cat, pig

58. description of my best friend

the cutest lil cinnabun with dark hair and blue eyes and a great music taste.

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incoming ask memes (more of them bc i am bored)

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☀️🌙✨ tarot questions ✨🌙☀️

the fool: do you have any nicknames?

jay, jayse, jaysie, ollie, jayjay, bun

the magician: have you ever written a poem or song about somebody else?

yes :)) during my heartbroken emo phase

the high priestess: what is your dream date?

milkshakes, cheese fries, long drives, parking on top of a parking garage and watching the stars.

the empress: do you think you will ever get married?

yeah, eventually.

the emperor: what are some names that you like?

misha, milo (haha), but seriously, uhh zayne, ella, emma, lucy

the hierophant: do you believe in ghosts?

i do not

the lovers: do you have a crush?

also do not

the chariot: thoughts on astrology?

kind of a load of crap imho but i mean, if you believe in it then yay!

strength: what is your dream occupation?

a professor of some sort

the hermit: what is your favorite soda pop?

mountain dew baja blast or faygo rock n rye

wheel of fortune: first three songs that come on shuffle?

backseat serenade - atl
mi gna -super sako
brazil- declan mckenna

justice: favorite color of rose?

red!

the hanged man: favorite movie soundtrack?

guardians of the galaxy

death: what are three things you want to do before you die?

learn another language, travel across europe and asia, and see steve perry live

temperance: can you describe a strange dream you’ve had?

one time i dreamed that my cousin's husband's brother died and left behind two twin girls, then the next day i found out that his wife is actually having twins.

the devil: do you enjoy thunderstorms?

sometimes

the tower: favorite colors to wear?

maroon, navy

the star: have you ever seen a psychic?

once, yes. it was bullshit lol she had no clue what she was talking about, but that's what i get for a $5 reading

the moon: have you ever written a love letter?

i have written many, you can prolly find some if you go back a couple hundred pages on here

the sun: do you believe in magic?

everyday magic, yes

judgement: do you enjoy school?

i enjoy learning, yes, but not always school

the world: do you like waking up early?

i don't but i wish i did

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a long one

(view spoiler)[ 1:Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now?
i dont know what i wanna do with my life tbh

2:Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone?
usually, yes

3:If your significant other smoked pot, would you care?
not at all

4:Do you find it easy to trust others?
yes

5:What were you doing at 11PM last night?
scrolling through memes

6:You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you?
angels

7:What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on?
i would be calm and try to find an underlying reason

8:Are you close with your dad?
not really

9:I bet you kissed someone last night, right?
i did not

10:What are you listening to?
a blue diamond almond commerical

11:You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it?
water lol

12:Do you like hickeys?
not visible ones

13:What time do you go to bed?
around midnight, im trying to change that tho

14:Is there someone who continuously lets you down?
yes lol

15:Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both?
i actually only text with one hand lol

16:Do you always answer your texts?
nope, i read then forget about them

17:Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for?
no, i don't

18:When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?
an hour ago

19:Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them?
yes, my cats

20:What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?
i was doing my nightly thinking routine

21:Is anyone else in the room with you?
my parents and my cats

22:Do you believe what goes around comes around?
not really.

23:Were you happier four months ago than you are now?
nope lol

24:Is there someone you wish you could fix things with?
yeah

25:In the past week, have you cried?
yes

26:What colour is the shirt you are wearing?
maroon

27:Do people ever call you by your last name?
yep, my math professor lol

28:Is anyone ignoring you right now?
yep

29:Do you have a best friend?
i do!

30:Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed?
i do not remember who i last kissed tbh

31:Who was your last call/text message from?
m.h.

32:Are you mad at anyone?
nope

33:Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
yes lol

34:How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday?
do not remember

35:How many more days until your birthday?
uhhh.... y'all really gonna make me count here. it's june 17, you can do the math

36:Do you have any summer plans yet?
not really tbh

37:Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex?
kind of

38:Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now?
not keeping anything, just some stuff i haven't got the chance to tell them yet

39:Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone?
yes

40:Have you ever regretted kissing someone?
yes

41:Do you think age matters in relationships?
yes because pedophiles exist

42:Are you available?
uhm, yes

43:How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended?
....none

44:If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get?
nips

45:Do you believe exes can be friends?
yes

46:Do you regret anything?
many things

47:Honestly, what’s on your mind right now?
cake

48:Did you ever lose a best friend?
yepp

49:Was your last kiss a mistake?
i do not. remember.

50:Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like?
because i don't like anyone :(

51:Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry?
do we gotta do this again

52:Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed?
b r u h

53:What was the last thing you ate?
green beans

54:Did you get any compliments today?
no

55:Where are you going on your next vacation?
philly

56:Do you own anything from other countries?
lotsa stuff

57:Are most of your friend guys or girls?
NBs lol

58:Where have you lived most of your life?
i've never moved lol so here

59:When was the last time you took a long drive?
yesterday lmfaoo

60:Have you ever played Spin the Bottle?
yep

61:Have you ever TPd someone’s house?
nope

62:Who do you text the most?
m.h.

63:What was the last movie you saw?
in theaters? the first fantastic beasts. i hate theaters.

64:What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex?
i don't have one

65:How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2011?
one

66:Is the last person you kissed younger than you?
gosh stop

67:Do you curse around your parents?
nope

68:Are you happy with where you live?
yeah, i think

69:Picture of yourself?
no

70:Are you a monogamous person or do you believe in open-ended relationships?
im monogamous ASF

71:Have you ever been dumped?
yeeeep

72:What do you most like about making out?
soft kisses and playing with their hair

73:Have you ever casually made out with someone who you weren’t seriously involved with?
yes

74:When you kiss someone for the first time, is it usually you who initiates it or the other?
me

75:What part of a person’s body do you find most attractive?
hair

76:Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed?
mh, i sent her a meme

77:Had sex with someone you knew less than an hour?
uhhhhh, i don't think so

78:Had sex with someone you didn’t know their name?
no

79:What makes your heart flutter and brings a big cheesy smile to your face?
my kitties

80:Would you get involved with someone if they had a child already?
of course

81:Has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you?
yep

82:Do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush?
yep

83:Do you miss your last sweetie?
nope

84:Last time you slow danced with someone?
S's wedding last august

85:Have you ever ‘dated’ someone you’ve never met?
yep

86:How can I win your heart?
food!

87:What is your astrological sign?
gemini

88:What were you doing last night at 12 AM?
memes

89:Do you cook?
sometimes

90:Have you ever gotten back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication?
yep

91:If you’re single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship?
yes lol

92:Do you prefer to date various people or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly?
i skip around, people jump

93:What physical traits do you look for in a potential interest?
face, attractiveness, hair

94:Name four things that you wish you had!
a billion dollars, a lake house, a new wardrobe, a dog

95:Are you a player?
yes lol

96:Have you ever kissed 2 people in one day?
uhhh yeah

97:Are you a tease?
yeah

98:Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr?
have not

99:Have you ever been deeply in love with someone?
yes

100:Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with?
no

101:Hugs or Kisses?
both

102:Are you too shy to ask someone out?
nope

103:The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
face, attractiveness

104:Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe?
YES

105:If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was in relationship, would you go for it?
.no.

106:Do you flirt a lot?
i do

107:Your last kiss?
stop

108:Have you kissed more than 5 people since the start of 2012?
oh yeah lol

109:Have you kissed anyone in the past month?
no

110:If you could kiss anyone who would it be?
someone rich

111:Do you know who you’ll kiss next?
i don't

112:Does someone like you currently?
yes

113:Do you currently have feelings for anyone?
i don't

114:Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?
serious relationships

115:Ever made out with just a friend?
yes

116:Are you happier single or in a relationship?
uhhh, depends. (hide spoiler)]

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jay wrote: "spaghetti yum yum i loveee pasta"

21 hours later and this is still my mood

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“my butt hurts”

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i need to spring clean my room but i also didn’t finish cleaning it the first time so there’s still shit everywhere

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today milo found a rubber band and then it was gone. i think he ate it.

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my heart murmur has been weird all day. like i can feel it doing the thing.

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why is it called that, i don’t like that word

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‘murmur’ sounds like a cute nickname for something bad. like when people call Lucifer ‘Luci’ but they call murder ‘murmur’

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i have to go get my cholesterol checked again and if it hasn’t improved i’m gonna be put on medication haha rip me i hate taking pills

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adding lipitor to my lineup of anti depressants means more pills and cjxxogxoxoci i hate having to take medicine like that

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i’m suicidxl as fuck

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but yknow

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i guess i’m just. really. in a bad place right now. my anxiety was already high bc i got a lecture from a family member about how i’m wasting my life and how switching my major means that i’m a quitter and that my degree will get me nowhere in life, so i already felt like i wanted to barf. then the urges to cut started and then i got a text from someone i haven’t talked to in a while basically accusing me of something that is totally not true so i tried to explain it to him and he sent me a cat picture and i was like aw kitty but now i’m just back to laying in my bed trying not to move anything but my fingers as i type this bc honestly i’m so fucking scared of myself and also i am a freaking mess and I don’t know who to tel

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if i tell anyone IRL i’ll be sent to the ER and they’ll admit me so fucking fast and i don’t ducking want that, no one has time for my shit right now

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i can’t even seem to cry it out right now. i’m just kind of numb and shaking and angry and upset.

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i feel really alone¿

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i also feel like i’m ranting on here because i genuinely just feel like i don’t really want to bother one particular person with my shit. so i’m just shouting into the void of the internet.

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i see my doctor in a week and we’re going to discuss this stuff but i’m terrified of that

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like i want to be honest but i can’t be too honest, because that’ll end with me in a hospital

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if i’m only partially honest she’ll probably just increase my prozac again which isn’t good because...
1) i don’t want to be more dependent on meds
2) having a higher dose means it’s harder for me to get off of it
3) my dad doesn’t want me on any more meds because he thinks i’m magically cured of depression even though i went through so much shit this past year (seriously, i was complaining about having to get up early for therapy and he told me that i shouldn’t be going to therapy anymore bc i’m ‘better now’)
4) my mom thinks i’m doing swell, perfectly fine, peachy, and an increase in meds would mean her worrying about me more which she doesn’t fucking need right now

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but i feel like if i stay silent, and don’t talk about what’s going on, and tell my doctor that i’m fine, she’s just gonna leave things the way they are and i won’t see her for another month and i’ll just progressively get worse during that month

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and then at the end of the month we’ll just have this whole dilemma all over again

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last month i chose option 3, and i stayed silent, and no meds were changed, and i said i was just gonna stick it out and see how things go and they’ve only gotten worse

[Lynx ~ 10/1 Never Forgotten]

Hun. Your mental health is more important than the stress level of others. You need to take care of yourself. It doesn't matter what your family thinks about your mental health, it matters that it is addressed.
Also, remember you can always reach out to me to vent if you want

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thank you ❤️💞

[Lynx ~ 10/1 Never Forgotten]

Of course <3 I hope things improve for you <3

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thank you, i hope so too

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okay that was a good thing, i’m feeling slightly better now. like a weight off my shoulders.

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my joints fuckin hurt and i want 2 die,,

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i watched this penguin show on netflix and it was so fucking sad?? like one got lost from the pack and was all alone i wanted 2 cry

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did you know that emperor penguins can stand up to 4 feet tall?

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the average emperor penguin is 3 feet tall. i am approximately 1.67 emperor penguins tall.

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bruh they look small at the zoo tho

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bruh nothing annoys me more than forced affection

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like forcing your gf to hold your hand in public when she doesn’t want to, etc.
just bc so many people brush it off as “nothing” when it’s actually a fkn violation?? and if you were to tell someone that your partner is overstepping your boundaries like that they’d literally just be like “nah fam they’re just being cute” or ask you why you didn’t want to hold hands in the first place
i,, dunno. it’s just something that irks me bc things like that are still violations of boundaries but still get brushed off sOOOoooooOo easily and i’m just like,,

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surprise kisses aren’t cute either i actually think they’re weird and creepy

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also shoutout to the person who came up behind me and covered my eyes and was like “guess who” last week and caused a panic attack

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also shoutout to the person who came up behind me and covered my eyes and was like “guess who” last week and caused a panic attack

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this is @ every fanfic ever where Y/N is angry so Harry stares into your eyes with his bright green orbs and kisses you roughly to get you to shut up— that’s 👏 fuckin 👏 weird 👏

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i recently got back into fanfiction due to lack of content for a ship i have (real ones know who i’m referring to 🤪) and lemme fuckin tell you how goddamn toxic this shit is

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90% of it is triggering/has triggering themes like depression, self harm, drugs, assault, abuse, etc. and i’d say less than 50% of it has TW/CW on it
99% of the gay stuff is written by straight girls with a weird fetish (don’t tell me this isn’t real. straight guys watching lesbian porn is the same shit.)
99.9% of it is written so wrong and glorifies things that should not be glorified and glosses over things that should not be glossed over

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“Y/N, meet your new masters— harry, louis, liam, niall, and zayn”
me: uhhhhh that’s human trafficking actually and selling your daughter as a sex slave is not something that should be glorified/seen as a good thing, y’all are fucking WEIRD

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it’s like 1 am why am i awake even

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i’m screaming @ my joints they will not let me slEEP

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when you get subtweeted by someone who you haven't talked to in months and you realize he never really got over you :)