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A Solivagant on the Inselberg
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Deepthi
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Dec 11, 2018 03:30AM
Stay strong Hal... For us
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Alia ~mostly inactive for now~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: "When a person is close friends with all your once upon a time closest friends but never speaks to you and now you just get to watch all of them hang out together while you're all alo..."Aye no no no no no no! You fall nowhere near them category!
I understand that you're busy, and I really don't expect you to be here always :) All I need is for you to be fine, so really, don't worry about it!
Alright people, how long should I keep living my pathetic life for someone else? I'm sick of doing that for 17 years already. The very thought of continuing to live for the sake of someone else is just as exhausting.
Hallie wrote: "Alright people, how long should I keep living my pathetic life for someone else? I'm sick of doing that for 17 years already. The very thought of continuing to live for the sake of someone else is ..."I can relate to it though...
Hallie wrote: "Then why?"For us...
Hallie wrote: "Not for me. For you.":)
That gave the opposite meaning of what I intended to say, but it's too late to rectify, but uh no. I still give up.
You know what I just realized. NUI had sent me an email with the details, and I didn't even open the email. I don't feel like opening it.
Hallie wrote: "That gave the opposite meaning of what I intended to say, but it's too late to rectify, but uh no. I still give up."Ooops... Sorry...
Deepthi wrote: "https://encrypted-tbn0.gstatic.com/im..."Only if it comes with a strangle to death whilst hugging policy.
Hallie wrote: "Deepthi wrote: "https://encrypted-tbn0.gstatic.com/im..."Only if it comes with a strangle to death whilst hugging policy."
Um... no. Sorry it's not available.
It's a normal, extra-sweet hug to cheer you up :)
That is the most disappointing thing I've heard today after the word 'Hallie'.
Hallie wrote: "Alia ~mostly inactive for now~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: "When a person is close friends with all your once upon a time closest friends but never speaks to you and now you just get to watch all of them..."I beg to differ, but thanks!
I want for you to be fine too! But I don't *need* that so I'm not disappointed if you're feeling bad. It sounds like life, and your mum, are being hard on you :(
Alia ~mostly inactive for now~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Alia ~mostly inactive for now~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: "When a person is close friends with all your once upon a time closest friends but never speaks to you and now you just get to wa...":)
Uhhh I don't know..... I just wish I would cease to exist or something.
Hey I'm leaving! Please don't worry about me!
Hallie wrote: "Alia ~mostly inactive for now~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Alia ~mostly inactive for now~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: "When a person is close friends with all your once upon a time closest friends but never s..."Pouring all my strength into you. You are such a precious human being. Yes, I think almost all human beings are precious but you even more so. <3
Hallie wrote: "Alright people, how long should I keep living my pathetic life for someone else? I'm sick of doing that for 17 years already. The very thought of continuing to live for the sake of someone else is ..."Try 17 more. Till then no more debate on this. You are staying.
Alia ~mostly inactive for now~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Alia ~mostly inactive for now~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Alia ~mostly inactive for now~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: "When a person is close friends with all your once upon a time closest frie..."I don't think that's true at all, but thanks :)
Aqsa wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Alright people, how long should I keep living my pathetic life for someone else? I'm sick of doing that for 17 years already. The very thought of continuing to live for the sake of s..."That's what I did with 15. And 16. Neither of those turned out well, and we all know what's going to happen with 17. With all due respect, that's not your decision to make.
No one knows. And least of all you. Maybe you can guess but not really know.
Then why dont you improve it for yourself?
Because I don't want to exist in the story.
It's not worth it Hallie. Dying ain't worth it
I have like seven tests today for which I wasn't about to study and the morning started out really crazy (I'll explain that later), so expect me to be a sarcastic and annoyed bitch right now.
I hope the rest of the day gets by without anymore craziness ☺
Dont be so mad hallie .Everything cant go the only way you want .
Does that mean nothing can go the way I hope?
Not really. Some things do go as you hope. Not most
I hoped I- oh wait, it's not even worth talking about.
Alright I'm gonna assume you're in a bad mood
Books and Food
Today was..... I don't know.... Day was okay, but my mood was off.
The morning was crazy. The bus got stuck in traffic, and the other small vehicle belonging to the same owner managed to somehow squeeze through. I recognized the vehicle pretty quickly because uh I spent most of last year waiting for that one. It was empty and as soon as it approached me, the driver handed me the phone to talk to the owner. He wanted me to show the driver the way and pick up the others and go. This guy doesn't know our route, and I'm not really the best at directions. But I managed to direct him and not leave anyone out, so I guess that's cool. Although one of the girls wouldn't come over even though we kept calling her from inside, so I had to get out and explain the whole situation to her and her mother. I didn't enjoy that part.
As soon as I got out when we reached, I saw the usual vehicle that I switch to everyday also arrive with S2 in it. She had her exam today, and she wanted me to teach her to perform one of the experiments, but we got separated, so we didn't get much time. I hope she did well, though!
I had a lot of tests today, and I wasn't able to study. I didn't even attempt the Physics one, and Chemistry has been postponed to tomorrow. Ugh.... I'm done with life already. During lunch, L suddenly called out my name. I was wearing a top that had the words 'Perfectly Single' on it, so she read that and said, "Hallie, you're perfectly single?" Of course I replied yes! And then was asked, "What? You won't even mingle with me?" K, H2, Iz and M burst out laughing. And Iz made me buy her biscuits from the canteen and thanks to that, I arrived late to Math with a packet of biscuits stuffed in my pocket. I knew I should have worn a hoodie!
The weirdest part of today was the last hour. L and the assistant class rep tried to convince everyone to bunk en mass, but some idiots just couldn't decide. We finally got everyone out and skipped the last English hour. Since our bus would be free only at 2:30, and we had too much time to kill, we were hanging out near the gate, trying to hide from teachers who might question why we weren't in class. At that time, we saw V. L went to her and asked for book recommendations, and when I had just walked over to her, V told her, "It's good that you want to read. I'll give you a list of books that I like." Then she pointed as me and said, "You should ask her. She reads a lot! She always has a book in her hands." Thank you, V! xD
Then we convinced V to come in the bus, but eventually L and I went to the nearby hangout place and ate noodles, French fries and pasta. Without any of our friends in the bus knowing. They would be mad if they got to know, so that's our little secret :) Mum isn't home (Dad is, though, surprisingly), which is why I had both the fries and the pasta.
After going back to the bus, we witness so much drama. Before getting to that, V asked us all for topics that her blog (not exactly hers, but she is one of the writers) could write about. I suggested mental health and she did that she noted it. But that blog is pretty nice. Agh I wish I was part of it too.....
Anyway, so this girl (whose bag we 'threw' and I'm pretty sure I mentioned her a billion times) was talking to some suspicious guys and the bus driver saw that. On seeing the driver, the girl fled, but she had left her bag in the bus when she went to meet them. So the driver stormed back to the bus angrily, demanded us to give us her bag and legit threw it out of the bus. Literally. Just before we left, he brought it back in, but he left the girl and made her walk to catch up to us, and even screwed the shit out of her. I have never seen him this mad at anyone.
On an unrelated note, I think I'm falling sick. So yeah well, gotta die soon!Why do you always end your posts like this, Hallie? Why? Why?
it's personal
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