B.L.’s Comments (group member since Dec 15, 2012)

B.L.’s comments from the A Wild in Colbie group.

(nah, no one else is on here, this thread i mean, so it'll be ok. We'll cross that bridge when we come to it ;) x)

Damien smiles kindly at Kylie for a moment, he imgines all the words he can write about her.

(No carry on here, i've got another rp going on there at the moment and dont want us all to get confused x)

Ever looks back up longingly at Brayden but when her gaze sweeps back to James she winces. James's jaw tightns for a moment before he says "Fuck it, i've had enough of all this screwing around.", he looks directly at Ever, his eyes burn with accusation, "You know you'll regret this, but your doing it anyway. Fine. But when this all goes to shit.....just remember that we ALLsaw it coming". James slams out of the house without another word. James comes back in a moment later and walks purposfully over to them, "One more thing" he says and punches Brayden hard.

Ever opens her eyes, she too had ignored the noise, the feeing of Brayden had consumed her. But looking up into his face now Ever saw his eyes widen, Ever looks behind her at James. She gasps quielty, the hurt and betrayl in James's eyes makes Ever's heart break a little bit.

Soren smiles slightly and follows after Audrey, hoping to move on from his almost mini break down.

(yeah ok x)

Soren nods enthusiastically, "I'd do anything to get to draw you again2 says Soren honestly, glad to have something to focus his mind on already. e can't lose it again, not here, not in front of the first person he's felt even a little bit comfortable in his life.

Soren looks take aback by her kind words, "Talking is for stuations where you have a hope in hell of feeling better. This is not one of those situations....but if you'd like to help, i would really like to draw you again, and for yo to fill my head with anything else, tell me about you" he says. Art clears Sorens mind and her talking would give him something else to fill the space that aren't involving his art.

Soren knows he is being weak. But, ah, the memories, they hurt like a physical pain. All the blood and self loathing. The pain. The pain. The walls are grey. The walls are always grey in his world of mysery. Soren grips hard onto Audrey, he knows he shoudn't, he should be stronger than this. After all the years of sitting in therapy for hours and saying nothing. What was there to say? "I hurt all the time. It never stops", Soren barely realised he has said these things out loud.

Soren can tell Audrey can see something in him. The constant pain of living had gotten easier over the years, but every memory keeps trying to force their way back in. One hits Soren then and he isn't fast enough to stop it.
Soren is in a room. It's dark. There are loud noises coming from outside, some of them sound like car horns, others are....screams. The walls are grey. Soren can smell something foul, but it barely registers. Nothing ever smells of anything, the fumes of left over drugs, blood and general grime fill Sorens nose. It never changes. Soren has been wearing the same clothes for a few days, they are caked with dirt and lack of bathroom visits. The lock on the door keeps Soren in. The walls are grey. Daddy comes in to see Soren. Daddy is carrying an empty syringe. Daddy kneals down in front of Soren and stabs Soren in the leg with the blade. Soren knows by now not to make a sound, that only makes it worse. The walls are grey. But Soren cannot control a wince from escaping, Soren tries to take it back with his eyes. But the mistake has already been made, it is too late. Daddy grabs hold of Soren and digs his fingers hard enough into Soren's shoulder to bruise, the bruises will match the ones that already fill Soren's skin. Soren looks like he's been painted over with blood, cuts and black, blue and yellow bruises. The walls are grey. Soren's big blue eyes force back tears. Daddy hits Soren in the face so hard that Soren blacks out for a few seconds. The punches keep coming and Soren still doesn't make a sound. Some time later Daddy leaves and locks the door behind him. Soren is safe, Daddy keeps him in the room to keep him safe from his mummy, from their friends. Soren lays curled into a ball of never ending pain. Soren's face cries with blood. Soren is 4 years old. The walls are grey
Soren snaps back out of his memory violently and tries not to fall to the floor.

yeah ok x

Damien shakes his head, "People don't know jack shit. All my life i was told i was nothing, that i would never amount to anything and that i was dangerous. For a ong time i believed them, it's when i finally stopped listening to them that i realised what they thought didn't matter, what think of myself is the most important thing. But yes, you do seem like you have a love for life, i hope you never lose that" he says.

Soren considers what Audrey has said for a long moment then he turns his intense and fire blue gaze back on her. "Home for me is my art, it's the one thing thats mine. People can take my freedom,my self esteem, my trust in others, but they can never take away my art, and my passion for my art. It's what makes me, me. Without it i would be an empty shell on the beach just waiting for the sea to take me back" says Soren.

Ever leads Drane all the way to her house, the house looks like a seaside home, which it pretty much is. Ever had always hated it, a her aunt had always hated Ever, so really it was a fine match. But the house is quite pretty. Ever opens the door with her keys and gestures for Drane to go inside.

Damien smiles and pretends to consider the question, "No, your just....outspoken, outgoing" he says.

"My house, i'm only back for the summer, so im staying with my aunt, but luckily she's away on a cruise so we hae an empty house. Follow me yeah" says Ever and shw starts to walk up the beach, gesturing for him to follow.

Damien slows down slightly and laughs when she catches up, "Well it would quite difficult for me to forget he says.

"There aren't many people in my lif i can say that about" says Soren cautiously. Soren made no secret of the fact that having lots of mates was never something he lusted after. Soren was alright by himself, locked away with his art, it had been that way for as long as Soren can remember. But then here is this girl, a beautiful girl that he yearns to draw, it makes him question things he'd never thought about seriously before.

"Because i'm human and i care. You can pretend to be fine all you like, your talking to someone who's lived on their own, and on the streets. So come on" answers Ever firmly.

"Survive this thing with me and i'll write it all out for you.......Forbidden skies/we undo the ties/of blue night freedom inside the kingdom/forever hope within my heart that dies/through your beauty upon the highs/live your life out in your eyes" says Damien with a smile. Damien starts to walk across the beach.