S.E. Isaac's Blog, page 37
November 1, 2017
What the hell do you mean…
…that it’s only Wednesday!?! Ugh! This seems to be a neverending week! However, I am just now realizing today that this week is dragging ass. Hubby flew back to the job site in California, this morning, so I am flying solo as a parent again. I think that’s why I’m now noticing the chaos. LOL
Hopefully, you all had a happy and safe Halloween!
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I had to hang around these monsters ^ ^ ^ ^ (YIKES!) Just kidding…kinda. Overall, the boys were very well behaved and they had a BLAST! I couldn’t have asked for anything more. 
October 27, 2017
A Tough Pill…
It used to be a tough pill to swallow
I used to hang my head down low
I used to hide from the stigma
No one must know
No one will know
That was my motto
As I grew, so did the demons.
They became harder and harder to bare
I have been through, seen and felt things
that I would never wish upon even my greatest of enemies
These demons became too much
Ending it all seemed to be the only way
I was a statistic in so many ways
I needed guidance
How do you ask for guidance
when society sees it as a disease?
I couldn’t ask for guidance
I had to be found
on the kitchen floor
Even after making it through that day
I still tried to hide the demons
I still tried to act like I was normal
I am not normal
I will never be normal
I have just realized that my demons are just that
Demons
Hiding them only makes them grow
Only feeds them the depression, which they seek
My demons have made me who I am
My demons I will not hide
I suffer from what so many others do
I suffer from the revolving empty heart
One minute full of happiness
One minute filled with nothingness
I suffer from depression
It will never go away
It will always be around
It is solely up to me
whether I choose to keep it under lock and key
or share it with the world
for the world to see
I choose to share it
I choose to let others know that
they are not alone
I, too, suffer from depression
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My Time is Yours
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“My Time is Yours” just had a facelift (New cover!) done by Dark Water Covers Premades. As always, I am beyond happy with the results!
This book is one of my babies. It gives the reader a glimpse into the world of autism. What it’s like to be a single mother, struggling to make ends meat, while raising an autistic child. (And, that isn’t even the main character.) This book has laughs, tears of joy, tears of sadness, more laughs, some romance, and by the end your eyes are more open towards the world around you. ❤
Excerpt:
My black heels clicked as I walked down the tile floor towards my office. Everyone who was at their desk quickly put their heads down and pretended to work. Typical response when the boss entered a room. Tina Rodriguez, my bubbly assistant, wasn’t at her desk, as usual. Something was up; I just didn’t know what yet.
Usually, Tina greeted me with a smile and French vanilla cappuccino. She hadn’t missed a day of work in three years. She was one of the few that I could count on. I walked into my office and set my stuff on my desk. Just as I was about to sit down, I noticed smears on my computer screen like someone had tried to wipe something off with their hands. No one was allowed in my office but a select few and those few knew my computer was off limits. My day had already started off bad at the gym and not this. Someone needed to give me answers, now.
All of a sudden, people were running through the hall outside my door and shouting. I headed towards the commotion. Ricky, my new intern, jumped out from behind his desk and in front of me.
“Good morning, boss. Did you do something new with your hair,” he asked grinning.
Ricky was becoming another loyal employee of mine. He was skinny as a rail, tall as a pole, and had the most perfect hair. He claimed it as a Puerto Rican feature which always made me laugh.
“Ricky, what is down that hallway that no one wants me to see,” I asked crossing my arms and grinning. He gave me a look of a little kid caught with his hand in the cookie jar. “Ricky, spill it.”
“Tina’s son is here,” he whispered and quickly covered his mouth with both hands. I didn’t even know Tina had a son. Three years of employment and she kept quiet on having a kid. She didn’t have an ounce of fat on her, so no one would ever guess that she had one.
“Why is he here,” I asked looking around him trying to catch a glimpse of Tina and her son.
“The daycare got shut down this morning and she had nowhere else to take him. Please don’t fire her,” Ricky said giving me the puppy dog look. I couldn’t resist laughing.
“Just help me find them,” I said walking around him with Ricky shadowing me. We found a crowd outside the janitor’s closet.
“Please, Joey, open up for mommy,” Tina said pleading with the kid on the other side of the door. She was in a cute black business suit. She was getting her pants dirty because she was on her knees in front of the door. “Joey, please,” she was almost in tears. Theresa placed a gentle hand on Tina’s back and Tina almost came unglued. She took a deep breath. “Please, Joey.”
“Joey, come on out for your momma,” Theresa said in her down south voice. She was the mother figure to all of the employees. First one to work, last one to leave- besides me. She was African American, in her late fifties, a bit on the heavy side, wore her shoulder-length hair down, and had no problem letting everyone know her opinion; which was one of the many reasons that I loved having her as an employee.
“What seems to be the problem,” I asked startling all of them. Tina quickly stood up and blocked the door.
“Morning, Ms. York. There’s no problem,” Tina said smiling. For a fake smile, it was pretty convincing.
“Is there a meeting inside the closet today,” I asked walking towards them.
“No, ma’am, we are just having a peaceful social gathering, which will be ending shortly,” Theresa said stepping in front of Tina.
“I know about Joey,” I said making their smiles drop.
“I am so sorry, Ms. York. The daycare was shut down when I got there. I panicked and brought him with me. I was hoping to figure something out before you got here,” Tina said speaking a million words per minute.
“And, now, he is inside the janitor closet and won’t come out,” I asked crossing my arms. Tina hesitantly shook her head yes. “I see,” I uncrossed my arms and walked by all of them to the door. “Joey, my name is Layla. Can you do me a big favor,” I asked with the response of silence on the other side of the door, “can you let me in so I can hide too?”
“He’s autistic, Ms. York,” Tina said in a squeaky voice. I wasn’t sure what autism was exactly, but I had read a few articles on the topic. I found the key for the janitor’s closet on my key ring and unlocked the door. I slowly opened the door and a bright-eyed little boy sat in the corner of the closet. I smiled and let Tina inside the door. She quickly ran inside and swooped the boy up into her arms. She began crying. I faced the rest of the employees.
“I do believe there is a desk with the rest of your names on it,” I said raising an eye brow. They quickly went to their desks. I turned and faced Tina, who was hugging Joey like there was no tomorrow. Joey had a head full of curly brown hair, olive colored skin and the brightest brown eyes I’d ever seen, “Tina, follow me,” I said scaring her out of her wits. She slowly nodded and followed me with Joey in her arms. I led them to my office. Once inside, I closed the door and took a seat at my desk. “Have a seat.”
“Thank you, Ms. York,” she said holding back more tears. “I am so sorry for all of this.”
“Are you a single parent, Tina?”
“Unfortunately,” she took a deep breath, “Joey’s dad didn’t want anything to do with him after the diagnoses. I’ve tried dating but no one wants to deal with chaos. We can’t go to normal places, because Joey gets upset with loud noises,” She was nervous and rambling at a thousand words a minute.
“When’s the last time you had a break,” she laughed at my question and kissed Joey’s head. Joey was staring around my office. He found the Newton’s Cradle to be the most fascinating. I gently grabbed one of the balls and released it. Joey got excited and began flailing his arms. I couldn’t help but smile.
“I haven’t had a break in a very long time.”
“Do you have family around here,” I asked staring at Joey.
“No, it’s just Joey and me.”
“What’s your game plan for daycare,” her eyes filled with tears.
“I’m not really sure. I could barely afford the daycare he was in,” she laughed to play off the pain in her heart.
“How long have you been working for me,” I asked looking at her.
“Three years,” she said smiling, “and it has been a wonderful experience,” I began cleaning off my computer screen, “I am again sorry for Joey causing so much trouble this morning.”
“I’m not firing you, Tina,” judging by her face, she was in disbelief.
“You aren’t?”
“No,” I laughed to myself and looked at Joey, who was still watching Newton’s Cradle, “I may not have children, but I understand that life happens.”
“My Time is Yours” Amazon Link
❤ ❤ ❤
October 24, 2017
Too Tired Tuesday
[image error]I stayed up late last night to finish a book & review that I should have had done a few days ago. I had to wait until the boys were in their beds, of course. I kept getting interrupted “Can I get a drink?”, “I’m hungry”, “What time are you going to bed?” so on and so forth.
Needlesstosay I finally finished the book around midnight. The book was a little over 350 pages and I’m a fast reader so that goes to tell you how many times I was interrupted. [image error] But, I got the book finished & left my review this morning on Amazon and GoodReads. (By the way, the book is by Lana Campbell and it’s called Deadly Secrets. If you like vampire romance then you’ll enjoy this book)
Okay. Back to me being a zombie. I had to wake up at 5 o’clock to get my Middle Schooler on the bus. I could have gone back to bed, but I needed to leave that review, so here I am dozing off, waiting to get my elementary schooler up & off to school. I still need to finish my book but have absolutely NO motivation.
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If you have any tips or spare motivation, be sure to send it my way. Please & thank you.
Happy Reading,
S.E.Isaac (Zombie Mom-Author)
October 23, 2017
The Other Side of the Coin
[image error]There is a side to me that not a lot of people get to see. That is not their fault. It is my own fault because I keep that side of me tucked away so people do not see my vulnerable side. I show the superwoman side. I want people to think that I am strong & that I’m not letting my son’s mental disabilities/illnesses get the best to me. But in reality, that is horseshit. (excuse the language)
My son having a dual diagnosis of autism and extreme mood disorder is an absolute nightmare. I recently made the decision to take him off of medication because when we moved we had to jump through a lot of hoops to try to keep him on the ones that worked. Epic fails on the doctors’ here’s parts. They kept changing it, ignoring my calls, I switched providers same issue and my son’s behaviors regressed. He became violent and had another psychotic breakdown. So, yep, I took him off medication.
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Now, I am battling through it until the natural stuff I ordered comes in the mail. Also waiting on the adjustments to the household food items sink into all of us (wasn’t happy about that extra $$$ for gluten free, but it is what it is.). Waiting for the order in the home to come back. I had started working, but due to my son going psycho (before the meds were cut off) & the babysitter calling and/or texting NON-STOP, I quit. I haven’t been able to work since November of 2015. 
October 21, 2017
In love…
I am too excited not to share this on my blog. I have already shared on Facebook and Twitter, so if you’re following me there, you probably have already seen it :-p
My author logo that was created by the Amazing “Dark Water Covers Premades”. I absolutely love this company!! The owner is super awesome and so creative.
Without further ado, here is my new look:
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If you’re looking to create your own image, seriously DWCP is amazing and affordable. Here is their link Dark Water Covers Premades
To find me on Facebook and Twitter:
Have any of you read any good books, lately? Seen any good movies? I watched Wonderwoman (such a long movie. I’d give it 4 stars)….I also just watched Transformers (the last one). I’d give that one 4 stars, as well. Have you guys seen these movies? What are your thoughts?
Happy Reading!
S.E.Isaac
❤ ❤ ❤
October 20, 2017
Don’t jack my swag!
Just kidding. My swag is for all of you. I am excited about the order I placed, it should be shipping soon. Hopefully, those of you, who would like to swag, love it as much as I do. I was going to wait and leave it as a surprise, but I’m too excited and want to share at least one of the items!!!! (squeal)
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How amazing is that? Fellas, don’t hate! LOL Speaking of which, fellas & some ladies, what kind of swag interests you. I have a cover with a sexy woman on it. What kind of swag would you want to have? (The woman is not an option. Sorry. Ha.) I really would like input. I’m stepping up my author game and ready to take it to the next level. (To infinity and beyond!)
Happy Reading!
S.E.Isaac
To shop for your own swag, please, visit and show some love to ‘Swag by Nana’. Facebook Link for Swag by NaNa
Need a cover or author logo designed? Then you want to head over to “Dark Water Covers Premade Group”. The owner is the one who did the cover for “Out on a Limb”. She has done a few for me. I won’t go to anyone else, ever again!
October 19, 2017
Who has two thumbs and made an oops?
THIS GIRL!!!!
I guess I was so excited for the Cover Reveal that I switched the date of my reveal! (HA) I am NOT the 20th. I AM the 22nd @ 5PM CDT! That is this Sunday!!! I’m still super excited, just laughing my ass off at the fact I’ve been so excited and telling the world that my reveal was the 20th. (doh!)
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Hope to see you all there on October 22nd @ 5PM CDT to see my reveal.
October 18, 2017
Now. Now. Let’s be fair
Recently, Huffington Post wrote about Chicago and how it was voted #1 rattiest city in the United States by Orkin, for the 3rd year in a row. I have something to say about this. I’m sure Master Splinter would agree. Chicago is the headquarters for rat senseis. When they are seen, they are just trying to find their teenaged children (turtles), who have gone off to fight crime against their father’s orders. It is the teenaged children (turtles), who are to blame for the rat senseis being seen. If they were to listen to their fathers, then no one would know of the rat senseis. They would remain in their dojos or at the local pizza joint trying to get his children some food.
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If you’d like to read the actual article about the rattiest city in the United States here is the link: Rat Link
All treats, No tricks
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Halloween is just around the corner. Are you ready for some treats? No ghosts or goblins, here, in this book, but there is plenty of heat & sweat.
$0.99 read. Available now on Amazon. 18+ readers.
#yourewelcome
