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Journey to Confidence

dear july, you are a month of abundance, of healing, and breakthrough. you may come with challenges, but you will teach me strategy. you will gift me with good and show me new ways to serve. thank you in advance. Iman Europe
July is the month of Confidence.

Dear Self. As you enter this new month of this incredible year, summon all of your courage.

This here time calls for it.

I anticipate that there will be more shifts coming, More decisions to be made on who will remain in your tribe & how much of what you believed was true was really false. More choices on what is truly important as one who's crown was paid for by blood sweat tears & death.
Suit up.
You will be held accountable for all of your actions.
You got this!
Let's do this.

Confidence to speak the truth Confidence to live the truth Confidence to take a stand Confidence to trust Self Confidence to Show Up Confidence to Listen Confidence to Empathise Confidence to Learn Confidence to Share Confidence to Love Confidence to Serve

Peace

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Transformation starts with a Decision

Transfiguration is all about becoming something new, on all levels. Day after day, you'll feel yourself changing. At times, with no one present to witness your growth, it just happens. Like a tree releasing a leaf, you simply let go of what no longer serves you . Lalah Delia
I look at my life now and sometimes it surprises me. The life that I led a few years ago seems so completely removed from where I stand now. It really is true that change is the only constant.
In hindsight, what I have learnt is that transformation is a decision. I decided that I wanted to live a peaceful life.
That was the start. I wanted to live in peace. to stop overthinking, over analyzing, looking for proof that I was doing the right thing, that I was making the best decisions. All of those thoughts felt like a war in my head.
Thedecision to live in peace led me to another decision, I wanted to live in love and service. How that was to happen I had zero clue! I decided and showed up with an open mind and a willing spirit.
There is no mystery in transformation, only an intention, a committment and a firm recognition that change is desired.Let me tell you, it was challenging because many times the decisions made during this transformation went completely against the status quo or what was considered normal.Leaving a "good job", selling assets, traveling to new places, and the list goes on and on seemed to people that cared about me that my own transformation was one of going from sane to insane.
My life was based on applying a formula that did not work for me. The habitual pattern was self sabotaging. I was scared to delve into the unknown.Transforming was a decision.As with every way forward, it starts with a firm belief and a choice.Once the decision is made, press on with committment, persistence and determination and watch how it all transforms
Peace

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Focus

Focus on the Problem, Not the Distractions  Jason Wilson
There are many distractions along the path, it takes determination to fool proof the distractions.
In arriving at our vision, even in just  our living, there are so many matters that can throw us off focus.There are so many detours and distractions on this journey to our best selves. 
They come in many forms. 
I  think about myself sitting down daily  to write. I find myself  instead of focusing on writing, on Facebook, Youtube, reading interesting articles. Time passes and I am beating on myself for wasting time when I was scheduled to be writing - Distractions
Distractions can occur with so many other activities - Take savings for exampleMy saving goals are distracted by shopping, paying for holidays, impulse purchases and so onYou get the picture? Focus can be a challenge.
I have learnt that consistent action and discipline takes me to a place of achieving the visionMany times I am distracted, with the lesson of being compassionate to self and re-igniting my discipline and committement. Rest is also essential in keeping focused. A tired mind and body is challenging to bring to a point of focus. 
I would switch up Mr Wilson's statement to focus on the vision and solutions rather than on the distractions
Peace

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Who Are You Becoming?

So much of what we do is unconscious. Buddha Blunted
 throw back to the time I spent in Kapchorwa Eastern Uganda near Mt Eligon close to the Kenyan border. Did not even have a camera only the ole faithful Blackberry at that time. Learnt so much about myself here. I give thanks daily for the time spent with some of the wisest women I have ever met.
I remember writing in my journal everyday
What did I learn today?
This particular day I wrote that
On the way to accomplishment you have to become something.
At our meeting on Saturday she asked me “so who are you becoming since being here?” What?
Breathe that in for a moment before you respond!
Accomplishment & getting things are great, but when you fulfil what’s inside of you, your potential that right there is the paradise!
Your worth is not in what you try to be or in what you pretend to be.
Your great value is in who you are. Madam, who are you becoming? By now I thought I better answer or face the consequence.
Well I never considered who I was becoming I am just here doing & learning & growing!
For what? For who? Madam?
When I finally answered....
I am becoming authentic, real, joyous, spiritual & courageous.
She stood up & shouted big big clap for Madam.
Peace

What Is Your Money Story?

Abundance is more of a function of your self-worth than your net-worth - Juliana ParkWith "The Rona" having come into our lives in a way that caused so many of us to pause and be still, I could no longer run, hide or busy myself out of many of the issues facing me that had to be faced. Confessions on the Journey, many of the fears that I hold came to the fore. A combination of the uncertainty of the time and exposure to the fact that life in this form is a gift limited by our last breath raised all sorts of questions in my head.Many of those questions looped back to having enough, being enough and what would happen if....Many of those questions led back to money and my ability or might I say the lack of ability to earn an income before the pandemic was upon us.Because then international borders have been closed, many of the opportunities that I would normally have were no longer present, with gatherings and graduations off, this was another source of income which was also gone. 
I convinced myself that I would be okay, that this too shall pass. Things would return to normal and I would resume my living, pre "Rona".As the time ticked by, and my rainy day funds were being used up, I started panicking, I started becoming frustrated and acting out of fear and frustration.
I decided to sit in the feelings and pay attention to them rather than gloss over it with positive sayings only which in hindsight,a method of denial.
The lessons from sitting in my feelings revealed that I have been replaying my money story.What is a money story?A money story is the narrative you have internalised based on how and what you were told and taught about money growing up.
If  you were told repeatedly as a child - there is not enough money- you will more than likely create a story about money never being enough.If you were told and shown as a child that having money is evil, your money story will revolve around money being evil and  your actions will reflect such.So, my money story was that money is scarce and we can never have enough. This money story has come up in so many ways in my life:
1. Undervaluing my self - not asking for what I want, taking lower pay due to fear2. Financial Irresponsibility - spending until the money is done, over spending and waiting for the next set of money to come in3. Giving away my services for free when it jeopardised my living.4. The inability to receive - because it signaled that I was irresponsible and not handling myself and my money.5. Fear of Going Broke.
When I recignised that my money story was playing out, I decided that I must absolutely change this story based on not enoughness and lack.
How can I change the story to reflect that I am enough?The fundamental shift came when I realised that money is only one form of abundance, that the source of abundance is endless.  Abundance can come in so many different ways.I recognised that  guilt free receiving is part of change of the story, as wellas, educating myself on abundance and on money. That money is not finite, it reflects a mindset and an energy. Money is form of exchange and if I start from a place of believing that I have nothing much to exchange, this will reflect in my reality.
People pay me for my concept of MY value and worth, for my time, for my training. If I am not comfortable with my own value and worth, it will be very diffiicult for others to value me.Be prepared to say no, to take risks, to believe because the Universe will take you at your wirth and mirror it back to you.
I am chaning my money story by changing my mindset.
Peace

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What Do You Do with the Old Programs in your Head?

“ Be humble and ready to fumble.” Erika Hines
The Universe is always providing us with information, opportunities, knowlwedge and guides. All day, every day, life will provide us with the signs and guidance needed to navigate through where we are to our highest self.When I remember this, it allows me to loosen the resistance to situations that I preceive as negative or nonesense.
The other lesson that I have been recalling is - show up with love and in love.This means, rather that be resentlful of the situation, find some love in yourself whilst in the moment. I have been practising this with simple activities this week such as traffic. Initially I would express my annoyance with what we call in Trinidad and Tobago a steups. A sound made from kissing our teeth. Then I would bemoan about the cars on the road and ask myself where are all these people going - as if I am not going somewhere as well!
Now, I am practising to ask- what would keep me peaceful? It is music, so I turn on the music and have a jam party in the traffic. I sing, dance and smile. My peace returns. I deduced that if I practice with the small things when I am in other spaces with higher stakes I can take the opportunity to switch my thinking and mood.
Showing up in love is really about how you maitain a level of peace so that you can make better decisions when in a tight spot or just because better decisions make for better living.Our default programme kicks in when we are in so called crisis mode or if we believe we must be protected from something. This is were the unlearning comes in.Ask yourself: How can I bring love into this situation as it is now?
Ask Yourself: How am I blocking the opportunities being presented due to fear and unwillingness

and listen well enough to the response from the Universe - who really- has your back!Peace

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I accept Life's Challeges to Grow

Today's lesson came from a reading "Faith in The Valley" The reading resonated with me as I read it as part of my daily spirtual practice that I wanted to share it  with you
Your life has always been a process of growing and outgrowing.You quickly outgrew your clothes as an infant.You outgrew your shoes before you wore them out.You took great pride when you grew beyond that mark on the tree, the door frame, or chart in school.You were happy when you grew through puberty into your adolescent body.However, for  some reason, today it is difficult to accept that you have outgrown a habit, career, relationship, or even hometown.You hold on, afraid to let go, trying to make it work, subjecting yourself to physical, emotional and spiritual pain. This is not a good thing!
If life is going to work in your behalf, you must give yourself permission to grow.It it no longer makes you happy; if you are searching unsuccessfully for way to make it work; if you know in your heart of hearts that whatever it is, it's over - let go and grow.
Be willing to search for new ways to grow.Be open to new environments to work in.Always be on the lookout for people who are growing and willing to help you grow.Never feel bad about your growth.Some people will not support you.Others will try to make you feel bad.You might be afraid.You might even experience some painKnow that it is all part of growing and growing up.If you need a little taste of the pain will create when you do not allow yourself to grow, stick your feet in the shoes you wore to your high school promPeace

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Simply Ask - What Am I To Learn From This?

I have said often to you that you cannot truly make a wrong turn, and no one has ever made a wrong turn in their journey. How could this be possible in the Field of Pure Love that is God? And only Love is Real. You have merely allowed yourself - as God - to formulate shapes of experience merely to experience it. Every tear that you have cried, every loss that you have felt is yet only God choosing to have the experience. And you have remained eternally free in each moment to choose again. And indeed, you will choose again without end. For there is not a "time" that God will cease to be. For if God could cease to be, then God is not God, for there would need to be a field of energy in which non-being could exist. The Way of Mastery

Two things resonated with me today:

1. No one has even made a wrong turn on their Journey

2. Your resistance comes from believing in the sense of separation - that you are separate and different to others.

The statements above resonated now  as it is  a time when throughout the world there is so much tension, the BLM movement has been gaining momentum - and so it must. The call for the removal of statues of slave traders and formally labeled explorers. The innocent killing of black people and add on top of it all the Corona Virus.

Confessions on the Journey - I feel frustrated, I feel helpless, I feel annoyed. The feelings are directed at people who- to me- are unwilling to respect different views, who refuse to listen and who want to continue the status quo.

As I was feeling the feelings, getting curious about them, I noticed that I wanted people who had different opinions from me to listen, to empathise and to look at the world the way that I did - I waslooking outside of myself, rather than focusing on me and how I can respond to what is in front of me in a way that honours me and brings me peace.

I also felt some guilt on how I did respond to the people in my own circle who shared different views. I was triggered. Then reading that no one has made a wrong turn in their Journey rerouted me to ask the question to self: what am I learning here? What do I need to pay attention to here- about me?

Its simple to me now having asked myself the questions and become aware of what is happening around me that

1. If we look at each other as connected then how we respond will be radically shift. We would think about how would we want to to be treated in this same situation and do that

2. If we know whtat there is no wrong turn the time we take judging self can be used to learn the lesson and put it into practice

Peace

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Allow Me

the most disorienting, uncomfortable feelings can still act as a bridge toward clarity and expansion. Serene

Allow me to accept on the days when my courage isn’t roaring that it is simply lying dormant waiting to rise again.
Allow me to accept that curiosity never killed any cat.
Allow me to accept that needing people is not the same as being needy.

Allow me to accept that letting go is easier said than done at times, but regardless of how I feel about it & the time it takes me to release, it’s already done.
Allow me to accept that the world attaches labels & I don’t have to print them off and wear them.
Allow me to accept that by not suppressing who I am I may upset & disappoint others, this is none of my business

Allow me to accept that weariness and tiredness isn’t a sign of weaknesses but needs attending to with love.

Allow me to accept and release my judgements of the world, especially when I’m on Social Media.Peace

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Evolution is a beautiful process

Evolution is a beautiful process that we, as human beings on this planet and in this universe, can't escape. We're continually growing every moment of our lives.

There are many layers to evolution, whether it be individually, collectively, or planetary. Lalah Delia

Our lives reflect back to us how we have evolved.

Our lives reflects our evolution through the activities that we no longer are passionate about being involved in and the ones that we are now wanting to get involved in.

We see the evolution in the friends and family who become more of a part of our lives and those that fall off. Our actions continue to reflect our evolution even when we consciously or unconsciously deny it.

There is no denying or escaping or running from change.

Change simply cannot be denied, so if we know that why do we fight change, why do we fight to control the way things change.

Evolution is a beautiful process according to Lalah Delia. If we are to pay attention to what happens in the change, there is a lesson, there is a beauty, there are revelations. We miss it when the process is steeped in fear and control.

The world is changing, for us to see the beauty through the noise we have to be present with non judgement and letting go of control.In getting to this plaace, there are also lessons. Whatever we do there is a lesson and a process which is useful.

So, I have been learning in my evolution, in this evolution happening to be present, to be willing, to feel and to let go.

and on the other side of pain it has been beautiful.

Peace

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