Colleen Brown's Blog, page 269

I went to an art museum today. My first time going to an art museum. It was so beautiful. Around 7...

I went to an art museum today. My first time going to an art museum. It was so beautiful. Around 7 P.M. they started a tour of the gallery. Stationed at certain paintings were a poet. One of those poets was my poetry professor. The poets decided on which piece of art they enjoyed and connected with most, and they wrote and read a poem out loud about it. It was so beautiful, and so freeing. Just seeing the emotions in their eyes, and the sounds of devotion coming from their mouth, well that was just extremely inspiring.

i miss nyc so much i feel as if i am deteriorating on the...

i miss nyc so much i feel as if i am  deteriorating on the inside

She isn’t allowed to speak,even a faint murmurwould dissolve her memory.She was made to...

She isn’t allowed to speak,
even a faint murmur
would dissolve her memory.
She was made to stay 
silent; open your mouth
to those who only ask
for your words. Her
skin is starting to
deteriorate; her bones are
only as dense as her
thoughts. She belongs to
no one but the night.
But there are those
who still try to
figure out her language.
This is what she calls
the art of disappearing.
And she has it down 
to a tee.

I’ve been watching Grey’s Anatomy for 5 hours. I didn’t even think that I would...

I’ve been watching Grey’s Anatomy for 5 hours. I didn’t even think that I would like this show, but now I’m in love.

Do you think it's possible to love someone you've never met? Someone you've talked to for an extended amount of time.. Someone who makes me happy to be alive? Does our lack of proximity make these feelings invalid?

Nope. Never. You can love someone who is miles away, and it doesn’t make that love not strong. I’ve loved and love people I’ve never met, and most likely never will. It doesn’t make me weak, or strange, or indifferent. I’ve met people who are married and who see each other all day, everyday, and they hate each other. It does not matter about distance. It just matters about commitment, and what you would and will do for that person. And what that person will do for you. Love is not about seeing each other all the time. It’s about cherishing the time you have spent together, or will spend together. Never let someone tell you that your love is invalid because you haven’t met that person. Because hey, at least you have felt that love, or feel that love. And that’s stronger than anything that I’ve ever known.

You said that younever loved meto begin with,and if that’s the whole truth then why did...

You said that you

never loved me

to begin with,

and if that’s

the whole truth

then why did you

stay by my side

through the moments

where you could have

just walked away.

It’s getting harderto live in this townthat is stainedby your touch,and soakedin your...

It’s getting harder

to live in this town

that is stained

by your touch,

and soaked

in your memory.

I hate that I can’t live through an entire day without thinking about you. I hate that when I...

I hate that I can’t live through an entire day without thinking about you. I hate that when I do think about you my stomach hurts worse than my heart. I hate that you show up to the places that we used to go to when we were together. I hate that I see you when I finally feel as if I’m over you. I hate that you don’t even care that you make me feel this way. I hate that even after all the time we spent together, all the places we went together, and all the memories we created together, you still feel as though I am better off without you, and you without me.

I was still in love with him when I was making love to you.

I was still in love with him when I was making love to you.

I love you forbeing able to seeme through the times where Icouldn’t evensee myself.

I love you for
being able to see
me through 
the times where I
couldn’t even
see myself.