Colleen Brown's Blog, page 273

It’s always good in the beginning.That’s how they trick you.They let you believe that...

It’s always good in the beginning.
That’s how they trick you.
They let you believe that everything
is going to turn out to be lovely,
and you always end up
being even more broken
than you were before you knew
exactly what love felt like.

They said that shehad been the mostbeautiful womanthey had ever seen.Even in the wayher lips...

They said that she
had been the most
beautiful woman
they had ever seen.
Even in the way
her lips moved
with such spite,
made you cringe
with excitement
at the very thought
of becoming
her next victim.

high & seeking

high & seeking

I should haveknown better;loving youwasn’t worth all thatwasted time.

I should have

known better;

loving you

wasn’t worth

all that

wasted time.

Knowing someone hurt my best friends heart makes me so mad. I am shaking right now.

Knowing someone hurt my best friends heart makes me so mad. I am shaking right now.

I was not the first one to love you,but I will be the only personwho will ever be able to love...

I was not the first one to love you,
but I will be the only person
who will ever be able to love you
just as much as you deserve.
And I think that’s something
that’s worth fighting for.

Whenever I want to find you, I travel to the place that we...

Whenever I want to
find you, I travel
to the place
that we first
fell in love.
And even if you aren’t
actually there,
I can still somehow
feel you with me.

I wish that youcould feel what I feel,because then you could saythat it wasn’tthat easyletting...

I wish that you
could feel 
what I feel,
because then
you could say
that it wasn’t
that easy
letting you go.

What you should know.

Just because we no longer speak, does not mean that I no longer think of you. Your memory is the first thing that appears on my mind when I wake up, and shake the feeling off that the only way I’ll ever be able to touch you again is in my dreams.

When I go out on dates, I am wishing that your hand is the one that I am holding; entering the bar and showing everyone who is around that you are the one I decided on. That you are the one that I have under my spell tonight. So when you hear about me going out, always know that I still somehow feel you slip your hand inside of mine. Rather than the stranger that I am with just to pass the time by.

I didn’t mean to say that I no longer love you. What I meant to say is that with each time you leave, my love lusts for the chase, and will sooner or later leave me behind with nothing to feel anymore, besides loneliness. So when I say that I am better off without you, know that what I mean is that I am better off not existing at all unless you’re with me.

Our love will never fade. So it doesn’t matter how many times we wish it away from us, because it will never completely disintegrate. 

Whenever I think of youmy stomach turns itselfinto knots, and I amnot strong enoughto undo what has...

Whenever I think of you
my stomach turns itself
into knots, and I am
not strong enough
to undo what has already
been done. Telling you
beautiful words won’t
change your mind,
and even if love
has something to do
with it, I know that you
will never be able
to forgive what I know
will never be forgotten.