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Willingly

     Mathew
pulled me back without even a struggle from me. I had gone willingly into his
arms. Thoughts of him flooded my mind all the way home. Our history was so
complicated and messy. I tried to untangle my feelings for Mathew from around
my heart. 



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Derail him

      He looked
into my eyes not saying a word, until I had to glance away. When I looked back
he was still watching me. His gaze slipped down to my breasts quickly and then
back up again. This time I smiled, which didn’t seem to derail him at all. Wow,
he was good looking. I took a deep breath and tried to slow my
heart back down.




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Spring + 14

Spring has arrived per the calender, but yesterday we got 14 new inches of snow--good spring skiing I suppose.



Children's picture book about skiing and snowboarding.



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Annoyed

        Linda annoyed her sometimes. Her life appeared
to be under control and she seemed happy, content. Toni wondered who really liked
their husband after twenty-something years together. She knew women who put up
with them, stayed for the money, the children, or some other reason, but not
many she knew called them their best friend. 



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It happened

            “Mathew,”
I said when I couldn’t stand our tip toeing around it anymore.

            “Morgan don’t. Don’t,” he said
softly.

            “Don’t what?” I asked.

            He didn’t answer. His silence made me angry.

            “Pretend to understand it?” I
started. “Pretend it didn’t happen? Pretend you lived up to our agreement? I
don’t want to pretend Mathew, it happened, we were there. It was right, even if it
was just for that moment so be it.
I can live with that
more than acting like it didn’t happen at all,” I said caustically.

            He
let my angry words hang for a moment.                               

            “That was a mouth full,” he said.

            I stared at him and waited.

            “You’re a great kisser and you have
really nice tits,” he finally said.

            I grabbed his pillow and whacked him
in the head.

            “You are such a fucker,” I said,
after I hit him several times. “You promised.” 




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Afraid to "try"

“I seem to be attracted to men who want to
control me. And its Mathew Mom, you know what a player he is, I’m afraid he
wouldn’t give that up, maybe initially, but not permanently. Shit, I don’t know,”
I said.
            Mom painfully
listened to me wrangle with my feelings. As a mother I realized it was hard for
her to watch, or to coach. When I finally decided I couldn’t take Mathew up on
his offer to “try and make it work”, she listened to me cry. As much as I wanted
to give it a shot, Max had taught me something about going backwards. I was too
afraid to just “try”. 



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Not that girl

         “Max and I fell apart when I moved to Park City,
we just didn’t know it.  I thought
leaving would end it, and suddenly he realized I was important to him.  His change of heart confused me so I gave
in.  When I came home we tried to pretend
it didn’t happen, us being apart, or I guess he did.  I had changed though.  I sort of grew into myself while I was in Park
City.  He didn’t like my
independence.  He wanted the girl that I
was before, and I wasn’t that girl anymore."

Intruder

            I was
out early the next morning.  Mathew was
apparently still asleep.  He was doing
gigs with the band at night, sleeping late.  Two nights passed and I had yet to see him.  The memories were weighing heavy on me.  I remembered the last time I'd slept in this
room, not even seven months ago.  Maybe
he was avoiding me because of Ben.  I went
into his room more than once.  It smelled
like him.  I’d picked up his guitar
running my fingers along the strings.  Sara caught me once standing in the middle of
the room.

            “Morgan,” she said.

            Her voice made me jump and I turned to look at her.

            “Hey-” I said feeling like an
intruder.

            I stopped realizing anything I said
would sound stupid.

            “It’s okay,” she said.  “I don’t think he would mind.” 





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Diamond in the rough

          He
was handsome. Tall, short dark hair, brown eyes, nice athletic body, and young.
She could imagine him with his shirt off, like the male cologne models. Tight
abs, not much hair on his chest, jeans slung low, sexy expression. He finished
stirring the fire and smiled at Rachel. Yum,
a sort of diamond in the rough, she thought. She took a sip of her martini
and caught Toni’s eye. Toni had a smile on her face that reminded her of the
Cheshire cat from Alice in Wonderland.
Rachel gave her a tight-lipped smile.

            “Can’t help looking,” she whispered.

            “He smells money,” Toni said softly.

            “Really, you think that’s all he
smells?” Rachel asked.






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Change

I realized in my analogy that something needed
to change, had to change.  For the first
time, I was questioning our relationship. 
Was this really what it was supposed to be like?  I found it curious he hadn’t said something
like “of course I still love you” when I asked the question.  Instead he called it a silly question.  Was this what love looked like?









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