Afraid to "try"

“I seem to be attracted to men who want to
control me. And its Mathew Mom, you know what a player he is, I’m afraid he
wouldn’t give that up, maybe initially, but not permanently. Shit, I don’t know,”
I said.
            Mom painfully
listened to me wrangle with my feelings. As a mother I realized it was hard for
her to watch, or to coach. When I finally decided I couldn’t take Mathew up on
his offer to “try and make it work”, she listened to me cry. As much as I wanted
to give it a shot, Max had taught me something about going backwards. I was too
afraid to just “try”. 



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