Page Turner's Blog, page 52
July 27, 2020
Refusing to Apologize for Your Mistakes Paradoxically Makes You Seem More Flawed
We meet up to have coffee after a difficult evening. It was our first fight as friends. Looking back at it with a cooler head and a bit of distance, I can see where we both messed up. The miscommunication is glaring me in the face. Obvious now that I’m calmer.
I see what I got wrong. » Read more
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July 26, 2020
I Wonder When I’ll Fully Trust Myself Again
Like a lot of other people, I’ve been having a rough spring and summer. There’s the pandemic of course, making an inescapable impact across America.
But I had a big personal challenge in late April when my father passed away. Grieving is never easy, and I’ve found that it’s doubly difficult during the pandemic, » Read more
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July 25, 2020
Thank You for Giving Me a Chance
When I met you, my life was a mess. One giant mess. I know now that the problem was that I was an easy mark, someone that manipulative people could identify would easily give them what they wanted.
So I was never alone but surrounded by people who were demanding more and more of me. » Read more
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July 24, 2020
If My Cat Can Adjust So Quickly to the New Normal, Then So Can I
We’re up early for the weekend. My husband has some errands to run, ones that are better done in the morning. But before he does, he wants to give our cat his insulin.
This is only the second day we’re doing this, pricking the cat’s ear with a lancet and getting a tiny drop of blood for the glucometer. » Read more
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July 23, 2020
There Are No Shortcuts When It Comes to Truly Getting Through the Pain
I have a couple of prayer cards from my father’s service in my home. One of my sisters scooped them up for me, from the wake in Maine, and mailed them to me in Texas. They have Psalm 23 printed on them. You know… “The lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.”
Right there underneath his photograph and his birth and death dates. » Read more
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July 22, 2020
There Are Many Different Ways to Be Tough and Resilient
Someone close to you has died.
No, they are not alive somewhere else.
No, they are not coming back.
No, it doesn’t make any fucking sense.
No, they are not in the next room reading a book or doing the dishes.
No matter how much you want to believe they are coming back, » Read more
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July 21, 2020
“I’ve Had Enough of This Group, I Quit! And Here’s Why,” Said the Ragequitter.
“Why I’m Quitting This Group and What You Need to Change,” the subject line reads. It’s a post on the forums of an organization where I’m a member. I can see there are already 40 replies.
I probably shouldn’t smile, but I do. I already know before I click into the post what it’s going to say, » Read more
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July 20, 2020
I Struggle to Not Worry More than My Fair Share
A few days ago, I posted about my elderly cat, who recently fell ill. After a round of lab work, he was newly diagnosed with diabetes and admitted to the animal hospital.
It wasn’t easy to do, driving away, leaving him behind. Just like any time that I have to get him seen, » Read more
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July 19, 2020
Waiting for News Is Worse Than Hearing Bad News
I’ve always hated waiting for news. Especially when things are up in the air, and it could honestly go one way or the other.
I honestly preferring hearing the bad news to the waiting. Because at least when I’ve heard the bad news, then I know. And I can start processing it. Start coping. » Read more
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July 18, 2020
The Week That Everyone Gave Me Unsolicited, Condescending Advice
I don’t know what was up with people last week. Seriously.
I’m a very patient person, generally speaking. Even keel. A lot just rolls off my back. I try not to let things get to me.
But every now and then, there are these weeks when it seems like there’s a hidden theme. » Read more
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