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the only right way to shop for clothes is the andrew way of pulling them off the hangers as you go through the racks

i need a break that was so intense i-

so it's a RIVALRY enemies to LOVERS it's THAT okay ALRIGHT

the raven game is in this chapter and i just know im gonna lose it

again, like, too much to unpack. neil's terrified of women and the only positive emotion he can feel for them is respect. and then there's andrew. now i just have to admit, we are all fools (at least from what i see in fandom): neil is perfectly aware of what he's feeling for andrew. on this very page he says it. like. how's nobody talking about that

"okay." "can i study now?" i know this is literally my reaction to that kind of conversations irl but bitchkgjfhzhhxfjc

nicky's girls-sexuality-soft-exy's-not-enough speech is absolutely beautiful. i cannot even imagine the full extent of his initial candid reaction when he found out how neil ended up

when i started this reread i jokingly said i might end up writing research and academic papers about aftg unpacking it page by page. now i don't really think it's funny

thesis: neil understands. essay: he understands so much. no.1: andrew did what he did because he cared, and nobody else sees that because they don't want to accept it. no.2: aaron misses his abusive mother because that's just how it be sometimes. conclusion: i don't really have much to say except that neil Understands

sometimes i lie awake at night thinking abt how andrew behaved himself in juvie so he could be released early & get rid of their mother so that she stopped abusing aaron and it just gets to me man

neil josten is a brat, an arrogant asshole, and a bitch thriving off other people's drama. everybody is in love with him

"...his teammates hoarded these insights like gold" i am SUCH a soft bitch i've been crying nonstop since i started this god damn reread what the fuck

reread is the only way with this series. the amount of information and emotion and meaning packed into every single page is fucking immense and there's no way to pick up on all of it on the first take

"[kevin] will give [andrew] something to build his life around" we don't have the time to unpack All of that,

WILL YOU STILL TEACH ME
EVERY NIGHT

F U C JK

yk "the moment you stop being a rabbit" quote in tfc? this. this page truly is the moment when neil makes a final decision to stay and be neil josten until the very bloody brutal end. this is it and i for one am shaking!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thinking abt neil in perfect court makes me so sad and sick and i'm grateful it's just a parallel aftg universe and not the current one

"you want to tell me why you have a hard-on for antagonizing riko?" happy fathers day to coach david wymack only

so far the stories are compulsively readable, if nothing else. thrilling and suspensful. i wouldn't have fun analyzing them because i think that'd be too easy, but they're just right for a quck pleasant read.

me: this is my favourite series and i will never stop loving it ever. best books ever written

also me, a year later: fucking End me. spare me the pain of reading this. what choices led me to this. why do i choose anxiety bc of fiction over real peaceful life. whomst

someone said aftg was a book version of r*verd*le and honestly we gotta admit that the v-formation crushed every argument againts it tgat i could come up with

a comprehensive lists of sports that are Not Exy that neil josten absolutely hates with a burning passion: 1) volleyball,

i am so stressed this book makes me so stressed out how did i survive reading it the first time Holy Shit, ignorance truly is bliss sometimes

You know, i get it. Being raised as a superstar must be really, really diffcult for you. Always a commodity, never a human being, not a single person in your family thinking you're worth a damn off the court - yeah, sounds rough. Kevin and I talk about your intricate and endless daddy issues all the time. I know it's not entirely your fault that you are mentally unbalanced and infected with these delusions of grandeu

"hey, jean. jean valjean. hey. hey. hello." not only is andrew a comedic genius, he is also a cultured one. a legend

neil's exy court gatekeeping is both endearing and hilarious

do i approve of kevin's coping mechanisms and wymack's encouragement of them? no. but do i respect wymack's philosophy "do whatever you gotta to get by"? yes absolutely i do

"kevin claimed [neil] had something andrew wanted. ... it had to be something big" UM IDK A HUGE CRUSH MAYHAPS🤔😪😓

btw nicky is, perhaps, a genius. spamming neil really is the only way to do it

the entire neil-gets-a-phone ordeal legit makes me WEEP