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[Hershey]

Mrunal wrote: "AAAAASSSSHHHHHIIIIII"

MRRUUUUNAAAAAAAALLLLLLLLL

[Mrunal]

Aashi wrote: "Mrunal wrote: "Aashi wrote: "Did you have breakfast and lunch separately?"

No"

Why not? Was has breakfast done anything to offend you?"


Nothing.

[Mrunal]

Aashi wrote: "Mrunal wrote: "Aashi wrote: "Are you exercising?"

Not exactly, but yeah kinda"

Jogging? Walking? What?"

....

[Mrunal]

Aashi wrote: "Mrunal wrote: "Aashi wrote: "Are you getting enough vitamin d?"

I'm getting enough sun"

Define ‘enough’"

I stay out of my house a lot

[Hershey]

Mrunal wrote: "Aashi wrote: "Mrunal wrote: "Aashi wrote: "Did you have breakfast and lunch separately?"

No"

Why not? Was has breakfast done anything to offend you?"


Nothing."

Then WHYYYY

[Hershey]

Mrunal wrote: "Aashi wrote: "Mrunal wrote: "Aashi wrote: "Are you exercising?"

Not exactly, but yeah kinda"

Jogging? Walking? What?"

...."

W.H.A.T?

[Hershey]

Mrunal wrote: "Aashi wrote: "Mrunal wrote: "Aashi wrote: "Are you getting enough vitamin d?"

I'm getting enough sun"

Define ‘enough’"

I stay out of my house a lot"

That’s a relief. Kinda.

[ananya ྀི]

MRUNALLLLLLLL

[Mrunal]

Ananya ♡ wrote: "MRUNALLLLLLLL"

ANANYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

[ananya ྀི]

HOW ARE THOU

[[deleted user]]

MRUNALLL

[Mrunal]

Ananya ♡ wrote: "HOW ARE THOU"

GOODETH

[Mrunal]

HOW ART THOU??

[Mrunal]

Navya wrote: "MRUNALLL"

NAVYAAAAAAAA

[Mrunal]

So today I'm going to finish at least one book on my currently reading shelf no matter what.

[Mrunal]

Wish me luck

[Hershey]

May Sankt Milo be with you

[Mrunal]

Update: I COULD NOT FINISH A SINGLE BOOK YESTERDAY 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[raina]

HALLO MRUNALLLLL

[raina]

OH NOOO :(

[Niharika✩]

GIVE IT TIMEEEE I KNOW YOU'LL DO IT!

[ananya ྀི]

Oh nooo Mrunalll don't worry and like Niharika said give it time

[ananya ྀི]

Also try to read those books on audio that's what I do in a reading slump so maybe it'll help

[Amrita]

Mrunal wrote: "Update: I COULD NOT FINISH A SINGLE BOOK YESTERDAY 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭"

And why's that?

[Mrunal]

Niharika✩ wrote: "GIVE IT TIMEEEE I KNOW YOU'LL DO IT!"

Time? How much? How much more time??? I'm going crazy.

[Mrunal]

Ananya ♡ wrote: "Also try to read those books on audio that's what I do in a reading slump so maybe it'll help"

I do not own any audio books and my father is not buying me any for some damned reason.

[Mrunal]

Amrita wrote: "Mrunal wrote: "Update: I COULD NOT FINISH A SINGLE BOOK YESTERDAY 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭"

And why's that?"

I don't know, tbh. I'm trying to figure it out too

[Mrunal]

So I thought about it. I think now I know why I'm stressed about why I am in a reading slump. yk, because I have been in reading slumps before, but this is different. and now I know why.

[Niharika✩]

Mrunal wrote: "So I thought about it. I think now I know why I'm stressed about why I am in a reading slump. yk, because I have been in reading slumps before, but this is different. and now I know why."

why?

[Mrunal]

Reading was one of my hobbies and I joined Goodreads back in December, for the sole purpose of tracking my reading progress and maintaining my tbr. Then I learned about the socializing factor of this website. I met so many people here on goodreads, but I encountered most of them here, in TMR.

Here, I saw so many people who's reviews received likes ranging roughly from 100 to 1000, people being praised for their outstanding reviews, people being popular, people making place in the "best reviewers" list. I wanted to be like them. Now my sole motive of reading books was to write outstanding reviews and become popular. Suddenly, reading books wasn't a hobby anymore. It became a job. I wanted to become popular. I wanted my name to appear in the "Best reviewers" list. But I couldn't do it. My reviews did a bit less than mediocre (and still do) and I fell in a slump. Now, I can't write reviews until I read a book. And I can't read a book because I'm in a slump. Basically, my mind thinks that I can't do my job. And on top of that There are so many people here who joined this much much after I did and they are still the top reviewers. They are doing so much better than me. I mean don't get me wrong, I'm not jealous of you all, I'm just angry that I can do what you all can. I'm really happy that your accounts are growing. I'm sorry. But to my brain you all are not just my friends but also my colleagues who are receiving promotions everyday and I'm still exactly where I started. But maybe I'm not meant for this.

Back when I had newly joined this group, I met some people who had the same problem as I have right now. The found goodreads stressful. I respected their opinions but I couldn't understand why. To me talking to you all was like a stressbuster because my real life friends were either busy studying or trying to become an influencer. I wasn't meant for both. But you guys were some people I could relate to.... until I started writing reviews. TBH, there's nothing wrong with my life. It isn't shit. It's perfect. I'm the one who's ruining it for myself. I'm not jealous of you guys, nor do I hate you. I'm just disappointed in myself.

I've come to realize that anything that becomes "work" looses it's charm for me. As long as it's a hobby, it's magical. I turned one of my hobbies into "work". and I hate it. Before joining goodreads, reading used to be relaxing after a long day of studying and every single adult screaming at me foe no reason. but me being the dumbass I am, converted that relaxing time into more work. I started to read books to critique them, and not to enjoy them. I made a mistake. And one fine day, my brain finally said it. It said, "Bitch this is enough. I'm incapable of doing more work."

I don't know how to correct this mistake. But I want reading to be that relaxing hobby again. I don't know how to do it. But what I for certain know is that, Goodreads is not the answer.

[Mrunal]

I thought taking a hiatus from goodreads might help. I thought all this stress was because life was a bitch. But the actual bitch was Goodreads itself.

[[deleted user]]

even i worrry abt the ranks sometimes and feel bad but then i remember that atleast i try
take care mrunallll <333

[Mrunal]

Nihira (HIATUS) wrote: "even i worrry abt the ranks sometimes and feel bad but then i remember that atleast i try
take care mrunallll <333"

🥺💖💖

[iamaunicornwithyellowfeet]

Take all the time you need Mrunal,and don’t worry, I gave up trying to review books after writing 1 review. Just relax, and try to forget about reviewing and stuff, and come back when you feel comfortable to

[Mrunal]

I think I should really delete my goodreads account. It's not doing me any good.

[Mrunal]

iamaunicornwithyellowfeet wrote: "Take all the time you need Mrunal,and don’t worry, I gave up trying to review books after writing 1 review. Just relax, and try to forget about reviewing and stuff, and come back when you feel comf..."

Gave up on reviewing? and you didn't feel guilty? then why do I? H E L P

[iamaunicornwithyellowfeet]

I guess it’s because I gave up so quickly. My family always call me a quitter whenever I do something like that. I guess it’s because whenever I’m not good at anything straight away I give up *cough cough* burnt out gifted kid *cough cough*

[iamaunicornwithyellowfeet]

DONT FEEL GUILTY, YOU DID NOTHING WRONG

[[deleted user]]

its our own choices
maybe reviewing doesnt work for ypu
dont take preasure its not compulsory
sit back relax and read your book

[[deleted user]]

when i dont read i get stressed too but then i remember i have exams and i shd study
cuz everyone has crossed 50 books and i am reading so slow

[Niharika✩]

Mrunal wrote: "Reading was one of my hobbies and I joined Goodreads back in December, for the sole purpose of tracking my reading progress and maintaining my tbr. Then I learned about the socializing factor of th..."

Don't worry. I lost my weekly rank and I gave up on it. I tried the first few days. But I realised that my reading was lagging. I tried reviewing every damn book but it didn't work out. Me and Aashi used to discuss our ranks every week. When I lost mine, I thought I'd be messaging her next week. I didn't. I just never got it back again. I gave up. It's so much easier to read now. People tell me that I should review books for followers but I know that nothing good will come out of it. Trust me, it's perfect this way. Forget that Goodreads is a reviewing site. Imagine it's a social community site to just track your books. It worked for me and now I just read books for fun like before.

[Nash (all too unwell)]

NO MRUNAAAAAAAAALLLL

PLEASE DO NOT FEEL BAD

its been long since i wrote a proper review. And nearly a month since it dead anything properly. But i did feel a bit guilty. But then i realised the reason i started reading was bcz it helped me relax. But then it became a stress factor for me. SO yea, i get what you're saying.
TBH, i even considered deleting my account many times, but i didn't.
If you need a break, you gotta take it. From reading or reviewing or even both. Reading is our relieving factor and helps us relax. So if its the one that makes u stressed, then take a break darling. Take as long as u want.Pls pls dont feel disappointed in urself. you are such a great friend and I love u from the bottom of my heart.
If u wanna love reading again, just take a break. Read when u want to. DO NOT compel urself like I did. Even if it is one book in a month or none, its ur choice and if it makes u happy u should do that. Read those books only u want to and try not to get into many BRs as it can be very ~pressuring~
Just focus on stuff u want to and never ever feel guilty❤❤❤
Ily so much❤❤

[[deleted user]]

when i got my ranks first i was so proud and then i lost them and started getting stressed and then-

[几ㄖ几丨]

Mrunal wrote: "Reading was one of my hobbies and I joined Goodreads back in December, for the sole purpose of tracking my reading progress and maintaining my tbr. Then I learned about the socializing factor of th..."

It's a lot of stress to feel required to review as many books as you can. I had the exact same problem when I first joined. You see all these insanely popular reviewers who are GR famous and you start to think that your reviews are terrible and you'll never be as good as them.

But nowadays I only review the books I really want to review because trying to review the ones I don't stresses me out. If you think you need it, you can take some time away from GR and just read whatever you want for fun. You don't need to review anything. And if you do want to review, you can just write about your favorite character and nothing else or just write a single sentence that says whether you liked it or not.

[Niharika✩]

Nihira (HIATUS) wrote: "when i got my ranks first i was so proud and then i lost them and started getting stressed and then-"

ikr-

[ananya ྀི]

Mrunal wrote: "Reading was one of my hobbies and I joined Goodreads back in December, for the sole purpose of tracking my reading progress and maintaining my tbr. Then I learned about the socializing factor of th..."

I always say this reading isn't a chore, it's just a thing for relaxing. And Mrunal don't feel guilty for not writing reviews or reading books in order to write reviews. Since you're in a reading slump rn just relax and don't force yourself to read

[ananya ྀི]

If goodreads is not it for you then just leave it be for a while and continue with storygraph since it doesn't any of those ranks or anything

[Mrunal]

iamaunicornwithyellowfeet wrote: "I guess it’s because I gave up so quickly. My family always call me a quitter whenever I do something like that. I guess it’s because whenever I’m not good at anything straight away I give up *coug..."

No, you're not a quitter. You're amazing! And you're a fantastic friend! You'll definitely find something that just fits. Thankyou ❤️

[Mrunal]

Nihira (HIATUS) wrote: "its our own choices
maybe reviewing doesnt work for ypu
dont take preasure its not compulsory
sit back relax and read your book"

That's exactly what I'm thinking.

[Mrunal]

Nihira (HIATUS) wrote: "when i dont read i get stressed too but then i remember i have exams and i shd study
cuz everyone has crossed 50 books and i am reading so slow"

EXAMS SUCK 😡😡🤬🤬🔥🔥