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⌇вяσкєη ωιη∂σωs, sтαιηє∂ glαss sкιη⌇
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Oct 19, 2015 11:12PM
I really do love that about him... The way he gets excited about some things like a little kid... And he looks at me with this childlike awe and wonder and it makes my heart beat a little faster and I just wanna keep talking so he doesn't lose that look in his eyes.... <3
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I've found an alternative to deleting my account.
I'm closing my inbox, shutting off my email notifications and having Shiv change the password and not tell me it until I'm prepared to come back. That way I don't have to lose all my site data.
I'm closing my inbox, shutting off my email notifications and having Shiv change the password and not tell me it until I'm prepared to come back. That way I don't have to lose all my site data.
Thanks, Zechariah... I need that support... There's been a lot going on.
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I'm closing my inbox, shutting off my email notifications and having Shiv change the password and not tell me it until I'm prepared to come back. ..."
That's a better idea.
Did he of all people really just call me fat??? Ugh.
Who?
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I want to. I reallydo. Treyson is such a dick sometimes.
Sorry for the inactivity. I don't have WiFi often anymore....
Gonna do the play Grease, probably. I'm excited....
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Probably not :) That's the only good part! Gonna rely 100% on wifi outside of home though so highly inactive.
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Yeah? ;) It's good... I'm not dying.
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Cokeville Miracle. It happened. And I believe that the angels did save them... I know they did. If a bunch of kids saw the people dressed in white, obviously it wasn't just HIS coping mechanism.
Cαiтℓуn --Nothing more; Nothing less-- wrote: "That's great to hear XP"
Is it???? ;} ;P
Is it???? ;} ;P
Everyone should have died. But it all just went wrong.
It wasn't a coincidence. Not a bit. Who would have cut the wire???
They saw people they knew... Ones that were gone...
I thought I made him happy... Until his friend shoots me a message saying that he's never once seen him happy talking to me. Wow... That sucks.
I just want him happy... But he's not happy with me and I knew someone could be better and he didn't agree but I see it even more so now and I'm sorry Shiv...
I can't... I can't ignore that...
He's so right... He sees him almost every day and Shiv uses his phone to call me and am I really that bad for him?
D-O-L-L-H-O-U-S-E
I see things nobody else sees
I see things nobody else sees
When one of the last people in the world you'd like to speak to is suddenly the one who makes you happy... Even though I don't trust her at all it helped...
Sometimes I wish I could just watch him... Not like a creep but just see the way his muscles flex with his movements... And the way the looks when he turns his head to look at something. And... Just everything about him...
Hey... Sometimes you just don't feel okay... And that's fine. But I'll be here for you until you get better...
It's October 22... Seven months... We've come so far from where we were.
It's 8:20 am. I'm on the bus and missing you like crazy. I was thinking of the time you told me you were pregnant. You told me it wasn't in your tummy... It was an alien baby in your huge butt... I'm smiling a lot and it just makes me realize how much I miss you.... I'll be okay....
8:40 Only twenty minutes have passed... I hate not having you here... I'm watching Jared and his girlfriend and they're so cute and holding hands and I want to hold your hand... I just miss you even more now... It sucks...
10:48 and we just finished the stupid fish thing. It made me sicker than I already am and I just want you to cuddle me and rub my tummy... I just want you and I want to text you and I just dunno....
11:10 Back on the bus... My fingers are numb and I am freezing. I should have brought a jacket but didn't want to... I can't stop thinking of you....
12:00 We just pulled up to LRUR and I dunno if I want to do this. I just wanted to stay home.
12:30 I felt uncomfortable in the social situation so I left the party. Everyone is talking about popping pills and someone putting stuff in their drinks and I'm just here like: meh.
12:45 I miss you like crazy. It hurts... A lot hurts. I feel guilty... I want to cut... All the drugs and stuff...
3:22 Hehe... It's our time.
3:45 I cut.. I'm so sorry Shiv... What a fuck up you decided to marry.
4:00 I'm okay... I'll be okay. Seven months is a long time. I have faith in us.
This is from Thursday.
It's 8:20 am. I'm on the bus and missing you like crazy. I was thinking of the time you told me you were pregnant. You told me it wasn't in your tummy... It was an alien baby in your huge butt... I'm smiling a lot and it just makes me realize how much I miss you.... I'll be okay....
8:40 Only twenty minutes have passed... I hate not having you here... I'm watching Jared and his girlfriend and they're so cute and holding hands and I want to hold your hand... I just miss you even more now... It sucks...
10:48 and we just finished the stupid fish thing. It made me sicker than I already am and I just want you to cuddle me and rub my tummy... I just want you and I want to text you and I just dunno....
11:10 Back on the bus... My fingers are numb and I am freezing. I should have brought a jacket but didn't want to... I can't stop thinking of you....
12:00 We just pulled up to LRUR and I dunno if I want to do this. I just wanted to stay home.
12:30 I felt uncomfortable in the social situation so I left the party. Everyone is talking about popping pills and someone putting stuff in their drinks and I'm just here like: meh.
12:45 I miss you like crazy. It hurts... A lot hurts. I feel guilty... I want to cut... All the drugs and stuff...
3:22 Hehe... It's our time.
3:45 I cut.. I'm so sorry Shiv... What a fuck up you decided to marry.
4:00 I'm okay... I'll be okay. Seven months is a long time. I have faith in us.
This is from Thursday.
It reaches a point now where it doesn't matter whether we're 900 miles apart, 800, or 3000. We still can't reach each other yet and it will be all right.
Trying to remember a time where I didn't procrastinate literally everything.
I am sorry I offended you.
I really didn't mean anything of it.
I did what I promised not to do.
I got attached.
I made too close of a friend.
I miss you.
I made a mistake...
I know it would be hard anyway.
I just want to talk to you sometimes.
I was just reading over our messages.
I never even got a why.
I never got a goodbye.
I just saw that we were happy.
I just see that suddenly you were gone.
I lost someone who meant so much to me.
I got a bunch of broken promises.
I should have seen it coming.
I mess everything up eventually.
I know broken promises too well.
I guess I decided you were different.
I guess I should have been smarter.
I really am sorry.
I know you won't see this.
I just miss you.
I remember telling you everything.
I wonder if you still think of me...
I doubt you do.
I wonder if you still care.
I don't think so.
I know you're going through a lot.
I hope you know I care about you.
I hope your life is getting better.
I hope you're very happy.
I just wanted you to know that you deserve to be happy.
I really didn't mean anything of it.
I did what I promised not to do.
I got attached.
I made too close of a friend.
I miss you.
I made a mistake...
I know it would be hard anyway.
I just want to talk to you sometimes.
I was just reading over our messages.
I never even got a why.
I never got a goodbye.
I just saw that we were happy.
I just see that suddenly you were gone.
I lost someone who meant so much to me.
I got a bunch of broken promises.
I should have seen it coming.
I mess everything up eventually.
I know broken promises too well.
I guess I decided you were different.
I guess I should have been smarter.
I really am sorry.
I know you won't see this.
I just miss you.
I remember telling you everything.
I wonder if you still think of me...
I doubt you do.
I wonder if you still care.
I don't think so.
I know you're going through a lot.
I hope you know I care about you.
I hope your life is getting better.
I hope you're very happy.
I just wanted you to know that you deserve to be happy.
It was a few months back. Lost a friend. I just miss them.
That I was talking about Shiv?
Felt aick.
Hoped food would help.
Ate food.
Threw up.
Hoped food would help.
Ate food.
Threw up.
@Alec Here's the story...
Auto correct started the side relationships. It just did.
So Shiv was messaging me and he went to say something and all I got was "Tessa" I asked who she was and he promised it was auto correct. He had tried to say "Yesss".
I teased him a little and then it happened again. He immediately said "Strike two XD" and I just asked him again who she was.
He said it was "Auto correct's side hoe." I laughed quietly. "More like auto correct trying to give you a side hoe."
The next morning at school I was Skyping him like always and I said something about his side hoe. My friend Destiny walked up and standing sideways against me, wrapped her arms around my waist. "Wait, I'm your side hoe???" she asked.
"Of course!" I replied, while Shiv laughed.
Then she licked my face and I had to go and Shiv was totally freaked that she licked me.
So that's the story.
Auto correct started the side relationships. It just did.
So Shiv was messaging me and he went to say something and all I got was "Tessa" I asked who she was and he promised it was auto correct. He had tried to say "Yesss".
I teased him a little and then it happened again. He immediately said "Strike two XD" and I just asked him again who she was.
He said it was "Auto correct's side hoe." I laughed quietly. "More like auto correct trying to give you a side hoe."
The next morning at school I was Skyping him like always and I said something about his side hoe. My friend Destiny walked up and standing sideways against me, wrapped her arms around my waist. "Wait, I'm your side hoe???" she asked.
"Of course!" I replied, while Shiv laughed.
Then she licked my face and I had to go and Shiv was totally freaked that she licked me.
So that's the story.
Changed the name again. Cuz I just don't care XD
WATCHING HIM BRUSH HIS TEETH!!!! You guys don't know how awesome this is for me XD
Just him walking down the hall with me on Skype <3 Like... He's proud that I'm his...
Hey, in Spanish. I hope you're alright. You woke up and tried eating and ended up throwing up. Get some rest, try eating like... Crackers and soup. I love you, hope your day starts getting better. And don't forget to get some work done, love. Whenever you need me I can skype :) whenever you're up I'll kik you. Just get well soon. I love you.
My aunt's girlfriend was so interested in my cooking sausage and muffins last weekend, but then there are these kids o.o
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