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i wonder if it has to do with the fact that they were premature

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“i just spent $60 on cutetitos”

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a friend of mine is doing a tarot reading for me, that’s some good shit

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am hongire

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someone made me a playlist and told me to listen to it in a specific order and frankly. it is. great.

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i slept till 3 pm today and then took a nap from 5pm-7pm but anyway

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*stares into camera* i have genital herpes

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tbh that was one of the funniest episodes lmao

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my fave episode is the mental hospital one tho lmao

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oh ok so y’all wanna know some family tea

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someone in the fam threatened my BIL because he let his son play a racing game on his phone, and there’s now a divide in the family bc half are siding with my BIL saying that he did nothing wrong, the other half are with my cousin saying that it’s ok because he’s bipolar and i’m like.... uhhhh.... sorry but using your mental illness to justify doing bad shit is a real shitty thing to do

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also crazy stalker ex got into my school so we’ll officially be on the same campus in the fall

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i bought pepper spray

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just in case

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puts me in a nasty position because i can’t get the cops involved because my mom is convinced that it’s all my fault and that i’ll be pressing the issue if i get a restraining order

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like, sorry for saying i had a crush on this guy in MIDDLE SCHOOL. not my fault that he’s been weirdly obsessed with me ever since, asking people where i live and messaging people i know trying to get my new number

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remember when he tried to follow me home because he saw me bike riding at a park

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but yeah my mom thinks that’s no biggie, as if my personal safety and the fact that i do not feel comfortable around this guy doesn’t matter

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i’m gonna notify campus police before fall semester starts

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“mom i want a restraining order against this guy because his actions make me feel really unsafe”
my mom: hahahahaha WELL, SEVEN YEARS AGO, you hugged him in the hallway outside of your middle school gym class!!! you are ENABLING him and if you just ignored his predatory actions, we wouldn’t have this issue!!!

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shoutout to the fact that this literally started when we were 10 years old, in FIFTH GRADE, when he told me that he would shoot himself in the head if i didn’t like him back

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9 years ago. this shit has been going on for 9 years. that’s almost a whole ass decade. it went dormant for 3 years when he switched to a different high school, and got a girlfriend (whom he was also weirdly obsessed with!!). but then the GF dumped him for being too controlling and you betchya, he messaged my cousin on insta and she gave him my number

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since then i’ve blocked him once i figured out who it was, on imessage and on whatsapp. plus i wrote down the number in case i get a new number so i can just block it right when i get it

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me: i’m gonna go to sleep early today
me at 3:30 am: let me SATISFY YOUR. SOULLLLLLLLL.

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also me at 3:30 am:

me: weren’t you born feet first
M: yeah i was born breached
me: does that mean you briefly wore your mom as a hat

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i think she blocked me bc i haven’t gotten a reply since LMAO

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also i honestly thought my love life was a mess but MK just told me that his ex refused to get sexy until after they broke up

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like what

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i don’t wanna waste away another cell of memory when you’re just another meaningless lover~~

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i would hate you if i could

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i just tried to impulsively change my journal title but it wouldn’t save so i guess that’s the universe giving me a second chance lmao

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forget the nights we spent laughing till the morning on your bedroom floor

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this whole ass album puts me deep in my feels

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youve never been truly validated until you send a pic of a guy you maybe-like in a GC and get your squad going off with “he’s adorable omg”

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RPs might be my favorite thing to do, but sometimes i get so stressed over them shsksksksks

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my break ended 2 minutes ago but i’m still in the breakroom lmao rip me

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today was so dramatic lmao

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on the bright side, my teta came home from the hospital today 🤙

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my mom has medical power of attorney over her bc her dimensia makes her really. like. not competent? idk if that’s the right way to say it but like she doesn’t understand what’s going on, like she spent all of today thinking that the ride home was a ride to her village in lebanon to see her mom (who’s been dead for 60 years).

so yeah my mom changed her health status to DNR which basically means that they won’t try to save her if she dies, like if her heart stops they won’t shock her

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which tbh seems really cruel to most of us because it just seems to me like they’re sick of taking care of her and stuff. i guess i don’t fully understand it though

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she needs 24/7 care and she can’t move on her own and she can’t walk, she’s constantly in pain and i guess the reasoning was that nobody wants her to suffer anymore

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so yeah that’s causing family drama because half the family is like “wtf that’s so cruel” and then my mom is like “well you guys aren’t the ones seeing her like this every day” and stuff, and half the family doesn’t even know, so that’s just causing so much problems,

and then my cousin’s husband sent voice messages to my dad and my uncle asking for $20,000 from each of them because he said he’s really deep in debt, and my dad and uncle were like “wtf” because they’re convinced he needs it for something like drugs, because the whole situation was sketchy and also his wife called my dad’s travel agency and booked a vacation so like... if they’re 40k in debt why would they be booking a family vacation?

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I don’t know man my family is a collective dramatic unit

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do you ever just

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jay wrote: "do you ever just"

i don’t remember where i was going w this lmao

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i want a grande iced caramel macchiato with an extra shot, light ice, please and thanks

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i also want a giant ass coffee cake

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damn i love coffee cake

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i would totally make some but i still don’t have access to my fucking car!!

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they poured the cement at least