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A Solivagant on the Inselberg
☯Raven(Soon to be named Eris)~They/them/“If you don't love yourself, how in the hell you gonna love somebody else?” ― RuPaul ☯ wrote: "It's 2:31 AM here Hallie"I'd say go to sleep, but then you'd say look who's talking, so.....
Maybe this attention seeker should get a life?
I know it's the same story every single year, but I don't want 2019 to come.
Hallie wrote: "I know it's the same story every single year, but I don't want 2019 to come."I'm also feeling the same... *high-five*
I've said it every single year since 2014 xD
Let's start a petition to stop the earth from completing it's revolution around the sun xD
Sorry if you're trying to be serious. My capricious mood isn't going to help at all if you are, so a warning: sometimes I'll joke around and sometimes I'll be dead serious. That's what happens when I sniff too much nail polish.
xDI'm with you ;)
Who'll make the posters?
"Dear Earth, please stop revolving around the Sun, else we'll have to use force"
Hallie wrote: "Sorry if you're trying to be serious. My capricious mood isn't going to help at all if you are, so a warning: sometimes I'll joke around and sometimes I'll be dead serious. That's what happens when..."Nah, that's happens to me too, so don't worry
I'm somewhere between those two
I'm not really very artistic, but I could try xPBottom header: Gravitational force is actually the weakest of the four fundamental forces, so we will win.
Whew, at least I heard something while sleeping in Physics xD
Damn it. Someone kept deleting comments here, so the glitch on my journal has increased :/
:/GR has been glitching in my computer too... It's happening everywhere then?
It's actually a bug that's been affecting this thread since May. The staff haven't found a way to correct it, and since it normally occurs in threads that have a lot of comments, the only work-around that they offer is opening a new one. But I don't want to do that.
Now it's time to toss insults at S on Instagram xD
Hallie wrote: "I know it's the same story every single year, but I don't want 2019 to come."
how come?
Merry Christmas! :D I hope you have a good day today!
Never wanted to die more than this.
May͛a wrote: "Merry Christmas! :D I hope you have a good day today!"I'm so sorry! I'm late, but uh thank you! It would be weird to wish people the same today...... Christmas sucked, but still, thanks!
princess maggie wrote: "Hallie wrote: "I know it's the same story every single year, but I don't want 2019 to come."how come?"
I don't see anything nice coming.
It's 2 in the morning. I need to sleep, but I can't because this damn bus won't let me.
Who Missed Me?
So Christmas pretty much sucked, and yep, still want to die. I'll summarise it, but I haven't written in detail because I wrote this while I was dying of boredom at different intervals of time, so there will most likely be no flow.
We went to Grandma's on Saturday. I took a couple of textbooks, but I legit read only three pages, so I better die before I fail again. Anywho, grandma didn't quite like the whole new haircut, and Mum was not helping my self-esteem with her, "It's cut and all messed up." Thank you, mother! Definitely needed that! There was a feast on Sunday at my cousin's. Cousin M came with us because she wouldn't be able to come the next day, so the car was rather...... Well, she literally sat on me the whole ride.
We gave the cousin our present - a music system, and even tried it out there. I swear if my cousin wasn't that busy, she would have held me at gunpoint and asked me why I cut my hair. People, my hair, my wish. Cousin B's wife, though, was super happy and satisfied and said it looked great. She and I have pretty similar eating habits, so at the fest, both of us were those weirdos that ate too little without any of the major side dishes. They brought their seven month old son, whom brother and I had not seen, and well, we saw him. Way too many kids. And cousin N liked our gift so much that he began to take selfies holding it. I bet he's going to try and buy one. We came back super late.
The next day, the morning of Christmas Eve, was the real thing, and Grandma came as well, and our oldest cousin did not even recognize me (I mean he literally yelled for my brother but couldn't recognize me until I went and stood in front of him), aaaand we went to see one of my dad's favourite uncles and some his cousins. At the cousins' place, Mum came to us with a woman saying, "You know Aunt Cecilia, right?" And I was looking the woman thinking, 'You're not Aunt Cecilia. Aunt Cecilia looks way more scary." No offense, but she really scares me because she is tall and hefty with this stentorian demeanour, and I'm so petite and meek, so it just feels like she could just crush me if she touches me. I still like her, though, but considering how the seat she sits on sags, I guess I'm a little bit intimidated by how tough she looks. Uh well, I'm not the only one, though: she used to work as a jail warden, and now as a warden at a hospital, and the kids under her jurisdiction hardly breathe unless she is says it's fine. She's still a really nice and strong woman, though, so I do admire those qualities. Anyway, turns out the woman was her sister. Which confused me a lot. How many cousins does my dad have?
On Christmas Day, we left my brother with Grandma because he was sleepy and went to meet Dad's old friends. Both my parents have no clue why they took me along even though I didn't want to go. I mean they legit scratched their heads and said, "Why did we bring you here?" And then Cousin N came with his wife and son, and we went up to uncle's terrace (I was terrified!), and took selfies. We took way too many selfies. Cousin N's father is a photographer, and recently that guy has been taking pictures of his son all the time, and since my brother and I make rare appearances, they just drag us into many pictures. Even though I look like a pile of horse crap ruining their photos. Then Dad and brother went back to London while Mum and I were stuck for two more days. Iz called because apparently she missed B and me. I didn't initially pick her call because I was in a different room, so she called B while I kept trying to call her back. She called again and we talked for more than 20 minutes. She said she wanted something from Wales, but I couldn't get anything except food. And she says she hasn't started studying either, so makes two of us.
People still underestimate my eavesdropping skills, which is pretty good for me because now they won't even realize that I've been spying on them the whole time. So the day before the wedding, my grandma and Mum were talking about the problems at my uncle's house; Mum repeatedly telling Grandma to not point out any of my aunt's or anyone's mistake in that house, and of course, Uncle's alcoholism. No one ever told me that he drinks, but people forgot I exist and eventually, I learned all about it. They were also discussing about my aunt's churlish demeanour, and Mum decided to pluck fruits from Aunt's tree and not tell her. "Don't even accidentally tell her that I did it. There's no one there, so this is the perfect chance. Or else, she will make up some excuse." Their whole family had gone somewhere, so the house was empty. Grandma was supposed to have bath while she was gone, and I'm just there so that no robber enters. Cool, right? Just before she left, Mum called out for me and said, "Hal hun, I'm going to get fruits from- oh, I don't think I should tell her. I'm going to there. If anyone comes by, tell them grandma is having bath."
What does she think I am? Deaf and dumb? Dude, I heard everything. They didn't even bother to hush their voices, and earphones don't make me any bit deaf either. Besides, who's going to carry those fruits back home? Hal hun and her dad. Who's going to eat them? Hal hun again. Does she seriously think I won't connect the dots? Like you seriously think I'm that dumb, woman?! I mean I know I'm the dumbest person on the planet, but this is easier than 1+1. Shaking my head. And the same day, I kind of had a slight fever that no one noticed.
By the way, that idiot I blocked tried to text me both on 26th and 27th. I was waiting to get back to London to screw the shit out of him because even though I can screw him without anyone hearing or understanding at Grandma's (speak Irish, and they won't know what's going on even if I sit beside them; pros of knowing an extra language xD), but I wanted to talk in English and see if he will stop after a couple of days. Another guy was also trying to talk to me, but I told him to stop. What is don't understand is why some fools are so desperate to know me! People who are stuck with me and actually have to talk to me are so fed up they legit hate me to the extent that they want me to just drop dead. And then there are these fools.... Eventually, I just got pissed and texted the first idiot back asking him to stop. He continues to text and call, so when I do call him back, don't say I didn't warn him.
The same day, when Mum and I were packing, Grandma said something I didn't completely understand, but it had something to do with us getting a job? Mum replied, "Who? Hallie? But it's going to take years for Hallie to get a job. She's only 17, and *insert brother's nickname* finished his degree and got a job when he was 22. It will still take about 4-5 years." I bet my grandma's worried she won't live to see that happen, but candidly, I don't think I will live to see that happen, but if it does, I sure hope she's around. Actually, I was hoping Grandpa would be there too. I know everyone dies someday, but I always wanted these two grandparents to live for eternity because really, they are just lovely. It's saddening enough that Grandpa isn't here right now; I wish Grandma wouldn't worry much either.
Grandma told Mum to take her wedding's album home, so she found it and gave it to me before packing it because 'this is what your Dad and I looked like before you two specimens came out and gave us grey hair'. I opened to the first page, which had a picture of my dad in the centre and two pictures of Mum on sandwiching Dad's picture. I saw it, I laughed hysterically for ten minutes straight. Literally. My mum started yelling and cried, "Ma she's looking at my album and laughing!" But I was sooooo xD Gosh, the very thought of that makes me crack up! xD I flipped through the entire album, and what I saw was really old pictures (they were sticking to each other....) of one stick figure marrying another stick figure. Mum says I'm exaggerating, and I'm more skinnier than her in that, but my parents look like...... Don't! Just stop grinning and trying to describe it, Hal! It's just going to make you die of laughter! All I wanted to do was go home and show my brother. I'm kind of confused whether one of the pictures features my dad or his brother (in my defence, they really look very similar; many have said so, and some even asked if they were twins), so you can bet one of the comments will be 'Is this Papa or this guy?' Yeah, I'm annoying.
The wedding was a bore. I tried to take a crappy video, and tried to send it to my cousin with very crappy internet. Oh, Iz was asked what I wore, and I'm like, "Dude, I'm Hallie. Of course I showed up as the only one in jeans and no regret it whatsoever." There was this old lady who sat in front of me, but kept turning her neck to an angle of 180° to look at me, and I pretended not to notice her even though she was pissing me off, because if I did make eye contact with her, I'd be sure to say something rude and sarcastic. My aunt was sick, so she didn't come to the wedding. Grandma felt awkward to go back to their place when Mum and I were leaving, so Cousin N's mother, who had come to keep her company whilst we were at the wedding, decided to stay the night. Hopefully Cousin N's house won't blow up.....
Now I'm screwed because obviously I haven't studied a thing, and I had exams in less than a week. Anybody want to kill me?
Does anyone know a shop that sells stuff that will make me a 'smart, cool and awesome' person? If not, please give me directions to the nearby store that sells poison.
Hallie wrote: "Does anyone know a shop that sells stuff that will make me a 'smart, cool and awesome' person? If not, please give me directions to the nearby store that sells poison.Hi Hallie! Sadly, I do not
I know you don't know me but I saw your previous comments and am seriously worried about you. Are you okay?
I don't know..... But don't worry too much about me.
My decisions in life just scream how much I hate myself. Wow.
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Oof I wuv you, know that always(Just up late watching Yugioh)
Hope your year gets better
Better hope for something else. That isn't going to happen as long as I'm alive.
Hallie wrote: "I am done with life."
nope you can't be because if you left i would cry and you don't want that. i'm a very good crier <3
So I'll make a dummy of myself and leave that behind so that you never know.
I swear if my mood doesn't get better by tomorrow, I'm swallowing all the pills I find in this place.
I stopped roleplaying ever since I shut down Elysian Darkness. I just couldn't seem to start again. Prior to that, I stopped roleplaying in the Harry Potter group because I felt like I didn't fit in even though the moderators and members were amazing. They were really good, and I was the rotten apple, so I stopped. It's tempting. I know I'm seriously contemplating leaving for good, and commitments like Roleplays would leave everyone disappointed when I do leave (well, they would be disappointed with my ersatz roleplaying skills on the first place), but I got an invite this morning, and I deviated from my usual action of deleting every group invite I get to actually join the group, introduce myself and not leave it.
Well, now that I started creating my character, I now remember one of the reasons I stopped roleplaying.
I suck.
Oof, everyone sucked at roleplaying at one point, even creating characters. It takes time and patience and of course if you're willing to ask for help then some help. I still suck at roleplaying tbh
So 5 years isn't enough time to be at least average?
It'll be fine Hallie :D Trust me, I'm sure you're good at it, even if you aren't don't be afraid to ask for help. Remember I'm here for you
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