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BECAUSE GIRLS ARE COOL – HELENA HANN-BASQUIAT

 TAGLINE: Helena Hann-Basquiat dabbles in whatever she can get her hands into just to say that she has.

You want something different and fun to read.  I have discovered the magic of Helena Hann-Basquiat and her stories are marvelous.  I plan to purchase her book and do a review soon but until then I have added a few links so you can get to know her a bit.  I love her writing style and can’t wait to see what she writes next.

 

Postcards from California – Part One 
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The Room of My Heart
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The Countess Penelope of Arcadia’s List of Things You Will Never See Happen but Should Totally Happen
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21 Things That I Irrationally Love
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It’s No Joke Memoirs of a Dilettante Volume One Is Now Available

FINDING CLARITY

This is part of the 25 days and 25 songs challenge created by Stuphblog. Click on the icon to participate and get the details.

 

DAY SEVEN: A SONG THAT REMINDS YOU OF THE PAST SUMMER

 

My husband’s birthday is today! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! He doesn’t know this about me but he will if he still reads my blog. I believe in him and at times it has taken much meditation to find the clarity to stay the course.  It seems there are some songs I put on repeat and this one I had on repeat last summer.

It was sometime after my breakup with my best friend and my attempted (ugh whatever it was) that I was still trying to find the good pieces of me.  I knew what I wanted my future to look like and I was trying hard to rebuild a strong and solid foundation that would benefit, not only my daughter, but my husband and I.  I wanted a strong family and I knew it was up to me to get my emotions under control and focused on the important things in life.  After I had started pulling everything together my husband broke down and it was my turn to carry him as he had been carrying me.  Marriage is a series of hurdles and we were getting tired of the race but…

Our 20th anniversary was coming up and my husband surprised me with a cruise to The Baltic Seas.  This was our chance to rediscover our core love, to remember what/who we were and see if we were still going to be able to make things work.  We had a lot to talk about and we wouldn’t have technology or friends/family to distract us.  We would decide on our two week trip what we wanted our collective future to look like.

We were both fighting to find that part of us we couldn’t live without so the words in this song… they mimicked what my heart was feeling.  I love my husband and through every obstacle we have found the strength to overcome.  I am crying as I type this because I know our battle will be a fight to death.   We are two people who love each other looking for that IN LOVE feeling again.

CLARITY (feat foxes)
  High dive into frozen waves where the past comes back to life

Fight fear for the selfish pain, it was worth it every time

Hold still right before we crash ’cause we both know how this ends

A clock ticks ’til it breaks your glass and I drown in you again

‘Cause you are the piece of me I wish I didn’t need

Chasing relentlessly, still fight and I don’t know why

If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?

If our love’s insanity, why are you my clarity?

(Hey-ay, hey-ay-ay. Hey-ay, hey-ay-ay. Hey-ay, hey-ay-ay. Hey-ay, hey)

If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?

If our love’s insanity, why are you my clarity?

Walk on through a red parade and refuse to make amends

It cuts deep through our ground and makes us forget all common sense

Don’t speak as I try to leave ’cause we both know what we’ll choose

If you pull then I’ll push too deep and I’ll fall right back to you

‘Cause you are the piece of me I wish I didn’t need

Chasing relentlessly, still fight and I don’t know why

If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?

If our love’s insanity, why are you my clarity?

(Hey-ay, hey-ay-ay. Hey-ay, hey-ay-ay. Hey-ay, hey-ay-ay. Hey-ay, hey)

Why are you my clarity?

Why are you my remedy?

Why are you my clarity?

Why are you my remedy?

If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?

If our love’s insanity, why are you my clarity?

 

~ZEDD

A LOVELY LADY by Shane Mayabb

So… A really nice friend messaged me on facebook yesterday.  He is an old classmate from my angsty high school days.  We knew some of the same people but both of us were really fairly busy (shy) to have the heavy social calendar some teens have.  Anyway, he wrote a poem for me and I am always ALWAYS touched when someone writes poetry… especially men (and for me nonetheless).  For all you male bloggers I have written duets with and all the male bloggers that pour your souls out in poetry… keep writing because I think it is beautiful and so do lot’s of other woman.  Thank you Shane for this poem and for being such an inspirational soul!

 

I see you in a heart of tenderness and affection,
with a need of wanting of love and protection.
Like the stars in the sky that twinkle in the night,
things will get better and be made right.
A lovely beautiful lady with a heart made of gold,
with a story of her life that needs to be told.
A story of her dreams of passion and desire,
to be held in high esteem and lifted so much higher.
What the future holds for her is yet to be seen,
but there’s hope for tomorrow if you know what I mean.

 

WE SCRAPED THE SKY

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DAY SIX: A SONG THAT REMINDS YOU OF A BEST FRIEND

This was a hard post for me.  I have had many friends and a few really great friends.  For many of my childhood years and much of my adult life I had few friends for various reasons.  I am a sucker for movies where two people become childhood friends and are friends until they die.   A few movies that come to mind are BEACHES, BEND IT LIKE BECKHAM, BEST FRIENDS WEDDING, THE SISTERHOOD OF THE TRAVELING PANTS and the list really does go on and on now that I start thinking about it.  Anyway, I love these movies about lifelong friendships because I don’t have it.

The closest I came was when I met R. It was around 2007 and he was my daughters teacher in daycare.  When I went to pick up my daughter each day he always had a story to tell me about her.  She was a funny girl so we always laughed about how clever or silly she was.  R loved dancing and when I found this out I invited him to do a monthly dance class for my daughter in our home with several of her friends.  It was extra income for him and it was a lot of fun for the girls.  As time went on we did the dance classes to keep the girls together after they split up going to different kindergartens.  (I am sure this is because I want to encourage a lifelong friendship for my daughter).

Cut to a few years later we were still close.  I realized that this unlikely person was my best friend.  He was half my age, he was gay, he was outgoing and energetic and I was old, straight and married, and very lazy and the opposite of energetic.  He was good for me.  I like to think I was good for him.  After a good (great) 4 year relationship where I had lost 90 (trying to keep up with his energy…and he is a zumba instructor) things changed.  I changed… he changed.  I was tired, worn out, depressed and lost and he was stressed about trying to get through each day of school and working to survive.  Something had to give and it was our friendship.

I look back on our friendship and I remember many great things.  We both learned a lot and we are wiser having known each other.  This song reminds me of him.  It was a warm day and he had come to pick me up to go somewhere.  I was down and depressed and I believe he had just ended a relationship but for whatever the reason he played this song.  As he usually did he rolled down the windows and belted the song out and it was good.  In those moments we were the same, in those moments we were not from two totally different worlds, we were inside a moment were we could relate to each other.  We had many of those moments. I think of those moments when I hear this song.

All good things may come to an end and maybe they never really do…

 

 

BECAUSE GIRLS ARE COOL – DEANNA HERRMANN

This very cool girl writes all over the place in the blogosphere.  She has two different and amazing blogs From Casinos To Castles and My Muted Voice.

I pretty much cried snot all over my keyboard reading (There Aren’t Enough Words and Always Your Angel) below so read in an emotionally safe place.  I am happy to present this beautifully strong woman and hope she inspires you as much as she inspires me.

 

 

 

 

There Aren’t Enough Words
The Light in the Dark
That Girl is a Stripper
Dear Doc McStuffins
Always Your Angel

BECAUSE GIRLS ARE COOL – GUNMETAL GEISHA

Today I read the posts below written by GUNMETAL GEISHA.

This past weekend I attended a writing conference and although I have been to this conference before; this time it was more emotional.  This time I told myself, “I am only here to learn” but I knew in my heart this was were I would get validation for my writing.  I was asked several times what I wrote and each time the word poetry left my lips I was disappointed in the reactions.  I left feeling defeated, deflated, overwhelmed with grief that once again who I was, wasn’t important.  Of course I am looking back on the whole thing and realizing how self absorbed and selfish I was being.  There is something about expectations and how they sneak into your soul and surprise you with self loathing grief when they aren’t met.

Reading the posts below really hit home for me especially; Is “Never Give Up” a Wise Message?, because it helped put my weekend into perspective.

 

 

 

 

Of lovable f8ckups and Monkeys-Part-1
Is Dreaming for Suckers?
Father Strumming My Boyfriend’s Ribs
Is “Never Give Up a Wise Message?
YOU

ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL

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DAY FIVE: A SONG THAT IS OFTEN STUCK IN YOUR HEAD

 

I hear this song in my head every time I feel less than.  Every time I feel ugly, worthless and out of sorts.  Every time my daughter is insecure about her hairy arms or her weight or her hair or ….

This is my pep talk to myself and the song I have sang to my daughter since she was a baby.  I hope she thinks of me singing this to her when she feels less than.  I hope she knows ALWAYS that she is beautiful.  But my true prayer is that she always feels beautiful.  My favorite memory of this song took place one evening after she took a shower.  The routine was she took a shower, toweled off, got her nightgown on, then sat in front of me as I dried her hair.  She had long hair and so it took awhile and on this occasion she was really tired so she laid her head in my lap and fell asleep as I sang this song to her and brushed her hair.

 

 

BEAUTIFUL

Don’t look at me

Every day is so wonderful

And suddenly it’s hard to breathe

Now and then I get insecure

From all the pain, feel so ashamed

I am beautiful no matter what they say

Words can’t bring me down

I am beautiful in every single way

Yes, words can’t bring me down, oh no

So don’t you bring me down today

To all your friends you’re delirious

So consumed in all your doom

Tryin’ hard to fill the emptiness, the piece is gone

Left the puzzle undone, ain’t that the way it is?

‘Cause you are beautiful no matter what they say

Words can’t bring you down, oh no

You are beautiful in every single way

Yes, words can’t bring you down, oh no

So don’t you bring me down today

No matter what we do

No matter what we do

(No matter what we say)

No matter what we say

(We’re the song that’s outta tune)

(Full of beautiful mistakes)

(And everywhere we go)

And everywhere we go

(The sun will always shine)

The sun will always, always shine!

(But tomorrow we might awake on the other side)

‘Cause we are beautiful no matter what they say

Yes, words won’t bring us down, oh no

We are beautiful in every single way

Yes, words can’t bring us down, oh no

So don’t you bring me down today

Don’t you bring me down today

Don’t you bring me down today

~

~Writer(s): Calvin Broadus, Pharrell Williams, Chad Hugo,

Daniel Powter, Linda Perry, John Eugene Wesley

Sang by:Christina Aguilera

CALM CELLO’S

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DAY FOUR: A SONG THAT CALMS YOU DOWN
Narada Collection Series : A Childhood Remembered : A Musical Tribute To The Wonder Of Childhood

 

Only one song comes to mind when I need to relax.  I play this over and over again on repeat on those nights my brain will not shut off.  The moment the cello’s start playing I am taken to a place of my own creation, a place I feel safe, a place I can breakdown and cry.  There is something magical about music but this song has nothing but peace attached to it…no memories…no expectations…just calm.

Today I ended a two day writing conference.  DFWcon has writers from all over the country come to learn how to improve their craft but it also offers authors a chance to network with other writers and agents in the industry.  To be honest I didn’t go to get an agent, to pitch, or try to get a book deal BUT… I found myself getting caught up in the emotion just the same.  My naked passion reared it’s vulnerable head and emptied itself in the tears I shed.

TODAY I needed this song.  TONIGHT I will let these cello’s calm me.

COMING TO AMERICA TO GET CLOSE TO YOU

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DAY THREE: A SONG THAT REMINDS YOU OF YOUR PARENTS

 

OK I have two parents (I know big shocker) and each one has a song so I am going to do the illegal thing on this challenge and submit one for each of them.

One morning I woke up having bought my dad the Neil Diamond Coming to America song for Father’s day.  He LOVED this song…or at least my little pre-teen mind thought he did anyway.  I would have been the age my daughter is right now…hmmm neat coincidence.  Anyway, my dad always fixed Sunday breakfast and he always sang really loud and none of us kids ever got up.  We waited until he walked in with wash clothes of cold water to wake our faces up with.

Not this morning though.  I snuck in to the living room and put the cassette tape in and blared the song FULL blast.  Looking back I don’t know what I was thinking but he came barreling out of the kitchen yelling, “who turned the stereo on so loud??”  I guess he didn’t like someone else competing with his singing in the morning.  I hid in fear of course because my dad had a LOUD voice but he was all bark.  Once my mom told him it was his fathers day gift and to listen he calmed down and quickly went from angry to regretful.  I do those things with my daughter now.  Sometimes she has the best intentions but she doesn’t quite pull it off the right way.  Anyway, it’s funny now but then… ha… well… it was kind of funny then too.

 

I can really only remember my mom singing one song.  I know she listened to music…I think??  But this song comes to mind because she told me she used to sing it to me.  I of course sang it to my daughter when she was little every now and then.  At least I tried.  I kept repeating the chorus over and over again because I can never remember all the lyrics to anything, save Neil Sedaka.  I ended up making up my own song with my daughter which I still sing to her every night until this very day.  I believe this song came out the same year I was born. :)

 

 

 

BECAUSE GIRLS ARE COOL – CARLY HUTTON

 

This cool girl caught me in that smile of hers and I just can’t look away.  She has the most amazing spirit that comes out in her blog but don’t take my word for it.  Go visit her yourself.  Here at Growing Butterfly 

My favorite blog is IT’S TRUE I LOVE GAY PEOPLE because most of those closest to me in my life are gay and she wrote and argued this beautifully. IMO

 

 

 

 

 

 

THE ONLY GIRL AT THE BACHELOR PARTY

A LETTER TO ME

IT’S TRUE I LOVE GAY PEOPLE

THE STORY OF THE BUMPY DOULA

THE BARISTAS GUIDE TO STAYING SINGLE (WITHOUT REALLY TRYING)