FINDING CLARITY
DAY SEVEN: A SONG THAT REMINDS YOU OF THE PAST SUMMER
My husband’s birthday is today! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! He doesn’t know this about me but he will if he still reads my blog. I believe in him and at times it has taken much meditation to find the clarity to stay the course. It seems there are some songs I put on repeat and this one I had on repeat last summer.
It was sometime after my breakup with my best friend and my attempted (ugh whatever it was) that I was still trying to find the good pieces of me. I knew what I wanted my future to look like and I was trying hard to rebuild a strong and solid foundation that would benefit, not only my daughter, but my husband and I. I wanted a strong family and I knew it was up to me to get my emotions under control and focused on the important things in life. After I had started pulling everything together my husband broke down and it was my turn to carry him as he had been carrying me. Marriage is a series of hurdles and we were getting tired of the race but…
Our 20th anniversary was coming up and my husband surprised me with a cruise to The Baltic Seas. This was our chance to rediscover our core love, to remember what/who we were and see if we were still going to be able to make things work. We had a lot to talk about and we wouldn’t have technology or friends/family to distract us. We would decide on our two week trip what we wanted our collective future to look like.
We were both fighting to find that part of us we couldn’t live without so the words in this song… they mimicked what my heart was feeling. I love my husband and through every obstacle we have found the strength to overcome. I am crying as I type this because I know our battle will be a fight to death. We are two people who love each other looking for that IN LOVE feeling again.
CLARITY (feat foxes)
High dive into frozen waves where the past comes back to life
Fight fear for the selfish pain, it was worth it every time
Hold still right before we crash ’cause we both know how this ends
A clock ticks ’til it breaks your glass and I drown in you again
‘Cause you are the piece of me I wish I didn’t need
Chasing relentlessly, still fight and I don’t know why
If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?
If our love’s insanity, why are you my clarity?
(Hey-ay, hey-ay-ay. Hey-ay, hey-ay-ay. Hey-ay, hey-ay-ay. Hey-ay, hey)
If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?
If our love’s insanity, why are you my clarity?
Walk on through a red parade and refuse to make amends
It cuts deep through our ground and makes us forget all common sense
Don’t speak as I try to leave ’cause we both know what we’ll choose
If you pull then I’ll push too deep and I’ll fall right back to you
‘Cause you are the piece of me I wish I didn’t need
Chasing relentlessly, still fight and I don’t know why
If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?
If our love’s insanity, why are you my clarity?
(Hey-ay, hey-ay-ay. Hey-ay, hey-ay-ay. Hey-ay, hey-ay-ay. Hey-ay, hey)
Why are you my clarity?
Why are you my remedy?
Why are you my clarity?
Why are you my remedy?
If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?
If our love’s insanity, why are you my clarity?
~ZEDD
