Akosua Dardaine Edwards's Blog, page 185

Your duty is to place yourself in the best case scenario

Do not sulk
Do not give up
Do not invest your energy in people who do not value you
Your duty is to place yourself in the best case scenario but not on some creepy capitalist crabs in a barrel tip
But by proving that you are worthy of magnificence  ESPECIALLY when your faith is wavering Natalie Patterson

Life is always sending us signs, every moment. We can pay attention or we can ignore it and the beautiful thing is that the message will keep coming around until we pay attention. Sometimes the whispers become screams. 
Paying attention is not always what we want to do because it goes against either the status quo, the norm, the ego, the "way it's supposed to go" So we ignore, justify and move on, we escape in fakeness, alcohol, shopping, food, excess, reality television and living other people's lives.
It may be that we find ourselves in the same situation over and over again with the same people- romance, jobs, friendships. and wondering what's wrong with "them"
According to Iyanla "Begin to become aware of every thought and spoken word that you attach to the following: I-She-He-They - Can't or Should or Shouldn't or Won't or Never
Each of these is a judgment that will set you up for a negative experience"

Life is so awesome, it shows us everyday it's awesomeness, are you paying attention? Pay attention to the signs it leads you straight to the awesomeness and along the way there are potholes, go over them, through them, navigate them  knowing that they will in no way destroy the vehicle!Peace

Letting Go

To those who are divinely meant to be in my life I WELCOME YOU. I have a lot of love to give... To those who are not... I send you love and peace on your journey.
I release, relinquish, and let go. I bless 2016 and all that is to come!  Shanel Cooper -Sykes
I loved having things go my way, it has been almost like an obsession, I remember growing up my mother would get frustrated and say to me in annoyance "You always want YOUR OWN WAY, life is not like that baby girl" And this "wanting my own way" spilled over to relationships especially with men. I would have a singular focus, to the point sometimes of crossing my boundaries, even sometimes making dishonoring choices in the name of having it my way and wanting it to go the way I want it to go. This process took some undoing. This process took me to a place of recognizing that boundaries and self love, self honor and letting go is a huge part of the journey and part of having my own way is a combination of ego and wanting to be in control. Fear based thinking. As I go into 2016, I know for sure that letting go takes courage, discipline and self love. It is essential on life's journey, having things my own way when they go against the tenets of self love, of peace, of good common sense. When having your own way is pursued to "avoid looking bad" , to get back at the other person - to show them that you are right and worthy, it is a bad idea.
My intention is to let go, bless and learn the lessons in 2016, a little different to having it my own way
Peace! 

I chose and I am proud

I chose peace over chaos and I am proud of my choice. I chose spirituality over materialism and I am proud of my choice. I chose to dream more dreams rather than to live a nightmare and I am proud of my choice. I chose to embrace real life rather than get lost in a fantasy and I am proud of my choice.
Natalie Stewart
So I rented a car from the airport, they were supposed to have the car ready for when I get in. They had the wrong day and there were no cars available at the time and may not have for a while "they didn't know as it was a busy time but we apologize for the inconvenience and will do our best to get you one as soon as possible" I stood there and had to make a choice. What would it be? I want to maintain my peace and I want to let them know I was also quite disappointed having made these arrangements well in advance. So I said to the guy very calmly "I am quite disappointed, can I get a car and how long will it take I know shit happens I want to maintain my peace and leave here with a car"  He stopped for a few seconds and said "thank you I appreciate your patience I will make you one happy lady with a car as soon as possible" I was out of the airport in just under 2 hours, tired but peaceful. Choices and consequencesThis morning, the same car, broke down I was on my way to run, I called the company, same guy, he had a litany of excuses,I was getting annoyed, my voice started raising and then it clicked, what is the best choice right now? I stopped and told him the same thing " I am disappointed AGAIN and I require a car, what say you?" He brought a replacement and said, to me "I was expecting a serious blowout, we keep disappointing you" I told him, this ain't about you bro! But be prepared for consequences!So what choices have you made that you are proud of?Peace

Renewal and Evolution

Surrender
It's not about giving up or bowing down. It's about holding on to the knowledge that something bigger and more powerful than you is at work beneath the surface of your experience, and that it will take you exactly where you need to be. Now, in hard times, surrender is probably the greatest challenge you will encounter because it's so hard to accept uncertainty. But that, my beloved, is the point. You don't know what's to come, but you must know that whatever happens, you will be OK. Iyanla


There is nothing for me to prove to the doubters or those who just aren’t free enough to believe in the possibility + probability of positivity+ pure intentions.My drive is fuelled by my desire to be sure that my ancestors are aware of my gratitude for all that came before me to ground me + to project me into my presentness
Every breath is blessed responsibility.My drive is also fuelled by the belief that I am and will continue to be a demonstration of what is possible through authenticity + self-love+discipline.
But everything is everything and it only goes as its supposed to.I have had a power filled year.
One of peace + purpose + a lot of travel + not much sleep + sometimes not much cash, but that is what comes with being a manifestation of dreams.
So thank you
Here's to-Evolution. Revolution. Reboot. Realign
Peace!

I promise

Resolutions: I Promise 

It is rare that I make resolutions 
Don’t want them to haunt me in the dead of night
Each day guilted by all the things I said I would or would not do 

I only do what I want, when I want
With a full heart or not at all
And the rest will have to settle somewhere between my lips and my intention

I don’t promise often

But there comes a day
When I am more than wild woman
More than what I’ve accomplished or seek to and as that day approaches
You should know:
I promise to remember how to love
In the face of hurt in my heart
I will love you, that’s me
Foolishly, at times but brave
I promise to forgive
To ignite the soft of me and surrender to that everything ain’t gonna grow like I grow
Aint gon’ know what I know, how I know
And that is ok
There is still love in letting go

I promise to love myself
To honor this girl with dreams she can’t stomach yet but works hard to
In the morning, I will pray to a God I hope to be more like and she will laugh Knowing I have forgotten already that she loves me unconditionally
Just a  girl wanting more and more and more
But having everything I already need

I promise to laugh hardest when life is most challenging
I promise to tell strangers they are beautiful because they haven’t heard it in too long
I promise to dance across the floor when I’m excited

I promise to be excited

To sit with my mother to remind her that she makes amazing things
To listen to my elders, to honor the repetition in their stories
To watch intently as my cousins blossom
I promise to be there for them how they want me to be
And none of this comes easy
None of it will be overnight
I might be sacred and stubborn at first and when I am
I promise to lean into it
To let life make a masterpiece of me
To say what needs to be said in the moment and trust that I am prepared

I promise to listen to the way God moves
I promise to be moved
To not stop noticing the details in the day
The way you hesitate before speaking
Or the nervous girl at the table next to me
I promise to never stop picking up on energy
And feeling responsible for humanity
I promise to let this fire rage
To drink more water and carry this skin like a gift
I promise to breathe on purpose
And fall in love without fear

I promise. I promise. I promisePeace!

It will kick you in da butt

Truth comes, we can't hear it
When you've been, programmed to fear it  Lauren Hill
The truth can kick you in da butt! I mean seriously kick you in the butt then when you're down on the ground give you another nudge! The thing is, it will do that when you completely ignore and run from it, the truth cannot be denied! It will give you signs, it will give you clues and hints and point you in the right direction, and when you ignore them, well, its either all hell breaks loose or the proverbial shit hits the fan!
I can tell you, in my life, the truth would be up in my face, staring into my eyes, I would deny it. I called a duck a swan because of fear!I feared looking bad like I made the wrong choice- duh!!!! just make another choice sweet p!I feared being a failure - duh - You cannot ever fail at this thing called lifeI feared losing -  duh - there is nothing to lose, what is yours is simply yours baby!I feared people will not like me -duh- homie, not everyone will like you, deal with itliving an authentic life requires a massive amount of courage and you will inevitably disappoint someone - just the way it isI feared not having enough -duh- I am enough and that's all there is to it
So the truth is, there is no need to run, hide,ignore and feel bad unless you want a kick in da butt!Once you know the truth you cannot go back to not knowing!What is the truth  that you have been ignoring?Peace

Confessions on the Journey

Rise high enough above a thing to see it from a new perspective.
Until you get to the core of a thing or see it from a new place, you will not be able to determine how or if the experiences of your life serve your highest and greatest good. Iyanla Vanzant

Confessions on the journey. I am on my holiday, getting some vital and much desired "me" time where I so my annual ritual of reviewing my year and renewing the commitment to myself. So here's the thing, I feel guilty I do, because I do not really like this spot that I am in! It's beautiful, scenic, breathtaking even but my soul doesn't feel it. Why? I feel that what the place said it would be is a gross misrepresentation of what it really is, I have changed hotels and want to change again but there I go pulling out all my lessons, first one is acceptance, make friends with reality and then choose and know each choice has a consequence! Two days left so I chose to stay put, the staff here are quite nice overall and the location is also ideal. The blessing in the bucket is me getting the time to spend on doing the things that I want to do
I did 2 tours, wonderful, got to see the beauty of the place - there is always good in there somewhere it's really up to us to find it
So yea, these are my confessions!
Let's see what happens in the next couple of days
Peace

I am dripping with gratitude

Gratitude is one of the most powerful factors in creating what is not there yet. Gratefulness for what IS already here is one of the most powerful tools in creating what is not already here - Eckhart Tolle

Grateful just because....
Today I am grateful firstly for the grace and love of the Universe who has provided for me and guided me on my journey so far
Today I am grateful for the technology available to allow me to share the lessons on the journey with people I have never met personally and for those in other countries and cultures.
Today I am grateful for my body, which houses me while I am in this form, for all its organs and limbs and the other parts I cannot see that work well and are healthy
Today I am grateful for all my friends who continue to support, motivate and mirror back to me all that I am
Today I am grateful for all the lessons, the opportunities the challenges, the obstacles, the rejections, the roadblocks as they serve as guiding posts and directions on the journey
Today I am grateful for my grandmother who was the first storyteller I met
Today I am grateful for my mother who with God brought me to life
Today I am grateful for my family who support me no matter what, my aunt and cousins who show up whenever I ask or sometimes when they think I need them
Today I am grateful just because...

Heading today to St. Lucia for the Christmas, a holiday that I am also grateful for.

What are you grateful for?

Energy Hooks

The only time anyone can have any power over us is when they have something we want. In order to be energetically free and sovereign, in our own energy, we will need to be observant and honest with ourselves about our expectations and judgments. It is our expectations and judgments that create “energetic hooks” between our self and the other person that will drain our energy creating great confusion within our being because pieces of our energy remain in their energy field and pieces of their energy remain in our energy field. We literally enslave each other with our projected energy. Sabrina Reber
Everything is energy! And it cannot be denied, it cannot be removed, it moves through and through.
So what do we do with all this energy
Do you take people's energy, especially when it is not yours to take?
The successful says that we are responsible for the energy that we take into a situation and I truly believe in that, I walk into every single situation with a positive set of energy that is how I start, those who come with energy I don't want I simply refuse to willingly take it! Yep, that's how it goes.....

Common Energetic Hooks according to Ms Sabrina~ Wanting someone to act in a different way.~ Expecting someone outside of our self to make us happy.~ Seeking self worth, value and acceptance outside of the self.~ Seeking love from someone else.~ Wanting to be appreciated by others.
~ Wanting someone to resonate with our victim consciousness and the stories we tell ourselves.Catch that
Peace

What you talk about is what you get.

for every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction. Meaning, the energy of that thought swings right back around to you. What records do you have on repeat—are you always talking about how bad dating is? Or stressful work is? How much you miss home? How dramatic your siblings are? How expensive the city has become? If that’s what you’re always talking about, that’s what will keep showing up. Maxie

Iyanla Vanzant always talks about the angels that surround you, that they are definitely there doing their work quietly, I experienced that this week and I want to say thank you to my angels at CANARI - Keisha, Venash, Nicole, Anna, Pat the entire team who came together to assist me this week. 
I kept it positive, I kept the self-talk on loop that said it will be all good, this too shall pass and all will be as it ought to be.
What I have learnt is that I cannot do it alone and a call for help is not a weakness, part of self-love is the ability to receive and not judge one's self when you have asked for help
Hey shit happens, it's life, and the angels are there at the precise moment if you call on them
So, angels are behind me and for that I will act accordingly!
Peace