Colleen Brown's Blog, page 73

"I have wanted youfrom the very first momentI saw you.I have loved youfrom the very first..."

“

I have wanted you

from the very first moment

I saw you.

I have loved you

from the very first moment

you touched me.

I have needed you

from the very first moment

you held me.

And I have missed you

from the very first moment

you said goodbye.

”

- “I have,” - CB

Or whenyou can’tseem tofind me.

Or when

you can’t

seem to

find me.

"When I think of love,all that comes to mindis you. I think aboutall the ways you havegiven me..."

“When I think of love,

all that comes to mind

is you. I think about

all the ways you have

given me happiness.

I think about all the

things we have yet

to do. When I think

about passion,

all that comes

to mind is your

hands, our bodies,

the warmth I feel

when I feel your skin

against mine.

When I think about

forever, all that comes

to mind is you,

our future, our dedication,

our promise to never

let anyone or anything

break us.

When I think of love,

all that comes to mind

is you. And I will

never grow tired

of being filled

by you.”

- “When I think of you,” - CB

"The miles that separate us,that have pushed our bodiesapart will not stop our lovefrom growing..."

“The miles that separate us,

that have pushed our bodies

apart will not stop our love

from growing and will not stop

us from reaching for one another.

They ask me how I do it,

how I can be so far away

from the one I love without

being able to touch their skin

or meet their gaze with mine.

I tell them that it’s not easy,

but we do it. I tell them

that I am not alone in this.

I tell them that if waiting

for a long time means

that I will be with the one

I love sooner rather than never,

then I will wait for as long

as I need to because I would

rather be low on patience

then to ever have to be without

the one who has made

a home inside of my heart.”

- “Later is better than never,” - CB

our hands were meant to be laced together

our hands were meant to be laced together

"I’m trying to forgive youfor everything you had promisedbut never kept. I’m trying butit’s..."

“I’m trying to forgive you

for everything you had promised

but never kept. I’m trying but

it’s starting to weigh me down.

I’m trying to forgive myself

for putting my expectations

inside of someone who only

knows how to please themselves

but lately my own apologizes

don’t seem to do the trick.

I’m trying to forgive everyone

who has ever said that they

loved me but only gave me

false hope and tainted memories

in the end. I’m trying to forgive

you, myself and everyone else

but I don’t know how many more

apologizes and chances

I have left inside of me.”

- “Are you really sorry?” - CB

And even thoughmy skin is sore,I will keep trying torepair...

And even though

my skin is sore,

I will keep trying to

repair him until he

can love me more.

those clouds / that sky / the feeling of going back home

those clouds / that sky / the feeling of going back home

a quick sketch / watercolor of when he was holding me

a quick sketch / watercolor of when he was holding me

"We fell in love underneaththe harvest moonlight,when I least expected tofind love at all that..."

“We fell in love underneath

the harvest moonlight,

when I least expected to

find love at all that night.

When you spoke with your

foreign accent, I could see

your tongue soaked in

vodka and experience.

You touched me and I felt

every heartbreak from before

fade away beneath

your humid hands.

Your eyes were intoxicating

and without having to down

even a drop of alcohol

I was drunk off of the way

your gaze found me

in all the right places.

I was the only one you wanted

to become familiar with,

you told me the next day.

I was the only one you wanted

to explore, the only one

who was ever worth remembering.”

- “Now you mean everything,” - Colleen Brown