Colleen Brown's Blog, page 264

"look me in the eye and tell me you don’t find me...

"look me in the eye and tell me you don’t find me attractive
look me in the heart and tell me you won’t go
look me in the eye and promise no love is like our love
look me in the heart and unbreak broken
won’t happen.”

What are three things that you really love?

What are three things that you really love?

I know, I know, I know

I know that you know that I still love you, and I know that I don’t have to write that down for you to know that it’s true. I don’t know a lot of things, but I know that you will understand that this time of us not being together is the sort of time where we can both separate our thoughts.

I know that you miss me. And I hope you know that I still miss you too. But with these miles put in front of us, you can’t blame me for my thoughts sometimes being elsewhere. I can’t force you to see that all this is doing to us is bringing us closer. But I know that you will know of this someday, and I know that we will forgive each other for for putting our energy into someone else who will never know who we really are.

I know that when we finally are together again, we won’t remember all of those intolerable arguments. We won’t go back and forth and remind each other of past mistakes, and I know that when you meet me at the place where we first fell in love, we’ll feel it all over again. We’re both tired of this wasted time, and I know that because when you tell me that you wish you were here, what you really mean to say is that if you could you would even drop the cup of scolding coffee onto your legs, if that meant just being able to look into my eyes. And I know that sounds cliché, but when I think of you everything feels warm enough to be able to shed my own skin, and be free of the life I once felt before I met you.

And I know that you’re busy. And I know that you probably have better things to worry about. But I know that if I don’t tell you one more time that we are going to make it, and that our love will be the only thing that is logged on the inside of my mind, I know that will be something that my tongue will hold against my heart. And if knowing that this time we have spent apart has made us stronger than ever before is wrong, than I guess I have never known anything that is so certain in my entire life.

I am a part of you.And just becauseyou are withsomeone else nowdoes not meanthat’s...

I am a part of you.
And just because
you are with
someone else now
does not mean
that’s something
that is ever
going to change.

Typewriter series: #2

Typewriter series: #2

The only momentsthat I remember usbeing happy, are themoments that we spentbeing...

The only moments

that I remember us

being happy, are the

moments that we spent

being uncontrollably

in love with

each others words.

I know that youstill love me.And I knowthat is somethingabout youthat will neverchange.

I know that you
still love me.
And I know
that is something
about you
that will never
change.

Whenever I think of youI think of the lifethat we could have hadif we would haveended up together.I...

Whenever I think of you
I think of the life
that we could have had
if we would have
ended up together.
I would have done
anything for you
to make you feel
as safe as possible.
I would defeat
your fears,
and if you let me
I could make you feel
the way that you
have always wanted
to feel; loved.

Typewriter series: #1

Typewriter series: #1

I do not love herbecause I am lonely.I love her becauseshe is the only onethat my eyeswill ever look...

I do not love her
because I am lonely.
I love her because
she is the only one
that my eyes
will ever look for.