P.J. Roscoe's Blog, page 18

Annoyed 1st August 2012

I feel annoyed at Create space - ordered fifty books - 49 arrive! Do they think I wouldn't count them? besides that, it was so obvious one was missing - all the others reached the top of the box save one pile - not professional at all. But then, even as I type this, perhaps they are not to blame? perhaps someone out there liked the look of my book so much, they took one to read and I'll hear of a brilliant review one day from a stranger!!

Anyway, my arm still hurts - elbow strain which is causing some discomfort, but still need to write.

Working on invitations to book launch today and selling myself again. I've noticed that lately, whenever anyone asks me how i am or show any interest in what I'm up to, I immediately mention the book, the writing and hate myself - in fact, i think I sound boring!!

Would love to know how other writers feel. Do we need to seel ourselves and our stories constantly or is there a time when it isn't needed anymore?

Busy busy busy head 31st July 2012

Well, another day and I've been marketing myself to death and i feel slightly dirty for it. I am sincere in my writing to other people, I know I am. I wouldn't waste mine or their time in pretending, yet, there is a slight feeling of betrayal in that, I would never have contacted them without a purpose, would I?

Is this how a ***** feels perhaps? One who enjoys her work? Enjoying what you do, yet feeling sullied at the same time?

I want people to want me and my stories. I am selling myself to people of the world in the hope that they can make me successful in what i do and I feel a touch of guilt with it.  Is this normal?

I took time out from selling myself today and bought linen material to attempt to make a medieval dress for the re-enactment group I've joined. Such parallel worlds. In one, I am the boss, forthright, confident(ish) and getting out there, enjoying my writing and looking ahead to the future. In the other, I am meek, unsure (because I haven't done anything with them yet) and still finding my feet, determined to learn about the past and be as authentic as I can be - which do I prefer? Which persona will I run to when I need to retreat into my quiet space? I wonder...?

Tired...27th July 2012

Well, I've had a few hours away from the computer at a medieval fair to get ideas and watch the re-enactors. I am working on ideas for a fourth book though my first is only just published!! Talk about jumping ahead???

Now for the book launch - if the damned books ever arrive? Why does it take weeks when someone can order on Amazon and it reaches them in two days? I am the author, surely it shouldn't be this hard to get my own work??