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Gideon Jagged Discusses his Polyamorous Fantasy Here at BDP

All – Please join me in welcoming a dear member of our community and a stunning writer, Gideon Jagged, to Black Door Press. If you haven’t picked up The Fate of the Stars yet, you should. Gideon’s writing is immersive and compelling and the world he creates is stunningly sexual and titillating while still making you feel like you’re on a fantastical quest. The Fate of the Stars is a true marriage of fantasy and the erotic. But, I could go on forever about this man’s writing, so I’m going to t...

Guess the Blogger: Get Those Pics In!

All – Your pictures are rolling in and I’ve got to say there is some really nice eye candy coming your way for the next round of Guess the Blogger. We’ve got some new participants and Gillian is even going the most risque I’ve ever been on this blog! So, no excuses this time guys get your pictures in. The game runs from July 6 through the weekend with the winner announced on July 9 and receiving a gift card to Amazon.

Remember NO FACES! Partial faces are fine but if we can tell what you look l...

On Being Emotionally Abused

Sexual abuse doesn’t eradicate the need for intimacy. It twists and distorts it into something to be avoided and regarded with suspicion, but it doesn’t remove the need for human contact. – Grace, Reborn

I wrote the above line in my short story, Reborn, for the WOCA anthology A Light in the Darkness. When I wrote it, I didn’t think about how it might apply to me because I’ve never been sexually abused. However, after my post on My Personal Crazy and my abandonment issues, I spent a very long t...

My Personal Crazy

I have abandonment issues. This is my own personal can of crazy. This means I am hyper-sensitive when I think people are pulling away from me. It also means that I find it next to impossible to address it head on because I think:

a) I’m going to come off like a crazy, psycho stalking-bitch

b) I really don’t feel like I should have to chase people down

c) I’m going to find out they really are blowing me off

d) I’m going to feel completely rejected and worthless per usual

The thing about me is that...

Stealing Sunday a Day Late

101. Name 4 things you always have with you.

My keys, my wallet, my phone and hand creme.

102. How many SERIOUS exes do you have?

One

103. What causes you to admire people

Being open-minded and kind to everyone. Someone who is generous of spirit, but also knows when to draw the line and doesn’t allow themselves to be a doormat. Someone who stands up for those who can’t do it for themselves.

104. Do you like sports?

Not in general. Like, I’m not going to watch football or basketball, but I do like to...

On Masturbating in Public

I masturbate in public. Often, I am surrounded by unsuspecting people which, of course, only adds to the moment. I never set out to do this. It’s not something I plan, but I don’t shy away from it if the opportunity presents itself.

Take for instance, the golf range. Recently, I brought my daughter to her LPGA training camp and was just hanging out watching her dad and the other players work on their driving and iron play when I began to contemplate how phallic golf is with its shafts and head...

Sweating the Little Things

Ya’ll know what kind of week I’ve been having. Needless to say, some good cheer was needed, but none to be found unfortunately. Work sucked ass and not in a good way. It’s to the point where Gillian has resumed looking for a job. (See what I did there … resume .. resumed … *sigh*) Anyway, all of your most excellent well wishes have kept me from running amok but I was still hovering on the edge of a serious anxiety attack when I stumbled across a post about the “little wins” in life. Those sm...

TMI Friday?

After the week I’ve had, I’m just not in a post mood. So, it’s fallback time to TMI Tuesday, but it’s Friday, but you get it … *sigh*

1. What star sign are you?

Leo in Western Astrology, Oxen in Chinese

2. Do you believe in horoscopes?

No. My father was a Leo too. Nuf said.

3. When is your birthday?

August 12

4. What’s the worst birthday gift a partner has given you?

I’ve only ever received one birthday present from my partner and it was awesome.

5. Are you organised when it comes to other people’s bi...

A Letter to St. Nick

Dear Santa,

I realize it is only June and not even Winter let alone close to Christmas, but I desperately need to believe there’s a little magic left in this world right now. You see exactly one year ago, I sacrificed a career I had spent 15 years building in order to do the right, the moral and the ethical thing. The cost to my family was huge and in June of 2011 we ran out of money.

I had to reinvent myself as a writer, sell everything we owned except some sentimental items and move to a comp...

Overheard … What Say You?

Gillian is busy pretending to like her job, while remembering I have bills to pay so I don’t tell my boss to shove it where the sun don’t shine, but I overheard this little tidbit and thought I’d share…

MAN: Men and woman cannot be friends. It isn’t possible.

WOMAN: Why can’t men and women be friends?

MAN: Because I have a dick and you have a pussy.

WOMAN: What’s that got to do with anything?

MAN: It means I would fuck you so we will never be friends.

What say you guys?