Rachel Hamilton's Blog, page 11

I Am Not A Great Woman Of Faith.

I have lost count of the times I have believed God would not come through for me. Yes you did read that right. I read about these amazing men and women of God who believe with such amazing faith and miracles happen. Sadly I am not one of them. I often struggle with believing in healing, believing that I have heard God’s voice. But guess what it says in the bible 

Matthew 17:20
He replied, “Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.”

This verse was so exciting to me because he understands my lack of faith and he is saying the little faith I have counts!! I know the longer I walk with him my faith will grow but right now my small amount of faith matters!! 

I am so thankful for the freedom and love God shows me everyday. Yes I am very normal and not some amazing anointed woman of God that blows everyone away with her faith but I am me and I am falling more in love with Christ everyday as my mustard seed faith slowly grows! 

I have to be perfect because I’m a Christian right?

So often as Christians we can be in so much bondage because we believe that Christians have to be perfect. That if we aren’t than we must be a terrible Christian. “Why should we even bother” we say “I’ll only mess it up again”. 

I tried to be perfect and it nearly destroyed me. The sad thing is we should be the ones walking in freedom but we are chained down by expectations we lay on ourselves and often those around us. We forget that even though God has forgiven our sins and given us new life, we are still human. 

God is the reason we don’t have to be perfect because he can use us just as we are. He can make something beautiful out of our imperfections.  

I used to be so afraid to say anything or let my views be known because what if I was wrong. But I am going to get things wrong, I am going to mess up but God is still there loving me.

My failures and mistakes don’t make me a bad Christian they make me human. God wants to free you and say my child you are mine and nothing will change that. I forgive your sins and you don’t need to be perfect because I am perfect. Don’t look to yourself or others for perfection instead keep your eyes fixed on me. 

Ecclesiastes 7:16

Do not be overrighteous, neither be overwise– why destroy yourself?

 

The Royal Baby.. less hate more prayer!

Watched a video today about how some people think Royal Baby is the Antichrist.. A baby who has just been born.. This baby has done nothing yet people have already labeled him saying his future will be one doing the devils work.. This breaks my heart.. God could be raising this baby up to change many lives for him.. This baby could be a powerful influence on the world for good.. So often we are so quick to jump to conclusions only God knows what the future holds.. We should get down on our knees and pray for this child. Pray that he will become an amazing man of God!! Pray that he can bring great good into this world.. We can’t change the world by hate but we can change it with prayer! 

 

God is a God that heals..

A few months ago in March without any warning I got really sick.. I was in unbearable pain so bad that that I was bedridden and couldn’t move.. I had terrible pain and swelling in one of my toes and shoulder, with unending pain in my bones.. Doctor visit after doctor visit, test after test and no one could give me any answers for the unending pain that I was in. Visits to the hospital become more regular then I could have ever imagined.. I begged God for answers but none came.. No one knew what the cause of the pain was.. Then the Doctor told me I had developed CRPS (RDS) from the unknown illness I have.. CPRS is a long term chronic pain condition but God has given me such amazing peace because I know none of this was by chance. No matter what happens to me God is watching over me.. My last Doctors visit he said he was very happy with how my blood tests are looking and I may be on the mend from the mystery illness..  God is a God that heals..

The pain of fame..

Justin Bieber, Miley Cyrus, Taylor swift, they are all famous, have amazing lives or so it may seem.. Millions of people know their names, they earn thousands of dollars and have VIP passes.. But do we ever stop to thing what the cost of fame is.. My heart goes out to these  stars.. Why.. because humans where never made to be worshiped.. It put huge amount of pressure on them.. Pressure to be perfect, to always be strong, to never make a mistake… All those people know them but do all of them really truly care about them as a person.. They have so many fans but so often its a lonely road for the one at the top.. Do they ever truly know who loves them for who they are deep down inside or just because they are popular.. Celebrities need our prayers more then ever.. Their journey is often so much harder then it looks to the outsider..    

My messy relationship with God..

My relationship with God is a very normal one.. I don’t speak in tongues, I don’t get prophecies or visions..I often struggle  to hear God’s voice.. I doubt his goodness.. I wonder if he is even there at times..I sin everyday no matter how hard I try.. I sometimes struggle with remembering to have quiet times with God.I don’t always love people the way I should.. I forget to count my blessings and complain about the things I don’t have..

Yes my relationship with God isn’t always beautiful or sunshine and roses but deep down I love him with my whole heart.. Deep down I want to be his hands and feet.. Deep down I want to do whats right..

We can often get so caught up thinking I am a failure as a christian because I don’t read my bible as much as I should.. We see the things we are not doing and hate ourselves and see ourselves as unworthy but God sees the big picture and he is so proud of you.. He sees that you may not have reading the bible everyday together but he sees your heart and he smiles.. Your relationship with Him is just what I said.. You and God.. Don’t hate yourself.. God loves you and is proud!!

Nothing is wasted..

Such a comforting song.. This song is on repeat :)

God is changing me…

Sometimes I just wonder what God is doing.. I know he plans for me..But sometimes it just seems I am going around in circles doing nothing.. Making one mistake after another.. Tripping over my past sins over and over again. Sinking deeper into my failures.. But through the mess… God is moulding me..

Changing me to be a woman after his heart.. Someone who can rise from the ashes and smile because I am chosen and loved. I am forgiven.. I am never going to be perfect but I am always going to be loved.. Not always going to be strong but always able to lean of Christ.. I am redeemed and I smile because my past is not my future!! Christ is my future!!

He Knows the pain..

You know the tears you know the pain you carried the sorrow, you carried the shame..

You lift the weak and carry the poor, you open blind eyes and so much more,

you hate the sin but treasure the sinner.

You know my name and you are the redeemer.