My messy relationship with God..

My relationship with God is a very normal one.. I don’t speak in tongues, I don’t get prophecies or visions..I often struggle  to hear God’s voice.. I doubt his goodness.. I wonder if he is even there at times..I sin everyday no matter how hard I try.. I sometimes struggle with remembering to have quiet times with God.I don’t always love people the way I should.. I forget to count my blessings and complain about the things I don’t have..

Yes my relationship with God isn’t always beautiful or sunshine and roses but deep down I love him with my whole heart.. Deep down I want to be his hands and feet.. Deep down I want to do whats right..

We can often get so caught up thinking I am a failure as a christian because I don’t read my bible as much as I should.. We see the things we are not doing and hate ourselves and see ourselves as unworthy but God sees the big picture and he is so proud of you.. He sees that you may not have reading the bible everyday together but he sees your heart and he smiles.. Your relationship with Him is just what I said.. You and God.. Don’t hate yourself.. God loves you and is proud!!