P.B. Flower's Blog
September 9, 2025
Primal Echoes in Modern Life
That's your inner caveman knocking. You know... When you want to cuss and abandon the things you're pushed to do because of responsibilities, or when you're told that it is the only way. And when you have to pretend and hide what doesn't suit societal norms.
The reality is, we're biologically hardwired for a world that no longer exists; this creates fascinating conflicts in our daily lives.
Understanding these ancient impulses isn't about regressing, it's about unlocking untapped potential within our modern existence.
I've said this before, and I'll say it again: The same order applies whether you live in the wild or in our artificial society. Because were all competing for our space, our share of the bounty. The rules are a little different, but the result is the same. There can only be one winner.
How barbaric is that? Aren't we a society that claims to uplift everyone? Then why is there so much discrimination?
Because we still operate with caveman mentality.
There is a dire need to restore your instinctual GPS. Intolerance and nonobjectivity of individuals and societal narratives makes our "fight or flight" response still crucial. But how many of us misdirect it on social media
instead of saber-toothed tigers (I know they are extinct). What I mean is that fighting is considered primal if you're being rude and dumping your inner prejudice and bigotry. Even when it is on social media.
You know why? Because if it were in person, you will take flight. Move on. Ignore. At best, you'd bitch about it behind people's back.
Let's redirect this energy. Not to fight the wild animals. Nor to become a keyboard warrior. But to hone our power of intuition: That gut feeling which springs in the background. And not confuse it with the reactionary response that comes from conditioned mindset. I am talking about the feeling that makes you see the duplicity of whatever is going on.
That my friend… is your primal brain offering a shortcut to the right decision. We've forgotten how to listen to that voice. Or we ignore it as impulsive. Even call it animalistic. Let me give an example - Have you felt like resigning from your job? Don't lie, we all have. But even after whining all the time, and hating it to the core, you continue to go and slog another day. What if the rejection you're feeling from within for the toxic job, that's paying your living, is not worth it? I mean, you're unable to find what would suit you best because that toxic job is taking up all the time. Even the time you need to enjoy the material things you were able to buy because of that toxic job.
How about you Imagine leveraging focus, resilience, and problem-solving skills honed by millennia of survival? I mean survival of the human race. Now apply that native wisdom to today's challenges.
I'll give you another example: You could be drawn to nature and growing food. But you're stuck in a corporate job that drains you out.
The question is: When will you take the step needed to cut the cord?
I'll tell you... The time is now.
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August 2, 2025
Do We Realize Enumeration
- Free means we are the beta tester or clutter clearing instrument
- The only freedom we have is choosing from given options
- We are not the body but ideas
- Anything exists because we separate it from ourselves, anyone exists because we don't see them the same as us
- We never act but react, meaning we respond to prompts just like the AI
- We never invent but replicate organic concepts
- No matter how successful, we never stop looking for like-minded people
- Depression is lack of enjoyment, because we cannot stand a single moment of unhappiness
- anything we do is to seek a state of deriving, our every reaction, thus is a pleasure movement
- if we truly don't care about something, or claim that we are over it, we wouldn’t notice it at all, it will cease to come to mind unless prompted
- Life is movement and if measured it requires points of reference, suggesting there is an end and a beginning
- there is no clear definition of life and death, it is simply a change
- We never feel others' emotions but play it out by putting ourselves in the situation or identity if we have also been through it. An empath can replicate it better than others, feeling it at a heightened level.
- you can only become famous when you share commonality with the crowd, it can be a longing or something prevailing. It is called touching lives.
- Bitterness is a form of misery because we can't get what we want all the time
- Jealousy is natural because we constantly compare
- Awareness is chaos and ignorance is peace
July 10, 2025
Ideals
Can we abide by societal rules, follow law, maintain order, and devote unreservedly to our personal and religious beliefs? Not unless we are superhumans. We all fall short of one or many of these demands at some point in our lives. There are always half measures. There are always adjustments. And... There are always exceptions.
The bar of the ideal human in our world is set too high and the tenets are contradictory. You can't do good and expect good if it doesn't fall within the bounds of societal rules. Justice is at times not served when compromised by power and money. The law is 'after the fact' and relies heavily on instilled fear to stop a crime from happening. That's why supplemental insurance, surveillance, and security measures are required.
Sadly, justice cannot undo the personal damage, insurance cannot replace sentiments, personal security cannot deter the stupid, fearless, and desperate.
The rest of us are forced to survive the gap between casualty and objectivity. We do so by compromising our beliefs to reach our goals, coning the system by using loopholes, compensating the lost integrity by doing charity. Some can do these better than the others, rising in hierarchy.
Is there an ideal human being, then? I don't suppose there can ever be one. We are all doing our best. And even when not everybody's best is good enough, life goes on. So, stop fretting.
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I decided to pick Shin’s brain. “Tell me, partner. If someone kills anyone for whatever reason. And we, as per law, kill them in turn. Shouldn’t somebody kill us too?”
“By the logic of what now?” Shin was captivated by my theoretical take.
“Isn’t it a cycle that must be completed?”
“I don’t believe the cyclical nature of things applies here. We’re following rules and helping get justice.”
“Legal Code dictates our code. Another code has to be there to take responsibility for our actions. We also have killed or assisted in bringing death to someone. How’s our reasoning any better than the killer’s?”
“Retributive justice?” Shin laughed, slamming my insane logic.
“Eye for an eye is what we do.”
“Legally, not unlawfully, partner.”
“Only because the killer’s side has been rendered wrong based on the rules we made. It would be interesting if a criminal always believes they’re not wrong.” I wiggled my brows to elicit his intellect some more.
“We follow protocols. It’s not about belief.”
“A rationale is always backed by belief, Shin. We justify one way of killing over another, driven by thought-out societal consensus.” I tossed a meta-theory for rendition.
Shin rubbed his chin in amusement. “What about suicide?”
“In the case of suicide, it might be the repetitive cycle of you killing yourself… Over and over again.”
“So if it’s not natural, it keeps going.” Shin grinned ear to ear, though worried for my well-being. “I’m intrigued by your thought process.”
June 2, 2025
Dreams - A construct of Mind and Experiences
Let me get back on track... Dreams. So yes, my husband was recently sharing his metaphysical take on dreams. He said, 'Dreams are created by external triggers from surroundings and memories. Senses are still operational except eyes. Though light can penetrate our skin, the largest sensory organ.'
I found it strange... but plausible. When we are asleep, our senses are not operational to practical extent. They still pick up the occurrences around us. We might not process and react to touch, a sound, or a scene playing out. It doesn't mean our body didn't register it. Except for the eyes, our body continues to gather data. It is fed to our brain, and we create dreams.
Some people experience hearing a sound and get up. Yet others make it a part of their dream. They might wake up later and be confused if the sound was real, or did they dream about it. A lot of kids wet their beds because they can't differentiate between reality and dream. Many have claimed they felt someone choking them and woke up to find it wasn't real but there is evidence of bodily trauma. Though dreams occur involuntarily, our body still participates in the mind-driven construct.
Another strange phenomenon is the perception of passage of time when dreaming. It seems to pass at a faster pace. If we consider Albert Einstein’s theory of general relativity, which predicts that where gravity is stronger, time passes more slowly (also known as time dilation). It would suggest that we could be separated from our bodies and not under the influence of gravity. That's why we experience a lifetime within the two-three hours of dream-state we enter every night.
Wouldn't it be fun to have control on our dreams? Well, it is possible and is a trained cognitive state called Lucid Dreaming. This psychological phenomenon lends to what my husband theorized about external triggers contributing to dreams.
Although we have researched a lot on dreams. They are still a mystery. No matter the triggers, dreams suggest we are all storytellers, right?
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May 29, 2025
Sci-Fi Dystopias: Are We Headed There?
Though the question is intriguing, could it be happening right now? If you feel it is, then it has to be based on the assumption that humans are more powerful than nature.
But are we?
Technology has been marketed provocatively throughout history. Inventions have been sold even when the need never existed. If you believe in scientific data of how long humans have been on earth, then you would know that we have been doing fine without technology for thousands of years.
Going back in time is past hope. The ground reality says technology is supposed to make life easier. But we all know our lives are not any easier than a hundred years ago. Human problems still exist.
A biased scrutiny will conclude that technology could be leading us down a dangerous path. Otherwise, we are still in the same place we were - Unhappy and controlled by the elite faction.
Circling back to Are we more powerful than nature... I do not, for even a second, believe that we are. Nature has the power to reset itself. Because it is an ecosystem. Its evolution is longer than that of humans. Its intelligence is innate and beyond us. For now…
If we look through the lens of technology, we're living in a world where surveillance is rampant, and social control is increasingly powerful. From your phone feeds to every available product in the market, it is all administered. Even when you create a product, it is with the intent to sell for a profit. Everything is a psychological operation, giving you the illusion of control and ability to make choices.
Is this the beginning of a dystopian nightmare depicted in sci-fi books and movies?
As a writer and content creator, I'm fascinated by the potential for both good and evil in technology. Some of the classic dystopian visions and lessons from fiction narratives warn us about advancements. Iconic dystopian works like "1984", "Brave New World", and "The Handmaid's Tale" detail a very plausible future. Common themes in these classics is loss of control of our native abilities and dependance on artificial means to survive. These stories offer warnings of the coming.
Such themes have resonated with audiences over time and continue to be relevant today. Readers are picking up books that have been written decades ago as they still make sense. Actually, they make more sense today because some of it is a reality now.
The lines between science fiction and reality are blurring. Many technologies such as TV's, self-driving cars, hand-held devices such our phones, space-living on International Space Station is a reality. Even hover-rides are being tested. Soon robots will be sent for combats, and we can do away with human sacrifices. At the same time, AI-powered automation is taking over the scene with its efficiency and accuracy. It is still evolving, using you as the subject by offering free use. Bard AI by Google, Gemini, is a notch above Generative AI by OpenAI, ChatGPT. Bard AI is using the secret data collected by Google to learn. While Generative AI is still using the public data available to you and me. Many of us still rely on AI for research because it is faster. And we are all about saving time... for God knows what!?
And so…. Are the chilling dystopian worlds we see in movies and books actually closer than we think?
Or could it be that we are creating utopia?
I feel change is inevitable. If AI is the course of action, then we cannot hold back and risk being left out. At the same time, we have to find a middle ground to live with distorting future run by machines in the foreground.
May 19, 2025
Submission
Submitting to another is often viewed as a negative thing. Especially physical and emotional submission. One doesn't knowingly submit themselves. Unless one was raised to never question. Even then, once they step out in the world, the idea of independence will lure them. However, people in powerful positions love to engage in BDSM type activities to loosen up. It is liberating to give up the control for once and let someone else do the bidding. Yet many others are made to submit by force or emotional manipulation.
So, is the act of submission a positive or a negative thing? Well, nothing is absolute. Even truth is subjective because we cannot see things as is. Whatever falls on our senses is reflected after being processed by our brain using the existing knowledge. This knowledge is stored as memory in various parts of our body so it can be applied efficiently. Meaning, we are bound to our individual perception which is driven by our acquired knowledge.
Isn't that submission?
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March 22, 2025
Psyops
Okay, okay. Maybe not everyone swoons over cute cats. Some of us are dog lovers. Others prefer exotic animals as pets.
This proves there’s no universal formula for what makes us like something. So how does societal conditioning work? What makes something unnatural click?
The most effective way to condition someone is from birth. After that, it requires tapping into our fears. The most basic one? The fear of survival. This becomes a hook to lure anyone toward embracing a preposterous, otherwise nonsensical idea. For example: We’re all fearful of the unknown. An unfamiliar ethnicity may spark curiosity, but often, it also makes us keep our distance. With a well-crafted narrative, this uncertainty can be exploited to instill unjustified fear.
This kind of manipulation began with organizations and unions. While these were effective at mobilizing workers, it was discovered that entertainment could have an even greater impact. With televisions, chosen messages could be conveyed while amusing the masses. People felt empowered even when these broadcasts were openly referred to as “programs.” Newspapers, magazines, radios, cinemas, and smartphones all became tools for disseminating targeted information.
Today, social media leads the way in influencing minds. Its reach is deeper and more affordable than ever. People compete for their few seconds of fame.
But remember, algorithms dictate what appears in your feed. Read that again. The key word here is feed. Everything you consume on your phone is fed to you. Even when you use the search function, the results are curated and supervised.
This movement to alter objective reasoning is called Psyops.
One striking example is the feminist movement, which allegedly began as a way to collect more taxes. With more women working, families turned to daycare services for their children. Busier lifestyles led to eating out more often. Dual-income households gained greater spending power, stimulating the economy.
Psyops is used in many ways. The primary agenda remains constant: influence the thinking of a target population. It’s a distraction, keeping people focused on working harder for money (or other forms of exchange), promising a semblance of buying power. At the same time, it divides the population by exploiting their fears. As a result, people don’t question their controlled state.
But why all of this? Why can’t we live as it’s portrayed? The answer is simple: as humans, we are both selfish and competitive. Selfishness demands cooperation with others to survive, while competitiveness insists we don’t let others get ahead. A select few, often referred to as the “Illuminates,” understand this friction. They resist equality, fairness, and justice while ensuring enough people support their cause and work for them. Psyops helps them maintain this perfect balance.
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March 9, 2025
Charity
We all know resources are limited or quantifiable. It goes for both natural and manufactured products. There are limits. And so, when wealth leans towards a select few, it automatically means someone is left lacking. Is it always justified, is a different debate. Because nothing in this world is just - neither nature nor the human world. We cannot say for sure that the one who doesn't get a share of the limited resources didn't work hard enough. It is not always dependent on effort and sometimes people seem to get lucky or are born into wealth. That which not many accept. I'd say it is the odds of randomness being on your side.
Getting back to charity, it can only be done by the one that owns something. You know, someone who is in a position to part with what they possess. It starts by determining that one owns more than many others. One must compare themselves with the one that owns a lesser share of the limited resources.
Let's also bring to mind the fact that we have come too far from the 'basic needs is enough' narrative. Most of us own more than we can content with in our lifetime. To mask our hoarding, we partake in charity. We only give what we are comfortable giving.
Many participate in charity to gain positive attention and feel good. Yet for others it is get tax write-off. For a select few, it is to divert negative scrutiny. No one wants people to revolt against one's monetary obscenity. We all want to be seen as someone who is grateful.
But here is the thing, gratitude is one being thankful for being in a better position than the others. One has to be superior to the rest in some sense to be grateful. We are grateful about avoiding what's negative and receiving what's positive for our continued existence.
We invent positivity to hide the negativity that dominates our individuality. Sometimes we extend this selfish attitude to our family and friends. And so, the essence of humanity is not all things positive. In fact, it is beating the odds and coming out as the winner.
Are we decorous enough to accept that?
Now, being selfish is a good thing. Because only when we are selfish to the core, will we absorb the crude reality that we need the others to survive in the human world. Interdependence is the essence of human society and in turn the essence of humanity. Therefore, charity is fair-to-middling.
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“Sharing was caring, I thought,” she griped.
“Only when you get robbed. That is the most selfless sharing. If it is to make yourself feel good or out of guilt of hoarding too much, then it is not sharing.”
Zeenat was amazed at how strangely he condemned charity. “Is it all wrong then?”
“Nothing is wrong or right. I’m just stating what it is. Any act of charity is associated with guilt or self-grandeur.” He leaned forward. “You felt guilty for throwing away food when someone else could use it and feel grand to have been in a position to give.”
Ekluvya paused to breathe, and Zeenat felt all the air around her siphoning inside his lungs. She twitched.
“I’m incapable of feeling both.” He announced, standing behind his massive, comfortable leather chair, indisputably made by killing and skinning an animal.
January 22, 2025
Survival or Abidance
It is no different for an animal in the wild. Except they don’t have the artificial layer called society between them and nature. Despite that, we all get acquainted with how to survive the given life one way or the other. If not, we go back to creation as energy.
In its simplest form, survival is continued existence by enduring the hardships of life. In the wild, animals rarely get a chance to acknowledge their loss and emotions. It is all about moving forward with no grander goal than staying alive and furthering their own kind.
Due to the artificial layer called society, humans have many other inspirations to continue. Our way of life is not survival in the truest sense but abidance. We must abide by the rules and standards of human society. In return, we don’t have to fight predators or natural forces constantly. Even though wild animals face that every second of the day and seem to be doing fine. Human intervention is still the number one cause of rendering any species extinct.
Our way of life has made us safer and give us an advantage over all other species. However, it has bred other burdens - human problems. Unfortunately, these are not objective challenges and cannot be solved but managed. We have traded vulnerability for security only to face intangible issues. We wake up facing one or many of the following daily - stress, anxiety, depression, self-doubt, addiction, and worries about our health, finances, and future. These are bucketed as personal problems; even though help is available, it never resolves them for good. Societal functioning is designed to make us run after a moving target. When we achieve what we had set out for, a new thing arrives, luring us into another race.
Natively we should be able to go and take what we want. Because nature doesn’t have a price on anything. It is all free. Of course, your life is always on the line in the wild as you are fighting with others using your native abilities and nothing else.
However, it is not the case in society. We have different needs. entirely different rules, and we are also equipped with tools and technology apart from native abilities. You cannot act on a whim. Everything has to be planned and tallied with what is acceptable. Most human problems arise from having to follow societal rules. We cannot react impulsively to meet even our basic needs, let alone fulfill our desires for what’s beyond that. Our innate proclivities seem to oppose our conditioned mindset.
Is life in the wild better in any sense? Even if it is, we are way too advanced to return to being a nomad. Philosophically speaking - we have come too far from reality to even consider living in the wild like animals. Nonetheless, moving forward is the only available choice as we cannot go back in time and fix our neurotic behavior. Perhaps we need to prioritize time travel and not colonization of Mars.
Even so, I am thankful for this separation between myself and nature.
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January 10, 2025
Content Creators
Then came innovative technology, making online entertainment more popular. It needs minimal physical effort from our side, and we can tune into what we like with the click of a few buttons. Even the artists stand and perform before a green screen, and the postprocessing does the rest.
The rise of social media took away entertainment patents from prominent performers, artists, and stars. Ordinary people like you and me can create and post content online for mass consumption. It still requires human effort from both the creator and the consumer. Still and all, things have become more manageable. Anyone can become famous now. But is it as easy as that?
Short answer, NO.
To get the long answer, we must understand what entertainment is. It is not a means to merely seek pleasure. Television and radio were started to program people. Most movies have an agenda - make money. Producers of films pour in the capital in hopes of profit. It is all business.
Nothing wrong with that. We crave pleasure and consume the things that provide us pleasure. There is a demand, and content creators are supplying it. But… Have we ever wondered who created the demand in us to seek pleasure?
Let’s face it, if things were not automated and available readily, we would be busy from the wee hours of morning till dusk. Sustaining ourselves is a chore; automation has made it easier, sparing us time. Fun fact, this time is not yours and belongs to the people who control or program you. You are not seeking pleasure but watching what is fed to you. So that you don’t invest this spare time on yourself and keep stimulating the economy further. So you put the money you earned back where it came from. The controllers want you to remain a mindless consumer. It is a great way to stop the crime rate and create crimes by fueling public sentiment.
Social media platforms need content creators just as much as content creators need a platform to dump their creations. Because the public is waiting for new things to come. They want to stare at a screen without doing much. It keeps their mind engaged. Mind is where most problems come from. It is imperative to control it.
So, is being a content creator a safe job?
Short answer: NO.
Long answer... With the rise of AI, there is an interim position called knowledge workers. These people know the AI technology and how to work it. They are being employed to train AI to be more efficient. Once that happens, knowledge workers and content creators will be obsolete. Kind of like self-driving cars will eliminate or scale down driving-related work and jobs. In the future, you can choose what you want to watch. You can select actors, storyline, plot, and scenes. The AI will model the content for you instantly. You wouldn’t even have to type or speak. A microchip in your head will read your thoughts and do that. Thank you so much, Elon Musk!
Of course, once you have been studied by AI, you will also be obsolete.
Another strange truth. None of the forms of entertainment is dead, but it has changed how it reaches you. Even the live performance is very much there. It is expensive, though. Anything with human intervention will exist but in moderation and would be out of reach of commoners. Because only a manual switch can override the machine.
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