Joy Leftow's Blog, page 10

Will The Real Violetwrites Please Stand Up

For Fat Girls Who Want to Have Fun - I attest to this!I love putting on wigs. I love wearing wigsI love feeling differentlike I can choose a new me who I want to be, a new self when I put on a wig, I feel more freeI don’t know how free I can beI don’t know if I can ever be meBecause reaching for meIs only the next realityOf who I can be where I want to beWant to be freeMore of me shining through the alternativePsychic reality of desire to beTo make a better me Emerge from the light Another new sight
Wigs cant make me a better personBut they make me feel bigger and betterIn the moment of a cheating heartmy poetry flows like liquid literallyEach time I wear wigs I feel I choose a new me I want to be, a new self, I become because when I put on a wig, I am more freeI say more because wig or notI'm a chubby girl having fun wearing a wigpretending to be someone I'm not
Wearing a wig or notWigs let me pretend I am who I want to beAnd eventually I will be meSee, I wrote this on Amazon for a free wigAnd it was written by true me, like with each new wig I chooseI can choose a new me who I want to be, a new self when I put on a wig, I am more freeI try to be more than I am, bigger than I am More of me than I am ever to anyoneMore me, better bigger, more confident, prettier, younger, More precise in being a better me
Who am I I ask myself everydayWho is the real meWill the real violetwrites please stand upPlease Please stand upAre you like me?I’m the one I claim I’ll never beI’m the one I try too hard to beLaughing & crying, I stand up to try to see who is the real meI try to be the one I seethe me I own todayis the one I see everyday

Hey all - don't you want to see what I get for free?

It is really strange but for about 2 years now, I have been getting stuff for free or almost free, for review. I may actually pay - when I pay - 19 to 99 cents for an item I may have brought anyway. You can check out my actual reviews and some of you may want to write reviews too. You need to be an Amazon Prime member and use Amazon and write reviews in order for sellers to begin writing and asking you to do reviews. That is how it happened. I get stuff everyday almost that has to be reviewed. It has turned into a 10 hour to 15 hour weekly gig for which I get paid in stuff. 
Here is a partial list of things I've gotten, sometimes several brands of the same item that I know people will use. I fine it's worth it just to give stuff away to people. 
1.  DVD - R/RW2.  Wigs3.  Cat toys4.   Mouse5.   Two Wrist Rest for Mouse & Keyboard6.   Two wigs7.   3 humidifiers- two are for changing lights and to be used with natural oil scents  8.   Colored Pencils9.   Children's toys and art supplies10. Make ups and brush sets
And tons of other stuff that it is too much to go through. Plus I wrote a new poem inspired by my amazon profile.  It is fun too since I've been homebound and now am recovering from surgery on my foot. Take a look at the link to my profile above and please like some of my ads. 
What is clear is that sellers like my reviews. 

DO YOU REALLY THINK I’M CRAZY?

The electromagnet sitting on the fridge makes me biggerCarrot juice makes me stronger Zinfandel makes me grow longer Broccoli to make muscle mass leanerI've grown two inches taller since you last saw me Did I mention ginger burns fat? I'm 20 pounds thinner in only 2 months. Ginkgo biloba makes me smarterAll other species of Ginkgophyta extinctGingo biloba only one leftUse many herbs to cure my numerous ills Quicker ills pop up faster they disintegrateGarlic cures infections inside and out
I'm superwoman, you're a has been No justice at all. Need rulers to tell us what to doFollowers need leadersLike Peter Pan and Benjamin Button we never grow olderLike Benjamin Button, every day  grow younger Soon we won't exist at all No need to hire anyone for workDo everything ourselves Super powers in our brain. Self-sufficient towersOf humanityWe"ll be better every day. Poor, downtrodden humans will survive
Hopefully we'll all finally get what we deserve!

Love Immortalized

What’s your name?Ten thousand stars up in the sky Mimic the light in your eyes What’s your name?Is it Sammy or Charles?Or ten thousand names I can’t sayWhat’s your name?Ten thousand stars up in the sky Twinkling bright like the stars in your eyesI long to feel your arms embrace meLinger and softly touch my faceOh it’s too bad, so sadA thousand stars up in the sky Created my own demiseLove seeps through my veinsFaster than a rumor throughThrough a small townLove is the valley of my mind’s eye
Can’t make me realizeThat giving you my heart is so unwise Your love is untrue – vaporizedEveryone who criticized youWas right to warn me Not to idolize youTo love is to learnAlthough my heart yearnsFor you babyYou remain taciturn and unconcerned I cannot mend my broken heart Everyone told me I was too smartTried to tear us apartI insisted you were my sweetheartOur love was doomed from the startSaw you through blinded eyesNow I realize my heart is so unwise

I DID PHILLIP MARGOLIN REVIEW

Wild Justice (Amanda Jaffe, #1) 
by Phillip Margolin (Goodreads Author) 
Joy Leftow's review Aug 05, 2016  ·  edit
liked itRecommended to Joy by: dunno actually - have read him before ...Recommended for: mystery loversRead from June 26 to 28, 2016 , read count: 1
SPOILERS:
DO NOT READ IF YOU HAVEN'T READ THE BOOK AND MAY READ IT SOMETIME IN THE FUTURE!!!

YOU CAN READ THIS TIDBIT IF YOU KNOW YOU WON'T READ THE BOOK IN THE FUTURE AND - OR - ARE TOTALLY UNINTERESTED IN MYSTERIES. THEN BY ALL MEANS, READ MY SHORT REVIEW.

Read if you like my writing, reviews or styles and you'd like perusing more of my thoughts!

As soon as Tony was on the scene I figured he was the one. Kind of disappointing in that I was right. I kept hoping for some kind of last second Robert Parkers Twist. That didn't happen. I do like Mr. Margolin's poetic style and his word usage. Wild Justice is a page turner. Even though I knew he was serial killer, I kept wanting to see it played out. The characters don't know what I know because I've been reading the story from several points of view. I also read because I wanted to make certain Tony got caught. I liked the last minute - try to escape from being caught scenes. Those caught my attention. 

Please hep me somebody... hep me please - please - please

Ladder of Years 
by Anne Tyler 

Joy Leftow's review
Aug 05, 2016  ·  edit
it was amazingRecommended for: Everyone, young and old, any age male and female, any age who can read and understand the words.Read in August, 2016 , read count: 1
I like to read poetic, witty and unsettling work make to make me consider who I am and where I stand in the lives of people who know me or are close to me. I've read several of Tyler's books and always want to consume more. Her words and the way they flow in "Ladder of Years," feeds my desire to know - to know why I am the am that I am - to know the how I betray this I am - and how to consider changing the I of who I am. We can be another I, not the I that we know and are familiar with.
With each day we live - every choice - no matter how meaningless each choice seems, makes a difference in the next step we take. Literally, like children, we create and recreate ourselves every day in different ways and that is what Tyler's emphasis is on her portrayal with Delia.

I read because I want to know. I want to know what other writers write and how they think. I want to be me expressing who I am by my writing. Reading other writers make me a better writer. I read 75 percent of what I read to enjoy myself. The other 25 percent is to learn various things I want to learn and need to read to learn.

This book exemplifies how much of ourselves we hide, just like Delia. We ignore the things we want to say. We try to avoid hurting others or changing too much so we can stay where we are. And just sometimes, we feel a glimmer of hope and we take that first step to seeing and exploring ourselves. It brings me great pleasure and glee to watch Delia do all the things I want to do. I want to just up and leave my life and start over, just like Delia.

Strangely enough this review reminds me of the movie I just watched at iTunes, "Bird" directed by Charlie Parker. The movie and the book both gave me thoughts for food. I know it's supposed to be food for thought, yet for me, it is thoughts for food because the food is in the meat of the novel or movie. 
CRAZY IS AS CRAZY DOES!

I'm So Pretty, Pretty is as Pretty Does

When I smile I get prettyWhen I feel pretty, I’m happy
When I’m happy, I get wittyWhen I’m witty, I join committeesWhen I join committees, I escape to other citiesIt’s a pity I can’t be happy all the timeBut I discovered if I smile and laughIt’s as though a seraph sits on my shoulder
Laugh all you want but I laugh And the world loves me back,I get no flack, get the knackSmile on through to the other side
I’m ignored by riffraff and sales staff Not sure it it’s a blessing or a curseI love the world, The world loves meLike two turtle dovesBeing natives in the jungleThe world and me Have the world to ourselvesAll I have to do is laughWear a smile on my faceAnd very simply put~ Wearing a smile is how I get happy

Keeping Promises ...

Promises we keep and promises we forget...

In looking through my emails to find an email from a seller wanting me to review a bluetooth stereo headset, I came across an email from a person, written in 2013 and I'm not certain I did what I promised.

Back then, November 26th, 2013, The Cartier Street Review received an email from a person, who called himself Jeremy. I don't recall the email itself, but in my email history I see our correspondence. I basically informed "Jeremy" that sending a website to the magazine is not a way to get published - unless one of our editors visited the page and found either art, poetry or began an interview with the person about their art.

With this frame of reference we continued our dialogue with me telling him everything I read on his webpage is true but I don't know what to do with it. Also the links to the pages I was attempting to access did not work that day. But today, every link worked perfectly and never to late: violet on the spot ~ and so, I am sharing now.

On the website of this person, who insisted way back in our email correspondence of July 24th, 2013, that they wish to remain anonymous, I saw and heard some pretty cool things, and as everyone always says and I believe myself, BETTER LATE THAN NEVER.

AND FOR THIS REASON I GIVE THIS LINK TO ANONYMOUS'S WEBSITES.

LISTEN TO THE MUSIC:

http://www.heartofeternal.org/ark/aud/02_pnubalistych.mp3

http://www.heartofeternal.org/ark/aud/02_pnubalistych.mp3

http://www.heartofeternal.org/ark/aud/07_warcry.mp3


Anonymous is clearly talented and very diverse.

Poetry

Just browse through this maze of art ~

RANTING ON ABOUT LIFE’S A BITCH AND THEN YOU DIE

From one day to the next, week to weekNothing changes muchEveryone’s out of touchHoard our penniesCat sidles up, rubs against my legsThrows herself on the floor, begsPaws raised, belly open, submissive to her fateSuddenly on her feet, readyTo attack Magick catI can’t figure out why Cleo’s So mean to MagickBoils down to animal instincts I guessWe cannot help but be who we areCleo puts on a showAll about the importance we attributeTo behavior that gives it importance Gives powers, molds us into Who we want to be, how we seeEverything on our planet evolvesFrom how we humans attribute importanceLike a rule we live byI should have been dead if notFor protection spells a fairy put over meI lived in a private hellLost on the edge of a consonant I meander through verbs and adverbsSynonyms, antonyms and homonymsI’m the master ofA fucking weird word disasterMy world’s spinning fasterI’m not a Christian, I’m a JewThrough and throughNo holds barredJesus is my brethren, my brotherFrom a Jewish mother and fatherJesus is the original ChristianLike you, me tooBuddhists told me reflect on death dailySo I won’t fear itReally I said, “Is that so, will that work?”At six I obsessed about death,Couldn’t imagine that one day I’ll not be hereContinued reflecting in my teensLonging for success, I digress, I confess, my life’s a messMy restlessness came to possess meTried to access the truthFor days I roamed the desertOf my mindAnd still couldn’t find the Answer to my despairCame to the conclusionLife’s not fair,No one caresJealous of my flairI dare to emergeCan’t merge into someone else’s shoesSubmerged & locked in a smoke laden roomSunk in a funk in godforsaken messI’ll pack my bags to see where it takes meSlice a sapphire in half and
Become part of the trinity

PEACE TO ALL SENTIENT BEINGS

Summer’s here but the living’s not easyHumidity abates here and there,The air’s pretty hazyTime’s Square still sleazy Closed public seating thereGet all our food – from who knows whereWhen I think about it, get scaredEasy times are rareLife’s very unfairEspecially for animals on factory farmsWant us to think our meat’s here by charmNothing’s very clearIf we were to witness animals' suffering, Their atmosphere, no space, no air, Living in their excrementHow many of us could bear The suffering, does anyone care?I sit here in my chair waiting For the rain to come to clean Dirty city airWild horses corralled by helicopters in the airTaken to slaughterhouses in MexicoDenied food or water, hundreds of thousandsBy our inhumane society and made into dog foodMarilyn Monroe, a humanist through and throughExposed this in her last film, the Misfits, in 1961Look it up online at American Wild Horse PreservationTrying to deal with so much crueltyHorrors, animals’ tormentThe world’s not what it’s meant to beTake a deep breath, Ask who cares?
How do us humans dare?

Words From Great Minds To Remember:

“A righteous man regards the life of animals” – PROVERBS 12:10; 
“If you have men who will exclude any of God’s creatures from the shelter of compassion & pity, you will have men who will deal likewise with their fellow men” – ST. FRANCIS OF ASSISI; 
“Never, never be afraid to do what’s right, especially if the well-being of a person or animal is at stake. Society’s punishments are small compared to the wounds we inflict on our soul when we look the other way.” – MARTIN LUTHER KING, JR.;
“I hope to make people realize how totally helpless animals are, how dependent on us, trusting as a child must that we will be kind and take care of their needs…(They) are an obligation put on us, a responsibility we have no rights to neglect, nor to violate by cruelty….” – JAMES HARRIOT; 
“The greatness of a nation & its moral progress can be judged by the way its animals are treated” – MAHATMA GANDHI