Sick Kids in Love Quotes

“You stop noticing pain, is the thing.
You notice it when it’s really bad, or when it’s different, but… on the rare occasion someone asks me what it’s like to live with RA, I don’t ever know what to say. They ask me if its painful, and I say yes because I know intellectually it must be, because the idea of doing some of the things that other people do without thinking fills me with dread and panic, but I always think about it mechanically. I can’t do x. I don’t want to do y. I don’t continue the thought into I can’t do that because it would hurt. I don’t want to do that because then I would be in pain.
You can’t live like that. There’s only so much you can carry quietly by yourself, so you turn an illness into a list of rules instead of a list of symptoms, and you take pills that don’t help, and you do stretches, and you think instead of feeling. You think.”
― Hannah Moskowitz, Sick Kids in Love

“God, I’m tired. You know what will be fun?” “What?” “When we can stop pretending that we’re interesting people who go out and do things and instead we can hang out and just do nothing.”
― Hannah Moskowitz, Sick Kids in Love

“Do you ever just…” I pick up my hands and then drop them. “I don’t know. Do you ever just get really fucking mad at healthy people for doing nothing but…living their lives, and it’s not their fault, and you love them, but you just fucking hate them?”
― Hannah Moskowitz, Sick Kids in Love

“I think we’re all just copying what we see. Scenes from movies. Feelings that songs say we’re supposed to have. Fights that our parents have. We just reenact them. And of course they’re all reenacting stuff, too.”
― Hannah Moskowitz, Sick Kids in Love

“I'm sick," I say. "And I don't wish that I wasn't. And I don't really care how uncomfortable that makes you anymore.”
― Hannah Moskowitz, Sick Kids in Love

“A good relationship isn't something you have to gather up strength to do, it's where you recharge.”
― Hannah Moskowitz, Sick Kids in Love

“You know what will be fun?"
"What?"
"When we can stop pretending that we're interesting people who go out and do things and instead we can hang out and just do nothing."
It's incredible to hear those words out of someone's mouth besides mine. Not that I've ever said them, actually. Who would I say them to?
"That sounds amazing," I say.”
― Hannah Moskowitz, Sick Kids in Love

“I can’t sit up, well, actually I can, it just hurts, but I don’t actually want you to do anything, because I’m fine, except I’m sort of not, but I will be, and I don’t want to comfort you about it, so let’s just say I’m fine.”
― Hannah Moskowitz, Sick Kids in Love

“When something bad happens, you want the people who love you to be around you, and you want them to be acting like themselves, to be familiar, to be all the beautiful and strange things that are the reason that they’re in your life. It doesn’t really make sense to not act like yourself when something’s wrong with someone who loves you, because probably the only thing they really want is the people who make them happy every day. You have to be the same person to remind them that they’re still the same person”
― Hannah Moskowitz, Sick Kids in Love

“I think about things that don’t need to be thought about.”
― Hannah Moskowitz, Sick Kids in Love

“I think it was like..." She paints a stripe of nail polish. "We didn't want you to feel like you were less capable."
"And I appreciate that, but I don't actually need to feel more capable. I need to feel like it's okay to not be more capable.”
― Hannah Moskowitz, Sick Kids in Love

“It’s possible I deserve something. Or that he messed up karmically in some past life and somehow I’m really the best he deserves. I’ll take it, is what I’m saying.”
― Hannah Moskowitz, Sick Kids in Love

“Dating made me uncomfortable, and I didn’t… I realized I didn’t have to do things that made me uncomfortable just because other people were telling me that being uncomfortable was normal.”
― Hannah Moskowitz, Sick Kids in Love

“I don’t want to be, like…like stealing the experience of people who actually can’t do anything because maybe I just don’t understand how much pain is normal,” I say. “Like, most people get sore when they go skiing. They deal with it. What if it’s just that? And I’m acting like I’m some sort of…like I need accommodations that I actually don’t.”
― Hannah Moskowitz, Sick Kids in Love

“That was beautifully distasteful,” he says. “I can’t believe I said that.” “No, it’s good. Now we’ve established we have the same sense of humor.”
― Hannah Moskowitz, Sick Kids in Love

“You think I’m going to think it’s weird that you dreamed about being sick? Honey, nobody took care of you. Why would you have dreamed about anything else?”
― Hannah Moskowitz, Sick Kids in Love

“It’s that she thinks she’s saying something nice. That’s what really bothers me. How much shit have I put up with from my friends in the past few years because I know they think they’re being nice when they’re really being offensive and shitty and boring?”
― Hannah Moskowitz, Sick Kids in Love

“I don’t know if I’ve actually learned this, but it still sounds like something I wish someone had told me when I was fourteen.”
― Hannah Moskowitz, Sick Kids in Love

“It’s like I’ve stepped into some alternate dimension where people talk about things.”
― Hannah Moskowitz, Sick Kids in Love

“Y'know I googled you, too," he says.
"You did?"
"Yeah, well first I had to look you up because you said your dad was the...y'know, the head guy, and I was curious. And then I found out your last name was Garfinkel and realised you must be Jewish, and so now I'm in love with you.”
― Hannah Moskowitz, Sick Kids in Love

“We exchange numbers, since he’s not a dead baby.”
― Hannah Moskowitz, Sick Kids in Love

“And it’s not lost to me in all of this that he would be perfectly fine dating a girl using a cane or a crutch or a wheelchair. And I realize that shouldn’t be something noteworthy, that any decent guy should be fine with that, especially one with a chronic illness, but…the world is not exactly teeming with decent guys, and here is one right here, and he loves me. And if his hip stopped working in the middle of the street, I would carry him, somehow. I’d find a way.”
― Hannah Moskowitz, Sick Kids in Love

“I changed, and it was good.”
― Hannah Moskowitz, Sick Kids in Love

“I mean, I certainly find being sick only affects me in really specific situations,” he says, and the relief of hearing someone call that out, of someone just grabbing that and pouncing on it and identifying it as the bullshit that it is… God, it’s like coming up for air.”
― Hannah Moskowitz, Sick Kids in Love

“I guess when I met him I felt some kind of camaraderie. Here was someone who was just going to deal with the everyday slog of being sick for the rest of his normal-length life until he died of something completely unrelated, just like me. That’s a weird and special and boring kind of existence that you don’t get to share with a lot of people.”
― Hannah Moskowitz, Sick Kids in Love

“You know I’m sitting right here,” I say. “She must really like you,” Maura says. Why do people have friends, whose idea were friends.”
― Hannah Moskowitz, Sick Kids in Love

“A guy asking you to hang out is a date until proven otherwise.” “Well, it was proven otherwise, because I said I don’t date and he said it wasn’t a date.” She wiggles on her mascara. “That’s what boys always say when they ask you out, so that if they decide halfway through that they don’t like you enough to pay for shit, they can go, well, this isn’t really a date, so...”
― Hannah Moskowitz, Sick Kids in Love

“You look like you’re about to buzz in at the mathletes finals to tell me the limit does not exist.”
― Hannah Moskowitz, Sick Kids in Love

“You know what happens when a bitch calls you a bitch?” She licked her finger and swiped it in the air like she was making a tally mark. “You get a point.”
― Hannah Moskowitz, Sick Kids in Love

“We’re not holiday people. We’re barely everyday people.”
― Hannah Moskowitz, Sick Kids in Love