Rai (is hard to please) > Recent Status Updates

“I was doing everything I was supposed to be, but I still felt like the kid hiding behind the curtains hoping no one else noticed me, while also needing everyone to notice me at the same time, and not knowing what the fuck to do about it.”

no bc can he stop reading me like this
thx

“Sometimes the only choice is between laughing and crying, and I used to do a lot of crying until there was nothing left of me. I like that you help me laugh instead.”

“You’re embarrassed? Think of me.”
“Yeah, but you’re awkward like eighty percent of the time. This is a risk for me. It could ruin my reputation as an always-confident asshat.”

😭😭😭

… was Wes’ mom a vamp-

“He was giving Vincent a part of himself not for the endorphins or the intoxication, but because he could.
And he wanted to give Vincent everything he possibly could for as long as the vampire would let him.”

“If Vincent had to be here loving Wes and wanting him every night for the foreseeable future, then it would be less painful to walk into the sun.”

STOP

“He’d seen Vincent’s scars, and he’d looked terrified by them. But he hadn’t run. He hadn’t demanded to know that there would never be more of them. That was something.”

“You’ve been so fucking nice about everything, but no one can give that much and not get anything out of it.”

“Right now, with the most expensive thing Vincent owned falling apart under his fingers and Wesley staring at him like he was being turned a little monstrous by it, Vincent couldn’t keep bottling it all up.”

(2/2)
(…) “Couldn’t keep dreading the point when Wesley realized that Vincent wasn’t any different from his old thrift store jacket, threads always just about to break, fabric forever in need of extra care. Couldn’t keep stewing in discomfort while waiting to see if Wes’s generosity and attention would wane.”

(1/2)
“He couldn’t fix the problem that had caused it and he couldn’t go back to the way he’d been living. He couldn’t keep living like this either, getting pieces of Wesley’s bright, happy world and Wesley’s bright, happy affection as his own life continued spiraling.” (…)

“His laughter subsided, but he continued to lay there, smirking up in a way that did funny things inside Vincent’s chest. When his gaze darted to Vincent’s still trembling hands, the expression fell. It was like turning out a light, except the light was as much inside Vincent as it was on Wesley’s face.”

The light
was as much inside Vincent
aS IT WAS ON WESLEY’S FACE?!?!??????
help
HELP
AHHHHHHH

“Here, face to face with his earnestness and his eagerness to help, Vincent could feel his affection for the man outweighing everything else.
But a little fear still clung to it. A little fear that all those things would eventually be too much for Wesley. That the amount he had to try just to be friends with someone like Vincent wouldn’t be worth his effort forever.”

😩😩

“I love you Wesley, but you’re an asshole.”
Wesley smiled at her, all teeth and unbridled affection. “I hate you Kendall, but you’re wonderful.”

:)

“Relationships are a fucking minefield and if there were right answers then someone would have written them in a book and gotten really rich by now.”
“Pretty sure there’s lots of rich people with books on dating.”
“Yeah but they’re all straight and white and mostly wrong, so they don’t count.”

Well. Tru.

“This man—this ridiculous, wonderful, nonsensical man who thought the best reaction to his awkward, bumbling vampire friend falling in the water was to jump in himself—this man was perfect.”

“I bet you can’t crash this party so hard that someone kicks us out,” he said.
Vincent swayed just a little. “Bet you can’t! Wait—no, Wes, I don’t actually—Wes!”
Wesley won that wager in exactly four minutes and ten seconds, shirtless, with a microphone.

Where do I get a Wes

“This was it, Wes was done for. This had all been a mistake: the dinner, Vincent, his existence, queerness as a general concept.”
(…)
“With the serious nod of an assassin about to commit to a murder, Vincent said, ‘Hi bi, I’m gay.’”

“‘You’ve been cheating on me! I knew it. I bet he has bigger fangs, huh? More intoxicating venom?’
Never, Wesley wanted to say, there’s no one I could ever crave the way I crave you.”

“He wanted this—wanted to be around Wesley, to bask in his kindness and try to repay him for it. But at the same time, he knew himself and the patterns his life took on. He didn’t want to drag Wes into that. And he didn’t want to be kicked to the curb again when Wesley finally realized just how much Vincent wasn’t worth his effort.”

OK PAIN????

“He could tell her all the good this one horrible act would accomplish. He could make her understand. If only he understood it all himself.”

“I wager my life that you’re going to keep yours.”

:(

“If my existence starts hurting anyone but myself, then maybe I don’t deserve to exist at all.”

ok ow

“If someone could come stake him right there, he’d probably say thank you and have a nice day after. Though, who was he kidding, that would be his response no matter what.”

Mood

“It had been so much easier interacting with them in person, where the constant action and reaction of an adrenaline-inducing conversation had blocked out the rest of his emotions and let his natural charisma shine.”

If this ain’t the perfect description of my very confusing and anxiety-inducing relationship with socialization

“The Stapletons did Thanksgiving potluck style. Because, as Connie put it, cooking an entire Thanksgiving meal was ‘backbreaking and ridiculous,’ everybody brought a couple of favorite dishes and set them out in the kitchen to share.”

And, once again, she is absolutely correct

“Your mom was right,” I said.
“My mom’s always right.”

So when are you getting married?

I love Kelly

“They were supposed to be “teenagers,” and they were marketed toward little girls, but they really looked more like mutant porn stars.”

Not the Bratz shade

“So you might’ve just met your own personal blood bank.”

Or you might’ve just met yours 👀