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IS JAXON BI??????!?!????

“Sometimes life hands you more than a new hand of cards to play—it hands you a whole new deck, maybe even a whole new game”

“To recognize that some things have to be believed to be understood instead of the other way around.”

“Perhaps that was what their own lives looked like from Heaven: tiny pricks of light, constantly blinking out and reappearing in the endless dark flow of the universe.”

“It was suffering that was lit around without shadow, the purest thing under Heaven. He was no longer a thinking being that could curse the universe, or imagine how it could have gone differently, but a single point of blind agony that would go on unending. He had done what he had to do, and in doing so he had destroyed the world.”

“That was his tragedy. Not being born to a terrible fate, but not being able to let it go.”

To think a queer Mulan retelling would be what introduced me to fisting in literature….

“How could her body be a woman’s body, if it didn’t house a woman?”

“This was the price of her desire: to ask those she loved for their suffering, again and again, so she could get what she wanted.”

“For a moment she saw the two of them as Heaven might: two briefly embodied human spirits, brushing together for a moment during the long dark journey of their life and death and life again.”

“She saw someone who seemed neither male nor female, but another substance entirely: something wholly and powerfully of its own kind.”

“Freedom, and desire, and her life to make her own. And if the price of all that was suffering, why did it matter when she would suffer no matter what she chose?”

“Not because she understood it, but because she didn’t, and for that reason it seemed precious.”

“Not-wanting is a desire too.”

“But you know what’s worse than suffering? Not suffering, because you’re not even alive to feel it.”

“Blamed him even more than he would a stranger, because it hurt more that someone so beloved should not see the truth of him. And he blamed and hated himself, for hiding that truth.”

“Just knowing that it was transient—that any moment would be drained of its sweetness and vividness once it became memory—made it bittersweet to him even as it was happening.”

How many times are we gonna use the ship simile

“It wasn’t something she wanted so much as it was an escape from what she feared.”

“And do my best to ignore the fact that holding her feels better than anything has in the entire hundred years of my existence.”

OH, COME ON. WE CAME SO CLOSE TO HAVING AN AGE-APPROPRIATE VAMPIRE ROMANCE.

A… gargoyle…???????????? 😃

“I love you.”

… I’m just gonna act like this all went down over the course of several months. Ya know, for my sanity.

“Is that the guy’s name? Cole?”

Someone slipped up in editing 🤭

“‘Jaxon, you’re freezing!’” . . . “he’s halfway across the room between one breath and the next” . . . “‘You got hurt. That’s what happened.’”

Ok, Edward 2.0

“So get out of my way and let me go to class before I forget I’m a pacifist and punch you in the face.”

Do it 👀

No bc why did we actually text our crushes like this 😭😭😭😭

Word of advice: don’t date someone who has sleazy friends (looking at you, Macy)

. . . “when mascara and a couple tubes of lip gloss are pretty much all I own.”

Are we SURE this wasn’t published in 2012?

“Or because he’s in so much pain that the only way he can handle it is to make everyone afraid of him”

Do you hear that? That’s the sound of my eyeballs hitting the floor after they rolled right out of my head 🙄🙄

Watermelon Sugar??? You mean to tell me this book ISNT from 2012??????

I was really hoping we’d gotten over the quoting Shakespeare phase in YA, but apparently not 😐

This is gonna hurt, isn’t it…