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“Get through it—together. Get through this mess of a life together. Through this mess of a world.”

“All of it felt only natural. He let himself settle into the feeling. And wasn’t that the most dangerous thing he’d ever done.”

“He’d wounded her, and it had scared the Hel out of her that he held such power. That she had wanted so many things from him, imagined so many things with her brother—adventures and holidays and ordinary moments—and he had the ability to rip it all away.”

Yeah. I mean… yeah. Trust ain’t for the weak of heart.

“So living, and living well—it’s the greatest fuck you that you can ever give them.”

As a depressed bitch, I can attest to the power of spite 👍

I want our lil medwitch bestie to be Hypaxia

“See, that right there is the problem. You and the whole rest of the world seem to think I exist just to find someone like him.”

“It’s easier for me—when people assume the worst about what I am. It lets me see who they really are.”

“Just because you’re some big, tough asshole doesn’t mean you get the right to decide when I should eat—or when I’m not taking care of my body. I’m the one who lives in it, I know when I fucking want to eat. So keep your possessive and aggressive bullshit to yourself.”

“No one gets a medal for suffering the most, you know.”

Nehemia all over again

See, I thought I was prepared to read urban fantasy from SJM… but nope. It’s still a little bizarre.

“Maybe, the only reason we fall in love is to see what we look like to someone else.”
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“I am afraid that outside of here is just another here.”

“I know my fear better than I know my own body.”

“Naturally attractive, exceptionally bright / how many ways can we say the word white?”

“It was a gift—to know a boy’s desire and catch it in a jar, to watch it bash its body against the glass.”

“It was before any of us believed we were good at anything, so we became good at our bodies.”

“Based on my understanding he was a murderer of tiny things & we were tiny things”

“I gave her a smile, because I didn’t know what else to do when everything hurt.”

“She wouldn’t have cared if I’d said I was anything other than “fine.” She wanted the peace of mind, the reassurances, and the pats on the back while I quietly died inside.”

“She hadn’t been a good parent, but I no longer needed her to be.”

“He wanted our fear, because he no longer had our love. One way or the other, it all came down to control.”

“Regret was the kind of burden that managed to get heavier with each passing year.”

“Maybe it was time to let my past go, before it let me go.”

“I let their opinions of me color the opinions I had of myself, and when they decided I hadn’t been worth much, I let them convince me it was true.”

“I don’t think I’m sexually attracted to anyone, but I’m romantically attracted to the idea of someone I haven’t met yet.”

🤭

“I remembered the bad times. Those were always easiest to recall. And maybe I kept those memories closest so I wouldn’t have to feel anything about the good times.”

“The world expected us to shoulder adult burdens but treated us like children when we needed something in return.”

“I needed to believe there was still hope for girls who didn’t have any hope for themselves.”

“This one had been drinking; not enough to be drunk, but that’s the excuse he’d want to use the next morning when he looked in the mirror with bloodshot eyes and tried to convince himself he was still a good person.”

“Sometimes the family you’re born with and the family you make coincide. And that makes all the difference.”

“I broke this beautiful boy’s heart, not by not loving him back as I always feared—but by not loving myself as much as he does.”

See, there is no way in all hell that they AREN’T endgame