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(470/470) she successfully ran away from Promise, and now she has the whole world in front of her. Which is symbolized by the expanse of darkness all around her at the end of the book. Her candle ritual did feel like it gave closure to her parents’ deaths.

(435/470) she’s being open and honest with Lydia. It’s pleasant to watch actually. And the mentality behind the dollhouse has always perplexed me. It saddens me that they’re gonna split up once they escape tho.

(417/470) Ruth has cancer now. How does that affect the escape plans?

(396/470) Mark cut off up his dick and poured bleach all over the wound. Which does to show what happens when you believe that you are wrong. Cam wants to run away with Adam and Jane now. I hope Linsey makes a reappearance or another mention. But she probably won’t. I wonder how this story will end, will they be happy and free? Or caged up and forced to be straight?

(286/470) Coley’s brother Ty told on the 2 of them. Now Cameron is at the camp. I wonder if she will actually believe what they teach there or not.

(29 pages/441) I’m skipping around, so I’m just tallying up the pages read. I read the Sphinx, The Black Cat, and am in the middle of reading Hop-Frog. Purchased a copy off of thrift books.

(177/177) the part where it says the servants abused him: “Already at that time I had been taught a lamentable thing by the maids and manservants; I was being corrupted. I now think that to perpetrate such a thing on a small child is the ugliest, vilest, cruelest crime a human being can commit. But I endured it.” (Pg 35)

(177/177) the last line: “he was a good boy, an angel.” That’s wild. He may be extremely critical of himself then. It’s all crazy.

(171/177) he was riddled with depression in the 3rd notebook for sure. It would make sense if he was molested by the servants as a kid, but I don’t recall the book saying that. Because he fears saying no so greatly. I wonder what new perspective the epilogue will give us.

(168/177). Yozo talking about how he’s not possessive, “This was so true of me that some years later I even watched in silence when my own wife was violated,”(pg 84).
“What is society but an individual?”(pg 120) it’s a be very different take on society than what I’m used to thinking. Did the servants rape him when he was a child? Because the 60 year old servant is “violating” him now, when he’s 27

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(108/470) for some reason I’m slow reading this book. Maybe it’s the small town middle of nowhere setting, maybe it’s the actual size of the pages. Cameron had a summer fling with Lindsey. She’s only like 14. Yet she’s already drinking and making out. God damn. I wonder how Ruth finds out, and if she actually does believe homosexuality is a sin there. Because at this point, she believes it’s a sin.

(77/470) her friend Irene kinda became a bitch. In high school she’ll be found out somehow. It looks like she’ll fall in love again. But she doesn’t go to the camp until around page 260. So this’ll be interesting…

(41/470) ALSO THE USE OF WEATHER TO SHOW CONFLICT. ALL THEY SAY IS IT’S HOT. GUESS WHAT? I RECOGNIZED THAT, BUDDY!

(41/470) she’s using movies as a form of escapism. Reading this makes me think about death, how it can happen to any of us @ any time. + How bad it was to be queer then. I wonder when she’ll have to live with her Aunt Ruth. Does her Aunt move to Montana or does Cameron move? When is she found out? Do her & Irene kiss again? But she feels so guilty about it. She’s only 12 too, we need a time skip for camp🌈

(34/470) Pretty When You Cry by Lana Del Ray is the song for this rn.
She lost her parents, it’s so sad. Like Taylor Tomlinson (comedian) who was eating a bagel when she was told her mom died and became an emotional eater, she associated her kissing a girl with her parent’s death. She was such a happy, vibrant girl before. Now she’ll be ripped away from Irene and soon sent to a camp. :(

Listening to the audio book, Chapter 9- I kinda get him on labels. I’m seen as a weird kid. Reminds me of how Carter’s brother talked about me, “Omg M@//øřÿ my brother was talking about you yesterday and he said that you were sped but then he said well she’s not actually sped she’s really smart but she’s just weird” like Jesus. Labels indeed

(242/242) I hated the antagonist. He was such an asshole. It was an ehh book. Made me sad as fuck with the depressed kid and dad, not to mention a dead mom. She’s treated like such shit everyday. The ending sets up a fun premise for the next book tho, so I might read it👻

(14/242) stressed as fuck so I’m reading this silly little comic. I cannot wait for vacation this Friday so I can leave school for a whole ass week.

Chapter 8-guessing on the percent here

Chapter 21- so apparently it was Aires and some other immortal character’s doing. I wonder who the guy in the pit was. Percy is about to reveal the truth to the Gods, so I’ll find out with them. And like always, Zeus is a dick. Poseidon is also kind dickish. I wonder if he’ll get his mother back, and where he’ll return to once the quest is over. Camp, or home?

Chapter 15- I loved it when he dived into the Mississippi River, good times. How will he retrieve his mother? And will there be some interaction where the police find him? (I hope there will be)

(74/177) “I could not think of prostitutes as human being or even as women,”(63).

“I do not pretend to understand my father’s thoughts may better than those of a stranger” (70).

Apparently he will be involved with an older woman and suicide. And the commie group is working him like a dog. So he decided to kill himself.

“I escaped, but it gave me no pleasure: I decided to kill myself,” (73)

Chapter 11- fighting Medusa rn 🪼 😊

Chapter 10- I’m a god damn nerd so I listened to so much of this shit.

Listening to audiobook, Chapter 6.
Why is the teacher paralyzed if he’s a god? 🤷 oh. He rose from the wheelchair🦽. Oh, he’s a centaur. What did he do to be persecuted? Will he be infamous? Where are the queers?

(63/177) he’s out of high school and into Tokyo for college. He loves drawing his creepy ass self portraits. He absolutely detests people, it’s absurd. He got a little friend(?) tho. So that’s something. I wonder how he’ll continue his life, and when someone will fall for him.

(56/177) this book is making me expand my vocabulary. HOW COME YOZO & TAKEICHI ARE SO GAY TOGETHER? THEY HAD 3 BL TROPES. Umbrella scene, falling ill, & he shares this secret side of himself to only Takeichi. It’s really diving into how elaborate he is w/ hiding his actual self. Will he be betrayed or some shit later? “I thought that in killing a dreaded adversary I might actually be being him happiness.” (45)

(41/177) read the 1st notebook. Gives an intro to how Yozo sees himself & society. He chose to play a clown to hide his fucked self w/ laughter. Bro is a psychopath. Did the servants molest/abuse him? It sounds like it. Also he said that humans all lie & deceive each other, so he isn’t much different than us w/ his mischievous imp act. That’s a very interesting take on it. Loving this book so far. 🤡💴

(29/177) “Daydreaming” by Radiohead