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“She wanted Tengo to hold her in his arms, to caress her with his big hands. She wanted her whole body to feel his warmth, to have him stroke her from head to toe and warm her up. I want him to take away this chill I feel in my body's core. Then I want him to come inside me and stir me with all his might, like a spoon in a cup of cocoa, slowly, to the very bottom. If he would do that for me, I wouldn't mind dying right then and there. Really.”
― Haruki Murakami, 1Q84 #1-2

“And something inside me resisted renewing the cycle again, here too, this time too, giving another push to the wheel of life and cultivating one more new prey for ravenous death. I didn't want to. Let the place stand empty.”
― Hermann Hesse, Trees: An Anthology of Writings and Paintings

“That dream of going on bicycles to see a waterfall framed in summer leaves—it was not for the likes of me. All that can happen now is that one foul, humiliating sin will be piled on another, and my sufferings will become only the more acute. I want to die. I must die.”
― Osamu Dazai, No Longer Human

“Now, in the place that had once belonged to this old friend, there was a hole - the little world had a little rip in it, through which the void, death and horror could peek in.”
― Hermann Hesse, Trees: An Anthology of Writings and Paintings