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A Solivagant on the Inselberg

I went to my grandparents house.
Oh, so you had fun?

No one can resist your awesomeness!!!!

Wow! I'm sure it'll come out great! :)

The most productive thing I'm doing is writing stupid songs. It's the one thing that keeps me sane here.
In Your Eyes
Long ago, all we had is each other
Long ago..."
What was I thinking when I wrote this? I don't understand. I had a childhood friend in my mind, but when I sing it, it's not about him.




Me (When I like the person): Thank you :) Although I think it looks messy.
Me (When I don't like the person): Uh thanks! I hope you enjoy reading my journal.


Instagram News
I finally managed to download the app and there are some strangers following me *clicks ignore* I can't make my profile private just yet. Anyway, this was the reaction I got from S:
Halllllllll
Yay..... You are here finally !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
That's unexpected. I thought I'd get 'What the hell are you doing here?'


Ouch, she hit me right where it hurts! She sent another one, but that doesn't apply and I deleted it.

Me: *nods* "Mhmmmmm
In reality, at school,



"I walk this empty street
On the boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one, and I walk alone
I walk alone, I walk alone
I walk alone and I walk a
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I walk alone"
~ Boulevard, Green Day

Anyway, hey! :D
I suppose I'm homesick. I'm having it so that I can know whether my old friends are still alive (or r..."
Of course I can! XD Hi!
Aww :( I understand missing friends. Glad you can keep up with them. I'm sorry about the one meme, that's not too nice. And I so feel you about school lol. My friends are awesome people but too often I sit there trying to plaster a smile on my face and listen when almost every part of me is freaking out about some test or other. I basically need to check the study box before socializing well. Tbh I feel bad for them. And don't listen to those relatives, they're just poking needlessly. I know and have relatives like that, despite them bring good people. Quiet is just fine.
Oh yeah I can see why you'd want it then. But wow that's a weird way for them to communicate assignments. I'm used to having a separate district-run webpage for each class.
Good luck with it! I'm glad you're able to explore a bit!
And aww Hallie :( I'm sorry you're feeling so lonely in Wales. *gives digital hug* We're still here as much as you need us. I'm sorry that I didn't reply soon enough. It annoys me when I forget... :/

When I was there, I used to get annoyed a lot because of some things my friends said/did, and I probably ended up hurting them a lot because I couldn't keep my temper under control, but my social anxiety is worse at my new school. It was a few years back, but I did happen to be the head of a small clique and eventually just made a group of best friends with no leaders as such. Even then, albeit I think it's because I intimidate them a bit, my friends still worked weighed my opinions. When it comes to working as a team for any contest, the three of us would sit and discuss it through. If I wasn't taking part in something they think I should, they would force me into it - or at least try to. Here, my new friends don't care. They wouldn't realize if I died sitting right beside them because they are just preoccupied with something else. I miss the morning announcements and they don't bother telling me; some important notice was passed around, they get it but don't let me know. I'm like the fourth wheel. I understood the importance of my old friends only when I met my new ones. The former were better for me in a lot of ways, and I ill-treated them and took them for granted. They might have insulted me more, but I miss them. I miss them more than I think I would. And sorry for that! I don't know what I'm talking anymore.
What's more annoying than my relatives is my mother's antics. She just stands there to humiliate me. She destroyed my last ray of hope. And what does she do now? Sleep most of the time, complain about how pathetic the house looks/how she didn't get any sleep for the rest. Who wanted to go in the first place? Not me, not my brother, not my dad. She wanted to go. She knows how it will be when she gets back (it's happened so many times I've got each rant on the count of three, two, one - ah there it is!) Sorry for ranting again! I'm sick of this, and I have enough on my plate without this.
My school is big on social media... It's actually WhatsApp, but Instagram is the second most popular one, and I'm not allowed the first.
It's fine! You have your own life, too. I didn't really leave this room much, so my mum just walks around saying how addicted I am to the phone and how I didn't even go to my cousin's house next door. Yeah, am I supposed to go there and stare at the house because my cousins are at school? Of course. I get to be the loner and the damned victim of words coming from adults mouths. May I mention that I don't understand 3/4th of what anyone says? May I mention that all the kids are in school but me? May I mention that I don't know any gossip to go over to my aunt's place and chat? May I mention that no one freaking cares what I do at home or how I do it? My family doesn't care; why would they?
Sorry I'm ranting so much! I'm really, really frustrated and sad. I'm fighting back tears here because I've been boiling it up for so long.


I nominate that as the joke of the year!

I nominate that as the joke of the year!"
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no, Hallie pls.