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The third one has an Asgardian touch to it.
*hugs Hallie* Don't die Hallie :(
R u safe btw? the fire in london and all. did u know anyone there?
PinkLoki(Shine) RULER OF: CrimsonPeak, Asgard, Jotunheim, Midgard, AvengersTower wrote: "The third one has an Asgardian touch to it."You're right!!!!
❄️Princess Kavy of BVBarmy/Books/Music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "*hugs Hallie* Don't die Hallie :("*hugs back* But I want to.
Sαяαн wrote: "Girl, seriosly whatz wrong??????! U know ur loved by ppl. imagine hazel and stephanie if u died!!!!"Sαяαн wrote: "R u safe btw? the fire in london and all. did u know anyone there?"
1. Remove their names please. 2. Grammar. 3. No, I'm not loved by my people. 4. Who in earth are my people? 5. Why would they care?
Yeah, the fire was in North Kensington, so I don't really think I know anyone that was in there.
Sheesh I almost posted a noose in here.........And I'm obsessed with Tallulah Wilson....
Time to take a trip to the
Sarah, you just triggered some emotions by asking me about that!
Aisha wrote: "You live in london?"Yep!
Hallie wrote: "Aisha wrote: "You live in london?"Yep!"
Oh ok. I live so close to london may even got to imperial college there. Its an amazing city Ive been there five times ♥
I just saw that you're from the UK too!!!!!! Oh, it's wonderful here, except inside my home! Lol that's most likely where my parents would want me to go if I insist on staying here forever xD
Hallie wrote: "I just saw that you're from the UK too!!!!!! Oh, it's wonderful here, except inside my home! Lol that's most likely where my parents would want me to go if I insist on staying here forever xD"Imperial college courses are great though I probably wont get in
Thanks Ella! Your journal is fabulous, too! I'm dying to comment there, but I'm this shy introvert who takes long time to break out of the shell to talk to anyone.
wait should I delete my comment and post it here!
Aisha wrote: "Hallie wrote: "I just saw that you're from the UK too!!!!!! Oh, it's wonderful here, except inside my home! Lol that's most likely where my parents would want me to go if I insist on staying here f..."You could get in :) Ah I don't know... My dream university is actually Oxford, but none of my dreams are coming true, so it's always going to be a dream.
Me: Oxford, Cambridge, Royal Holloway.Be right back. I'm going to check from train tickets to Wales now for the weekend before Ramadan ends (when's that?????)
Meh!
Last evening way just hectic! My uncle called my dad and informed him that some relative of ours passed away. The funeral was today, and NY dad suddenly felt like going for I don't know what sorrow. In case you're thinking if giving me some condolences, I have no clue who that person. Apparently we once went to her house, but even my dad remembers that I was only one or two years old. So we booked a ticket that time, packed up my dad's bag and he rushed to the bus and all of this happened within hours. And the same time by dad was leaving, my brother's friends wanted to meet up, so he left, too.
Later, after he came, he and I went out to buy something to eat. The idiot made me walk twice through the same path near my house, and then 2 minutes away from my house.... I was literally dying from not trying to strangle him. And you don't even want to hear the rest of last night xD
Coming back to that relative of mine, well, she passed away due to cancer, and exactly two years and three days after my grandma's death. Guess when I remembered? Yesterday! I didn't even remember that! Some granddaughter I am......
Anyway the whole day today, I was really gloomy and anxious, except for some short-lived joy when a friend here told me something, which I'll explain later when it's finalized. The whole day I was wishing I would just drop die of asphyxia it heart attack or anything. I'm really considering artificially inducing some disease if that is ever possible.
Aand I forgot father's day, so yeah, basically, screw this disrespectful, hopefully, good for nothing girl here who can't even remember father's day....
I'm extremely depressed for the day. Thoughts on self-harming, suicide, masochistic thoughts ugh! I don't even feel like talking to anyone. I just want to be shut alone in my room with my phone, my earphones, and some books......Or just kill me already.
Someone kill me this very instant, or I'm going to do it myself!
I'm so stupid!I can't believe I forgot something this important!
Here I am contemplating suicide, and my friend joins this group exactly the same day I go "Screw yourself, Hallie!"
"If I got locked awayAnd we lost it all today...
Tell me honestly...
Would you still love me the same?
If I showed you my flaws
If I couldn't be strong
Tell me honestly
Would you still love me the same?"
~ R. City ft. Adam Levine
Hallie wrote: "Sαяαн wrote: "Girl, seriosly whatz wrong??????! U know ur loved by ppl. imagine hazel and stephanie if u died!!!!"Sαяαн wrote: "R u safe btw? the fire in london and all. did u know anyone there?"..."
K I deleted that post bt hey they still would be sad. i mean their friend since forever.
Sαяαн wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Sαяαн wrote: "Girl, seriosly whatz wrong??????! U know ur loved by ppl. imagine hazel and stephanie if u died!!!!"Sαяαн wrote: "R u safe btw? the fire in london and all. did u know..."
Go tell this to them, and I'll make sure you're packed up in a coffin before I am.
I'm pretty sure no one would care, but if you do send roses to my funeral that will take place soon. They are my favourite flowers (and no one who knows me in real life including my family could figure that out in the 15 years and 10 months I've lived)
Lies That People Tell Me
• Things will be okay soon. (Things will be okay soon my foot! Thanks for the optimism, but I don't see any damn way that will ever happen.)
• You're a good writer. (Thank you for your blatant lie.)
• You're awesome/smart whatever. (In which alternate universe?)
• I know everything about you. No one knows you as I do. (Let's face the fact, *parents*, you don't even know what flower I like, or what I want to be, or food I like, or book I'm obsessed with, or singer I adore. The only thing you know about me is my name, my gender, my age and other basic information like that.)
• I'll never forget you. (You'll forget all about me the minute I stop talking to you.)
• You matter to me. (Obviously this sentence was not aimed at me because I matter to nobody. I'm insignificant forever, and there is no way you'll say, "Hallie, why? Why aren't you here now? I miss you. Blah blah blah.")
• I love you. (My own mother doesn't love me....)
I do love you Hallie and that is not a lie
I never lie to my best GR friends, Hallie. You're one of them. And Loliepop. Don't do this to us all.
The only reason why I haven't killed myself is because of you guys. I just don't know how much longer I can hold on.
Personal Survey Time!
Stolen from Cyn who stole it from Kavy
Level 1
[x] Sleep in class: Yes, although it was more than five years ago, and I was sick, and the teachers themselves let me.
[x] Talked in class: How can anyone with the ability of speech not do that?
[x] Not seating at your own place in class:
[x] Scolded by a teacher: Loads of times irrespective of whether or not it was my fault.
[] Litter the classroom:
[x] Did not do your homework at least 15 times: Yeah... Didn't get caught that many times, though.
[] Submitted your homework late at least 10 times:
[] Came late for school at least 10 times:
[] Brought/wore home clothes without school's permission:
[x] Brought/wore jewellery to school: Yes, but it's allowed.
[x] Did not pay attention in class for at least 60% of the time: Try 100%
[] Cried out "sian" or "wa lao wei" to the teacher:
[x] Plucked a flower/ killed a plant in school: My teacher made me do it!
[x] Copied other people's homework in desperation:
[x] Played a trick on your classmates/teacher:
Total so far: 10
Level 2:
[] Sent for detention class:
[x] Late in class:
[] Not wearing your school uniform (if you have) properly:
[] Shouted at the top of your voice during lesson time:
[] Scolding vulgarities in class:
[] Spotted hairstyle deemed unacceptable by the school:
[] Used a school facility without school's permission:
[] Played soccer/basketball or any other sports in classroom:
[] Singing loudly during lesson:
[] Walking around the class aimlessly during lesson time:
[x] Did not greet the teacher properly:
[x] Went to the toilet during lesson time without permission: I did ask her, but she refused. So I excused myself.
[] Played a trick on the teacher during april fools:
[] Used the teacher's table as a rubbish dump:
[x] Made yourself a nuisance to the teacher: Me existing itself is a nuisance!
Total so far: 4
Level 3:
[x] Was asked to stay back after school/ break time: For an oral test.
[] Made a fool out of morning assembly:
[] Wasted the school's toilet paper:
[] Sabotaged someone:
[x] Irritated someone:
Total so far: 2
Level 4:
[] Forged your parent's signature:
[] Forged a classmate's signature:
[] Forged a teacher's signature:
[] Made rude remarks to the school cleaners in front of them:
[] Flew a paper aeroplane down from the school from at least the fifth storey:
Total so far: 0
Level 5:
[x] Fiddling with your handphone during lesson time:
[] Played with your PSP in school:
[x] Using school computer to play games without a teacher's permission: I had two partners in crime, and it was educational xD
[x] Listened to an MP3 player in school:
[ ] Messed with the teacher's pigeon hole:
Total so far: 3
Level 6:
[] Vandalizing with school property:
[] Tried to defame your school in public:
[] Used the internet to scold teachers:
[x] Fought with someone in school:
[x] Shoplifted in school:
Total so far: 2
Level 7:
[x] Cheated in a class test:
[] Cheated in a school examination:
[] Cheated for your PSLE/ GCE 'O' or 'A' Level Examination:
[x] Lied to your teacher:
[] Played truancy for hall assemblies/ specific lessons:
Total so far: 2
Level 8:
[] Took drugs in school:
[] Smoked in school:
[] Set fire to something in the school:
[] Locked the teacher out of the classroom:
[] Played truancy just after coming to school just to take attendance:
Total so far: 0
Level 9:
[] Refused to pay school fees:
[] Cheated the school money:
[] Stole things which belonged to the school:
[] Bullied someone in school:
Total so far: 0
Level 10:
[x] Raised your voice/shouted against a student leader:
[] Raised your voice/shouted against a teacher:
[] Raised your voice/shouted against your discipline master/mistress:
[] Raised your voice/shouted against your vice-principal:
[] Raised your voice/shouted against your principal:
Total so far: 1
Level 11:
[] Brought weapons to the school: Does a Swiss Army penknife count as a weapon?
[] Brought real firearms to the school:
[] Brought a real bomb to the school:
[] Fired a real weapon in the school with the motive to frighten/kill:
[] Dressed up as a terrorist to school:
Total so far: 0
Grand total: 24
Ranks:
If you are between 0-15 -------------{I am a good student}
If you are between 16-20------------{I am a good student but with occasional trouble}
If you are between 21-30------------{I am an average student}
If you are between 31-40------------{ I am a bad student}
If you are between 41-50------------{ I am a very bad student}
If you are between 51-60------------{I should have been caned by the discipline master}
If you are between 61-65------------{I should have been expelled from school}
If you are between 66-75------------{I should have been sent to a reformatory centre}
I know my aesthetic journal sucks beyond the expanse of the Pacific ocean, but this is my favourite post until now because it presents my emotion right now, and I'm rather proud of that lyrics. I really can't believe I managed to come up with that!
"She just wants to be beautiful
She goes unnoticed, she knows no limits
She craves attention, she praises an image
She prays to be sculpted by the sculptor
Oh, she don't see the light that's shining
Deeper than the eyes can find it
Maybe we have made her blind
So she tries to cover up her pain and cut her woes away
'Cause cover girls don't cry after their face is made"
~ Scars To Your Beautiful, Alessia Cara
Word of the day
Ellipsism: (Noun)
Sadness that you'll never be able to know how history will turn out
"Good evening, depression! How nice of you to visit me again whilst I'm sick! Oh you're not going to leave me in my own ever! How sweet of you!"
I had just planned how to kill myself and the things I need to do before that, and something awesome just happened! Alright, you guys are getting your wish: I hopefully won't do it any soon.
I can't contain my excitement any longer! My brother got me a guitar last evening!!!!!! I want to start learning it, but I'm going to my cousin's place now. It's her birthday today, and I haven't seen my niece in six months.Speaking of birthdays, IT'S ARIANA GRANDE'S BIRTHDAY TODAY!!!!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!
AND BIRTHDAY TO MY COUSIN TOO!
I'm giving her a ring as a gift :)
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