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A Solivagant on the Inselberg
Aaaand I think water entered my nasal cavity, so......
Personal Survey Time!
Stolen from Tumblr
1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someone's eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someone's eyes when they are telling you how they feel?
Candidly, both, but if I really had to choose, I'd say the former because the glares I shoot at them would be painful.
2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way?
That would be right now and I have so many reasons I don't even know what the precise reason is. But I'm really pissed.
3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who do you call? What do you tell them?
I wouldn't call anyone. If someone cared, they'd look out for the list of casualties and find out that I died.
4. You are at the doctor’s office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days? Would you be afraid?
I doubt I'd tell anyone. I might leave vague hints, but the people I know in real life are so naive they wouldn't recognize those hints. I suppose I'd listen to music, read, play guitar and spend a lot of time on Goodreads - basically, what I'm doing right now.
5. You can have one of the following two things. Which do you choose? Why? Love and Trust.
Trust, because to me true love does not exist.
6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dogs life? Why or Why not?
Well, I'm going to be candid. I most certainly would not even notice the dog, and even in an utterly impossible hypothetical situation, I doubt I would stop to help because I'm afraid of animals. Maybe animal lovers will be mad at me for not caring and everything, but that's right people - I don't have a heart. The least I'd do is point the situation out to someone else.
7. Would you rather be hurt by the one you trust the most or the one you love the most?
Usually when I like people, I trust them, so I'm not sure what to say, but I suppose I'd rather be hurt by someone I trust, but who do I love?
8. Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more than just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you (or did you) do/say?
"Uh okay. That's a surprise, but you're my best friend, and that's an even better position than lover. I like us being friends and I don't think I'm quite interested in taking it further. So have you ever read Kafka on the Shore."
9. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give up one year of yours. Do you do it? Why or Why not?
You know what? I'd give up my entire life to give my grandfather his life back, but is there any way I can extend the one hour to eternity? Years of torture for me? Death by the most savage and atrocious means? Why? Um, because he's him.
10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?
Lol I legit hate myself here. I wouldn't even want to know myself and friend is just out of the question.
11. Does love = sex?
Nope. Definitely not.
12. Your boss tells your coworker that they have to let them go because of work shortage, and they are the newest employee. You have been there much longer. Your coworker has a family to support and no other means of income. Do you go to your boss and offer to leave the company? Why or Why not?
I don't think I would because I doubt the boss let the coworker go because he simply had to fire someone. I would, however, help the coworker find another job and support him in all the ways I can.
13.When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say? Who was it? What did you have to tell the person?
I don't remember, and I don't think I was ever honest about anything in my entire life.
14. What would be (or what was) harder for you to tell a member of the opposite sex, you love them or that you do not love them back?
The latter, but I don't see either of them happening, so nothing to worry!
15. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose?
Books. Uh..... They are basically my entire world.
16. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them. Who were they to you?
A few hours ago, I told V, one of my very few bookworm friends at school that I love her too.
17. If there was one moment and one time in the last month what would you change and why?
Once again, my grandpa's death because they affected so many people, and he is certainly way more important than my exams.
18. Imagine it is a dark night, you are alone, it is raining outside, you hear someone walking around outside your window. WHO do you wish was there with you?
A police officer.
19. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? Why or Why not?
Yeah, why not? They need it, and why should I care whether they're homeless?
20.You are holding onto your grandmother’s hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other. Who do you let fall to their death? What was your rationale for making the decision?
Newborn baby. Rationally, some would say grandma because she has lived her life but the newborn has a whole life ahead to live, but I don't like kids. Not sure whether I like old people any more, but I do like my grandma more than my niece.
21. Are you old fashioned?
Nope, I don't think so.
22. When was the last time you were nice to someone and did NOT expect anything in return for it?
I don't know.... I'm never nice to anyone.
23.Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a broken heart, or never loved at all? Why?
Never loved at all because I know it's happening.
24.If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?
Be dead or be adopted. I mean, be allowed to move out and study English Literature.
Hallie wrote: "Alex ~He/him~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "Hals, I'm going to make a Harry Potter rp group"TELL ME WHEN YOU'RE DONE!!!"
I made the group but it’s still in the process of being constructed
Alex ~She/her~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Alex ~He/him~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "Hals, I'm going to make a Harry Potter rp group"TELL ME WHEN YOU'RE DONE!!!"
I ma..."
I will search for it and annoy you till it's done and after that!
If anyone's curious why I'm so hyperactive, I'm just sleep-deprived. I keep waking up sheet every five minutes, so no point in sleeping.
It's Suga's birthday, and S tagged me work good picture on Instagram :/ Why on earth is he born on 9th?!?!?
Here's an idea: When parents turn into um, parents, their vocal cords should be removed.
Can I get a drink? Some vodka or beer or I don't know.... Preferably something that's strong.
Does anyone have suggestions on what I should do right now?
The last three are things I'm horrible at, but the first three are great suggestions! If I had any motivation :/
Okay Hallie, if you write that story, you can kill yourself faster.Yeah that ought to do the trick!
Best friends trying to tease me: H: Awwwwwwwww
S: Awwwwwwwww
H: 😍😍😍
S: 😘😘😘 (Not the same emojis, but those emojis are not available on this keyboard)
Me: Why on earth are you two acting like I just confessed to a crush?
H: Eww!
S: Uh from awww to ewww!
Me: Muhuhahaha! That fixed things right up!
But really, relationships/love/dating/crushes and me - we're on two parallel lines that will never meet. So people should quit asking me about stuff like that.
I'm so mad at myself I could just.....
Pretty soon I'm going to starting cutting again.
Hallie wrote: "Pretty soon I'm going to starting cutting again."What a great way to start a new page! I should have this made this my new year's resolution.
Lillian wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Pretty soon I'm going to starting cutting again."*hugs Hallie and takes away all sharp objects*"
*hugs Lillian and tries to take back sharp objects* Really, I need it.
All I can remember is that I fell asleep really late last night because I kept thinking of cutting. And woke up pretty early.
Lillian wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Pretty soon I'm going to starting cutting again."*hugs Hallie and takes away all sharp objects*"
*hugs Lillian and tries to take back sharp objects*..."
LILLY! Well, there's always my dad's razors and blades and my mum's kitchen knives, and you can't take away those because my parents will personally come over to your place, reprimand you, and take them back.
I'll find a way. Whatever I have in mind will probably gross you out.
Hallie wrote: "Alex ~She/her~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Alex ~He/him~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal co..."XD
I'm gonna need help tho
Hallie wrote: "Okay Hallie, if you write that story, you can kill yourself faster.Yeah that ought to do the trick!"
no dying *hugs*
Hallie wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Pretty soon I'm going to starting cutting again."*hugs Hallie and takes away all sharp objects*"
*hugs Lillian and tries to take back sharp objects* Really, I need..."
*hugs Hals and takes away all the sharp objects and burns them*
Hallie wrote: "They'll buy new stuff."*burns all the sharp objects in the world*
So now the entire world can't function. So guns, bombs and nuclear weapons are the only way to kill people. Oh and strangulation and beating to death. Or pushing people off buildings. Or running over them with a car.Basically, my point is that there are other ways.
I once got hit by a bike while in the park, when I was 7 years old. I fell and broke my left arm.
my brother was riding that bike.
Alex ~She/her~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "I once got hit by a bike while in the park, when I was 7 years old. I fell and broke my left arm."Agh that must have hurt!
Hmmm..... I'll die of thirst and starvation. And lack of sleep.
Hallie wrote: "Hmmm..... I'll die of thirst and starvation. And lack of sleep."NO Hals pls don't :(
Okay I will stop attempting to kill myself if one of you promise to kill me within the next week. Deal?
Something is wrong in the kitchen!*hides under blanket and pretends to sleep*
I swear my parents want me dead, too!
Hallie wrote: "I swear my parents want me dead, too!"NO :( *hugs you*
Does anyone know how to check whether a certain book actually exists?
My brother came up with a new nickname for Mum this morning, and it's hilarious! She keeps glaring at him and I think she wants to feed him to an alligator, and the others three residents of the house just keep laughing. And the nickname is.......*drumrolls* Hippopotamus!
I have no clue why he called her that (even he has no clue), because my mum neither looks like one, nor reminds us of one, but it's just funny.
Well, he called her 'coma' prior to that because she showed him a bump on her head, and he said that it could be a tumor. She freaked thanks to him, but the bump then disappeared, and she went to him again to show this, and he was like, "It must have gone inside and affected your brain." She made the mistake of asking him what happens then, and tadaa! He said that those cells would multiply and she'd be in a state of coma, and then the name just stuck. I have no idea why he just changed it to Hippopotamus, but lol xD
Personal Quiz Time!
Stolen from Tumblr
Appearance
[] I am shorter than 5'4".
[] I have many scars
[x] I tan easily.
[] I wish my hair was a different color.
[] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[] I have a tattoo
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[] I wear glasses
[] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[] I have more than 2 piercings.
[] I have piercings in places besides my ears
[] I have freckles.
[] My eyes change colors
Family
[] I've sworn at my parents.
[] I've run away from home.
[] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[] I want to have kids someday.
[] I want to adopt someday
[] I have more then 5 siblings
School/Work
[x] I'm in school
[] I have a job.
[] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[] I always do my homework.
[] I've missed a week or more of school.
[] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[x] I've stolen something from my school. {Well, the object is actually mine. I paid for all the materials and even made it myself, but I had to steal it from there because my teacher refuse to give it back to us.}
Embarrassment
[] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[] Disney movies still make me cry.
[] I've snorted while laughing.
[] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[] I've glued my hand to something
[] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[] I've face planted at school/work in front of many people
Health
[] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[] I have a disease/impairment.
[] I've broken a bone.
[] I have dislocated something.
[] I've had my tonsils removed.
[] I've sat in a doctors office with a friend.
[] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[] I had a serious surgery.
[] I've had chicken pox.
[] I have/(had) asthma.
Experiences
[x] I've gotten lost in my city
[] I've seen a shooting star.
[] I've wished on a shooting star.
[] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[] I've been skydiving.
[] I've gone skinny dipping.
[] I've played spin the bottle.
[] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[] I've crashed a car.
[] I've been skiing
[x] I've been in a play.
[] I've met someone in person from the internet.
[] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[] I've eaten Sushi.
[] I've been snowboarding.
Relationships
[] I've gone on a blind date.
[] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[] I've gotten divorced
[] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[] I've told someone I loved them and didn't get a clear response.
[] I've felt rejected even if I wasn't.
[] I've loved someone I knew a friend was already in love with.
Honesty
[] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[] I've been suspended from school.
Bad Times
[] I've consumed alcohol.
[] I regularly drink.
[] I can't swallow pills.
[] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorders
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[] I take anti-depressants.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[x] I've woken up crying.
Death
[] I'm afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[] I've seen someone die
[x] I've had someone close to me die.
it's personal
Books mentioned in this topic
Kim Jiyoung, Born 1982 (other topics)Lore (other topics)
The Glass Menagerie (other topics)
The Great Gatsby (other topics)
Orlando (other topics)
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*hugs Alia* I don't think whatever I say will help.
Yay that's great!..."
Okay.... *agrees with Alia for now but will end up secretly going with the initial plan* I'm just that malevolent!
Noooooo you're definitely not scaring me! I just suck at conversing and basic socialization skills, and most of what I usually say is just what I memorized from Cathy, Diana, Emily and the rest. (If anything, they taught me to behave.)
Lol xD