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Fine I suppose. I had to come home early from school today bc periods suck and I have an orthodontist appointment tomorrow
Oooh fun.
I know what you mean...
I know what you mean...
But I also had a pretty alright day because I listened to some nice music and found cute gifs of Harry. So it was okay
"…how you choose to lose yourself matters. Trust me, it’s all in the ‘how’. It matters a lot."
— Anne Sexton
— Anne Sexton
"I'm telling you,
the clouds were meant for the ground
But they hung themselves."
the clouds were meant for the ground
But they hung themselves."
louis is literally the cutest person in the world I have proof
"Look, let me put it this way: with me you're number one and there isn't even a number two." — Charles Bukowsi
GUESS WHO HE'S LOOKING AT GUESS WHO HE'S LOOKING AT *BANGS FIST ON TABLE*
"Admire as much as you can, most people don’t admire enough."
— Vincent Van Gogh
— Vincent Van Gogh
"Please do not understand me too quickly."
— André Gide
— André Gide
"So you’re in love again. Well, it’s the only thing worth a damn to be. No matter how being in love comes out it’s sure worth it all while it’s going on."
— Ernest Hemingway
— Ernest Hemingway
Peanut butter and banana sandwiches are truly a gift
Pain #11: harry please was this at all necessary
I won't take no for an answer I was born to be a dancer nowwwwww
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TIME FOR A CHRISTMAS QUESTIONAIRE
01. Eggnog, yay or nay? why would I intentionally drink something made of eggs
02. Do you like Christmas? HECK YEAH IT'S MY FAVORITE HOLIDAY BY A MILE
03. Favorite Christmas movie? Home Alone man
04. Favorite Christmas song? Idk actually but I like most of them. Maybe Baby It's Cold Outside
05. Do you believe in Santa? no
06. Ideal Christmas gift? My motivation back. Or clear skin
07. Are you the kind of person that likes getting clothes? ALL THE YESES Clothes are pretty much the best thing to get for Christmas especially socks do you know how warm socks are
09. Favorite Christmas candy? Can't go wrong with candy canes
10. Favorite Christmas tradition? I've always loved decorating the tree idk man
11. What are you hoping you get for Christmas this year? A new jacket and hat and maybe a few books. I'm also in dire need of chapstick and new headphones
12. Do you hate snow? I LOVE snow, love love love
13. Favorite Christmas activity? Making cookies or sledding
14. Fondest Christmas memory? Well my birthday is the day before and I just have the best memories of being excited for those two days
15. Do you have Christmas spirit? I dooo, and honestly I feel bad for those who refuse to get into Christmas because you're truly missing out buddy
16. What is Christmas about? It's about spending time with people you love and appreciating them. Sorry to get soppy but it's true
(this was actually terrible i'm sorry i just wanted to do something christmas-y)
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TIME FOR A CHRISTMAS QUESTIONAIRE
01. Eggnog, yay or nay? why would I intentionally drink something made of eggs
02. Do you like Christmas? HECK YEAH IT'S MY FAVORITE HOLIDAY BY A MILE
03. Favorite Christmas movie? Home Alone man
04. Favorite Christmas song? Idk actually but I like most of them. Maybe Baby It's Cold Outside
05. Do you believe in Santa? no
06. Ideal Christmas gift? My motivation back. Or clear skin
07. Are you the kind of person that likes getting clothes? ALL THE YESES Clothes are pretty much the best thing to get for Christmas especially socks do you know how warm socks are
09. Favorite Christmas candy? Can't go wrong with candy canes
10. Favorite Christmas tradition? I've always loved decorating the tree idk man
11. What are you hoping you get for Christmas this year? A new jacket and hat and maybe a few books. I'm also in dire need of chapstick and new headphones
12. Do you hate snow? I LOVE snow, love love love
13. Favorite Christmas activity? Making cookies or sledding
14. Fondest Christmas memory? Well my birthday is the day before and I just have the best memories of being excited for those two days
15. Do you have Christmas spirit? I dooo, and honestly I feel bad for those who refuse to get into Christmas because you're truly missing out buddy
16. What is Christmas about? It's about spending time with people you love and appreciating them. Sorry to get soppy but it's true
(this was actually terrible i'm sorry i just wanted to do something christmas-y)
All I want for Christmas is a Princess Bride AU
Everyone listen to When You Coming Home? by Mike Dignam
I desperately want to learn Victor's Piano Solo on the piano
HE HAS SUCH TINY ITTY BITTY BABY FEET I'M OVErwhELmED
(his security guard holding his shoes I KNOW)
(BONUS SIZE DIFFERENCE WITH THE LARENTS)
(his security guard holding his shoes I KNOW)
(BONUS SIZE DIFFERENCE WITH THE LARENTS)
"Everyone needs a place. It shouldn't be inside someone else."
— Richard Siken
— Richard Siken
Pain #12: I'm the interviewer
It has been 23 days since MITAM was released and I still cry every single time I listen to If I Could Fly
I love One Direction lots and lots and lots and lots. I'm feeling very emo atm and this is stupid to say but they have such a special place in my heart and I'm very thankful I have them and their music in my life. They make me feel nice and warm and comforted, and helped me accept my sexuality. One Direction's presence in my life has shaped the person I am today. I'll never be able to thank them enough.
alright enough of this gooey sh..ow of emotion
(not but seriously I really love 1d)
alright enough of this gooey sh..ow of emotion
(not but seriously I really love 1d)
I'M SO SICK OF THAT SAME OLD LOVE
okay but how am I supposed to do homework when all I want to do is hug louis and harry
"You hardly see him, except as a rustle of branches, a blur of feathers, or a glint in the water. You turn and stare, but he’s gone, and there’s only the space where he was, a moment ago, empty but lovely now for his having been there."
I remember about two years ago when I was just hardcore getting into Larry and making all these playlists for them and crying over Read All About It and being obsessed with Bastille and You Me at Six.. good times
Wynter wrote: " I'M SO SICK OF THAT SAME OLD LOVE "that song is bomb
"What hath night to do with sleep?"
me
me
"I have learned silence from the talkative, toleration from the intolerant, and kindness from the unkind; yet strange, I am ungrateful to these teachers."
— Kahlil Gibran
— Kahlil Gibran
Today, as I was reflecting as ya do, I realized something about myself. All through out my childhood I have had crushes on some ladies that I didn't realize were crushes (looking back I was.. I was very gay). So I was thinking of all the girls/celebrities/etc whom I have had crushes on and decided to write them down in a list for kicks. (Caution: much gay ahead)
My very first crush (I think) on a female was a girl named Whitney who went to my sister's softball games. I think I might have been just six or seven and she was at least two years older than me. I followed her around every time I saw her because I just thought she was so pretty and cool. Then my sister stopped playing softball and I never saw her again.
I think after that, all the crushes I had on girls were celebrities of some sort. So (in-maybe-order but I'm not too sure) here are my celebrities crushes from my childhood:
—The girl named Hannah from Barney (I know)
—Carrie Underwood in Soul Surfer
—Maya from Suite Life on Deck (Zack didn't deserve her...)
—..Aqua from the Cheetah Girls and also maybe Lizzie McGuire
—Victoria Justice at some point
—LILY FROM HANNAH MONTANA AND NOT SO MUCH HER BUT I WAS OBSESSED WITH THE NAME LILY OKAY IT WAS INSANE
—This is so specific but I had a crush on Gabriella but I also liked Sharpay's clothes so I imagined Gabriella with Sharpay's clothes and also I shipped Gabriella and Ryan??? Very weird
—Britt Robertson (I still highkey have a crush on her though so)
—Blake Lively in Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants lmao
—Jessica from Starstruck (even tho she was a crabapple in that movie she's still so pretty) (funny that just a few days ago she was stunting with louis.. fUNny)
—And now, Aimee Teegarden is my main chick but I also have huge crushes on Ashley Benson (pll is... nice), Cara (who doesn't though), Little Mix (my fav is leigh anne) and probably many others but my brain is fried from Biology homework atm
I'm probably missing so many I feel like there's someone major I'm forgetting But i'm sk tired rip
OH I JUST REMEMBERED AND THIS ISN'T THE ONE I'M THINKING OF BUT I HAD THE HUGEST CRUSH ON ANGELINA BALLERINA HAHAHAHAHAHAH
My very first crush (I think) on a female was a girl named Whitney who went to my sister's softball games. I think I might have been just six or seven and she was at least two years older than me. I followed her around every time I saw her because I just thought she was so pretty and cool. Then my sister stopped playing softball and I never saw her again.
I think after that, all the crushes I had on girls were celebrities of some sort. So (in-maybe-order but I'm not too sure) here are my celebrities crushes from my childhood:
—The girl named Hannah from Barney (I know)
—Carrie Underwood in Soul Surfer
—Maya from Suite Life on Deck (Zack didn't deserve her...)
—..Aqua from the Cheetah Girls and also maybe Lizzie McGuire
—Victoria Justice at some point
—LILY FROM HANNAH MONTANA AND NOT SO MUCH HER BUT I WAS OBSESSED WITH THE NAME LILY OKAY IT WAS INSANE
—This is so specific but I had a crush on Gabriella but I also liked Sharpay's clothes so I imagined Gabriella with Sharpay's clothes and also I shipped Gabriella and Ryan??? Very weird
—Britt Robertson (I still highkey have a crush on her though so)
—Blake Lively in Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants lmao
—Jessica from Starstruck (even tho she was a crabapple in that movie she's still so pretty) (funny that just a few days ago she was stunting with louis.. fUNny)
—And now, Aimee Teegarden is my main chick but I also have huge crushes on Ashley Benson (pll is... nice), Cara (who doesn't though), Little Mix (my fav is leigh anne) and probably many others but my brain is fried from Biology homework atm
I'm probably missing so many I feel like there's someone major I'm forgetting But i'm sk tired rip
OH I JUST REMEMBERED AND THIS ISN'T THE ONE I'M THINKING OF BUT I HAD THE HUGEST CRUSH ON ANGELINA BALLERINA HAHAHAHAHAHAH
I relate to Niall's nervous laugh so much
HARRY IS SO BEAUTIFUL WHAT THE HECK
"Let all flowers wither like a party."
— John Berryman
— John Berryman
"This is brutally beautiful.
So are we.
This is endless.
So are we."
—Buddy Wakefield
So are we.
This is endless.
So are we."
—Buddy Wakefield
"There is a wilderness we walk alone, however well-companioned."
—Stephen Vincent Benet
—Stephen Vincent Benet
I don't know what has been Up with me the past few weeks (maybe even months) but I feel like I'm simultaneously so very very jaded and uncaring but also I feel far too much for things?
Like I feel something in me has changed and it has for a while. I cry and get emotional very easily over things that I care about (even if they are small things, like I just had a breakdown this morning because I miss Zayn ): ) but I also just feel very.. apathetic in general? I used to be so motivated for school, I used to love reading and writing fic, I used to love listening to music and discovering new songs and now I just feel like I can't get into anything anymore.
I think I might have untreated depression (but that's been a concern of mine for over a year) because everything that I used to get so excited about seems boring now. Yet at the same time I feel like every feeling I experience is intense and all-encompassing and when I get into or feel for something I really do it. And I'm such a nerd because I'm tearing up while writing this and idk why??? Why are my emotions icky and terrible and playing games with me???
I bet none of this made any sense but I'm basically saying that I don't know what's wrong with me and mental illness sucks
Like I feel something in me has changed and it has for a while. I cry and get emotional very easily over things that I care about (even if they are small things, like I just had a breakdown this morning because I miss Zayn ): ) but I also just feel very.. apathetic in general? I used to be so motivated for school, I used to love reading and writing fic, I used to love listening to music and discovering new songs and now I just feel like I can't get into anything anymore.
I think I might have untreated depression (but that's been a concern of mine for over a year) because everything that I used to get so excited about seems boring now. Yet at the same time I feel like every feeling I experience is intense and all-encompassing and when I get into or feel for something I really do it. And I'm such a nerd because I'm tearing up while writing this and idk why??? Why are my emotions icky and terrible and playing games with me???
I bet none of this made any sense but I'm basically saying that I don't know what's wrong with me and mental illness sucks
“Wine comes in at the mouth
And love comes in at the eye;
That's all we shall know for truth
Before we grow old and die.
I lift the glass to my mouth,
I look at you, and sigh.”
― W.B. Yeats
And love comes in at the eye;
That's all we shall know for truth
Before we grow old and die.
I lift the glass to my mouth,
I look at you, and sigh.”
― W.B. Yeats
OH I JUST REMEMBERED THE CELEBRITY CRUSH I WAS THINKING OF
I USED TO WATCH SHAKE IT UP EVERY DAY EVEN THOUGH I DIDN'T LIKE IT VERY MUCH BECAUSE I HAD A CRUSH ON ZENDAYA SKWMDKWKDKWPW
I USED TO WATCH SHAKE IT UP EVERY DAY EVEN THOUGH I DIDN'T LIKE IT VERY MUCH BECAUSE I HAD A CRUSH ON ZENDAYA SKWMDKWKDKWPW
THEY MADE IT, THEY'RE FREE
THIS IS NOT THE END
NOAH FENCE BUT I'M ACTUALLY DYING WITH JOY
THIS IS NOT THE END
NOAH FENCE BUT I'M ACTUALLY DYING WITH JOY
"What a fine persecution—to be kept intrigued without ever quite being enlightened."
— Tom Stoppard
— Tom Stoppard
"If we wanted to tell you everything, we
would leave more footprints in the snow or kiss you harder."
— Richard Siken
would leave more footprints in the snow or kiss you harder."
— Richard Siken
"You’d break your heart to make it bigger."
— Richard Siken
— Richard Siken
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I know
Sorry for the delayed response.
How are you? Besides procrastinating. lol