Social Avoidance Quotes

“This time I avoid Commonwealth Avenue and instead take an alternate route, so I won't have to drive past Lucy's apartment. My no-go area is expanding. In the days after Nick's death, I forced myself to step through Lucy's front door only because she so desperately needed my comfort. Then I couldn't do it anymore. I couldn't tolerate her hugs, couldn't look her in the eye, so I just stopped going to see her. Stopped calling her, stopped returning her voicemails.
Now I can't even drive past her building.
My no-go areas keep expanding, like spreading blots of ink on the city map. The area around the hospital where Lucy works. Her favorite coffee shop and grocery store. All the places where 1 might run into her and be forced to explain the reason I've dropped out of her life. Just the thought of encountering her makes my heart pound, my hands sweat. I imagine those black blots enlarging, spreading on the map until the entire city of Boston is a no-go zone. Maybe I should move to Tucker Cove forever and lock myself away in Brodie's Watch. Grow old and die there, far from this city where I see my guilt reflected back at me everywhere I look, especially on this road to my own apartment.”
― Tess Gerritsen, The Shape of Night