B.L.’s Comments (group member since Dec 15, 2012)

B.L.’s comments from the A Wild in Colbie group.

"Don't be stupid, you stay here regardless, but we have to work this out" he says. Kol kisses Rory's lips and pulls her closer, just her body against his is enough, her touch still sends his heart racing like an idiot.

Kol wraps his arms tightly around Rory, he kisses the top of her head and laughs, "Your beautiful, stop trying to get complements out of me" he jokes with a smirk.

Kol pushes Rory's hair behind her ear lovingly. Maybe most blokes might be turned off by a woman who is pregnant, but for Kol it's just another thing that makes Rory his. Kol's hands smoothes over her cheek, he doesn't know how to feel about this baby, it's so different from the first time, he's 26 now, a real man, it's exactly the right time to have a child really. Kol is excited despite himself, he knows it's wrong to be at this precise moment when everything is still so fucked, but he remembers how amazing it was to hold Jace. Kol can feel the ice around his heart melt slowly. "I know, we have to. I won't ever love anyone else like this, nothing can compare to it" he says.

Kol rushes over to Rory, he rubs her back, just like he had done any times when Rory had been pregnant with Jace. Kol shakes his head, he says softly "Damn it Ror, wht didn't you tell me?". Kol thinks back over the last couple of weeks, he wonders how he could possibly miss the fact that the woman he loves is pregnant again. Kol kneads Rory's back, and then he fills her up a glass of lemonade because she hates water.

Ever turns on Brayden and feels like screaming, but she says quielty "What looked like what?" she doesn't know what he is talking about now. Things are getting confusing fast, it's too much for Ever, she doesn't do intimacy, she can't do it.

"For fucks sake Rory, there's nothing WRONG with you. I love you, i wil always love you, it isn't a choice, i love you.I love you, i love you, i love you. I think your beautiufl, so very beautiful, and bloody hilarious, you make me laugh, you understand me, i know it sounds pathetic, but you do. I'd happily spend my whole life with just you for company in the world. But sometimes...i mean maybe it isn't enough, im not sure yet...i think we should...take a break, just for a little while" says Kol slowly, he has been thinking about this since she had left, he isn't angry, he just wants things to be amazing for Kasper.

Ever gasps at his words, they are so unexpected. Ever turns to Brayden finally, she can't ignore the tears anymore because they are reflected in his eyes. Ever kisses Brayden and then she feels stupid again for caring. That's when the anger sets in, how dare he say something like that, Ever steps back from Brayden, she wipes the wetness on her cheeks away fiercely and says "Fuck off Brayden", she leaves the room.

Ever shakes her head and still won't look at him, she refuses to acknowledge the moisture in her eyes "No, I don't, it doesn't matter really Brayden,let's just carry on like before, forget we talked about all this yeah" she says in a rush, it hurts and she hates him for making it hurt.

Ever cringes hard and pauses, she won't look at him. She isnt weak, not ever. Ever says quietly "Yeah, I know den. We don't need to pretend any different. We should do the mum and dad thing, but that's it". Because that's all she can handle from Brayden, anything else is too much, always had been.

Ever squeezes her eyes shut tight to stop the tears that are building. Ever gets out of his grasp and stands up, she doesn't say anything, what is there to say. It's obvious he doesn't get it, and she's starting to wonder if she does either. Ever finds some matching black underwear and laced bra, she pulls on a blue little dress silently.

Ever relax's on instinct in his arms but she still won't look at him "I understand Den, but you need to be able to say why. Are you really happy with thinking i just want you because of sex? or because of Kasper?" she says.

Ever turns away from Brayden, she feels like screaming, "See den, this is it, if we can't even sort this shite out then what will we do later? Of course i like you fucking me...it feels so...like im..." Ever can't finish the sentence, she feels stupid and curls herself into a ball so she doesn't have to look at him.

Ever is frustrated, she reaches out and kisses Brayden on the lips, when she pulls back slightly she looks into his face "Give me a fucking reason to not want to fuck other men, or call them fuckable then" she says.

"Well of course you were jelous, your a bloke, it's in your DNA to be jelous when a woman you like to fuck is in the presence of another fuckable bloke" says Ever matter of factly "But WHY?", Ever watches him carefully.

Ever jumps on his answer "Why? Brayden, i need to know WHY? I know you don't like this, I don't like this either, but i need you to say it". Ever leans her forehead on his back and kisses him again, then she sits up. Ever rolls off of Brayden and lays on her side facing him.

Ever kisses his skin again and laughs, "Thats not what i meant den, i know this feels good, but thats not all there is...or maybe it is and if so then thats a problem. I don't know...i mean how did you feel when you thought about me and Kol?" says Ever.

Kol would normally fall to his knees at this point, kiss her, comfort her. His Rory. But Kol just gets more angry "And then you do this, make me feel like things could be differnt, im a fuck up too Rory, i know i am, i have never deserved you but i've worked so hard to try and deserve the right to call you mine...but i just can't keep going around in this loop, it's not about us, it's Kasper, he can't take it. There's nothing wrong with you, maybe it's not either of us indvidually, maybe it's just US thats the problem" he says calmly.

Ever leans over and kisses a trail up his back, her kisses ending at is neck, her hands knead into his shoulders "We just need to talk about us, what we're doing. I mean it den, we need to say how we...you know...feel about...things" Ever cringes, she hates that kind of thing and she knows Brayden probably does too.

Kol feels a spark of anger, he tries not to let his voice rise when he says "Want you? want you? of COURSE i want you and that just makes things so much worse. I love you, i wills always love you no matter what you do, it's not a choice, sometimes there re no reasons for things, me loving you is one of those things, me loving you just, it....it just IS". Kol closes his eyes briefly and resists the urge to take her in his arms and never let go, "But you crossed a line Rory...i've had enough of feeling like im never good enough, never loving you enough. Even after all these years and everything we've been through you STILL doubt my love for you. You still think i could just suddenly not want you. And it's fucking up Jace, he's confused constantly and i can't blame him" says Kol.

Ever leans over and kisses Brayden's shoulder, she sits up on her knees and says "Den, it's not about US, not really, it's about Kasper, we can't fuck up his life, it's not fair on any of us". Ever waits for a response, when she doesn't get one Ever climbs onto Brayden crushing him into the bed.