Zombieslayer⚡Alienhunter’s Comments (group member since Jul 24, 2016)

Zombieslayer⚡Alienhunter’s comments from the Beat of a Rebel Drum group.

"Anyone who gets in my way gets PUNCHED."

Every YA author ever; (excluding S.E Hinton)
"I'm gonna write a book set in a small southern town. Now, the next logical step would be to make every character (probably not excluding the protagonist) a racist, a homophobe and/or a sterotype of a conservative republican Christian."

I could pitch a fit about my culture being poorly represented...
But i already have a headache. It's not worth it >.>

Today was hard.
But I'm working on it. I made it today, I made it yesterday, I'll make it tomorrow.

When I wake up the to the sound of demons, they're always tellin' me that I'm no good, and all the angels keep scratchin' at my door.
I'm doin' what I can to fight this anger, I'm just a product of a living hell, and I don't wanna live like this no more.

Everything is crumbling in my head.
Sometimes I wish I was-

But maybe I'm not alone.
Maybe if you take my hand, and I reach up to God, maybe this time he'll say a prayer for the damned.
What have I got to lose, when I've already lost it all?
Maybe this time he'll say a prayer for the the- Say a prayer for the damned.. Say a prayer for the damned.

I used to be able to lift ninety pounds in each arm, I could run half a mile, and was sleeping like a rock.

The recovery process has been hard on me, and i haven't been working out really at all, and when i can be bothered to even do it i've been having a hard time.
I'm weaker (physically) now than i've been in years, jogging a couple of blocks wears me out and i'm having trouble getting any decent sleep.

*sigh*
Quitting was supposed to make he healthier, but so far it ain't working out.
And don't me wrong, i started lazing off of working out back when i was still drinking, because alcohol makes you fucking tired, but sobriety makes you fucking tired, too.

But i had a small win last weekend. On Saturday i went to an art and music festival and was able to limit myself to one beer. :)
... Helped that it was artisian crap that tasted like sunflowers XD

I guess my journal here at Rebel Drum is gonna be a recovery thing now.
You can always ask questions :)

Autumn Rising •Hands in Our Pockets We'll March Into wrote: "XD Here's the best insult anyone could ever use:
Why, bless your heart.
(Translation: You are a horrible piece of crap and not even Satan would want you in hell.)"

Oh, sweetie, I'm from Texas. I've been using that one for a while. ;) The fuckstick/fuckwad thing was just an argument with my friend. We call each other horrible names because we can no longer be offended XD

And next for Western animation is either Gaurdians of The Galaxy (again, i'll start reading the comics again at some point...) or Young Justice.
Wanna get through season 2 of Static Shock first.

Finished Deadman Wonderland.
Next up is Sword Art Online, at the suggesting of Autumn and several friends on DeviantArt :p

I was gonna shower tonight anyway...

I should go bang on the door. She might not have her phone on.

Have not seen my mother since 11 PM last night. She only had to work two hours this morning and yet she's STILL holed up in her office out back.
It's raining so i texted her asking if she needed me to bring her umbrella.
No response.
She must be upset with me for making supper and doing everbody's dishes last night. XD

Help me settle an argument between me and this dude.
Which is a better insult,

"You spectacular fuckwad."
or
"You spectacular fuckstick."

Personally I like wad.

Honestly my focus won't be psychological and psychiatric health, it'll be in addiction therapy (i want to be an addiction counselor), but i still need to understand this stuff.

That felt smart. Was that smart?

So i'm studying a lot of psychology this year. I really want to know what i'm talking about when i start studying it in college, so i'm using Labor Day weekend to do this long-ass research paper focusing on the American mental health system just before, during and after the Reagan administration.

Focus is on Reagan because his office made a lot of policy changes to mental health concerns (funny in kind of a messd up way, seeing as he was slipping into dementia by the middle of his second term) and because of how long ago it was. He was elected November '80 and took office January '81. January 1981 is over thirty-five years ago, and a lot has changed. And we were already marveling at the 'innovations' made in psychiatric health in the 80's after the horror show that was the 60's (at which time we were using techniques we stole from the Nazis, like EST against one's will, for instance).

Sober over a month.
Haven't made it this long in a LONG time.
Not quite sure how to feel. Good, weird, healthy, somehing's missing?
Kinda... All of the above.
I mean, I know how much better I'm treating my body now. And I know I should be happy.
And I am.
But I miss it. Losing track of everything for a little while, not caring about anything. It was nice.
Not worth the hangover.
But nice.
In the first few weeks I started having nightmares again, had another panic attack, went through withdrawel.
I needed to get straight for a job interview, which never happened because they passed over me.
Normally I would go back under.
But I'm not gonna do that. I got right and I'm staying right.
I have goals, dreams and a life to live.

I'm sorry to anyone I hurt.
And I thank everyone who didn't push me away.
And I also thank those who did.
We're probably both better off.

Truth be told, i've been tempted. I heard about it from a friend who watched Akame Ga Kill, which i loved.
I'm gonna start watching it when i have time to start another series, so maybe after i'm done with Deadman Wonderland.

Animes i'm currently watching:
One-Punch Man (ep. 8. Toonami airings).
Hunter X Hunter (unsure of place. Toonami airings).
Gundam: Iron-Blooded Orphans (ep.12, pretty sure. Toonami airings).
Deadman Wonderland (ep. 10, Kissanime).

Cool :D

Autumn Rising •Hands in Our Pockets We'll March Into The Sun• wrote: "...Harambe?"

The gorilla from the Cincinatti zoo? A kid jumped in the enclosure and the zoo had to shoot the gorilla. The Internet made him into a meme. :/