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Week 1 Weigh-In | Day 8 of 90

And there you have it! 1 full week down. Only 11 more to go! That actually felt really fast!

This morning Sam came to weight lift with me and it made me so happy! He rarely works out with me so it is such a treat when he can.

You guys – I gotta say…announcing my goals, being firm about how I’m gonna do it, and then actually doing it is making me feel SO ALIVE!!! I haven’t felt this motivated in so long. I feel so whole inside right now. Like I know who I am again. And the writing has been so therapeutic for me…I look forward to blogging everyday.

If you have a hard time sticking to your goals and staying on track, maybe starting a blog or instagram dedicated to your fitness will keep you more accountable. Writing in my Fit Journal everyday and knowing that you guys are going to see exactly what I ate and what I did for my workout keeps me super regimented.

Okay, ready to discuss my progress? For those that don’t want to look at numbers, you probably won’t like this next section. But if you’ve been following my journey for an entire week now and are still angry, all I can say is you need to look at things that don’t make you angry. If reading my blog is not serving you any good, please go do and experience things that make YOU happy!

Having this page filled out makes me feel SO GOOD. If any of you are like me and love checking things off, this page gives you that high. It’s my “Game Plan” page where I schedule out what workouts I’m gonna do for the week. I love seeing every box filled in.

I did 2 runs, 1 dance class, 2 HIITs, 1 weight lifting, 1 aerial hoop (hurt my hands so much, probs won’t be back), and 1 stretching class.

If you remember from my day 1 post, I said I wanted to take more dance classes and yay I did it! I already signed up for another one this Sunday.

WEEK 1 PROGRESS:

This page happens after every 7th day in the Fit Journal. Main thing is I need to drink more water. I can tell I am a little dehydrated at night.

This is my progress over the past 7 days.

If you factor in that I first weighed in at 136 lbs on 8/12/19, then my 10 day change in weight goes to -4.4 lbs. Honestly though, I think a lot of that was extra water retention, bloat and wastage etc. I know this because I wasn’t eating too well before I started the challenge!

My 7 day progress is -2.6 lbs in a week which I think is a record for me. I don’t think I can do this again any of the following weeks. Why? Because like I said above, I think a lot of that weight came from the stagnant nasties being stuck in my body.

The good news is, you can see that some of that weight loss was actually due to fat loss. -0.5% down. And look! I actually gained muscle mass! +0.3% up! WHOO!

My week 1 is off to a great start. To be honest with you, I am fearful inside that I won’t have such intense changes next week. And I’m gonna say it right now, I probably won’t.

The fear really just comes from my competitiveness with myself. My whole personality is about pushing myself to the next level and doing better than how I did yesterday, so I need to prep my mind not to be disappointed. This isn’t just with fitness though. It’s with career, academics, finances etc.

What always helps me calm down is comparing my progress from the starting point. Not just from yesterday. It helps you appreciate how far you’ve come. So that’s why I love making these charts. It makes me think very logically and numerically about my goals instead of just randomly feeling bad for no reason.

Anyway, if I am currently at 131.6 lbs and my goal is to get down to 120 lbs in 11 weeks, I need to lose an average of -1.05 lbs a week. That’s also -0.35% body fat per week. Okay. I need to be on point. I’ve got this.

DAY 7 RECAP:

Went for a run yesterday with some new wireless headphones Sam got me! Started listening to a new audiobook. Not really feeling it…so I’ll tell you the title if I end up liking it.

For lunch, I had a Chipotle chicken salad with guac, pico de gallo, tomatillo salsa, romaine lettuce and fajitas.

As a snack, I had some 50% less salted peanuts and a slice of brie cheese. Almost done with my brie. I’ll try a new snack next week.

I got really hungry before dinner so I made myself a paleo sausage, smothered it with mustard, and ate butter lettuce on the side. I know it looks weird but it was actually really good!

Oh gosh sometimes my food pics just look really terrible. Thank goodness this isn’t a food blogger’s blog. I’m literally just snapping one photo of my food and moving on my with life.

That pile of mush is the zoodle thing I told you about yesterday. I tried pan frying it instead of microwaving and it’s even mushier. So umm, I think I might just make my own zoodles after I finish the last pack?

On top, that is a koobideh (a Persian grilled meat – SOOOOO GOOOOOOD!!!!), on top of some grilled asparagus, along with a roasted tomato. I actually ended up eating 2 more roasted tomatoes and like triple that koobideh amount :P

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Can you lose weight and be body positive? | Day 7 of 90

Even after 7 days of blogging how honestly happy I am to finally be speaking my mind, how great I feel to be on top of my workout game, how good I feel to be eating better food, I still get people saying I am an “embarrassment” and “disappointment.” Sigh.

I thought I was pretty clear about why I wanted to share all my goals publicly (this blog is my diary and my readers are my accountability partners). I have never seen anyone so heavily in the public eye do this before. Maybe that’s why it’s such a shocker?

For example: Do you know exactly what actors do to lean down for a role? Do you know what Beyoncé ate or did everyday to lose all the baby weight and prepare her body for her Coachella performance? No, you just saw her bangin’ body afterwards. And by that time, all the people who probably would have complained about her diet are probably asking HOW DID SHE DO IT?

She states in her documentary: “In order for me to meet my goal, I’m limiting myself to no bread, no carbs, no sugar, no dairy, no meat, no fish, no alcohol…and I’m hungry.”

Look, I am no Beyoncé (no one is and we shall all bow down to the queen!!!) so I don’t need to go as hard as her. Does her diet make me feel bad about myself? No. So my diet and my goals should not make you feel bad about yourself. My goals have nothing to do with your goals because our bodies are different. Our DNA is different. Our lifestyles are different. Our careers are different! My goals are for me and your goals are for you. You know the quote “Comparison is the thief of joy”? Repeat that to yourself and STOP COMPARING.

Which now brings me to a topic I think we all need to discuss.

What is Body Positivity, and where did it come from?

I’ve seen people say that I’m not being body positive or that I am misusing the term itself. To be honest with you, I have never actually looked up the origin of the word. I just thought if I am loving my body, then I am being positive with my body. But maybe it’s more complicated than that. And if I’m wrong, good! I’d love to know why.

After doing hours of research, here’s what I learned:

“The Body Positive” was first trademarked in the 1996 by Connie Sobczak, a psychotherapist, and Elizabeth Scott, a woman who overcame an eating disorder and her sister’s death due to an ED, and has made it her life mission to help improve people’s self image.

In their book, Embody: Learning to Love Your Unique Body (and quiet that critical voice), they describe being Body Positive as…”a way of living that gives you permission to love, care for, and take pleasure in your body throughout your lifespan. Struggles will inevitably occur, especially during times of transition or imbalance.” Practicing true body positivity…”allows you to find what you need to live with as much self-love and balanced self-care as possible. Experiences of conflict and suffering become opportunities to learn what is required to further your growth so you can find greater contentment and peace.”

Wow, that is a whole mouthful!

But what I am reading is that being Body Positive, in it’s ORIGINAL definition, means to love and care for your body, while allowing yourself to grow in order to find happiness.

I then wanted to hear from someone who would willingly describe themselves as fat. What would her take on body positivity be? I came across young adult writer Kelly deVos, the author of Fat Girl on a Plane. In her opinion piece for The New York Times, she says, “I’ve come to feel that loving yourself and desiring to change yourself are two sentiments that should be able to peacefully coexist.”

There was another part of the article that I found super interesting. Kelly said, “It’s worth noting that body positivity is the convergence of a few movements. The fat acceptance movement was pioneered in the 1960s by black and queer women to fight discrimination in public spaces, the workplace and doctors’ offices. Fat positivity, which is more of a reaction to fat shaming, and body positivity, which is a more commercial self-esteem movement, came later.”

Interesting.

I decided to look into Fat Acceptance first. According to NAAFA, the National Association to Advance Fat Acceptance, founded in 1969, their mission is “To eliminate discrimination based on body size and provide fat people with the tools for self-empowerment through public education, advocacy, and support.” From what I read, fat people are less likely to be hired for a job when compared to their thinner peers.

In Googling further, I found a TIME Magazine article talking about the first fat activists. In the 1960s they “…staged their own event in New York City’s Central Park, dubbed it a “Fat-In” and ate ice cream while burning posters of über-thin model Twiggy.”

So…why the backlash on my 90 Day Journey?

I always want to know when I am doing something wrong and how I can fix it. So I went searching for viewpoints that differed from my own.

VICE did an article featuring Fat Positive Activists in 2017 and I was super interested in hearing their thoughts.

Jessica Hinkle, the owner of Proud Mary, a plus sized fashion site said, “If people want to work out and eat only salad, go for it. Do what makes you feel good. The problem comes when people are posting “before and after” images, which inherently champions being smaller as better. If that’s how you feel, fine, but do not call yourself body-positive. In order to be body-positive, you have to acknowledge that people truly deserve respect and autonomy over their bodies without judgement. Fat people aren’t “before” photos. We need to stop centering conversations about body-positivity around health in general.”

Okay, I can understand how before and after photos can make looking smaller seem better. But when she says that in order to be body positive, we have to acknowledge that people “deserve respect and autonomy over their bodies without judgement” – I definitely feel like there are people who are not not being body positive with me and my body AT ALL. Telling me that I am already small, or that I shouldn’t blog about my journey, or that I am an “embarrassment” and “disappointment” really does not respect my right to self govern my body, now does it?

There’s a very strongly-written article called “Here’s Why the Definition of Body Positivity Isn’t Up for Debate” published on everydayfeminism.com saying that, “The actual intention of body positivity is not any action that makes you feel positive about your body. The intention is size acceptance.”

Okay, so body positivity is supposed to mean accepting the size you are at.

The writer goes on to say, “Body positivity is about reducing potential disordered eating and distorted body image triggers, while reducing the oppressive language that excludes fat people from access to resources.”

Okay, I can understand how my talk of weight, scales, and diets can be triggers for people with distorted body image, which helps explain why my 90 Day Journey has been upsetting for some people.

But then she goes on to say…

“Let’s make something clear: Having a goal for intentional fat loss is not body positive. Period. That’s literally antithetical to the definition and intention of body positivity. Fat loss goals are about intentionally changing your body weight…Body positivity is about not intentionally changing your body weight. The two things don’t mix.”

Wait, so if fat loss is antithetical to the intention of body positivity in her definition, what about Connie and Elizabeth’s original definition 1996?

UGH.

So, am I Body Positive or not?

I was hoping that after all this research, I’d either be 100% right or 100% wrong, but I realize that I am neither.

In fact, no one is right or wrong. It seems like Body Positivity in the 2019 sense is an opinionated definition at best.

You literally can’t look it up in the dictionary.

What I think happened is that the definition of the term “Body Positive” changed over time. And me going on a 90 Day Journey while also being known for my “body positive” brand is controversial because no one can agree on the actual definition of Body Positivity.

So what now?

Now, we move on! To…

DAY 6 RECAP:

Here is my day 6 entry in my Fit Journal. In my weightlifting class, the instructor surprised us with 60 burpees at the end. I ALMOST DIED. He said we could add a pushup if we wanted to. To be honest, I didn’t want to, but I had no choice. Hard Core Cassey was like – DO NOT BACK DOWN. Heart rate got up to 166 BPM!

For lunch I ate leftover chicken shawarma with butter lettuce and meal prepped turkey chili. Ha, I am almost done with it – I promise. Will cook something new next week.

Snack. Brie cheese and Thai Chili Almonds. Nothing new here folks. I love that George is just staring at my snack. My the way, he loves plain cashews and peanuts more than he loves traditional dog treats. He truly is my dog :)

Dinner was much more interesting! I bought this bag of frozen zoodles from Costco months ago but never felt like cooking with it. Until last night!

Overall, it was good, but kinda mushy. You can also see that water kept seeping out after I microwaved it, even though I drained it and paper toweled it. Next time, I think I’ll defrost and then put it on the pan. Topped my zoodles with marinara sauce and chicken sausage. YUM!

You guys. I had PIZZA!!!! I used my keto flatbread recipe (egg + almond flour + mozzarella cheese) as the base and then I just added marinara, cheese, and chicken sausage on top! Sam was like, “ummm is that okay for your 90 day challenge?” I was like yeah, taste it!! He tried it and actually liked it. WHOOO!!

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Eew don’t call me an “influencer” | Day 6 of 90

Yesterday I got a call from BuzzFeed asking to be interviewed about my 90 Day Journey. It’s truly amazing how “controversial”, “shocking”, and apparently newsworthy me wanting to lose some pounds and shed some fat is. Quite frankly, I was a bit hesitant to take the call. I wasn’t sure how they were going to twist my story and possibly turn it into me being some sort of anti-body positivity extremist or something…

So…

I took the interview anyway.

Why?

The 90 day journey is about me doing things that make me scared and uncomfortable – especially when it comes to other people’s judgments of me. This journey is not only supposed to help me shed fat…it’s also to help me shed fear.

So, I took the call, and now – not only is there a BuzzFeed article…

…there’s a DailyMail one too.

I’ve read both articles and am proud of myself for not crying or backtracking. Both make the whole 90 day thing sound really dramatic but the truth is, the majority of you guys are in support of my journey. And those that weren’t already left. I know this because I saw a decrease in followers the day I posted my before pic on IG. But I am glad it’s sparking a good discussion around very taboo topic.

You know, it’s interesting being an internet celebrity…you become someone who people want to talk about…someone who gets dissected apart by strangers…someone who is judged constantly for everything you do, everything you say, everything you don’t do, and everything you don’t say. I guess that is what comes with the role of being a public figure.

I had ZERO intention of becoming an internet celebrity when I posted my first YouTube video in 2009, but now that “star” power is kind of all that defines me when any media outlet describes me. It is weird being what they call…an…”influencer.”

Eew.

I shudder at that word!

It is such a soulless term that the advertising and media industries created to describe internet celebrities who could push product. No longer defined by our expertise or our profession but by the number of followers we have and our ability to persuade people to buy things, the term leaves such a bad taste in my mouth. When I hear “influencer” I immediately think – pretty girl with perfect skin posing with a product she doesn’t even use looking at the camera with her mouth half open. Caption usually includes a discount code.

To understand why this term bothers me so much, let’s dive into it’s core definition.

According to Google, to be an “influencer” is to be someone who has the capacity to have an effect on the character, development, or behavior of someone or something, or the effect itself.

Umm so basically, if all you call me is an “influencer”, you’re saying that my entire mission in life and my entire career boils down to me being able to persuade people to act how I want them to act – no matter what my background is, what my education is, what my profession is, what my beliefs are, or what my expertise is. This pretty much means my core mission as an “influencer” is to make people buy things…That means my worth is equal to the amount of products people end up purchasing. And if I can’t make em purchase anything, then it means I no longer have influence, which means I am no longer, by definition, an influencer, which ultimately means I can no longer get paid to pose soullessly with products that I don’t even use :)

That’s why I hate it when brands, ad agencies, and media outlets call me an “influencer”!!! AGGHHHHHHHHHH.

I am a CEO. An Entrepreneur. A Creator. A Founder. A Pilates Instructor. A Fashion Designer. A Fitness Blogger. I am not a soulless product pusher! Nor would I ever take a deal just to make money and risk my relationship with you guys. You’re my friend. And that means I would never do anything to exploit our friendship because I genuinely care about about our future together! Like – do you guys think YouTube will still be around when we’re 80? Will we be doing senior citizen fitness together??? Cuz that is what I am hoping for :)

To be clear, there is absolutely no hate for my peers who make a living on social media. I think it is amazing that our generation can make a decent (and sometimes way more than decent) income by doing what they love on the internet instead of being chained to our parents’ generation of corporate ladder climbing. But for ad agencies and media outlets to boil our identities down to “influencers” – it makes me feel like my expertise and profession aren’t as important as my effectiveness on a billboard.

If you’re an “influencer” or thinking of becoming one, just remember this: ask yourself what VALUE you want to bring to your audience. What would they call you if they couldn’t call you an “influencer”? Is the value you bring to the table the value of entertainment? Education? Tools for something?

Don’t become an influencer to just to influence. Don’t become famous just to be famous. Don’t make money just to make money. Have a mission and have a vision that allows your hard work to create real impact on people – hopefully positive. That will always guide you in the right direction when it comes to choosing your next step…or choosing your next brand deal.

Ha, you know what’s gonna be weird?

I know Sam will get some emails from brands tomorrow, and knowing that most of them will probably not have read this article, they will most likely still refer to me as influencer. What do you think, should I link this article in my signature and kindly suggest they read it OR ELSE?? Hahahaha.

ANYWAY!!!! Enough about influencers.

DAY 5 RECAP

I am really happy that I’ve been getting to color in that happy face circle recently in my Fit Journal. This whole 90 day journey has me feeling pumped and excited! I hope this feeling stays around for the entire 12 weeks. If it doesn’t, I’ll just need to switch up my workouts and my food! We shall see. I am keeping a close eye on my feelings daily.

Yesterday I went to take a workout class with Brittney and Laurel from the Blogifam! We all love ClassPass so we are trying to take a new workout class together every week. I’m so happy when we get to work out together. Brittney is our graphic design extraordinaire and Laurel is our social media queen! (But don’t worry I still run the Blogilates related stuff, so if you get a comment from me, it is actually me :))

We took a HIIT class nearby and it was SO HARD!!!! My heart rate got up to 173 BPM (thanks Apple Watch, obsessed with looking at you while I am dying) and I was sweating for reals! Brittney and Laurel said it was hard but not that hard, but I thought it was REALLY HARD. It was 2 min on and 25 sec off. But like, 2 min on!!??? I felt like I couldn’t go that hard because I was conserving my energy so I wouldn’t stop! The instructor noticed that and came over to me and said…FASTER!!!! Hahahaha.

For lunch I had cauliflower rice with shawarma chicken, mushrooms, and match chile peppers. I made a large batch earlier in the week, so still going through it.

Had it with some butter lettuce on the side. Butter lettuce is seriously favorite. The Trader Joes ready to use version is my absolute fave. I get 4 bags every time I go to the store. They are $1.99 each.

Snacked on some more brie cheese and thai chili almonds for post lunch munchies. Anyone else get those? We have a micro kitchen with free snacks in the office and usually around 3pm I reach for chips or something, but I’ve been staying on track with my Lazy Keto because I come PREPARED!!!! That is the key people. Prepare yourself for any weaknesses and you will be ok when temptation strikes.

For dinner, we ordered in from a place that unfortunately wasn’t that good. My trout had tiny bones everywhere, and the “roasted veggies” I ordered on the side ended up being a bunch of potatoes. Luckily they gave us teeny sides of cucumbers, bell peppers, carrots, and baba ganoush (eggplant puree) which I just found out is totally keto friendly!!! I will def be making this soon. OMG I love eggplants sooooo much!!! I added in some butter lettuce for more veggie intake.

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Born to be “fat” | Day 5 of 90

Yesterday ended up being a rest day for me because I went into the office early to decorate one of our team member’s desks for her bday! Funny thing was – even though none of us talked about it – pretty much the rest of the team came in early too to do the same thing! It made my heart so happy. The office has been a lovely place lately with good vibes flowing.

I did however sign up for my favorite stretching class at SM Stretching in Beverly Hills. I literally tell everyone about this class. I am always searching for an intense flexibility class (not yoga) but every single one that I try is so inconsistent. Sometimes the pole dance studios get it right but those classes aren’t as important to them so the instructors are always changing so you never know what you’re gonna get.

Anyway, I’ve been going to SM Stretching for a little over a month and a half I think? Love it. The gym is developed by a former Russian medalist in rhythmic gymnastics and y’all IT IS INTENSE. The teachers will push on you to go deeper, make you put blocks under your heels, and make you hold splits for 3 minutes…each side. It’s for sure painful. I mean, I can barely move my legs after I hold splits for that long, especially middle splits, but I see small improvements every time I go! Nothing motivates me more than progress…so I KEEP COMING BACK!

First time I went a a couple months ago with my friend Laura who is a professional ballerina. She is flexy goals. Here I am in front splits with 1 block under my heel.

A month or so in, 2 blocks under my heel.

Yesterday, 3 blocks under my heel! Gotta still get my front hip down lower.

Middle splits are a different story entirely. This is a couple months ago:

This is yesterday:

Not bad! But the middles are SOOOO painful for me!!!

My goal in life is one day to be able to do the middle splits. I swear I will do everything it takes. One day it is going to happen. But seriously, MY HIPS ARE SO TIGHT. This might take me a while!!!

Anyway, because yesterday became a rest day (I don’t schedule rest days because I let them take place naturally when I’m traveling or too busy) I knew my progress was going to stall a bit. For me movement does more than burn calories, it helps with my digestive system too. So when I don’t work out, I just kinda feel slower…with everything!

As I’ve gotten older and as I’ve experienced several fitness journeys, I’ve begun to understand my body much more. For my body type, weight loss and fat loss are a constant uphill battle. I’ve always kinda known this growing up as the chubby one in my family and in the classroom. My sister could always eat what she wanted and she’s always been slim. My friends in school were always thinner than me.

My 23andme report says:

Some of you may be thinking – 5%? That’s not even anything! But just to give you some context, the 5% is actually the highest I’ve seen from all my friends & fam who have taken the test. Even for those whose weight actually qualifies them as overweight or obese, they had 3% on their report. Everyone else was either predisposed to weigh average or predisposed to weight 3 or 5% less than average.

So what am I “supposed” to weigh?

Ok, so a couple things I find problematic with this “average” weight for a 32 year old 5’5″ woman.

They are getting averages from a pool of European people. Asians tend to be smaller in frame and therefore weigh less. So it’s not truly accurate to compare me against an average of people that don’t reflect me.
Also, what is the demographic of people who actually have purchased and taken 23andme? The average only reflects the demographic of the 23andme customer. I don’t know what that demo actually is but I presume it is someone who has a little bit of disposable income, probably middle class or upper middle class, is educated, and is probably Caucasian.

I don’t think I am too far off. Out of all my family, only my sister and I have taken 23andme. We recently forced our parents to do it too. My dad really didn’t want to. He said all knowingly “NO TEST CAN TELL ME WHO I AM!” I don’t know whether to be mad or to laugh.

Anyway my sister and I have not found any relatives on the app. In contrast, pretty much everyone in Sam’s family (big fam) has taken the test and they continue to find new relatives like almost every month! So that explains why 23andme only has data for people of European descent. I think Asians just don’t wanna pay for it. Hahaha.

OK BACK TO THE WEIGHT THO

When I first found out that I could pretty much blame my genes for my lack of a six pack even with my active lifestyle, I didn’t know whether to be happy or to be sad. Should I celebrate that I weighed less than my average? Or should I be resentful for not having genes that would have been really useful for my career in the fitness industry?

You know, when you’re given the gift of life and a body that is so precious, you take it, you take care of it and you appreciate it.

I was dealt a hand of cards that made it a bit harder for me to lose weight. And you know what? That’s amazing. I could have been dealt sooooooo much worse!!! I love that my genes gave me my dark hair, brown eyes, long fingers, great legs (if I may say so myself), and a mind that never stops thinking and creating. I love myself and I love that I don’t have to ever feel “stuck” with what I have because I have the power to keep learning and improving.

So, for the camps of people who believe that body positivity and weight loss cannot go hand in hand, I ask you to take a moment to think about the WHY behind the weight loss. If someone wants to do it to get healthier, be happier, and gain more confidence, we should cheer them on! If someone is doing it because they feel pressure from somewhere that isn’t from within, that is a whole ‘nother thing. Be understanding that everyone’s fitness journey is their own. So unless you can get inside someone’s brain, don’t tell them they’re doing is wrong.

DAY 4 RECAP:

This is what I ate yesterday. I was actually kinda hungry in the morning which is not normal for me, so I ate some brie cheese and these Thai chili almonds – both from Trader Joes! Pretty good combo I must say! I like rolling the cheese around in the Thai chili seasoning.

Also, in case you guys were wondering how I stay hydrated, I carry 2 water bottles around with me. The blue one is 32 oz and the pink one is 24 oz. Why do I carry 2? In case I’m not in a place where there’s a water fountain. Also, I love my water ice cold (and these bottles keep it ice cold all day). I mean I cannot depend on an unknown water source to give me the temperature of water I desire! :P

For lunch I had meal-prep turkey chili and cauliflower rice with chicken marsala – both items I bought at Costco! The chicken marsala has some sauce and mushrooms. Very good flavor!

Now, the cauli rice. We need to talk about the cauli rice!!! You guys, it’s cauli rice in a bag and it takes 90 sec to heat up in the microwave!!! AHHHHH!!!

The first time I bought it, I was so skeptical. Like how does a vegetable live outside of the fridge or freezer?? Honestly, no idea, but after 90 sec in the microwave, I tasted it, and it was legit!

For dinner, I couldn’t choose whether I wanted a “Mexican bowl” or tacos. So, I did both! Haha. That’s why my plate has a side of cauli rice plus chicken, mushrooms, hatch chile peppers, onions, and then 4 mini keto flatbreads that I used as my “taco” outsides.

You guys. IT WAS SOOOOO GOOD!!!!

The tacos ended up being more like tostadas and they were DELICIOUS!!!! I added some guac and pico de gallo on top.

Again, I did not measure my ingredients for the keto flatbread, but I can tell you that I mixed about 1 TBSP  of mozzarella cheese with 1 egg and like 2 TBSP of almond flour. Put it on the pan, flipped, and boom, done. Total process from mixing to getting on my plate is like 5 minutes.

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Why I feel so guilty | Day 4 of 90

Yesterday was my self care Sunday! Took a dance class, an aerial hoop class, got a facial, and hung out with a girl friend of mine! So much fun! Side note: Have you ever taken aerial hoop? Imagine doing spins and hanging on a really hard and unforgiving hula hoop from the ceiling for an hour. My hands pretty much got ripped open. Don’t really think it’s my thing ;P

Anyway, self care days are amazing, but I always feel a little guilty when I take time for myself. Do you ever feel that way? Especially when you have people depending on you? I know it sounds so silly, but I am afraid that Sam will be bored and go hungry without me!!! Hahaha. I know, I know…it’s stupid.

Anyway, it’s like some weird, nonsensical mental block that keeps me from fully enjoying myself. You know how when you were single, you probably did whatever you wanted, whenever you wanted, and however you wanted? I feel like the guilt thing has made me double think what I can and can’t do because I now have a partner to consider. Not a bad thing – just a different, new-ish thing.

Sam has never made me feel guilty about doing stuff for myself. In fact, he encourages me to take classes, get massages, and hang out with friends. That’s why I know this guilt problem is something that is in my own head. I am a people pleaser (hence why I let people’s opinions of me sway the way I act – NOT GOOD, working on it…) and that is where all of this guilt stems from.

I feel guilty when I don’t get into work earlier than everyone else, even if I’m late because I’m working off site.

I feel guilty for not attending a party, even if I’m missing it because I am exhausted and sick.

I feel guilty when other people feel bad about themselves, even if it’s not my responsibility to be in charge of their happiness.

I feel guilty when someone else makes a mistake, even if it’s not my fault and there’s no way I could have prevented it!

WHY!!??

I did some research and found that women are actually more prone to feelings of guilt! Women and girls have been trained since the beginning of time to be submissive, adaptable, giving, and nurturing creatures that are expected to be polite and agreeable at all times. We’ve been trained to smile, not ask questions, and not hurt anybody’s feelings – even if it means that our feelings will be hurt in the process.

So…if you ever feel unnecessarily guilty, know that it’s not your fault. You have been subconsciously influenced by thousands of years of human behavior. And without a choice, we are all a product of our society and our culture.

Luckily, with fitness and food, I have learned to shed that guilt through years of self work, and just being conscious of what I was feeling and why I was feeling that way. I ended up figuring out these 2 truths:

I used to think that workouts only counted if you struggled and went super beast mode. But the truth is…You don’t have to feel like you’re dying to get an effective work out in.

Understanding and practicing this truth helped me embrace difficult workouts that I’m not naturally good at, like CrossFit and running. Accepting that I didn’t have to be the fastest or the strongest liberated me, and allowed me to focus on the purpose of the workout – which was to enjoy the exercise, not to win a competition against my classmates!

I used to think that eating “bad” food meant you had no self control. But the truth is…Self control is being able to eat whatever you want as long as you choose to own it, enjoy it, and move on.

This was a huge one. Giving myself the RIGHT to enjoy food allowed me to truly experience different cultures while on vacation, instead of always getting the salad and complaining that the food was meh. So now, I eat what I choose and I don’t let an ounce of guilt enter my system because I’m not gonna let anyone or anything ruin my meal.

DAY 3 RECAP:

I am so happy that I have been staying on track! No temptations – yet. Ha. Writing studiously in my Fit Journal, taking pics of all my food, and updating you guys daily keeps me SUPER focused. You don’t know how much I needed this structure. It’s really working for me. The pounds and the body fat % are actually going down!! Crazy! But I don’t wanna get too excited because from experience, I expect it to stall soon.

After our facials, my friend Julie and I both ordered matching shrimp salads from this place called Sausal. OMG. It was PERFECTION. The salad was $17 so for LA, I thought maybe I’d get like 3 or 4 shrimps, but get this – THEY GAVE ME 8 SHRIMPS!!!! I was so happy I didn’t have to ration my protein like I normally do in every other salad. In fact, I had more shrimp left than veggies at the end! That’s when you know it’s a good salad! Anyone ever get to the end of a salad and have no meat left because you didn’t ration correctly? Ugh. Like, it’s actually the worst.

Ok this pic doesn’t look great, but whatever. This isn’t a food blogger’s blog. I’m just snapping things with my phone to keep a record and not worrying about the aesthetics of each meal. The point is to make this 90 day journey as simple and effective as possible.

Above is a paleo sausage I got from Costco. Again, label it paleo and you have me sold. But at the same time don’t label mushrooms vegan because ARE YOU KIDDING ME. This paleo sausage is actually REALLY good. I put a dollop of guac in the corner and ate it with a handful of butter lettuce from Trader Joes.

For dinner, I had left over turkey chili. SO GOOD!!! And then I created this keto pancake flatbread situation that actually turned out REALLY DELICIOUS! I mixed some almond flour, one egg, and some mozzarella cheese in a bowl until it turned into a batter, and then I put it on a pan, flipped it, and voila I MADE A KETO FLATBREAD. It actually tasted bready and amazing. I might make it again tonight.

For those of you who want the recipe, I don’t have the exact measurements because I kinda just cook by feeling. Hahaha. So if I try again tonight, I will measure it out – if I remember to do it that is.

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Am I relapsing? | Day 3 of 90

I’ve been reading all of your comments and umm, let’s just show some of them right here:

“She is relapsing into another eating disorder!”

“She needs to get psychiatric help.”

“She’s got a mental illness and a psychological problem.”

First of all, I appreciate your concern for me – I really do – but telling someone they have a mental illness and that I need psychological help without EVEN KNOWING ME is uhh – how do I say this – REALLY IRRESPONSIBLE, MEAN AND OFFENSIVE.

Can we please remember that my goal for the 90 days is to work out and eat better? Did I ever say anything about hating my body, thinking I was disgusting, and that I would go as far as starving myself and getting plastic surgery to look perfect? Nope, didn’t think so.

I think it’s funny that some people think I can’t go from “eat whatever you want – zero guilt!” to a Lazy Keto without being a hypocrite. Have you ever stopped to think that we live our life in seasons? Kinda like how in HIIT and PIIT28 workouts you have periods of intense exercise and periods of rest. SAME THING WITH LIFE. There’s times when you grind hard at work and times when you chill out on vacation. To me, it is the same thing when it comes to food and exercise. Maybe that’s not how you live – but that’s how I function. Cuz when I go hard, I GO REALLY HARD.

And I guess that’s why some of you think I am relapsing. You don’t know who this hard core Cassey is. This Cassey that sets goals and grinds day and night to crush them – NO MATTER WHAT. If you think I’m being intense. I AM. I am an intense person. In business. In academics. In relationships. And in…you guessed it – fitness.

Some of you haven’t seen hard core Cassey in a while. Some of you don’t know her at all because maybe you met me when I was healing. Hard core Cassey went hard core for a long time and didn’t let herself have rest periods. So eventually…hard core Cassey broke.

Several years of healing and tons of self work later, I am so proud to say that I no longer have guilt when I eat things that pizza, burgers, and ice cream sundaes. Cassey back in 2012 would have been terrified – I mean absolutely shaking at the thought of having to eat a banana. I’ve been much softer with myself over the years, and in doing so, it allowed me to overcome my fear of food and the scale.

For the record, I am in a very happy and healthy mental state that I have worked VERY hard for. I’m good to embark on this 90 day journey, so please do not worry about me. I do however, appreciate your concern because I know it comes from a good place. If you are currently going through any of your own disordered eating issues, please take time away to take care of yourself and practice self love. Give yourself space and give yourself grace.

DAY 2 RECAP:

Here is my day 2 Fit Journal entry. Signed up for a CrossFit class without knowing it…hahaha…so I am VERY SORE today! Also you may notice that I am not a breakfast eater. I am just not hungry in the morning! I keep forgetting to look at the clock before I go to sleep so I can’t fill out my sleep box! :( Also, water wise, I’m currently not tracking since I think I’m doing ok here with hydration.

After CrossFit class, I went to eat brunch with an old high school friend. We checked out Bondi Harvest in Santa Monica and it was amazing for the most part. I ordered this bowl with cauliflower rice, greens, and salmon! It was so flavorful, fresh, and perfect for my 90 Day Journey!

I also wanted to try out this bulletproof matcha drink they had on the menu. I asked the cashier what the ingredients were since I am familiar with the concept of bulletproof coffee but I don’t drink coffee…so I wanted to MAKE SURE that there wasn’t gonna be any coffee in this! I asked specifically “is there any coffee in this?” and he said no, it’s just a shot of matcha and MCT oils. So anyway, when I got the drink, took a sip and nearly spit it out! (For those of you who don’t know, I can’t drink coffee because I have oversensitive tastebuds so coffee and chocolate both taste super bitter and medicinal to me!)

Went back to the guy who sold me the bulletproof matcha and claimed that he warned me that there was coffee in it and I was like…whaaaaat? HE SO DID NOT. Anyway, he would not replace the drink because he said matcha was too expensive. So I ended up giving my drink to my friend. Weird.

For dinner, I made lettuce tacos filled with chicken, mushroom, onion, and zucchini. I topped it with guac and salsa and had 2 cups of homemade turkey chili on the side!

In the chili, there’s tomato paste, garlic, ground turkey, hatch chile peppers, bell peppers, and zucchini. I seasoned with a little cumin. That is it! I don’t really have a recipe. I just kinda do it to taste each time.

I always make a huge pot of chili so now I have chili meal prep for days! The chili also tastes better the longer it sits, so I can’t wait to eat em all this week!

Got these at Trader Joes. I like snacking, so these were great. Kinda spicy, kinda salty. This flavor also come in cashews if that’s more your thing.

After dinner, I made myself a matcha collagen almond milk tea drink. I’m taking collagen to help grow my hair and nails and keep my skin smooth. Collagen powder dissolves very easily (in hot or cold liquid) but if you end up buying these matcha green tea powders from Trader Joes, just make sure you whisk it first or else it will get clumpy!

A matcha whisk looks like this:

There you go! I can’t believe I’ve been blogging 3 days in a row now!! Whoo!!! Feeling free, feeling good, and feeling MYSELF. I think this 90 day journey is gonna be such a positive experience for me. It already is so far :)

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We’re not right for each other anymore | Day 2 of 90

Wow. I don’t think I’ve had that many people on the blog since the Target thigh gap incident.

First and foremost, THANK YOU. For being real with me. Some of you feel completely inspired and some of you are disappointed and angry. Same story. Same facts. Polar opposite reactions. Neither of you are wrong.

Here’s the thing guys. This 90 journey is MY 90 day journey. My blog is going to be a place for me to journal openly and genuinely talk about my feelings, my numbers, my food, and whatever else is on my mind. I finally feel inspired to write again – after years of being suppressed by other people’s opinions.

For the past several years, I’m become more and more vanilla and I hate that SO MUCH. I found myself catering to the few that felt my posts rubbed them the wrong way instead of just being me and sticking to my mission. To be quite honest, I have lost myself these past several years. I’ve become a person that bends so much for other people that I don’t even know who I am supposed to be anymore. That’s why you may have noticed that I stopped writing all together. I went from 7 posts a week to maybe 7 posts a year.

Yesterday, people told me not to share my journey, not to share my weight, not to share what I’m eating, not to share my measurements, not to share my before pictures, and not to share my goals. I’m sorry, but I’m not going to listen to those demands.

When it comes to GETTING THINGS DONE, I’m not a wishy washy person. I am specific with my goals. And that is why numbers work for me.

Yes of course working out is about being happy and getting stronger – DUH! That is what I preach and I fully live it everyday! But for anyone who argued that a better idea would have been to make strength or reps a goal – remember, that’s another number too. It’s just that the scale has so much emotion attached to it. I get it. I didn’t step on the scale for YEARS until I realized that I cannot let a number have that much power over my self worth. I’ve learned to change my mindset and understand that the scale is here to simply give me information. My weight is simply a data point. The scale doesn’t tell the whole story, but it’s a part of the story – like body fat %, muscle mass, and height, and I’m not one to deny myself of information.

It takes a lot to step on a scale and not feel bad about yourself. Girl, I get you. I HAVE BEEN THERE. Look – there’s freedom in throwing away a scale. But, there’s EMPOWERMENT in stepping on a scale and being emotionally unattached to the number. I’ll save that for another blog post.

To those that feel disappointed, my blog posts will not serve you for the next 90 days. But like the title of my last blog post said…I’m “doing this for myself.” I’m not going to be suppressed anymore.

I’m not a different Cassey. I’m not a changed Cassey. I’m the same Cassey, but as of yesterday, I made the decision to be a free Cassey who’s back to be real and unafraid, like she once was. If you don’t feel like this is the right Cassey for you, then we may not be right for each other anymore. Whatever decision you make, I respect it because you should read the content that helps you be the best version of you. Period.

Now – MOVING ON.

DAY 1 RECAP:

Food was pretty simple yesterday and I did not feel hungry. I ABSOLUTELY love not having to count calories or track macros. A POPster mentioned she is doing something similar to my diet and she is calling it “Lazy Keto.” I kinda like that. Maybe I’ll call it that too.

Also, I am such a sucker for writing things down. Every time I fill out these boxes, I feel like I’m finishing my homework or checking off a box! I honestly can’t wait to see all 90 pages filled out in my Fit Journal at the end of this. It’ll be like my little fitness storybook.

Here’s what my meals look liked:

That mush in the bottom left hand corner is shredded chicken mixed with avocado and avocado mayo. Mayo was not necessary at all but I wanted to experiment! 2 scrambled eggs. Pico de gallo and avocado salsa. YUM.

Okay, I bought this 2 pack bowl thing from Costco that had “WHOLE 30” plastered across it and I was like YESSS TAKE MY MONEY. (Honestly label anything “whole 30” and “paleo” and I’ll pretty much buy it :P) Unfortunately this tender beef bowl with cauliflower rice and mushroom was…THE WORST! It had zero flavor and tasted like water. So I brought out my Nom Nom Paleo magic mushroom powder and seasoned on the spot. Thank goodness because the powder SAVED IT. I think soy sauce or coconut aminos could have saved it too. But seriously Costco buyers, WHAT WERE YOU THINKING!!!???

Sam wanted to go out last night even though he knew it was Day 1 of my 90 day journey. I was a little hesitant but I’m pretty good at annoying the waiter and making things work. Luckily, the place we went to had this in season salad that looked incredible and tasted even more incredible. That’s a chicken salad with strawberries, blueberries, goat cheese, and almonds. The dressing was balsamic vinaigrette. SO GOOD.

You can see what else I snacked on that day in my journal entry above!

Wow, 2 days of blogging in a row. I am so proud of myself :D I’m feeling really good right now – really alive – and so much more like myself. I can’t wait for tomorrow! What class should I take?

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Doing this for myself | Day 1 of 90

Today I woke up and decided that I needed to take back the life that I want to live.

Working out used to be something that I enjoyed quietly as a “regular person”. Blogging used to be a safe place where I could truly spill my honest thoughts. But now – everything that I do, eat, or say is critiqued. Of course 100% by my choice for being a public figure…but…the public judgement of it all has made me a more timid, scared person. I tip toe around sensitive personalities and treat everything like it’s so fragile, but NO MORE. I’m gonna grab life “by the balls” and JUST LIVE LIFE the way I want.

So today is day 1. Of 90.

I said it. And I am not taking it back.

This is a personal journey I want to embark on to get in the best shape of my life – mentally and physically. It begins today August 16th and will end November 14th.

Why am I doing this?

Well to be completely honest, I stepped on the scale on Monday and weighed in at 136 lbs – which is THE HEAVIEST I have EVER been.

To give you some reference… I am 5’5″. And last October 2018, I weighed 122 lbs for my wedding. I have gained 14 lbs in less than a year. When I lived in Boston around 2011-ish I was about 118 lbs. When I did my bikini competition in 2012, I started at 126 lbs and went down to about 113 lbs. I was lean then, but very unhappy. The training and dieting I did for that was not sustainable and left me in a bad place mentally with the way I viewed my body. Since the bikini competition, I have gained 23 lbs.

I’m not going to be delusional and say that it is all muscle, because it is not. Maybe some, but not all.

Stress over the years of running a business, taking care of other people and not having time to take care of myself has taken a toll on me. It shows in the pimples on my face, the whites in my hair, and in the weight I have gained.

So, it’s time to take my life back. I’m going to do this for myself and you’re welcome to read along. But, if any talk of scales, weight loss, and dieting triggers you – note that you have been warned.

“But this isn’t body positive!”

I really don’t wanna hear this. It’s comments like that that make me feel like I can’t do anything anymore.

You can view working out as a negative or positive thing. Your choice! Your body. Your life. But understand this – just because a woman wants to lose weight or change her body does not mean she’s not body positive. Do you hear me?

What is body negative about getting healthier, increasing your confidence, feeling happier, and getting stronger? Hmm. Nothing.

As long as you love your body every step of the way, you’re in a healthy mental state.

So let’s get over this.

What will I eat?

Okay, so I have been thinking ALL DAY about what program I am going to do. So many options. I have literally tried everything – body builder high protein, vegan, vegetarian, pescatarian, low carb/high fat (kinda Keto but not really), Whole 30, 28 Day Reset, etc.

I notice that in the first 30 days of following ANY diet, I will lose about 5 lbs. Then my body becomes stagnant. Not sure what I will do to battle that this time around, so I guess I will say upfront that I will just need to be as flexible as my body desires.

So here’s what I know:

I don’t want to count calories
Grains and breads bloat me
A mixture of sugar and dairy makes me break out
Eating high protein has given me the best results in the past
Eating super high protein has made my brain feel cloudy
Eating high fat keeps me satiated
Going vegan made me bruise a lot and has also made me feel lethargic
Eating lots of carbs makes me wanna eat a lot more carbs
Whole30 was fine but it doesn’t allow ANY processed food or added sugars so I couldn’t have Sriracha and I love Sriracha
I like to snack
I like to cook
I prefer to have a list of ingredients that I can play with instead of a strict meal plan
I like Asian flavors, and just intense flavors in general

So…where does that leave me?

Ha, I think it leaves me in a place where I just need to choose something and stick with it for the first 30 days. So, I’m going to choose the one that keeps me full and satiated. I’m choosing high fat/low carb aka “Almost Keto”.

To be clear, I am not going Keto on purpose. I also don’t want to count my macros and check my ketone levels. I want my eating to feel like eating, not like a science experiment.

So here is my super general high fat, low carb “Almost Keto” grocery list:

Meats
Seafood
Veggies
Nuts
Mushrooms
Eggs
Cheeses
Greek yogurt
Mayo
Oils and butters
Pico de gallo and other fresh salsas
Avocados
Low carb fruits like strawberries, raspberries and blueberries

If you want a complete list, you can google “Keto grocery list”. I’ll pretty much be following this but allowing a little room for “fun”. Which means, I will allow hot sauces, flavoring sauces, and higher carb fruits when I feel like it.

How will I work out?

I am not so concerned about the work out aspect of this 90 day journey. I already work out anywhere between 5-6x a week consistently. But this time around, I’m going to do MORE of the things I love – like dance and Pilates. I want to allow myself to be free and not have the “you have to DIE in each workout or else it doesn’t count” mentality.

However, I still do want to push myself and try different things. I will also add in a little more cardio than normal. That is why I have started running. But I think I’m going to get bored soon, so I will need to find a treadmill or HIIT class that is enjoyable! I’ll definitely do PIIT28 on days when I cannot get to the gym. But 5-6x a week is my minimum!

Measurements:

Here is my before pic.

Measurements are important because they are data points. I’ve learned to not let the scale control me or put a number on my self-worth. The scale’s job is to provide me with information. That is all.

Day 1, August 16th.

Weight: 136 lbs
Body fat %: 24.4%
Chest: 34″
Right arm: 11.25″
Left arm: 11.25″
Waist: 28″
Hips: 37.5″
Right thigh (3″ down): 22″
Left thigh (3″ down): 22″

I will monitor my weight and body fat % on the daily but I won’t measure myself until a 30 day period has passed. So that means on Sept 15, Oct 15, and Nov 14, I will update my stats here.

My physical goals?

Hmm, I’ll make 2 goals:

Weight goal: 120 lbs

Body fat % goal: 20% (so I can be in the “athlete level” for women)

Interesting that I’m currently in the upper end of Fitness body fat % and at the lower end of Average body fat %. This needs to change because it does not reflect how hard I work and my level of fitness.

I can already say right now that 120 lbs is going to take a lot for me to get there. But I’m putting it down on paper right now and I’m going to try everything I can (only healthy ways of course) to make it happen!

My wellness goals:

I will reward myself with 1 self-care thing a week. So that means a deep tissue massage every week!

My blogging goals:

My goal is to blog how I am feeling DAILY. I hope I’m not setting myself up for failure here (as I have not blogged consistently for a few years now), but I’m going to say it out loud: I WILL BLOG EVERY DAY FOR 90 DAYS!!! Even if it means a small paragraph, I need to blog because it will be my way of journaling.

Tools I’m currently using:

Apple Watch to track my runs
Happy Scale App to track my weight
Vanity Plant Digital Analyzer Scale to measure my weight, body fat %, and muscle mass
Classpass app so I can take classes and have other instructors kick my butt
Blogilates 12 Week Fit Journal to track my food, my workouts, my mood, and my measurements

How you can see my updates:

I’ll be IG story-ing some of my food and work outs but everything will live here on the blog in detail. I think I’ll share what I am eating the previous day in the next day’s post. That’ll make it easier so that I don’t have to wait until my last meal at night to write. I think I’ll just take a picture of my planner – that should be everything you’ll need to know! Plus emotions. Lots of emotions.

Okay guys – I think that’s it! I’m a little nervous, uncertain, and excited…but I feel really good now that I’ve written everything down. I guess we shall see what happens!!! Weeee!

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Why it’s hard for overachievers to be happy…

Hey guys,

The other day my husband, Sam, said that he’s really happy with everything we’ve accomplished and that he’s content being exactly where we are. I felt peaceful…for a moment.

But then, I RUINED it.

The overachiever part of me said “But there’s still so much more to achieve!!! I’m nowhere near where I want to be!”

Yet, if Cassey 10 years ago could see where she was today, she wouldn’t believe her eyes. Cassey today has an adoring husband, a cute fluffy dog, and runs 3 different businesses. Reading that aloud, it really was and IS my dream come true. But why can’t I just stop and be happy?

I blame my personality.

I like to keep striving, keep going, keep trying, no matter how many times I fall and no matter how hard it is. I want to always do better…because I know I can! Achievements are one of the things that brings me genuine happiness and motivation. My overachieving trait has gotten me exactly to where I am today…but it’s also what leaves me feeling unsatisfied a few minutes after I accomplish something.

Kinda sad huh?

Weird how life balances you out like that. This is something I need to figure out. Like…how important is accomplishing something to completing my sense of wholeness?

Your August Workout Calendar!

Hey guys!

I’m recovering from 4 days of location scouting for POP Retreat 2020! I’m TIRED, but in a good way! All I can say is that next summer, you better prepare for the most magical, nourishing, amazing retreat ever. Imagine amazing, healthy food and incredible, supportive friends everywhere. I’ll be announcing the date and location soon…I hope you can make it!

Anyway…here is the Blogilates Workout calendar for August 2019!

Click to download his res cal!

As you can see, August is super special because we’ve got the #100GluteChallenge beginning Sunday August 4th! Here is the full printable so you know exactly what to do each morning! There will also be a full length YouTube video you can follow along to each day for 30 days!

download hi res printable

If you’re new around here, this is how it goes!

Click on the hi res link to download the calendar and print it out for your wall.
Head over to blogilates.com/calendar and click on the videos of the day. It’ll take you directly to the YouTube video! Or you can use this super cool app called Coda!
Do each video once (unless otherwise stated)
Check off as you go! Good luck and have fun! HAPPY JULY!!!

August is gonna be INTENSE!!! But in a totally bootylicious way :) You in? You ready?!!!

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