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Returning Stronger Day 6

A transformation is an awakening, a coming out of one’s personal emotional coma and surfacing into the realization that we are connected to the whole of life. What we do, think, and feel matters to the entire fabric of life . Carolyn Myss


The Conference was a resounding success, we ended the day happy even if it was after  one am. As I hit the pillows on Sunday morning after we all took a drink and toast to what was accomplished I couldn't help but reflect on how grateful I was to be a part of this. I woke up at almost 2 pm the following day, I never slept that long ever! It felt good though. I decided to stay inside all day and read, that was my mission and mission accomplished.

There is so much going on all around the world, so much we can do in our own little space to make the world a better place, everytime I come here I am reminded of that, of the power of the human spirit, of kindness, of honesty and love. It really makes all the difference how we view each other and use the power that we were all given.

Today I fly from Nairobi to Kampala Uganda, back to where it all started, I spend one week there doing a couple of training sessions and one talk for Global Entrepreneurship Week for Enterprise Uganda
It will be lovely to see my old friends again

Holla at you on the flip side
Peace

Returning Stronger Day 4

I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received. Be completely humble and gentle: be patient, bearing with one another in love.”
Ephesians 4:1,2

The Akira Chix African Women in Tech is on today, this is my second year of being here with there wonderful young ladies who despite it all decided to follow their path to provide a training school for girls from the most harsh slums of Nairobi with a platform for careers in technology. They all left their cushy jobs to form this organisation. The results are awesome and tremendous, over 350 young ladies in one space, sharing stories and inspiring one another. I feel so proud to be a part of this familyIt has not been without it's challenges but perseverance, patience and keeping the vision. Lessons for me on this journey
This year we went all out, the Radisson Blu was chosen the city's newest hotel, they have been excellent! The volunteers have come out in their numbers to support this worthy cause as well
I am pretty excited about todayLet the fun beginOh what a difference a day makesPeace

Returning Stronger Day 3

You gotta take some risks. You have to not only pick up the dice, but roll 'em. So go ahead, take the gamble.You have nothing to lose except the chance to win . Neale Donald Walsh 
Late night at the office, these ladies are doing amazing work,I am so proud to be a part of it, I am inspired. My jet lag was real, they saw me crashing, one more meeting and I will go home to rest.  Just as I was trying to finish a document, my laptop computer screen turned pink with some crazy lines at them bottom - oh no! this is not happening - this laptop must work, I have work to do and extra money to buy a laptop - nowhere in sight! just as I started You Tubing a solution I saw an email from the bank declining me for a loan that I applied for - this was my third attempt at making a loan request. I stopped, closed the computer and just took a breathOkay, I know something is being told to me here, I don't know what, tell me what it is Universe.I went back to the place that I was staying, pulled out my journal and started writing in it, things must change, and it has to start with me - that was the answer. be open to the changeToday I got up did a short run before breakfast and got ready to head to another venue. I go to another part of Nairobi to where I am staying to assist the ladies in preparing for the Conference I will be spending the night thereLooking forward to itPeace

Returning Stronger Day 2

Ask yourself what is the best that can happen and adjust your mindset to the positive.  Stop catastrophising. Get perspective. Take a bloody risk . Carole Forde


Arrived in Narobi later than scheduled. We were delayed by thirty minutes. I cleared customs and looked for my name held up by the group of drivers on the outside. Hmm don't see it, I walk around again, to the familiar cry of "taxi madame" on loop! I answer politely no thank you
I wait about 20 minutes, I still don't see my name. Hmm
I walk to a police man and ask him to use his phone to call Godfrey who was supposed to sort the taxi, he called, 
"The taxi is delayed in the traffic"
I did not buy it
"What does that mean?"
"Maybe you take one and get into town"
I silently cursed myself.
I have been dealing with Geff for about 2 years now sorting out Conferences and training courses, he always proved to be totally unreliable- here we go again! Why did I even think this time would be different?
I got a taxi, which got lost it was close to midnight. then he started arguing with me about the cost- he charged me more than double the price, it is one thing I can do without here, the taxi's are  notorious for doing this!
I told the taxi driver that even though you cheat me, you are cheating yourself, and I walked away thinking tomorrow I will have to get Uber, I am not dealing with these fellas for the next few weeks at all!
And here we go, the journey continues
Peace

Returning Stronger Day 1

I been in some hard times, I seen a lot of good times But everyday I count my blessings this way 'cause I know that everyday's a different day. My friends can change but his will never change. And I knew there would be some time, when I would second guess my mind.
So I kept on walking, kept on striving, Kept on singing and guess who showed up? Rapheal Saadiq
The flight to London was an adventure! The turbulence was totally over the top, so much so food and drink was flying all over the place, a few screams were let out. I closed my eyes and took a breath. The pilot came on and gave an update of what the situation was - the ride will be a bumpy 6 hours. I appreciated the information.Landed safely in London and it was like old times - I love this City I spent a lot of time here, my formative years, it still feels like home.
I spend the night here, meet some old friends and then I am off again
Holla on the other sidePeace

The Returning Stronger Tour

the journey of waking up hands you an unexpected series of harsh truths and great responsibilities . Cleo Wade
Today I fly to one of my soul spaces, the place where my transition began and it came at just at the right time for me- as with everything when we let go of wanting it our way all the time
I am pretty excited to see old friends, to make new ones and to show up as myselfI will be in London.Nairobi.Kampala for the next few weeksHolla at you on the other sidePeace

Be Kind Today

When you close a chapter because you're running, it's avoiding. It's not wanting to have that the tough conversation so you avoid it so much that you don't "even want to be friends anymore." It's not wanting to deal with your shit so much that you decide moving cities is a better choice all together. It's not wanting to be vulnerable, so you end a relationship. It's not wanting to ask yourself what you really want to contribute in this world, so you hop jobs for the thousandth time. All of it is running and it's driven by fear. But the only person you're running from, truly, is you. And she will always, always catch up Maxi McCoy
I jumped into a taxi yesterday - the way taxi's are in Port of Spain they are shared so the car will usually have other random people. I said my customary good afternoon to all and then I heard someone call my name "Akosua" I looked and saw a familiar face, someone who reached out to me after the TED Talk and asked me to purchase and sign my books, we met later that week, I delivered the books, we sat and had a lovely conversation and that was that.Here she was in the taxi, us having another lovely conversation, she was about to leave the car having reached her destination she said, I paid for your ride have a great weekendHow awesome was that?I was ever so grateful for that gesture of kindnessIt triggered in me to be kind  to others as well and to pay attention why I am here and to pay attention to why at this particular moment I feel that I ought to be somewhere else, why I want to leaveCan you imagine? A simple kind gesture like that changed the way I was thinking?Right on timeThank you lady friendBe kind todayPeace

Review the Intention

Whatever we are thinking, feeling, saying, or doing, we are co-creating, empowering and magnetizing into our lives. Patricia Cota Robles
It depends on your perspective and how you view things, this knowledge that your life is  fully your responsibility can be sobering or freeing and knowing that we co-create our lives by thought, word, deeds and actions. Responsibility,in this case, meaning the ability to respond, the ability to respond to every situation in our lives is really up to us, including the choices we make.Money Challenges - you have the ability to respond Man Challenges - you have the ability to respondCoworker or boss is getting on your last nerve - you have the ability to respondWoman Challenges - you have the ability to respondCareer Challenges - you have the ability to respond
all  and everything are our choices to make when we are in a particular  situationWhat I get caught up with is judging myself "OMG how could I have made such a stoopid move?" - trust me that is not the very best response - blame and judgement as a choice of response is not very helpful, it keeps you focusing on the problem and not the solution.I also get caught up in fearI also start talking about how it should be, ought to be and losing the focus on what actually isFear is putting faith in the unknown and  in the negativeWhat is important is owning it, feeling the feelings and believing that the situation is part of the process of growing, living and learningIt gets easier with practice and self belief
What I also learnt is when I own it and go back to the Intention behind why I created what I did I realize many times my intentions were either not borne from my highest self or done to please people.
Pay attention to the signsReview the IntentionBelieve that it can turn aroundKnow that you have the ability to respond - and it is your responsibilityand all things are lessons that God will have us learnPeace

Feel them, it helps

It's a waste of time to blame external circumstances or people .Idillinaire 


Many of the teachings of the Course in Miracles(ACIM) resonate with me, the concept of being responsible for my life, of not focusing on guilt, of feeling all my feelings and that sickness starts with the mind have helped me tremendously on my journey thus far.
Feelings buried alive never die, they fester, and just like a wound that festers it can pollute your entire system.

Sabrina Reber says that our feelings contain valuable information and connect us to our intuition and truth. Feelings are the language of the soul! When we suppress our feelings we suppress our connection to our soul. We create filters and barriers between our physical being and our spiritual being interfering with our own source of divine guidance and intelligence that guides us to manifest the best possible outcome in our lives. Our feelings also disclose lessons we need to learn and insight into our souls contract for this lifetime.

When we ignore, run from and judge our feelings it results in  certain types of illness, that is a bonafide truth that I have learnt- most times the hard way


According to the book "How to Raise Your Vibration" , Negative feelings left unaddressed get stuck in our energy body creating a foggy energy field that lowers our vibration and blocks our intuition. Unprocessed feelings become distortions that also lead to illness and dis-ease. When we ignore our feelings, because we don’t want to feel the pain, we stuff them in our energy fields where they begin to fester. Eventually, our denied feelings move into the physical body and announce themselves as an imbalance, illness, pain, virus or disease. When we are connected to our feelings and allow ourselves to fully process through them so we can release them, we become a clear vessel fully connected to the guidance of our soul and spirit. When we block, stuff or ignore our feelings our body will respond with a pain or symptom and let us know when we are out of alignment with our truth. Feelings are core sensations in the BODY; they are not created out of the MIND. 

Feelings are felt in the body and they are warning signs for us to acknowledge that something within our being needs to be addressed. The body never lies. It is always giving us warning signs…if we would only listen! We have a pill for every ailment: anxiety, high blood pressure, indigestion, depression even restless leg syndrome. We like to treat the symptom and avoid the root cause of the dis-ease while the body continuously tries to get our attention prompting us to recognize that something within our being needs to be addressed.

Once we allow our feelings to rise to the surface to be felt and fully experienced, we can then use our awareness to consciously shift our feelings one vibration, one frequency, one thought and one emotion at a time. It is our responsibility to become aware of our feelings and to recognize that our feelings do affect the whole of humanity. 

Feel them
Peace

Bless Difficult People

A lot of us have defence mechanisms in attempts to protect our hearts and feelings You have to learn to be flexible or you will break, it’s not all or nothing every single time
Alex Elle

Today I am sharing my early morning reading.......Bless difficult people!Those people who truly get on your nerves.Those who seem to be totally unaware that what they do has an impact on othersThe people who have no qualms about demonstrating in word or deed that they do not want to be where they are, doing what they are doing.People who pout or mope while they are workingPeople who speak harshly, roll their eyes, suck their teeth or show up late with no explanations.Be willing to see difficult people in a different way.Don’t be so quick to believe that their behavior has anything to do with youDon’t be impatientDon’t give them a hard timeTake the high roadBless themDo it silentlyDo it in your heartEvery living being is a divine creationSome people forget their divinityOthers never know it because no one ever told them that they have itOthers will cleverly disguise their divinity with nasty dispositions, bad attitudes or indifference to those around themThe greatest service you can offer God, yourself and the energy of the Universe is a blessing.Bless difficult people because there may come a day when you are having a difficult time and will need to be blessed by someone elseIyanlla