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Life is Unpredictable

Be cause life is unpredictable, what you know or think you know can change drastically.

Recently my friends and I have experienced an almost unbelievable amount of life changes. Before we knew it, a great many of the things we knew changed, and changed drastically.

This has been emotional, disturbing, and incredibly difficult to wrap one’s head around. It has been a highly surrealistic example of how much life is unpredictable.

What you know at this moment as the reality you live in can be changed almost instantly. Those changes may be good, bad, or even neutral. The unavoidable truth of it, though, is that life will change, and change unexpectedly.

This can be particularly difficult when you are not seeking to make any changes. Life may be going along swimmingly, you know what you know and where you are going to. But then…abruptly everything is different.

The unpredictable can be emotionally trying

Many of the most unpredictable happenings in life come with deep emotion attached to them. Relationships ending, deaths, sudden and unexpected departures. When your world is making sense and then out of nowhere makes no sense at all it’s almost impossible not to get emotional.

Further, the emotions from such sudden turmoil are stronger and more visceral than normal emotions. When everything you know is suddenly and unexpectedly wrong in some way or other that’s distressing and confusing and upsetting.

Everyone reacts to this sort of thing differently, sometimes shifting from one extreme to another. Anger and lashing out can give way to sorrow and cocooning…or both can happen at once.

When an unpredictable event happens and impacts a large number of people this can get even more surreal. Depending on your distance to the event and connections with those immediately impacted, your own reaction may be proportionate or disproportionate. There is no right or wrong to this because everyone experiences emotions in their own way.

The thing to keep in mind is that because life is unpredictable, living in the now is important, as is kindness, reason, and understanding

Live in the now

This moment you are. But because life is unpredictable, what you are expecting from your day may totally and drastically be changed. So being conscious of this moment in time is really important. Good or bad, this moment stands alone, and is the most real moment of your reality.

Breathe. Take in your surroundings. Recognize the moment and see what you are thinking and what and how you are feeling. Being in this moment you can be as free or chained as you believe yourself to be.

In a life with little certainty, every moment can be as special, incredible, and precious as you make it.

Express kindness, reason, and understanding

Everyone at one time or another will experience upheaval because life is unpredictable. How it impacts you is going to be unique and different from how it impacts anyone else. Though they may be similar, the thoughts and feelings of any individual impacted by any thing is going to still be different.

For that reason, before you lash out in anger or sorrow, before you let grief or anger dictate something you say, consider kindness, reason, and understanding. You may feel utterly justified in your anger or sorrow, it is possible that the upheaval was caused by another’s actions…but that does not mean being unkind and unreasonable it good for anyone.

You do not want people to treat you without kindness, to approach you without reason, or to be unwilling to understand you and your feelings. Thus you should really consider that in how you approach a given situation that may impact you one way while impacting someone else very differently.

We are all on this planet together. When all is said and done we are all one. Being kind and reasonable and understanding to others is being kind, reasonable, and understanding to yourself. Think about that before you speak, type, and post.

Life is unpredictable for everyone.

Finding positivity is not hard, but the unpredictability of life can make it appear to be

Knowing that everyone experiences upheaval because life is unpredictable, you get to choose your reactions when it happens. Whether it is something near to you or far, a direct or indirect impact, when you remember kindness, reason, and understanding in the unexpected situation that ultimately empowers you. When you feel empowered, your mindfulness increases, you become more aware overall, and that tends to spread to other people around you.

As such, you can build more positive feelings and discover more things to feel positivity and gratitude.

Gratitude leads to happiness. Happiness is the ultimate positive attitude. An attitude of gratitude is an attitude of positivity that begets even more good energies – and that, like you, is always worthwhile.

This is the two-hundred and ninety-seventh entry of my Positivity series. It is my hope these weekly messages might help spread positive energies for everyone. Feel free to share, re-blog and spread the positivity.

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How Do You Know What Your Best “You” Is?

How do you know what your best you is?

This is one of those paradoxes that are super-simple yet infinitely complex.

I am a firm believer in the notion of conscious reality creation. I am convinced that I am empowered to take my personal illusion of reality and shape it to best fit me.

There are a lot of challenges and obstacles along any given path, but rather than let life live me I want to live life. So I constantly put out there the idea of being the best you that you can be.

What IS the best you that you can be?

The you that is most genuine, content, finding satisfaction in your life choices, and being alive is the best you that you can be. It’s a version of yourself where you are mindful of your thoughts, feelings, and actions in the here-and-now, and intentionally acting upon that for your own good, and quite probably the good of those around you.

On the one hand, this can be incredibly simple and easy. But on the other hand, it is challenging for a number of reasons.

Shrinking from merit because of rejection

One of the oddest paradoxes of modern society is that there is an established “norm” of one stripe or another. For example, you are expected to go to school, then college, then get a job and raise a family, then retire somewhere warm. Any deviation from this norm (or any other example) is suspect.

Along the way you are encouraged to be creative, to think differently in order to come up with new ideas so as to best contribute to society at large. The education system was originally designed to help you grow. Yet on the other side, there is an expectation that you need to not grow too big, be mindful of selfishness and outshining anyone else.

There is something to be said for merit. It is a measure to see when someone stands out, and from there can be a leader. The problem is that someone along the way decided that this was too hurtful, so they started giving participation trophies. Mediocre was shown to also have merit.

One the one hand a lot of people came to believe that it was perfectly ok to just be ok. No need to push beyond that, you still can be rewarded. But then there has been a backlash against merit, and that in turn is impacting society in some pretty terrible ways.

I don’t know about you, but it utterly baffles me to watch people reject science, medicine, and provable fact with a sneer and self-righteous opinions. They berate and reject intellectuals…then wonder why things are coming apart.

My point is that you should not shrink from being your best because you might get rejected. Being your best doesn’t detract from anyone else and what they can do.

Being your best doesn’t impose on anyone else

One of the largest problems with the idea of being the best you that you can be is that there are some pretty lousy examples of “achievers” being presented to you. Business moguls hoarding money and convincing everyone that trickle-down economics works; politicians beholden to special interests and how they can be compensated and empowered; prosperity preachers disempowering the masses while amassing surreal wealth; a President who thinks nothing of telling outright lies and spouting his narcissistic greatness. Ergo, lots of these people at the “top” are really, really, awful.

Unless you intend to hurt someone, disempower them, take or withhold things from other people, you are a good person. Doing what you can to be your best doesn’t prevent anyone else from being THEIR best. Unlike the previous examples, I am pretty certain that if you are reading this then you have no intention of being a douchebag.

Being your best entails learning, growing, changing, and actively seeking ways and means to do this. For me, this means I read and listen to various books about conscious reality creation, manifestation, and ways to expand and change.

I am also actively working on being true to myself and not putting on a mask that I think will make me more beloved, acceptable, or what-have-you. Being your best doesn’t get in anyone else’s way or interfere with their doings. Nor should it.

Recognizing your best you

For many people, it is far easier to recognize when they are not their best. You are dissatisfied with your life in various ways, be it your job, home, relationships, location, and so on. Chances are you see a more idealized version of yourself beyond who you are in the now…but you may have no idea how to achieve it, or even if you can.

Then, just to rub a little salt into the wound, odds are you may not believe that you are worthy or deserving of being that best you that you could be.

First a foremost, of COURSE you are worthy and deserving of being the best you that you can be. You are not just living this life to merely survive, you are meant to thrive. So unless you intentionally hurt others to be your best, you are worthy and deserving of it.

Let’s acknowledge that you might cause some people to feel hurt by your personal advancement. You cannot control how others will feel, and unless your intent was to cause hurt it is what it is.

Your best you is when you feel empowered, light-hearted, excited by learning and growth and change. It involves taking actions through mindful awareness of what you are thinking and what and how you are feeling in the here-and-now to continue to evolve. Your best you is who you CAN be, and doing what you will to achieve that.

You will meet resistance both from within and without. It will be up to you to determine what to do in the face of this, and how best to move past and through it. That is part of the paradox of the simplicity and complexity of this entire idea.

Be present in the moment

Finally, it’s important to acknowledge this notion. You are not your past, nor can you be wholly focused on the future. In the now, in the present, you have all of the power to take intentional actions to be the best you that you can be.

Your best you is different from my best me. Yet you and I are both worthy and deserving of finding and BEING that person. Mindfulness is the key to influence and control of your thoughts and feelings and choosing and deciding on actions to be taken intentionally therein. When you are mindful you become aware in the moment, and that will let you see just who your best you can be.

Don’t be afraid to be amazing. The world needs more amazing people to look to.

Do you know what your best you looks like?

 

This is the four-hundred and sixth entry in my series. These weekly posts are ideas for, and my personal experiences with, walking along the path of life to consciously create reality.  I share this journey as part of my desire to make a difference in this world along the way. I also desire to empower myself and my readers with conscious reality creation.

Thank you for joining me.  Feel free to re-blog and share this.

The first year of Pathwalking, including some expanded ideas, is available here. My additional writing works, both fiction and non-fiction, are available here.

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Positivity in the Moment

Finding positivity in the moment

Nobody can be positive all the time, but moments of positivity can be a tremendous boost on your psyche.

Why do I write about positivity every week? Because negativity is all too easy to come across, and difficult to resist.

 

Do I believe you should never feel negative? No. Shit happens. There are days where life sucks. Bad things occur, people get sick and die, friends turn on you – and that’s just the personal crap. Spend any time reading about politics or other world affairs and see how long it takes you to get angry or begin to feel helpless and hopeless.

The issue as I see it is not about never feeling negative, nor always feeling positive. The issue, to my mind, is mindfulness. Again, not the end-all-be-all-cure-all of the world like some people try to sell it. This is the basic, general awareness of your own thoughts and feelings in the here and now.

Why does that matter? Because you get to choose how long you will think about or feel something. It is your decision, if you are feeling bad, how long you will let that dominate your mindset.

Thoughts and feelings are totally intertwined whether you are aware of it or not. Hence, being aware can help you choose the direction in which you are going. Since it’s incredibly easy to just let your subconscious grab hold and take the wheel it’s almost effortless to lose track of present awareness of your thinking and emotions.

Self-help is all about the self

Getting caught up in herd mentality and collective consciousness happens. To everyone. I know that I am not mindful and aware of my own headspace all day every day. When your brain is constantly on the go and always processing inputs and stimuli, let alone chewing on past missteps, triumphs, failures, successes, and everything else that’s happened – you might just be on autopilot.

That’s going to happen. This is just part of human nature. I know that there are lots of people who seem to be mostly content to just go with the flow. And I have no problem with that…unless, in going with the flow, they are mindlessly spouting propaganda, hate, and other hurtful things at other people. That’s mindlessness, and that’s a whole other topic for another essay.

When people are unhappy, discontent, and desiring change that’s where self-help comes in. This has become a whole industry that a lot of people have cashed in on. Hell, I desire to cash in on it by sharing my philosophy of mindfulness, conscious reality creation, and positivity…but not at the expense of my humanity.

Self-help is just that. Helping yourself. But the form it takes is not singular, nor does it tend to be a one-time deal. Self-help is taking action to work on your mindset in order to put yourself in a better place, so that you can grow, change, evolve, and overall be a more content and happier person.

Positivity can be a part of that…but not at the cost of denying your humanity. When faced with the potential loss or a loved one, a life-threatening illness, or extinction from climate change, positivity can look like utter bullshit. In the face of these, positivity is a mindfulness act to shift your frequencies and raise your energy.

Positivity in the moment

Just like you cannot necessarily be positive all the time, neither can you be negative all the time. Constant, unmitigated negativity will make you sick. I mean it truly can make you literally sick. Stress often results from a deluge of constant negativity, and stress leads to high blood pressure, heart attacks, strokes, and other really unpleasant things.

This is why finding positivity matters. It can be just in a moment, in order to shift your mindset. In a day full of negativity having even a moment of positivity opens you up to change that you can control. It helps you to see hope.

Constant, non-stop positivity is equivalent to wearing rose-colored glasses. It’s just not realistic. But when you can find or create SOME positivity, you make it easier to shift your mindset and get control over your thoughts and feelings. Getting control means that your subconscious isn’t leading you down a dark alley where you’ll most likely get mugged or otherwise beaten.

You are empowered to think and feel of your own accord. Mindfulness is making use of that power.

Finding positivity is not hard, especially in bite-sized increments

Knowing that nobody can be positive all the time, neither should they be negative all the time. When you see this for what it is, you can work on finding or creating positivity in the moment to shift your mindset, and that ultimately empowers you. When you feel empowered, your mindfulness increases, you become more aware overall, and that tends to spread to other people around you.

As such, you can build more positive feelings and discover more things to feel positivity and gratitude.

Gratitude leads to happiness. Happiness is the ultimate positive attitude. An attitude of gratitude is an attitude of positivity that begets even more good energies – and that, like you, is always worthwhile.

This is the two-hundred and ninety-sixth entry of my Positivity series. It is my hope these weekly messages might help spread positive energies for everyone. Feel free to share, re-blog and spread the positivity.

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Doesn’t Everyone Know That/Can’t Everyone Do That?

Just because you know something and can do something easily doesn’t mean that’s how it is for everyone.

The written word comes easily to me. I sit down at my keyboard and start tapping away, the words come and my thoughts take me to many interesting places.

Some of those places are totally fantasy, invented of characters, situations, and places in my head. These get turned into my works of fiction. Others become articles about mindfulness, conscious reality creation, positivity, and numerous other non-fiction topics.

Writing is just something I know. Putting words to the page or screen is easy. It brings me comfort and makes me happy.

That’s me. But there are lots of others out there who can’t write without a step-by-step outline. Then there are those who can only write over a long, slow slog that takes tons of effort and concentration (in the time they write a single thing, I’ve written several). Finally, there are people for whom writing is torture, uncomfortable and a maker of misery.

The path I am choosing for my life takes the talent that comes easiest to me to the next level. But just because I thought this was something that everyone knows or can do this doesn’t mean that they can.

Chances are, you have something of this nature within you, too.

Everybody has talents, abilities, and skills

I have several friends who are gifted, talented artists. Pen and ink and paint can be turned into incredible works of art I simply cannot fathom.

Then there are my friends with talents in fabric arts. They can take any kind of fabric and create incredible outfits from many different time periods. I, on the other hand, can’t conceive of fabric in three-dimensions.

I have an affinity and some talent in computers and IT. But I have friends who make me look like the guy who calls tech-support because he can’t find the “Any” key to push to continue. I have some advanced woodworking skills, yet I know talented craftspeople and carpenters who can design and make unbelievable creations.

You likely have abilities that come easily to you. Chances are there is something you think everyone else can do, so it doesn’t make you particularly special. But that is probably not the truth. What you consider trivial might be the trial of the century for someone else.

Most people, at some point or other in their life, search for their calling or callings. They look for the thing or things they are here to do and make their mark in the world.

Some people figure it out and make it happen. Others figure it out but haven’t made it happen or can’t figure out how to do so. Still others figure it out, but for one reason or another let it go for something else which may be better, or not.

And of course, some don’t work it out at all.

Whatever the case may be, you have talents, abilities, and skills. But sometimes what comes easily to you does not come easily to others.

You are not in competition

I know that this society is a fear-based society. To me, this is really obvious. But to other people, that’s not obvious at all.

Because you may have come to accept the fear being fed to you almost intravenously, it’s not obvious that it’s so dominant. Maybe your focus is more fixed and specific than my broader attention, so you don’t see it like I do.

Well, one of the most insidious aspects of this fear-based society is the constant focus on lack, scarcity, and not enough. The notion that resources are scarce, that there is not enough of this thing or that to go around, and that your life is full of lacking for the tangibles and intangibles you do not have is completely a product of the fear-based society. Lack, scarcity, and not enough plays on your fears like a virtuoso at the piano.

What’s more, lack, scarcity, and not enough create competition. Competition to get those scarce resources, whether material or immaterial, before they run out; to take and hoard it all because there isn’t enough and you have to keep what you have; to show your worth by not lacking in that thing or concept or whatever it is.

But the truth is, this is an abundant Universe. There is way more than enough, and you are not in competition with anyone else for things.

Because you are not in competition with anyone else, if you choose to pursue that thing you can do that not everyone else can, do so with enthusiasm, passion, and vigor.

Make choices and decisions with what you know

You may have thought that what you find easy everyone finds easy. Knowing that’s not so, you get to choose if it’s something that you desire to do more with.

Whatever you do, in order to live the best life that you can, and be the best you that you can be, you need to decide to make choices to make that happen. It might seem super obvious, yet it’s amazing how easy it can be to just go about with whatever happens along the way.

When you desire to live with passion and find the things that light you up you can create an amazing life. It takes a lot of focus and work, but it’s worth it.

After you recognize and acknowledge that the thing or things you know that not everyone knows, you get to decide if it is something to pursue to advance and make the most of your life. You get to make choices to do something with it…or not.

If you are not content with who you are now, this may be a means to the end of becoming more whole, complete, and content with yourself. This is practicing Pathwalking and directing your life to where you really want it to go. You have the power, are empowered to use it, and you are worthy and deserving of whatever pursuit you desire to make.

What do you know and what is obvious to you that others may not find to be so?

This is the four-hundred and fifth entry in my series. These weekly posts are ideas for, and my personal experiences with, walking along the path of life to consciously create reality.  I share this journey as part of my desire to make a difference in this world along the way. I also desire to empower myself and my readers with conscious reality creation.

Thank you for joining me.  Feel free to re-blog and share this.

The first year of Pathwalking, including some expanded ideas, is available here. My additional writing works, both fiction and non-fiction, are available here.

Please take a moment to subscribe to my mailing list.  Fill in the info and click the submit button below and receive your free eBook.  Thank you!

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An Opportunity to Restart

There are many times where options for restarting or starting anew offer you an opportunity to find or create positivity.

Today is the start of the Jewish New Year. L’Shana Tovah to all of those who celebrate.

Like the Gregorian New Year that we celebrate every January 1st, this day presents a specific opportunity to begin anew, make a fresh start, and as such to find and/or create some new positivity in your life.

You get any number of calendar days presented to you that can be taken as an impetus for making new choices and decisions. For example, other days that can represent this opportunity include your birthday, the solstices, cycles of the moon, even the start of each new month.

In truth, every day is a new day and a new opportunity to restart, renew, and take a new path. You might find that notion exciting, and you might find it exhausting. That’s why these more specific and readily recognized times might represent a better, more cohesive option.

Why do I need to restart?

It is all-too-easy to go into a given day and just go with the flow. Some days this is a perfectly fine choice. To be sure, sometimes just going with the pattern of your day and a regular cycle is all the energy and brainpower you can muster. If, overall, you are content and finding satisfaction in your existence, by all means, carry on.

However, if you are more discontent than content, and desiring to make changes to those days, one way to do this is by finding and creating positivity.

Positivity is a conduit for feeling good. This is important because the only thing over which you can exert any real control is yourself. You cannot control anyone else, or the world at large, you only can alter yourself and all that you are and do.

To take that control, you need to practice mindfulness, which begins by being aware of what you are thinking, what and how you are feeling, and the intention behind any of your actions.

In this process, if you are seeking good and better things for your life, it begins with your thoughts and feelings. The best way to make intentional changes to your life is to raise your vibrational frequency.

Energy, frequency, and you

When all is said and done, at the deepest core of your being you are energy. That energy, like all energy, vibrates at a frequency. That frequency is not locked into only one channel – it can be altered. When you are feeling bad, and negative, you are vibrating at a low frequency. Conversely, when you are feeling good and positive, you are vibrating at a high frequency.

Yes, this is going to bring us to the Law of Attraction, which a lot of people think of as bullshit. The notion that like attracts like, to many people, is too puerile and out-there. That’s fine, what you believe is entirely up to you. However – I know that if I am feeling low, depressed, and stripped of energy, I tend to far too readily find more to enhance that negativity than to turn it around.

This is why making the decision to find and/or create positivity matters. I don’t know about you, but I do not like feeling low, depressed, sad, angry, or otherwise negative. So when I recognize whether negativity or positivity is dominating my mindset, I have the opportunity to change it.

Just to be clear, I am in no way saying that you should never feel negative. Shit happens, and when it does feeling bad is a natural response. What’s more, anger and other negative emotions can be channeled into making positive changes. Allowing yourself to wallow in negativity and let it dominate your overall mindfulness, however, is just going to increase its frequency.

Why an opportunity to restart empowers you

Holidays like the Jewish New Year or your birthday can be a natural point for contemplation and evaluation. They offer a natural timeframe to see if you are being mindful and driving your own life, or not. If the answer is not something you desire, you now have a point at which to begin anew, make a fresh start, and decide on different choices to take control.

In a world so overstuffed with negativity, there is a need for more positivity overall. The higher frequency may not just uplift you, but those around you. If you desire to change in any way, look at how this calendar time makes a perfect point to do something new and/or different.

Finding positivity is not hard, but it does require mindfulness

Knowing you can use mindfulness to make changes and find or create more positivity is all well-and-good, but doing so on any given day can be extra challenging. When you see that a day like the Jewish or Gregorian New Year or your birthday is an opportunity to choose anew, that ultimately empowers you. When you feel empowered, your mindfulness increases, you become more aware overall, and that tends to spread to other people around you.

As such, you can build more positive feelings and discover more things to feel positivity and gratitude.

Gratitude leads to happiness. Happiness is the ultimate positive attitude. An attitude of gratitude is an attitude of positivity that begets even more good energies – and that, like you, is always worthwhile.

 

This is the two-hundred and ninety-fifth entry of my Positivity series. It is my hope these weekly messages might help spread positive energies for everyone. Feel free to share, re-blog and spread the positivity.

Please visit here to explore all of my published works – both fiction and non-fiction.

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Pathwalking 404 – Path Not Found (Not Normal!)

I Am Not Normal

I know it, embrace it, and love who it makes me as such.

When my wife and I first began dating, I think it may have been the second date when she looked at me and said, “You are an unapologetic geek.”

“Yup.”

I had, long before, accepted how much of a geek I am. This has been a recurrent theme across my life. There was, of course, a time when I didn’t accept this aspect of myself so readily, and I was making multiple attempts to be more normal.

What’s so great about normal, anyhow?

What IS normal?

This is a question that I know I am not alone in asking. What I have gathered in my research of the human psyche is that normal is someone who does things that are expected by society.

For example, I am given to believe that a “normal” forty-something guy like me works a 9-5 job, has a wife and a kid or two, owns a house, golfs, plays tennis or racketball or such, watches pro sports, and may or may not have a “man cave” where he escapes to do so with or without a bunch of his buddies.

Let’s see how I do not meet this. My job is not a normal 9-5 job, my wife and I have no kids and that will not change, we rent an apartment because we don’t want a house. I do not golf or play that sort of sport – I do medieval fencing; I don’t watch pro sports, and I have an office/library – not a “man cave.”

By this definition, I am NOT normal.

I have never been normal. My mom, with nothing but good intentions, sought to do several things in my youth to help me be more normal.

Step into my Wayback Machine

My childhood, in the 1970s and ’80s, was not, for the time period, normal. This was for several reasons. The reasons included:

Ours was the only single-parent family in the neighborhood
Mine were the only divorced parents among my social groups
We were the only Jewish family in our predominantly Lutheran Minnesota neighborhood
I was a fat kid who was a slow runner and not very good at sports
When I hit puberty I never quite sprouted up and remained a head shorter than the other guys
I traveled cross-country to New York or Arizona to visit family during various holiday breaks

I never quite fit in with the local Jewish community, nor among the kids in my neighborhood (who were, admittedly, either a couple of years older or younger than me by-and-large). So I played by myself a lot, imagining adventures where my swingset turned into my starship, or my Star Wars action figures continued the stories after the films.

As I got into my teens my mom had concerns about my oddities. So she took a couple of steps to be the “cool” mom. She encouraged me to grow my hair out (this meant, don’t laugh, I had a serious mullet going). One afternoon at the mall, when I was 16, she harangued me into getting my ear pierced (my left ear, mind you – which back then, on a guy, meant you were straight).

So really, my mom WAS the cool mom. But none of these things would make me become normal.

Letting the freak flag fly

When I got to college, I made several attempts to be more “normal.” Granted, majoring in theatre and minoring in audio production and art history didn’t lend themselves to this. I did the 4-year thing, got a BA degree…and emerged into the real world utterly unsure what to do next.

Over the course of the following decade or so I attempted to get a “normal” job, have a “normal” relationship, and push my geeky, oddball tendencies into the background. In the process, I got lost in the background noise of that place where you are trying to be something you are not while still holding onto who and what you are.

I still did the medieval reenactment thing. It was in the 10 years after college that I began to get into the hooky-spooky, energy work, Reiki, and writing fantasy. Yet I was still trying to be “normal.”

Then I got hit by a car while crossing the street. This near-death experience forced me to spend a year of my life recovering, which opened me up to understanding the notion and practice of conscious reality creation.

After my recovery, I still made multiple attempts to do the “normal” routines. I took on 9-5 jobs and made more attempts at relationships. But really, I was leading a dual life. There was this semi-normal me versus the abnormal me.

I couldn’t tell you exactly when it happened, most likely after the sessions with my last, best therapist in my early to mid-thirties, that I stopped resisting being not normal, and began to let it in. Rather than lead a double life and be “normal” and freaky, I unfurled my freak flag and let my true self be known.

Embracing the not normal

Once I stopped resisting being not normal and embraced it instead, my life began to make a lot more sense to me. I found happiness and contentment that I didn’t even entirely realize I had been looking for.

My circle of friends shifted and became the most solid it had been since high school. I got into good relationships, including (obviously) the one that led to my marriage. Though I still struggled with 9-5 jobs for a time, I started to get employment that was more along the lines of my true skills, before this current run at writing full time.

I stopped trying to be what society considers normal. As such, I don’t watch sports on the weekends – I am either fencing or spending time with friends at a medieval reenactment event, exploring a craft fair and/or just hanging out with my wife watching shows on the Food Network. I can quote far too many movies, including all the Star Wars films, The Princess Bride, most Monty Python films (and skits for that matter), and many more. My friends and I will play roleplaying games like D&D and such when we get together.

The point is, my path in life has never been a normal one, and that is not a bad thing. I have come to embrace who I am, the great big geek, and with that more completely like and even love myself.

This is why being the best YOU that you can be, no matter how normal or abnormal that may be, is entirely right for you, too. It’s ok to choose an unusual path in life, so long as it is right for you.

I am not normal, but I know it, embrace it, and love who it makes me as such.

Do you embrace or repel the not-normal in you?

 

This is the four-hundred and fourth entry in my series. These weekly posts are ideas for, and my personal experiences with, walking along the path of life to consciously create reality.  I share this journey as part of my desire to make a difference in this world along the way. I also desire to empower myself and my readers with conscious reality creation.

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I Get to Choose How to Feel Today

How I will feel today is up to me

It is totally my decision whether positivity or negativity will prevail.

Every single day is new and different from the day before. No matter how much of a routine you may have, no two days are alike.

Why does that matter? Because it means that every day is a choice. How you will feel today is wholly and entirely up to you to decide.

Frankly, I think that’s awesome. Why? Because if yesterday sucked, or was otherwise not how I would have liked it to be, I can choose to not let today suck. If I felt lousy yesterday I can decide how I want to feel today.

Believe it or not, you have the ability to choose how to feel. I know that totally looks to be a lie, but it’s really not. This is a matter of mindfulness.

Deciding how you will feel

Consciousness creates reality, and that is by employing mindfulness. Mindfulness is working with awareness of your thoughts, feelings, and actions in the here and now.

Things happen all the time that will cause you to feel a certain way. A coworker makes a stupid mistake, a loved one hurts you, that jerk paying no attention to the road sideswiped you, you tripped and broke a bone, and so forth. Yes, you are going to feel negative, and that is totally natural and frankly necessary.

Life is a paradox of extremes. That’s why it is possible to feel both hopeful and hopeless, thrilled and scared, content and uncertain all at the same time. You cannot, and frankly should not, be without negativity. It is a danger signal, your spidey-sense telling you that something’s not right.

Without negative feelings about things, you may not be aware that things need to change. That’s a part of human nature.

The problem with negativity comes from holding onto it. When you allow the negativity to linger and dictate your life experiences, like a leech or a bandage on a hairy leg it clings easily and can be hard to remove.

That is why it is a choice. If you feel bad today that doesn’t mean you need to feel bad tomorrow, or for all of eternity going forward. The choice is up to you.

Making use of mindfulness for how you feel today

When you practice mindfulness of your thoughts and feelings, you get to choose if you want them to remain as they are. It is perfectly valid and necessary to feel negative feelings, but allowing negativity to root itself into your psyche can be problematic.

For example, I received an email back in July about a foreign magazine wanting to review my latest book, You Are Amazing. I was skeptical but super-excited. I sent them a PDF of the story and waited to receive word of my review and a boost in sales therein.

It is almost the end of September now, and I haven’t seen a boost in sales nor received word of the review. My emails questioning this have gone unanswered.

I am bummed, a bit hurt, and frustrated that this has gone nowhere. However, I get to choose if I will allow that negativity to hold on, and potentially spiral into a delightful “Woe-is-me-I-suck-fest,” or decide to release it and press on with completing the second You Are Amazing book.

I am pleased to report that I am releasing it and moving on. I am choosing how to feel today, and rather than be annoyed, irked, upset, or otherwise dog-paddling in an ocean of negativity I am going to choose to find positivity and do more writing.

You get to choose positivity or negativity through practicing mindfulness. If you felt negative yesterday how would you like to feel today?

Finding positivity is not hard, but it does require mindfulness

Knowing you can choose how to feel today, you get to make a decision about whether you seek out positivity or negativity in what you do. When you use mindfulness to be aware of your thoughts and feelings here and now, you gain influence and control over your mindset that ultimately empowers you. When you feel empowered, your mindfulness increases, you become more aware overall, and that tends to spread to other people around you.

As such, you can build more positive feelings and discover more things to feel positivity and gratitude.

Gratitude leads to happiness. Happiness is the ultimate positive attitude. An attitude of gratitude is an attitude of positivity that begets even more good energies – and that, like you, is always worthwhile.

 

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Recognizing the Limitations of Your Path

Many limitations are artificial and can be overcome…but not all of them.

For the most part, you are told that there are an overwhelming number of limitations in this life.

In order to do ‘X’ or to be ‘Y’ you must come from money, have the right connections, be beautiful, or meet some other standards – or else you are limited. If you do not meet these standards you are unworthy and undeserving and the limitations will keep you down – where you belong.

That, of course, is a crock of shit. The vast majority of the limitations you are presented with are artificial.

The biggest example of this is the number of things you are being told are lacking or scarce by government officials, business leaders, and even religious leaders. Why do they create artificial lack and scarcity? Because they believe that doing so empowers them while disempowering you and me. So they can maintain the “power” that they think they hold.

While you are being continually shown lack, scarcity, and other artificial limitations, there are limitations that you may encounter upon a given path that are real. Recognizing and acknowledging them can remove them from being obstacles and roadblocks, allowing you a smoother, more comfortable journey.

Limitations that prevent you from achieving the goal

Consciousness creates reality. When you practice mindfulness and being aware of what you are thinking and what and how you are feeling you enable yourself to choose better intentional actions to manifest your goals. Like attracts like, and you can use this to create just about anything you desire for yourself.

While most of the limitations to this are completely artificial, some are real, and will not allow you to take the path of your choice in life. There are generally very specific.

Keep in mind that you can’t create the life you desire to lead from a total vacuum. There is necessary work and processes. This is where a lot of people who focus on the Law of Attraction and the Power of Positive Thinking miss a key point. The Universe may be abundant and able to hand you what you desire, but there IS work and effort involved, and you cannot create from a vacuum.

For example, let’s say you want to be an astronaut. Not just a space tourist, which is fairly doable, but a bona fide astronaut. To get there, generally, you need to either come from the military or a science background.

If you are not in the military or do not have the skills necessary to perform a science that could get you into space, you are not going to become an astronaut. You can ask, believe, and receive all you desire ala The Secret…but without the background it’s simply not going to happen.

Likewise, if you lack the physical and mental endurance, strength, drive, and stamina, you will not be able to become a professional athlete. If you suck at math you won’t become a Nobel Prize-winning mathematician.

Awareness of these real limitations can help you with choosing attainable life goals.

Limitations that cannot be overcome, but still are obstacles to go around

Going back to the previous example, let’s say you desire to be some sort of athlete. Though most professional basketball players are well over six feet tall, there have been exceptions to this rule. If you practice a whole lot, have the mental and physical fortitude, stamina, endurance, and drive, it’s not utterly impossible. But if you are 5’4” you will need to put in a surreal amount of work to get to the NBA.

In college, I was introduced to medieval fencing. Unlike modern fencing where they wear white jackets and roll up and down a narrow strip, medieval fencing is a lot more colorful, is done in the round, and can employ multiple weapons. For example, my favorite weapons form is a sword in each hand.

I was short, heavyset, kind of clumsy, and awkward. I had no athletic ability in my childhood, as evidenced by how much time I spent on the bench playing little league baseball, and how slowly I “ran” a mile in High School.

Then I fell in love with medieval fencing. It brought me so much joy, and I always looked forward to practice and events on weekends where I would get to play. Despite my physical limitations, I decided I wanted to get good at this.

I attended (and still attend) 1-3 practices a week. I did drills, took lessons from more skilled fencers, and worked on my general endurance and stamina during the week.

Though I am still short and heavyset, I’m no longer clumsy or awkward in my body. I have pretty incredible balance and eye-hand coordination after 28 years of fencing. No matter how bad my day has been, fencing practice ALWAYS uplifts me.

I do not suck at medieval fencing. Despite real limitations, I still met my goal.

How much do you want it?

I am still working to improve as a fencer. Also as a writer, a voice artist, a husband, a friend, and many other aspects of my life.

There are real limitations to some of these things that need to be acknowledged. Some cannot be overcome, while others may be artificial and can be eliminated, and still others can be worked with.

When you encounter a limitation that cannot be removed that is in the way of your goal, the question becomes – can you work with it? Like my weight and maintaining fluid movement in fencing, a limitation doesn’t necessarily preclude proficiency.

Conscious reality creation takes work to begin with. But when there is a limitation that cannot be overcome but can be worked around your effort may need to be doubled. Or tripled. Or raised exponentially.

Coordinating thought, feeling, and action to manifest a desired goal requires focus, attention, intention, and drive. You can’t just think something, or feel something, or take an action alone. All three elements need to be employed, AND you need to steer clear of doubts, fears, and other roadblocks.

This is why I use desire over want in writing about goals and achievements. Want still has an element of lack that desire does not. You have to want it so much that you turn that want to desire, which means you have put a fierce intention into the thoughts, feelings, and actions you will take – and accept no other outcome.

Many limitations are artificial and can be overcome…but not all of them. Recognizing and acknowledging this can and will help you to take the paths to build the life you most desire to live.

What limitations do you have that you might need to work with?

 

This is the four-hundred and third entry in my series. These weekly posts are ideas for, and my personal experiences with, walking along the path of life to consciously create reality.  I share this journey as part of my desire to make a difference in this world along the way. I also desire to empower myself and my readers with conscious reality creation.

Thank you for joining me.  Feel free to re-blog and share this.

The first year of Pathwalking, including some expanded ideas, is available here. My additional writing works, both fiction and non-fiction, are available here.

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What Positivity is Not

Recognizing What Positivity Is Not

Exploring the other side of a powerful tool for choices and decisions to create our lives.

I write weekly about positivity and how important it is in my life. Further, I espouse how important positivity can be to the whole world.

The thing that cannot be ignored, however, it what positivity is not. So let me explain what that means.

Positive AND negative

Thinking and feeling positive does not and should not ignore, erase, or negate negativity. Positivity does not make negativity go away, because you can’t just eliminate negativity from your life.

I don’t like feeling bad, down, blue, angry, frustrated, or any other negative emotions. This, in my experience, seems to be true of most people. Yet it is an undeniable part of life, of the human experience. Things are going to happen that are going to make you feel negative.

This can actually be healthy. Why? Because that negativity can be a total wake-up call. For me, it tells me where my headspace is and lets me know that my conscious reality creation is not aimed the way I would like it to be.

Positivity is not meant to erase and eradicate negativity. Instead, it is meant to turn it around, to change its direction, and to help you regain control of your mindset. In my mindfulness practices, positivity is how I shift my headspace so that I better manifest the things I desire to, and live the fullest life that I can.

Positivity cannot stand alone

Recognizing and acknowledging this is important. Positivity does not exist in a vacuum all by itself, it is the opposite of negativity. Like most polar opposites, there is a lot of color and grey between the extremes.

Positivity is made up of thought and feeling together. I can think positive all that I want, but if I am not feeling positive I cannot generate positivity. Instead, what I will have is a conflict, because I not give that positive thought the feeling it needs to build real positivity. Feeling bad but thinking positive can lead to self-doubt, distress, and frustration because I can’t figure out why my positive thoughts are not making me feel good.

If like me, you are better at thinking than you are at feeling, this can get really frustrating. For me, if I am thinking positive why aren’t I feeling positive? The same is true if you are better at feeling than you are at thinking. The answer, in either case, lies in your subconscious.

Mindfulness matters

When I am not present in the now and being mindful of not just my thought by my feeling, I am not practicing mindfulness. Unsurprisingly, this means that my subconscious is doing the driving. If I have been allowing myself to get distracted, scroll through Twitter and Facebook posts about all the terrible things happening in the world, my subconscious has gotten saturated with that.

The subconscious will drive feeling if you are not practicing mindfulness. In other words, if you are not being aware of both your thoughts and feelings, particularly in the here and now, you may be unable to make use of positivity.

It is not the car – but it can be the fuel for the engine

You and I are complex, multifaceted creatures. What makes you tick may be similar to what lights me up, but they are still loaded with differences.

Positivity is just another tool in the cosmic toolbox for choosing my life experience. Because you and I are living in a fear-based society it is too easy to come across negativity rather than positivity. That being written, choosing positive can be a more difficult action than deciding on negative.

Because of the overabundance of negativity out there, positivity can require a more thorough search to be found.

Positivity is a long-game strategy rather than a short-term tactic, even though it can be applied both ways. This is not a game-changer, nor will it provide instant gratification. What it will do is alter your thought process, and most importantly give you hope and tools to build better – as opposed to discouragement and tools to destroy.

The choice and decision are for you and me to make. I know I prefer feeling positive to feeling negative. How about you?

Finding positivity is not hard, but using it requires thought, feeling, and action

Knowing both what positivity is and what it is not, you can make the best use of it for consciously creating an ideal reality. When you employ positivity as a part of your life you open yourself up to being mindful, building a life you most desire to live, and that ultimately empowers you. When you feel empowered, your mindfulness increases, you become more aware overall, and that tends to spread to other people around you.

As such, you can build more positive feelings and discover more things to feel positivity and gratitude for.

Gratitude leads to happiness. Happiness is the ultimate positive attitude. An attitude of gratitude is an attitude of positivity that begets even more good energies – and that, like you, is always worthwhile.

 

This is the two-hundred and ninety-second entry of my Positivity series. It is my hope these weekly messages might help spread positive energies for everyone. Feel free to share, re-blog and spread the positivity.

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Stumbling Over Old Beliefs along my Path

Practicing mindfulness alone doesn’t always open the door to change old beliefs.

One of the key elements of Pathwalking is using mindfulness to consciously create reality. Ergo, I am doing things to better myself and create the life I most desire to live.

There are two super-frustrating things I cannot seem to get out of my head. These are my thought processes when it comes to money and when it comes to weight loss/body consciousness.

Specifically, these are brain weasels chittering endlessly away at me, telling me that I am unworthy, that I do not deserve to earn a decent living, and that I am fat and undesirable because that’s how I am.

No matter how much mindfulness I employ to get my thoughts and feelings aligned, no matter how long I meditate for every day, I cannot seem to rid myself of these particular self-doubts.

These have been the two biggest obstacles in my path. Clearly, they are rooted so deeply that I have not been capable of getting to their source to take them on. So, if you will indulge me, let’s see if writing it out gets me closer to where I desire to be.

Old beliefs, like old habits, die hard

In both cases, I am pretty sure this is going to require digging into my murky, hazy childhood. For the most part, my memories from between the ages of 6 and 11 are scattered at best, discombobulated, and super-hazy. I think I blocked a lot of stuff out from that period of my life for a whole host of different reasons.

In that time of my life my parents divorced, my dad moved halfway across the country from us and my grandparents retired halfway across the country in the opposite direction. There was a shit-ton of upheaval going on, and I was a clever, overly-sensitive kid at the eye of the storm.

Let me just make this clear – I DO NOT blame anyone for how I am now due to that time. I know lots of people will blame their parents for screwing them up, but I don’t. This was forty years ago, and so at this point, the onus and ownership of my screwed-up psyche are on me. Why? Because I am old enough to take accountability for what’s in my own head, and cope accordingly.

However, a great many of the beliefs we hold as adults are formed when we are children between the ages of 6 and 11. I have to surmise that this is where I need to turn to find the roots.

One last, important part. To my mom – if you read this – please don’t be offended. You were my primary focal parent since dad was only present in my life once every three or four months. Ergo, these beliefs that took root in my head are derived from things you did and said.

That out of the way, please adjust your headlamps, we’re going into a potentially dark and disturbing place.

Ancient beliefs about money clinging to my psyche today

When I was growing up I lived with my mom and my younger sister 98% of the time. I would fly across the country to visit my dad and/or my grandparents and my dad a couple of times a year, mostly over holidays. Otherwise, it was life in my mom’s house.

My mom did not want to have to work, but after the divorce had no choice. We lived very comfortably in a nice middle-class house in the suburbs. I attended an excellent public school. It was a loving home, and mom raised my sister and me well.

While we never exactly struggled with money, it was still a constant topic of my mom’s. Although now, almost forty years later, I cannot recall exactly what she said about money, the impressions remain: Those with money were better than those without. You had to be lucky to have money. Money came from certain lines of work, like doctors, lawyers, and businesspeople.

I vaguely recall my mom talking about never quite having enough, always needing/wanting more money to do more things, and it was a frequent bone of contention. It doesn’t help that I seem to believe that much of the social stratification among her friends made a lot about what everyone had. There was a ton of comparison about the haves, have-nots, and such.

To this day my mom loves to measure what she has versus what others have. She loves to show off the things she owns and frequently compares material things between people. She still seems to be striving for more, more, more. Things are never quite good enough.

Once again, no offense to my mom – but can you see how exposure to this, while very impressionable, rooted some funky beliefs deep in my psyche?

Where does this put me now?

That’s the question. Rooted deep, deep into my subconscious are the following beliefs:

Money only comes from certain, specific, high-paying jobs like doctors, lawyers, and merchant chiefs
You measure success with money
If you do not have money you are not successful
Only certain people are worthy and deserving of money
Money makes people do unkind things
You will never have enough money
Others are better and more worthy and deserving than you
Money makes the world go ‘round
Struggling for money is normal
If you don’t have money your life is less

Can you see how much conflict the above beliefs can cause? And of course, I chose a path in life that would not lead me to being a doctor, lawyer, or merchant chief.

To change these beliefs I need to dig at them and see if I unearth more. Now that I have a better idea of what they are, I can meditate on them and work to remove them. Maybe having a better idea of what these beliefs are and just how far back into my life they were rooted I will be able to change this.

Not going to be easy. But to go where I desire to in my life and consciously create my reality my work is cut out for me here.

Ancient notions about weight loss clinging to my psyche today

Let’s pull no punches here. I was a fat kid. On top of that, growing up in the Midwest, I was a short, fat kid. I sucked at sports and was about as dorky/geeky/nerdy as they come.

I went through a pre-teen weight loss program when I was 10 or so. I’ve done the yo-yo diet thing, and I have fluctuated from 20 pounds overweight to 80 pounds overweight. The struggle has been ongoing ALL MY LIFE and continues today.

My mom (again, not blaming, just showing where the beliefs originated) has spent much of her life needing to lose weight. I don’t know how many different diets she has been on. Her weight was a constant topic when she was dating, which occurred during my fuzzy-memory period between the ages of 6 and 11.

She has always held certain specific beliefs about low-fat, the value or lack thereof of certain foods, and that being overweight is bad on multiple levels. Being fat makes you less desirable, is awful for your overall health, makes you less than people who are not overweight, and is a constant source of judgment.

Mom constantly would compare herself and her weight with that of others. Her weight loss versus so-and-so’s. It was a frequent issue, and she always needed to lose more, more, more. She was unworthy or undeserving of ‘X’ because of her weight. To buy that shirt or those pants she had to lose another 20 pounds.

This is still ongoing. In preparing for a trip to the Mediterranean this fall, mom was telling me how she would like to lose weight. Again, no offense to my mom – but can you see how exposure to this, while very impressionable, rooted some beliefs deep in my psyche?

Where does this put me now?

That’s the question. Rooted deep, deep into my subconscious are the following beliefs:

Losing weight is a never-ending struggle
Weight loss is hard
You can never lose enough weight
Unless you are thin you are unworthy and undeserving
Fat is bad
You are worth less if you are overweight
Your weight is how you are judged as a person
If you are overweight you are utterly unhealthy

Can you see how much conflict the above beliefs can cause? Is it any wonder that I remain overweight, and cannot seem to get down to where I would prefer to be?

First, let me explain why I desire to lose weight, and how much. There are several reasons. These include wearing clothes that currently do not fit, taking the pressure off my damaged knees, being a better and more capable fencer, and overall improvement in my body would feel good physically and mentally. I need to take off about 80 pounds.

Let me clarify a couple of things about this. First, though I am overweight I am strong and active. My cholesterol is high, but that’s genetics and is being treated with drugs.  My blood pressure is normal and my resting heart is normally in the mid to low 60’s. Yes, my doctor really also wants me to take off the weight so that these stats don’t change, and I concur that’s wise. Despite being heavy I am in relatively excellent health.

Maybe uprooting the above ancient beliefs will allow me to more easily let go of this weight. It will certainly help. Granted, there are some other psychological reasons, but they are not rooted quite so deeply as those above.

Final thoughts

Practicing mindfulness doesn’t always open the door to change old beliefs, but it is still necessary. By being aware of what I am thinking and how and what I am feeling I can see how those old, deeply-held beliefs still impact my mindset and actions now.

To change my beliefs about money and weight loss requires me to act. My actions and the intent behind them are a product of my thoughts and feelings. Hopefully getting a handle on these old beliefs will help me see them in the way of my path, and I can better step over and around them continuing on my journey.

Do you have old beliefs you stumble over along your life paths?

 

This is the four-hundred and second entry in my series. These weekly posts are ideas for, and my personal experiences with, walking along the path of life to consciously create reality.  I share this journey as part of my desire to make a difference in this world along the way. I also desire to empower myself and my readers with conscious reality creation.

Thank you for joining me.  Feel free to re-blog and share this.

The first year of Pathwalking, including some expanded ideas, is available here. My additional writing works, both fiction and non-fiction, are available here.

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