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mirajani replied to your post “I’m getting really, really tired of getting comments and emails...

mirajani
replied to your post “I’m getting really, really tired of getting comments and emails that…”

I had someone hate one of my fics because I depicted a character they liked in a way they didn’t. I told them to go write their own. There are always trolls in any fandom. When you see this, just think “wanker” and move on. It’s not you, it’s them.

I know that. It still gets really old. It’s just not necessary to treat people who are already donating their time this way, and I have the right to decide not to subject myself to it any more. I could very easily just concentrate on my novel and writing for financial reward if volunteering my work is going to mean I have to take this sort of harassment and bullying. I don’t need that in my leisure space. Life is already full of that. I am not obligated to just suck it up and deal with it, you know? No one is. 

And cue the first of the unfollowings, of course. It was probably the person who left the...

And cue the first of the unfollowings, of course. It was probably the person who left the comment. 

I’m immensely grateful for all of you who have commented so far. It’s never been about not getting enough praise or something like that, and I fully understand that not everyone will like what someone creates, but I’m just tired of having to deal with this crap. Of course we can tell ourselves that it was just one person, blah blah blah, every single time it happens. We can tell ourselves not to give the comment the power to ruin our days and make us feel two inches tall. We can pretend it doesn’t hurt, but it does, and I’m angry that we have a culture of allowing people to do this to people who are donating their time and creativity to the community at large. I’m tired of spending hours and hours and hours working on a story, all for a single hater to come and lob a bomb at not just it, but at me personally. How is that in any way okay? The obvious answer is that it isn’t, but we are we supposed to do about it? 

I’ve now written 54 stories in this fandom (51 Johnlock and 3 Freebatch). I just passed the milestone of 1,250,000 words cumulative. My blog isn’t monetized (though about 10 of you bought CDs from me - thank you!!) and I have never once left anonymous hate on someone’s tumblr or told them to kill themselves because they had the nerve to disagree with a character interpretation or to write something that isn’t to my highly subjective personal taste. Not even ONCE. It’s easy to not do it. I also don’t unfollow people who post things I don’t like or agree with, unless it’s hate speech (about real people!!) or something. I’m perfectly capable of reading a post and saying to myself, “yeah, I don’t see it that way” and scrolling on by, particularly if I like the person who posted it. It’s actually not hard at all. 

I’m sorry to vent. I’m just really tired of this crap right now. 

After reading your last post, I feel the need to completely disagree with that anonymous commenter. Your writing is amazing, yes, true, but when I started following you, I realized that YOU are even more awesome than your fabulous writing. You are so gen

This is really amazing, seriously. I’ve always considered my blog completely secondary to my writing in every way. I mean, the primary reason I have it is to promote my stuff, but also to squee with people about the same stuff, etc. What you’ve said here is incredibly kind. Thank you so, so much!!

After reading your last post, I feel the need to completely disagree with that anonymous commenter. Your writing is amazing, yes, true, but when I started following you, I realized that YOU are even more awesome than your fabulous writing. You are so gen

This is really amazing, seriously. I’ve always considered my blog completely secondary to my writing in every way. I mean, the primary reason I have it is to promote my stuff, but also to squee with people about the same stuff, etc. What you’ve said here is incredibly kind. Thank you so, so much!!

I'm so sorry to hear you are continuing to get grief, my friend. It is SO MUCH WORK to write a fan fic and so easy to write something nasty. Sigh. I send you hugs and love for spinning up the tales that you do. I can say that if you WEREN'T so popular and

It’s never stopped since the very beginning, honestly. Of COURSE the nasty comments and hate mail are the minority, but right now I’m feeling very much over having to deal with it at all. I’m creating something and giving it away for free, and part of the “payment” is having to take this shit. It’s never been about payment in any form. But this? Yes, of course I can tell myself that the other person is the one with serious problems, that anonymous online harassment is what they need to do to get by. But it still costs me emotional energy, and it still hurts. I’m just tired of having to deal with it. It SUCKS. Especially my newest fic, ouch. 

Thanks for the hugs and love and virtual comforts.

I'm so sorry to hear you are continuing to get grief, my friend. It is SO MUCH WORK to write a fan fic and so easy to write something nasty. Sigh. I send you hugs and love for spinning up the tales that you do. I can say that if you WEREN'T so popular and

It’s never stopped since the very beginning, honestly. Of COURSE the nasty comments and hate mail are the minority, but right now I’m feeling very much over having to deal with it at all. I’m creating something and giving it away for free, and part of the “payment” is having to take this shit. It’s never been about payment in any form. But this? Yes, of course I can tell myself that the other person is the one with serious problems, that anonymous online harassment is what they need to do to get by. But it still costs me emotional energy, and it still hurts. I’m just tired of having to deal with it. It SUCKS. Especially my newest fic, ouch. 

Thanks for the hugs and love and virtual comforts.

I’m getting really, really tired of getting comments and emails that attack my personality over...

I’m getting really, really tired of getting comments and emails that attack my personality over stories I’ve written. I really, really am. I have a new Johnlock fic in progress but I’m seriously reconsidering writing a single word more of it, or any other fanfic, honestly. I’m really pissed off. I do this for fun and I fully expect that people who decide to read my stuff will find their way to the back button if they don’t like what I’ve written and find themselves something that suits them better. But writing something like this, under an anonymous account (aka, not eligible for a report of abuse/harassment!) like a total coward really makes me reassess why I’m spending my limited free time doing this. This is the comment I just received on my latest story, Bricks in the Fortress: 

Interesting. Having read much of your work I can conclude that you clearly identify with Sherlock. Initially I thought your hatred towards Mary was the usual case of slash fandom misogyny but considering how you’ve assassinated Sholto’s character, there seems to be a pattern here. Are you like this in your real life relationships? Obsessively jealous and insecure to the point of discrediting anyone who comes near your object of “affection”? Maybe you should seek psychiatric help.

Nice. Really classy move, with the personal stuff there. This person does not know SHIT about me. The very reason I have anonymous asks turned off here is because, back when I felt like I was the only person in the fandom who disliked Mary, I was getting death threats and invitations to kill myself REGULARLY. I know that about 98% of the people in this fandom are genuinely wonderful, kind, supportive, cool people, but the 2% is really, really killing it for me right now!! I don’t know if it’s worth it to keep on doing this. I’ve had this thought many times before but this time might be the last straw. I am fuming. 

cumberbatchlives:Benedict during fencing rehearsals for Hamlet...

cumberbatchlives:

Benedict during fencing rehearsals for Hamlet (from Hamlet digital programme, available here for iPhone/iPad)

Reblogging for his arrrrms

mazarin221b:I’ve been a Sherlock Holmes fan for a long time. Long enough that I’ve spent probably...

mazarin221b:

I’ve been a Sherlock Holmes fan for a long time. Long enough that I’ve spent probably way too much time Playing the Game - in other words, creating meta based on the Canon, but you won’t catch that old boy’s club calling it that - so I know how fun it is and what a delight it can be to think about. 

But I’ve found these days I have so little patience with it. I read meta about Sherlock and I just roll my eyes, and I think I know why.

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I absolutely agree with this. There are some amazing, brilliant metas out there, don’t get me wrong, but then there are so many others that literally don’t make sense. Points are built on things that are sheer conjecture with no facts to base it on, and conclusions are drawn from those two things that leave me utterly baffled sometimes. I do think that this is a well-crafted, well-written show, but I have to agree with what mazarin221b said about Moffat and the simplified explanations. I’m very much in the let’s-wait-and-see camp. There are certain things that I really, really hope we’ll get, but I think it’s important not to confuse hope with belief. 

The part I find most ironic is that this is a fandom of a universe and character based on logical deduction, someone who, in our particular version, specifically states that it’s dangerous to theorise without knowing all of the facts. And yet, that’s precisely what I see so often! People creating theories that fit some of the facts, while conveniently overlooking others. Choosing to interpret everything the writers say through a certain lens, without acknowledging the possibility that other interpretations are possible. I do blame the length of these hiatuses (hiatii?) a little - it’s been so long that these interpretations take on a certain sense of desperation after awhile, and I feel it, myself! I was also in the Harry Potter fandom and writing between book releases, and I remember when Harry got together with Ginny, how outraged some of the Harry/Draco shippers were. I was angry, but not surprised. I was surprised that other people were surprised, since JKR had strongly foreshadowed that with no subtlety whatsoever basically from the moment of Ginny’s introduction. But that’s human nature, to get lots in our hopes until we start believing that they’re certain to become realities. Personally, I’m just trying to stay as objective as my hopeful little heart can, because I would hate to be in 100% convinced that I know what they’re going to do, only to be shocked and devastated if/when they don’t do that. 

Because I read a lot of these metas, aka strongly skewed and very subjective interpretations, and just think, yeah, I don’t see it. You’d have to really squint hard to come to that particular conclusion. I can acknowledge the possibility, but I’m just not certain, and the reason is that there’s a precedent with Moffat and Gatiss liking the light-hearted, simplified explanation. It’s not bad writing; it’s just their quirky style - which, if we’re being open about it, is not always my favourite - I personally would prefer them to go into more depth in terms of the emotional fall-out of certain events. Amy being forced to give birth in captivity, having her child wrested from her, having had her memory wiped about it, and then only meeting her child when said child is already an adult older than she is - all of that never got in-depth enough treatment, for me. But then, take that with a grain of salt, because I’m a fan of things like The Silmarillion. For me, there can always be more depth! :P 

I know what I hope, and I hope hard. I just don’t want to impose my hopes onto whatever logic I’m capable of applying when it comes to interpreting our canon. Call me a cynic, but I’d rather be cautious than wrong, maybe. :P 

sherlockspeare:John: Sherlock, where are you?Sherlock:...

sherlockspeare:

John: Sherlock, where are you?
Sherlock: (giggling and sobbing) ….

This is completely ridiculous and I love it