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May 15, 2021
beggars-opera:jezi-belle:
sushinfood:
argumate:
lady-feral:
ki...
Boss shit
Literal actual goals
that was intensely satisfying
WELL DONE!!!
I watched the first few seconds, said “is this motherfucker actually,” AND THEN THE MOTHERFUCKER ACTUALLY
This is one of those videos that makes you go “Wow, humans sure are a Species, huh”
I love this so much
May 13, 2021
The fic just passed 40,000 words! Progress is happening and the end is in sight!!
The fic just passed 40,000 words! Progress is happening and the end is in sight!!
May 12, 2021
May 10, 2021
The fic is at 39,000 words now! It’s a slow-moving one, but it’s very much getting to...
The fic is at 39,000 words now! It’s a slow-moving one, but it’s very much getting to wherever it’s going!
May 9, 2021
itislove:
ltleflrt:I wish I was stupidly rich so I could afford to hire fic writers to write things...
I wish I was stupidly rich so I could afford to hire fic writers to write things specifically for me. Like a rich renaissance Italian being a patron for Leonardo or whatever. Just put these folks on my payroll and give them a living wage and insurance, just write me fics.
@silentauroriamthereal I would hire you to write me ridicuously long case fics with some mutual pining, bonus cash for fake relationship
Omg if I could just retire from my job and do this, I so would!
May 4, 2021
Once again, I am absolutely humbled, floored, and wholly overwhelmed by the people of this fandom. I...
Once again, I am absolutely humbled, floored, and wholly overwhelmed by the people of this fandom.
I owe a lot of you emails beyond the basic “omg, thank you” that I hope I’ve at least sent everyone who has helped me out, but in the meantime, let me just say that I’m on it, just really behind (Tuesdays are my 14-hour work day). I came home to an overflowing inbox, half a dozen upset emails from PayPal (who has now frozen my account, because I don’t normally have anything beyond a monthly Patreon payment come in!), and yeah. It’s all good. It’s beyond good. It’s unbelievable.
Um. You can stop donating now. That seems like the most hilarious thing to feel a need to say, but I’m sort of drowning in imposter syndrome and guilt (I know I should know better, but there it is!). I think my PayPal account might be broken now, lol - God, this is so awkward, hahaha! I was NOT expecting this level of response and I’m good now! Thank you SO much. Omg.
I’m seriously at a loss for words to express how enormously kind, generous, and thoughtful this community is, along with your profoundly moving words that so many of you shared directly or in the notes on my original post asking for help. This has been a rough year and one of the things that has made it extra cutting is feeling constantly undervalued at my job and by life in general. Nothing could have prepared me for the absolute antidote that this has been. I love you all. I don’t know where all of you stand on the notion of karma, but may it come around to each of you a thousand times over. Thank you, thank you, and thank you some more! <3333333333333333333333333333333333333333
May 3, 2021
I am completely overwhelmed. Verbose beast that I am, I have to say that I’m absolutely lost...
I am completely overwhelmed. Verbose beast that I am, I have to say that I’m absolutely lost for words. This fandom contains the finest human beings in the universe. Seriously. I am so far beyond grateful that I’m choked for words over here. I love you all.
May 2, 2021
So, last week was a Week. This is going to be long and I’m sorry. No worries at all if you...
So, last week was a Week.
This is going to be long and I’m sorry. No worries at all if you want to just start scrolling on by right now, lol.
So, I’m poor. I’ve always been poor. My parents have always been poor, and I didn’t have any help with university. I went to school in Canada (aka my country), at least, so my tuition was much lower than in the US, say, but I was still all on my own for it, living expenses, all of it, so obviously I had to get student loans, along with work my butt off for bursuries, etc. I did my masters in opera, which is a HIGHLY competitive field, including at the grad school level, and the short version is, there’s no money for sopranos - they give it all to men. So: limited financial aid, too. Aka: loans. One of the major reasons that I left the opera field was that I’m just too poor. You have to pay for everything yourself - every pianist for every audition, all of your performance clothes, audition clothes, recordings for demos, travel expenses, agent fees (if you get far enough to have one of those), new headshots every six months, etc. It only works for singers with rich parents or a partner who’s earning a lot and supporting them. My parents are dirt poor and I’m single, so: screwed.
Now, my museum job is full-time, but it pays only just above minimum wage. My city is one where people typically live at home until they’re 35, then buy a house and get married. There are very few apartments compared to most cities I’ve lived in, so rents are high. My rent is easily a good 75-80% of my income, and whatever I have left is how I pay the bills. Every six months I have to reapply to defer student loan payments, with proof of my measly income, and every time, huge stress though it is, I get approved. Except last time. Last time, apparently I was approved, but only to pay a lower amount than what they would have charged, aka $450 or so/month, which I obviously don’t have to spare. This time, they approved me for a LOWER amount, not nothing, which had been the case every other time. I didn’t see it. I just saw that I was approved. So now, six months later, it’s time to reapply but I couldn’t, because I was six months late on all of these lower amounts, and had to pay it all at once.
The next problem? The money I had to use for that is the money I was going to pay my income taxes with. That’s a whole other nightmare - the CRA (Canada Revenue Agency, may their name and entire institution be cursed), somehow conflated my account with my mother’s about a year ago when she applied for benefits due to being laid off because of the pandemic. She applied for and received benefits to the tune of $4,000. The T4E’s for those benefits are somehow on my account. I spent over 10 hours on the phone with these jackasses last week and it’s still not sorted out. I ended up filing without acknowledging my mother’s benefits, with a lengthy explanatory note, and then had to borrow money from my (again, dirt poor) parents, and somehow also make May 1st rent for the next day.
It’s so gross. I made my rent, but I’m up the creek now, because I have nothing left over to pay my bills. As it is, I’m generally reliant on those you AMAZING human beings who support me on Patreon - I usually have to wait until that comes in before I can pay my bills. This time around, because of the rest of it, I don’t have a way to make ends meet. I hate, hate, HATE asking, especially because I’ve asked before, but if there’s any way at all that you think you can help, any amount would be seriously amazing. PLEASE don’t if you already have before, if you already support me on Patreon, or if you don’t have it to spare. I mean it. This is just a last little plea I’m putting out there into the universe, just on the off chance.
The best way would be via PayPal - I use my fandom account, silentauror@yahoo.com. If you’re in any way ticked off by this post, I’m sorry, I really, really am. I find this massively embarrassing and this entire post comes with a heaping serving of cringe on my part.
That said, the best way I know of to repay the incredible kindness and generosity that this fandom has shown me over and over again, from reading my fics to liking my posts to supporting me financially and emotionally and in all the other ways, I’m going to put in a solid chunk of work on the current fic, starting right now. It’s over 37,400 words in and the end is in sight!
May 1, 2021
sarahthecoat:cheeloveseds:
Weird, John doesn’t look very happy here even though it’s supposed to be...
Weird, John doesn’t look very happy here even though it’s supposed to be ‘the most important day of his life’ but why look so upset then? Kind of reminds me of this
Somewhere between 2 and 4 I’d say …
Ahhh but no I missed a pic, here he obviously looks much happier !!!
Okay folks false alarm, he really does love his wife and I bet they’ll be very-
-happy
well oops
(once again in company of sherlock btw ✓)
this never gets old. <3
This post is so great
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