Azra Tabassum's Blog, page 194

It's a beautiful night here in east Africa the moon is out and the sky is clear and full of stars and my thoughts are positive almost beautiful and i hope you are feeling at peace as much as i am ❤️

I’ll tell the moon to tell you ‘hello.’ I’ll tell her to kiss your cheek goodnight from me.

What happened with your first love?

He turned out to be godawful and unfortunately I regret him.

I am in TEARS. The doorbell rang so I went downstairs and opened it and the guy jumped in alarm and...

I am in TEARS. The doorbell rang so I went downstairs and opened it and the guy jumped in alarm and said ‘you caught me singing Lion King’ in a very embarrassed tone and then he asked me who does the shopping in my house and I said my dad, so he said that he’d catch him another time and made to leave but before he went I said ‘I’m sorry that I missed your singing, do you wanna belt out a quick verse for me?’ And he opened his mouth and in the most beautiful soprano sang ’ WHEN HE WAS A YOUNG WARTHOG’ and then he strolled off. 

Also I wanted to mention that I’ve got a gig on the 18th of this month to support Rachel Rose...

Also I wanted to mention that I’ve got a gig on the 18th of this month to support Rachel Rose Reid at The Art House in Southampton if anyone lives in the South of England and has the time or inclination x 

Audio

"I’m scared that it’s always going to be you and we fucked it up and everything else we..."

“I’m scared that it’s always going to be you and we fucked it up and everything else we do is going to be some kind of haunted. I’m scared that I’ll find your ghost living everywhere. That 30 years from now I’ll be standing in the kitchen of my own home and the windows will be wide open. My husband will be sitting on the counter behind me talking about the financial report on the newspaper. The kids are somewhere upstairs. And my hands will tighten around the cup of tea that I’m holding and I’ll remember that your ears were always slightly too big for your head, that I nibbled on them, that you listened to music with your eyes closed, that you held me like I was something important, that it felt like forever even though both of us knew it wasn’t. And who can feel that kind of regret and not be crippled with it? Who can say, without a tremble, that we loved and that it was beautiful and full, and somehow that it still wasn’t enough?”

- Azra.T “on loving ghosts” 

Your beautiful, sincere words of reality have made me get back into writing. I thank you for letting your emotions pour out onto tangible mediums for the world to see, I know that that in itself is a quite a daunting task. Do not stop. Just know that peopl

I don’t really know what you see in me but I’m thankful that it’s there. 

I ordered Landline by Rainbow Rowell and it arrived today and I read the first few pages even though...

I ordered Landline by Rainbow Rowell and it arrived today and I read the first few pages even though I shouldn’t have and already began to feel myself coming undone and I think I’ve realised why she makes me react the way I do. It’s because when I read her writing, I picture myself writing books like that. With all the soft gentle fragility of people and relationships and little threads of loving people and how they turn into big wonderful moments and it drives me completely insane that I could write a book like that and I’m not. I’m just sitting here thinking about writing a book like that and I’m reading her and I’m unraveling and I wanna do that. I want someone to pick up one of my novels and know they’re going to be wrecked by the end. 

i went to the dentist again and he numbed my mouth and it’s still numb so now i keep dribbling...

i went to the dentist again and he numbed my mouth and it’s still numb so now i keep dribbling and not realising that i’m doing it and i don’t know why i’m telling y’all this except that i’m procrastinating my essay again so embarrassing myself seems a better alternative to writing about anti catholic sentiment in The Monk also i can’t stop giggling 

beniignus: you can break my soul, take my life...

beniignus:

                        you can break my soul,
                        take my life away,
                        beat me,
                        hurt me,
                        kill me.

                                              but for the love of god
                                                         don’t touch him.