Roxanne Roberts's Blog, page 4
November 21, 2012
When you've tried everything else...
You know, it sometimes may seem like I have all the answers, that I am confidently striding my chosen path with an amazing team and everything going my way...only one part of that story is true 100% of the time, and that is that I have an amazing team behind me...as for the rest....
While over the years I have learnt, relearn, forgotten, learnt again many, many different strategies for my healing and being tool kit, there are also moments when NOTHING seems to work. I described one of those moments not very long ago in a post about the world dropping out from under me...it really felt like it did!
While often I may have a word of advice, comfort or healing for others and know EXACTLY what to do or say for another soul to move the next step...there are times when I cannot (maybe choose not??) to hear those same words for me....
I have the "one size fits all" solution to this very problem. The ONE thing that works no matter what the situation, the moment, the feeling...
Surrender.
Let it all go. Trust. Believe...and keep doing all of these things without trying to understand, to know, to change, to do...and keep surrendering it all no matter what, no matter the temptation to get involved, to take action, to be a part of, to change, to influence or other wise control an outcome...
Surrender
With love and light
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo
While over the years I have learnt, relearn, forgotten, learnt again many, many different strategies for my healing and being tool kit, there are also moments when NOTHING seems to work. I described one of those moments not very long ago in a post about the world dropping out from under me...it really felt like it did!
While often I may have a word of advice, comfort or healing for others and know EXACTLY what to do or say for another soul to move the next step...there are times when I cannot (maybe choose not??) to hear those same words for me....
I have the "one size fits all" solution to this very problem. The ONE thing that works no matter what the situation, the moment, the feeling...
Surrender.
Let it all go. Trust. Believe...and keep doing all of these things without trying to understand, to know, to change, to do...and keep surrendering it all no matter what, no matter the temptation to get involved, to take action, to be a part of, to change, to influence or other wise control an outcome...
Surrender
With love and light
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo
November 20, 2012
When I think a day might be terrible...
There are some days, and I know we've all had them, where I wake up, think of the day ahead, and instead of being filled with gratitude and delight for the day to come, I feel a sense of dread or foreboding. These times are usually when I have something to do that I feel may be unpleasant.
Having had enough lessons now in the power of thoughts *wry grin* I choose not to dwell on the negative thoughts my brain might be trying to convince me are the events to come.
Instead, i choose to send forth love into the day ahead of me. I consciously project love energy and positivity into the day imagining that there is a rosy gold light coming from me, travelling down the time line into the rest of the day...all this before I get out of bed. *smile*
Any moment I feel could be unpleasant is layered with love, healing, forgiveness and the expectation that things will turn out well. Then, as I approach the moment, I imagine seeing all of this amazing wonderfulness waiting for me there where I sent it earlier.
This visualisation helps to calm my fears, distance myself from the emotions I choose not to feel, and to have a sense of expectation rather than dread or fear.
As is the nature and laws of the divine universe, the things we focus on the most are what we will actually achieve.
A GREAT example is a supervision class I was asked to take. This is where a teacher goes in to take over from another teacher because they are away; so the class is not your own, the subject is often one you're not qualified to teach, there is no rapport with the students a lot of the time, and students usually see this as an opportunity to show their least angelic faces...after all, why not if you can get away with it? *grin* I looked at the class list and did a bit of a mental shudder. I looked at the subject and thought, "I am well out of my depth here." I thought to myself, "this could get ugly!"
Giving myself a shake, I immediately snipped off this thread of thought and started visualising what I expected to happen in a positive and loving way. I sent my love before me, and had the most awesome and amazing lesson with a group of students I don't usually have much contact with. I got to praise their efforts, thank them for their courtesy and consideration and reward them by taking them out from class a few minutes early to lunch!!!!!!
Awesome!
With love and light
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Having had enough lessons now in the power of thoughts *wry grin* I choose not to dwell on the negative thoughts my brain might be trying to convince me are the events to come.
Instead, i choose to send forth love into the day ahead of me. I consciously project love energy and positivity into the day imagining that there is a rosy gold light coming from me, travelling down the time line into the rest of the day...all this before I get out of bed. *smile*
Any moment I feel could be unpleasant is layered with love, healing, forgiveness and the expectation that things will turn out well. Then, as I approach the moment, I imagine seeing all of this amazing wonderfulness waiting for me there where I sent it earlier.
This visualisation helps to calm my fears, distance myself from the emotions I choose not to feel, and to have a sense of expectation rather than dread or fear.
As is the nature and laws of the divine universe, the things we focus on the most are what we will actually achieve.
A GREAT example is a supervision class I was asked to take. This is where a teacher goes in to take over from another teacher because they are away; so the class is not your own, the subject is often one you're not qualified to teach, there is no rapport with the students a lot of the time, and students usually see this as an opportunity to show their least angelic faces...after all, why not if you can get away with it? *grin* I looked at the class list and did a bit of a mental shudder. I looked at the subject and thought, "I am well out of my depth here." I thought to myself, "this could get ugly!"
Giving myself a shake, I immediately snipped off this thread of thought and started visualising what I expected to happen in a positive and loving way. I sent my love before me, and had the most awesome and amazing lesson with a group of students I don't usually have much contact with. I got to praise their efforts, thank them for their courtesy and consideration and reward them by taking them out from class a few minutes early to lunch!!!!!!
Awesome!
With love and light
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
November 19, 2012
Committment
Often over the last few days I have had cause to look at the things I am committed to and also the process through which I make commitments.
Obviously, (or maybe not to some) the commitments we make to ourselves should be our first priority. It is when we are ignoring these commitments, or haven't made any at all, that the world starts to unravel a bit.
I LOVE my friends, I really do, they are more than just friends, they share a part of me that not everyone gets to see. However, I also know, that at times, totally unbeknown to them, they can take advantage of me. This is not a malicious and nasty thing, in fact, if we were to play the blame game (not one I choose actually) then it would be all down to me since we teach people how to treat us. It is through me saying "yes" when I feel "no" and vice versa, that these things happen.
Periodically, and it seems now is one of those times, *smile* I take time to review the commitments I am making to myself. One of the ways I choose to do this is to sit down with pen and paper and write a set of wedding vows to me. Sounds weird? Think about it this way, wedding vows are the commitments you make to a person you love with your whole heart, body and soul; they are the most important person in your world and you wish to publicly acknowledge that right? Otherwise, why would you marry them? Well then, YOU are the same, precious and beloved being and your commitment to yourself should be no less heartfelt and genuine.
In neglecting this part of our contract with ourselves and our divine team, we are expressing to the universe that what we want, what we need and who we are don't matter as much as other people! This is not the message I wish to send out. The result is that people will inadvertently and overtly take advantage of us and ask more than we are willing to give.
So, on that note, I am going to sit down right now and write those vows to myself, starting with some REALLY important ones:
I promise to respect my personal boundaries, acknowledge that I am a perfect and divine being and that I have the right to say "no" when I need to without feeling guilty.I promise to believe that what I need and who I am is important and to take time out for myself.I promise to only say positive things about myself and show the highest regard for me as a person.I promise to forgive myself when I make mistakes, and know that next time, I will do the very best I can.I promise to acknowledge that while sometimes I do not live up to my own expectations, that I am doing the best I can do with the current skills I have, and I will not punish myself.
There are more, but I thought I would share the ones at the top of my list.
With love and lightxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
Obviously, (or maybe not to some) the commitments we make to ourselves should be our first priority. It is when we are ignoring these commitments, or haven't made any at all, that the world starts to unravel a bit.
I LOVE my friends, I really do, they are more than just friends, they share a part of me that not everyone gets to see. However, I also know, that at times, totally unbeknown to them, they can take advantage of me. This is not a malicious and nasty thing, in fact, if we were to play the blame game (not one I choose actually) then it would be all down to me since we teach people how to treat us. It is through me saying "yes" when I feel "no" and vice versa, that these things happen.
Periodically, and it seems now is one of those times, *smile* I take time to review the commitments I am making to myself. One of the ways I choose to do this is to sit down with pen and paper and write a set of wedding vows to me. Sounds weird? Think about it this way, wedding vows are the commitments you make to a person you love with your whole heart, body and soul; they are the most important person in your world and you wish to publicly acknowledge that right? Otherwise, why would you marry them? Well then, YOU are the same, precious and beloved being and your commitment to yourself should be no less heartfelt and genuine.
In neglecting this part of our contract with ourselves and our divine team, we are expressing to the universe that what we want, what we need and who we are don't matter as much as other people! This is not the message I wish to send out. The result is that people will inadvertently and overtly take advantage of us and ask more than we are willing to give.
So, on that note, I am going to sit down right now and write those vows to myself, starting with some REALLY important ones:
I promise to respect my personal boundaries, acknowledge that I am a perfect and divine being and that I have the right to say "no" when I need to without feeling guilty.I promise to believe that what I need and who I am is important and to take time out for myself.I promise to only say positive things about myself and show the highest regard for me as a person.I promise to forgive myself when I make mistakes, and know that next time, I will do the very best I can.I promise to acknowledge that while sometimes I do not live up to my own expectations, that I am doing the best I can do with the current skills I have, and I will not punish myself.
There are more, but I thought I would share the ones at the top of my list.
With love and lightxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
November 16, 2012
When the world fell out from beneath me
I am not scared to admit that the last few days have been pretty bloody terrible for me energetically. I had a fantastic day at work all day on Wednesday, lovely times with my students, lots of learning, a few moments of confrontation but nothing extreme. Over all, a pleasant day with nothing untoward going on. Suddenly, in the last few minutes of the day, a moment happened (nothing big, no real issue) and my stomach plummeted. I got in my car to drive home, smudging for all my heart was worth in order to let go of the moment and move passed it. After all, it was NOTHING in the big scheme of things. It wasn't even anything in the little scheme of things, it was a moment that I would pass by on any given day of the week with never a backward glance. All of a sudden though, I couldn't let it go. I drove home, my stomach really sore, my brain working over time to come up with all sorts of scenarios, each more horrible than the last. ...whoa..."what is going on?" I asked my divine team over and over again to cut the cords tying me to this situation and help me move on and past it....nothing.
I walked in the door at home and got smashed by a second round of moments. My heart leaped immediately into my throat, I was almost crying with frustration and despair...holy cow! "So what bought this on?" ...nothing.
Major conflict in the house for a while, so after putting my youngest angelic being to bed, I went out to the garden which is usually a place of serenity calm and comfort. I made myself comfortable on my favourite chair and began all my relaxation methods and calming exercises. I asked my team to back me up, and with all my will I focused my intentions on being centred being calm and figuring out what in all of creation was going on!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I couldn't concentrate on reading my book, found no beauty in my plants and faery lights, was restless, my tea tasted horrible and I could not hear the usual comfort and solace of my team surrounding me...."what?????"
No matter what I did, no matter how I did it, I could find no peace, none of my inner strength was manifest, no calm, no serenity, no distance...nothing.
I had NO idea what to do next. I knew I could not sit down to write a blog post in the state I was in, I didn't even know what was going on myself. I didn't want to talk to anyone, I mean, how do you explain it when a beautiful, fluffy, faery filled day all of a sudden, for no reason, feels like you've landed in the seven circles of hell?????? No reason!!!!!
What I ended up doing was just sitting with the feeling. I continued to sit in the garden and let the feeling wash over me, surround me and completely envelop me. I took ownership of the moment, after all, this was me in this moment, this is how I felt and no amount of denial could remove that fact or the feeling. I can't say I embraced the feeling (who would???) however, I stopped trying to figure it out or to find a solution to it. I just sat with it, with me, and let the moment unfold as it would, tears and all....then, I went to bed.
That was two days ago now. To this moment, I cannot tell you what happened or why, I just don't know. I don't understand the why or the how, I did learn from this moment though. I accepted the feelings as my own, coming from me and a part of me and stopped trying to control the moment (an exercise in futility). I felt a real crisis, and just knew that all I had to do was surrender and I would pass through the moment....hard work!!!!!!!! I constantly talked to my divine team, seeking their help, asking for assistance and it was great. Since I did not know the cause of this moment, I could not ask for specific things to "be done" only surrender to guidance, stumbling my way through, listening as hard as I could to hear the "answers" I was being given.
I have walked through the last two days as though one half asleep, fulfilling my obligations to home and work, but not really here. Listening hard to my heart and the universe, going the direction guided, a bit here, a little more there, don't engage with this, leap right into that.
Suddenly this morning, the feeling was gone and I felt expectant hope again.
I still can't tell you what happened, or what that was all about. I can tell you that this moment passed with little pain due to the fact that I surrendered myself up completely and let go of the need to control the outcome (not that I had a great deal of choice in the matter *wry grin*)
With love and light
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
I walked in the door at home and got smashed by a second round of moments. My heart leaped immediately into my throat, I was almost crying with frustration and despair...holy cow! "So what bought this on?" ...nothing.
Major conflict in the house for a while, so after putting my youngest angelic being to bed, I went out to the garden which is usually a place of serenity calm and comfort. I made myself comfortable on my favourite chair and began all my relaxation methods and calming exercises. I asked my team to back me up, and with all my will I focused my intentions on being centred being calm and figuring out what in all of creation was going on!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I couldn't concentrate on reading my book, found no beauty in my plants and faery lights, was restless, my tea tasted horrible and I could not hear the usual comfort and solace of my team surrounding me...."what?????"
No matter what I did, no matter how I did it, I could find no peace, none of my inner strength was manifest, no calm, no serenity, no distance...nothing.
I had NO idea what to do next. I knew I could not sit down to write a blog post in the state I was in, I didn't even know what was going on myself. I didn't want to talk to anyone, I mean, how do you explain it when a beautiful, fluffy, faery filled day all of a sudden, for no reason, feels like you've landed in the seven circles of hell?????? No reason!!!!!
What I ended up doing was just sitting with the feeling. I continued to sit in the garden and let the feeling wash over me, surround me and completely envelop me. I took ownership of the moment, after all, this was me in this moment, this is how I felt and no amount of denial could remove that fact or the feeling. I can't say I embraced the feeling (who would???) however, I stopped trying to figure it out or to find a solution to it. I just sat with it, with me, and let the moment unfold as it would, tears and all....then, I went to bed.
That was two days ago now. To this moment, I cannot tell you what happened or why, I just don't know. I don't understand the why or the how, I did learn from this moment though. I accepted the feelings as my own, coming from me and a part of me and stopped trying to control the moment (an exercise in futility). I felt a real crisis, and just knew that all I had to do was surrender and I would pass through the moment....hard work!!!!!!!! I constantly talked to my divine team, seeking their help, asking for assistance and it was great. Since I did not know the cause of this moment, I could not ask for specific things to "be done" only surrender to guidance, stumbling my way through, listening as hard as I could to hear the "answers" I was being given.
I have walked through the last two days as though one half asleep, fulfilling my obligations to home and work, but not really here. Listening hard to my heart and the universe, going the direction guided, a bit here, a little more there, don't engage with this, leap right into that.
Suddenly this morning, the feeling was gone and I felt expectant hope again.
I still can't tell you what happened, or what that was all about. I can tell you that this moment passed with little pain due to the fact that I surrendered myself up completely and let go of the need to control the outcome (not that I had a great deal of choice in the matter *wry grin*)
With love and light
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
November 13, 2012
Other humans
All the time I am reminding myself that while I may not be a perception of perfect, in the eyes and heart of the divine (the ONLY place I will accept judgement from) I am a perfect being who is blessed and abundant. It is through viewing myself as if through the eyes of the divine, that I can/am coming to accept the lessons I remember and am reminded of.
As I thought about this today, and events over the past few days of my earthly existence that a bit of a bomb shell hit me, even though this is not new information to me.
One of the reasons that I do my very best, even though I am human and do not always succeed, to stay away from judging others, even when I find their actions so abhorrent to my own set of ideals or moral compass, is really clear to me now.
The reason I walk a path that mandates non-judgement and forgiveness and love in all things at all times (to the best of my human ability) is because while all those things I said are true about me; and I quote, "I am a perfect being who is blessed and abundant," this is also true of every OTHER being on the planet as well.
When I am somewhat confronted by the actions of others and their choices due to (in my perception) actions based on ego, selfishness, envy, greed and all those rather unpleasant of human behaviours, my goal is to let go of the actions, to not focus on what behaviours are being displayed, and instead focus all my will and attention on the perfect, divine and abundant being that is the true person before me...not the humanness of their choice.
Another instance of what you concentrate on is surely what you will see and then what you will experience more of....yikes!
With love and light
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
As I thought about this today, and events over the past few days of my earthly existence that a bit of a bomb shell hit me, even though this is not new information to me.
One of the reasons that I do my very best, even though I am human and do not always succeed, to stay away from judging others, even when I find their actions so abhorrent to my own set of ideals or moral compass, is really clear to me now.
The reason I walk a path that mandates non-judgement and forgiveness and love in all things at all times (to the best of my human ability) is because while all those things I said are true about me; and I quote, "I am a perfect being who is blessed and abundant," this is also true of every OTHER being on the planet as well.
When I am somewhat confronted by the actions of others and their choices due to (in my perception) actions based on ego, selfishness, envy, greed and all those rather unpleasant of human behaviours, my goal is to let go of the actions, to not focus on what behaviours are being displayed, and instead focus all my will and attention on the perfect, divine and abundant being that is the true person before me...not the humanness of their choice.
Another instance of what you concentrate on is surely what you will see and then what you will experience more of....yikes!
With love and light
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
November 12, 2012
Moments to regret or to feel protected?
I am reminded again today that my perspective on a situation makes all the difference as to how I view it, experience it, and am left with it in the end.
There are moments in my life where I was being verbally abused by someone where, in that moment in time, I didn't say all the things I was thinking of to say in response. I call this an angelic gag order *smile* Where I REALLY wished later, that I hadn't let the opportunity pass by to say what I really thought. However, what I was reminded of today through hearing a similar story from someone was that, in that moment in time, I am actually being protected from doing myself harm and also from visiting harm on someone else. After all, what I am thinking in a heated and highly emotive moment, in not necessarily what I may be thinking later either.
I have also had moments where I have inadvertently overheard others speaking about me in a less than favourable way. Hurtful at the best of times. However, I have come to view these moments with gratitude because it is a moment that shows me REALLY clearly, the place from which these people are operating, and allows me to make a clear choice about whether I spend further time with them or not, or take them into my confidence etc.
There are times too, where I have acted as a victim in terms of relating what was "done to" me, and I am gently, yet firmly reminded today that I allow people and their choices to impact me, or not. Their actions are their choice and therefore so are the consequences. If their choices come from ego, it is they that will ultimately have to be responsible; those choices are THEIR issue, and not mine.
I feel often that my divine team protects me from little traps of ego, judgement and "humanness" through bringing to light the path that those around me have chosen. While in the moment it may hurt to see others perceptions in this light, I now choose to be grateful that I was led to see this in no uncertain terms.
With love and light
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
There are moments in my life where I was being verbally abused by someone where, in that moment in time, I didn't say all the things I was thinking of to say in response. I call this an angelic gag order *smile* Where I REALLY wished later, that I hadn't let the opportunity pass by to say what I really thought. However, what I was reminded of today through hearing a similar story from someone was that, in that moment in time, I am actually being protected from doing myself harm and also from visiting harm on someone else. After all, what I am thinking in a heated and highly emotive moment, in not necessarily what I may be thinking later either.
I have also had moments where I have inadvertently overheard others speaking about me in a less than favourable way. Hurtful at the best of times. However, I have come to view these moments with gratitude because it is a moment that shows me REALLY clearly, the place from which these people are operating, and allows me to make a clear choice about whether I spend further time with them or not, or take them into my confidence etc.
There are times too, where I have acted as a victim in terms of relating what was "done to" me, and I am gently, yet firmly reminded today that I allow people and their choices to impact me, or not. Their actions are their choice and therefore so are the consequences. If their choices come from ego, it is they that will ultimately have to be responsible; those choices are THEIR issue, and not mine.
I feel often that my divine team protects me from little traps of ego, judgement and "humanness" through bringing to light the path that those around me have chosen. While in the moment it may hurt to see others perceptions in this light, I now choose to be grateful that I was led to see this in no uncertain terms.
With love and light
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
November 11, 2012
Horrible moments
Sometimes I have days where I seem to be overtaken by unbearable heart hurt, loss, grief, loneliness and all sorts of heart wrenching emotions. Sometimes there seems to be a cause, other times, not. Sometimes I think I am the only person in the world....*ego much? wry grin*
On these days I find myself judging others...generally the heart hurt comes from observing the actions of others (or experiencing them myself) and I find a bit of a rage building at the way humans CHOOSE to treat each other. I am then a little disappointed and saddened at my own choice...that of judgement.
Coping with one of these days is interesting.
Most of the time I make the conscious choice to go "switch off". This is not a "sticking your head in the sand" kind of moment, it's more like a, "I choose to reserve all response until the energy changes" kind of response.
I keep myself busy doing loving and worthwhile things (in my perception of course) and each time my brain tries to inject negativity, anger, judgement or anything else, I stop, take a deep breath and clear my head.
I mow the lawn (and the neighbours lawn too) I create culinary delights, I read, I draw, I clean the house...basically I focus all of my energy and channel my intent into doing something, it doesn't really matter what.
For really "bad" days I prefer to focus on physical activities (ones that don't actually involve sport...not the sporting type *smile*) , especially in the garden. I feel better when I exercise out the feelings rather than sitting with them and dwelling on them. There is ZERO point in meditating quietly on these days (not for me anyway) so I get into the garden and weed and mow and water and plant and talk to the veggies depositing all of the negativity and "stuff" at their roots, asking them to change it into love energy before releasing it again. (A VERY helpful visual for me).
Dwelling on how "bad" you feel only makes it worse!
While keeping busy doing "stuff" may not change the reason you feel heart hurt, it does help you to focus your attention on something else. The laws of the universe state that what you focus the most on, is what you get more of...so I choose to distract myself from negative thoughts.
With love and light
xoxoxoxoxoxoxox
On these days I find myself judging others...generally the heart hurt comes from observing the actions of others (or experiencing them myself) and I find a bit of a rage building at the way humans CHOOSE to treat each other. I am then a little disappointed and saddened at my own choice...that of judgement.
Coping with one of these days is interesting.
Most of the time I make the conscious choice to go "switch off". This is not a "sticking your head in the sand" kind of moment, it's more like a, "I choose to reserve all response until the energy changes" kind of response.
I keep myself busy doing loving and worthwhile things (in my perception of course) and each time my brain tries to inject negativity, anger, judgement or anything else, I stop, take a deep breath and clear my head.
I mow the lawn (and the neighbours lawn too) I create culinary delights, I read, I draw, I clean the house...basically I focus all of my energy and channel my intent into doing something, it doesn't really matter what.
For really "bad" days I prefer to focus on physical activities (ones that don't actually involve sport...not the sporting type *smile*) , especially in the garden. I feel better when I exercise out the feelings rather than sitting with them and dwelling on them. There is ZERO point in meditating quietly on these days (not for me anyway) so I get into the garden and weed and mow and water and plant and talk to the veggies depositing all of the negativity and "stuff" at their roots, asking them to change it into love energy before releasing it again. (A VERY helpful visual for me).
Dwelling on how "bad" you feel only makes it worse!
While keeping busy doing "stuff" may not change the reason you feel heart hurt, it does help you to focus your attention on something else. The laws of the universe state that what you focus the most on, is what you get more of...so I choose to distract myself from negative thoughts.
With love and light
xoxoxoxoxoxoxox
November 9, 2012
Just keep at it
So many times this week I have heard people say, "I am so totally over this week, cannot be over fast enough," myself most definitely included in this!!!
Some weeks, it seems, no matter where people are on their journey or the path they may be choosing to take, we all come into sync on the fact that it's been "one of those" weeks or days. *smile* I love the synchronisity of this for many reasons, the main one being that at least I have an inkling that if everyone is having a terrible seeming week, it is probably some major shift going on energetically and not just me going crazy.
You know what I find the most beautiful, amazing and comforting fact abut the path I have chosen? With my faith and belief in the divine, in myself and in my journey, I can look at these weeks or days, I can wish them done, but all the way through, i KNOW that there is something amazing and wonderful and miraculous just around the corner. In this way, "one of those weeks" never turns into one of those years any more.
I am comforted by the perspective that all things must come to an end, even a seemingly bad week. All things we experience are really only a moment in time, no matter how terrible they feel and are at the time.
With this in mind...I just keep at it! That is my entire strategy for dealing with moments in time that are awful whether physically, emotionally or spiritually....just keep going, keep standing, keep dreaming keep moving...just keep at it and find the next moment.
With love and light
xoxoxoxoxox
Some weeks, it seems, no matter where people are on their journey or the path they may be choosing to take, we all come into sync on the fact that it's been "one of those" weeks or days. *smile* I love the synchronisity of this for many reasons, the main one being that at least I have an inkling that if everyone is having a terrible seeming week, it is probably some major shift going on energetically and not just me going crazy.
You know what I find the most beautiful, amazing and comforting fact abut the path I have chosen? With my faith and belief in the divine, in myself and in my journey, I can look at these weeks or days, I can wish them done, but all the way through, i KNOW that there is something amazing and wonderful and miraculous just around the corner. In this way, "one of those weeks" never turns into one of those years any more.
I am comforted by the perspective that all things must come to an end, even a seemingly bad week. All things we experience are really only a moment in time, no matter how terrible they feel and are at the time.
With this in mind...I just keep at it! That is my entire strategy for dealing with moments in time that are awful whether physically, emotionally or spiritually....just keep going, keep standing, keep dreaming keep moving...just keep at it and find the next moment.
With love and light
xoxoxoxoxox
November 8, 2012
Rose coloured glasses
I have often been accused of having rose coloured glasses, of not seeing "reality", being too trusting and not really knowing what the "real world is about". People have often told me not to be ridiculous, to come back to earth and to get a dose of reality.
My response to this is....why?
You see, in my "reality," the way I believe the world works, you get what you expect from the world.
If you expect to have to fight and struggle...then you will.
If you expect life to be hard...it will be.
If you expect people to let you down...they will.
If you expect that there is nothing for you...then there won't be.
The way I look at the world is to expect miracles and love and joy, and sure, sometimes that means I am a little disappointed when I feel someone didn't "read the script" and at times I feel a little saddened at the way people treat each other (including me). However, my view of the world means that for a majority of the time, I see beauty, love and miracles in each passing moment.
You can only see from the perspective you believe the most in. I make a conscious choice to make that perspective one of hope.
With love and light
xoxoxoxoxoxoxox
My response to this is....why?
You see, in my "reality," the way I believe the world works, you get what you expect from the world.
If you expect to have to fight and struggle...then you will.
If you expect life to be hard...it will be.
If you expect people to let you down...they will.
If you expect that there is nothing for you...then there won't be.
The way I look at the world is to expect miracles and love and joy, and sure, sometimes that means I am a little disappointed when I feel someone didn't "read the script" and at times I feel a little saddened at the way people treat each other (including me). However, my view of the world means that for a majority of the time, I see beauty, love and miracles in each passing moment.
You can only see from the perspective you believe the most in. I make a conscious choice to make that perspective one of hope.
With love and light
xoxoxoxoxoxoxox
November 5, 2012
Retraining
There are some habits I used to have such as always denigrating myself and or my achievements, meeting every compliment given to me with a flippant remark because the praise made me uncomfortable, always feeling I had to struggle and fight for everything I had and in order to keep it. I didn't feel that these habits were helpful or beneficial for me. I didn't like the way my brain automatically reacted in self sabotage, and I most certainly didn't want to live an existence like this.....
I kept coming back to the adage that "Nothing changes if nothing changes." For quite some time though, I really didn't know how to change those ingrained patterns of thought and behaviour.
One day, as I was reading, I heard about positive affirmations, using powerfully positive words to create a reality. I have to tell you, I was a complete sceptic I believed in that moment and in that place of my understanding that if the universe was "so damn helpful" and the divine was REALLY listening, then they would, "know what I meant." *rueful smile* I know right.....what I had not yet remembered is that we are CO-creators, with free will, and in charge of our destinies since we wrote our own contract.
What I decided, was that I would put this "ridiculous notion" to the test.
I picked something small...that I really disliked hugs, hated people in my physical space....and wrote a couple of notes saying "I Love Hugs" on them. I stuck these notes in strategic places around the house like the bathroom mirror, the fridge door, beside my bookcase; in places I knew I would see and read them everyday. I left them there for a couple of months, challenging myself to see how often I could read them during the day. You can guess what happened I am sure...I LOVE hugs *hee hee hee* I didn't realise at first that this was actually WORKING! I figured it out much later and was totally blown away.
So, I tackled some of my "bigger" issues using the same method...and that worked too.
I retrained the way I think using a few pieces of paper and some positive words, and the best thing about it is that I didn't even have to believe it would work for it to work!
The basic premise here is that you will believe some of what you read, more of what you see...but you WILL believe 100% of what you tell yourself...so make it great!
With love and light
xoxoxoxoxoxo
I kept coming back to the adage that "Nothing changes if nothing changes." For quite some time though, I really didn't know how to change those ingrained patterns of thought and behaviour.
One day, as I was reading, I heard about positive affirmations, using powerfully positive words to create a reality. I have to tell you, I was a complete sceptic I believed in that moment and in that place of my understanding that if the universe was "so damn helpful" and the divine was REALLY listening, then they would, "know what I meant." *rueful smile* I know right.....what I had not yet remembered is that we are CO-creators, with free will, and in charge of our destinies since we wrote our own contract.
What I decided, was that I would put this "ridiculous notion" to the test.
I picked something small...that I really disliked hugs, hated people in my physical space....and wrote a couple of notes saying "I Love Hugs" on them. I stuck these notes in strategic places around the house like the bathroom mirror, the fridge door, beside my bookcase; in places I knew I would see and read them everyday. I left them there for a couple of months, challenging myself to see how often I could read them during the day. You can guess what happened I am sure...I LOVE hugs *hee hee hee* I didn't realise at first that this was actually WORKING! I figured it out much later and was totally blown away.
So, I tackled some of my "bigger" issues using the same method...and that worked too.
I retrained the way I think using a few pieces of paper and some positive words, and the best thing about it is that I didn't even have to believe it would work for it to work!
The basic premise here is that you will believe some of what you read, more of what you see...but you WILL believe 100% of what you tell yourself...so make it great!
With love and light
xoxoxoxoxoxo
