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From Fear to Fire

My first memories of evil are not blurred—they are sharp, searing, and unshakable. Fear walked in the door before I had words for it. It crept into my childhood and sat heavy on my chest, teaching me to stay small, teaching me to hide. I carried that fear like it was part of my identity. […]

Raising Children Without Outsourcing My Intuition

The modern parent is drowning in information. There’s a book for every stage of child development, an “expert” for every problem, and a dozen competing theories on how to raise a child who is happy, resilient, confident, or [insert buzzword here]. The underlying message is clear: You can’t possibly figure this out without them. I’ve […]

Sacred, Ancient – That’s God

We use terms like “sacred” and “ancient” often, but I don’t hear them as a reference to God. God is ancient. He belongs to the very distant past and He also belongs to the present day. Ancient is often held for the beliefs of the native American Indians or the ancient writings of Aristotle. Aristotle […]

Scars: What Cannot Be Erased

I wrote this after a conversation with my mom about scars. She said God doesn’t take them away. We carry them. Not as disfigurement, but as witness. For years I believed healing meant erasure. No trace of pain, no mark left behind. But when Christ rose, He kept His scars. Not because He lacked the […]

Who Was the Murdered Woman?

A cheap Saturday night took you down. You died stupidly and harshly . . . I failed you as a talisman – so I stand now as your witness. My Dark Places, An L.A. Crime Memoir, James Ellroy I cannot bring the dead woman back, but I am a witness to her last moments on […]

The Scars of Absolution

I have been released from living in the prison of pain. I am no longer obligated to a family that served me great harm. I feel no burden to return to my past and I am not obliged to the destruction I used to serve. With that being said, I have learned that I walk […]

On the Restless Heart

The heart is a wild thing. It runs after pleasures, it bows before honors, it clings to security, yet never is it at peace. I have seen souls chase endlessly after one comfort, then another, like a child distracted by every trinket. Yet the heart remains hungry and unsatisfied, for it was not made for […]

God Suffers With You

For a long time I couldn’t get past the idea that God would “let me” be abused as a child. My suffering at the hands of my father severed my faith in God … but he never abandoned me. I prayed constantly for deliverance, for help, for relief, for anything other than what was happening […]

The Shape of Survival

My story didn’t begin with strength. It began with silence. I was a child who learned too early that adults can twist love into a weapon. I carried that secret like poison in my body. And when I grew older, I turned the knife inward. In my teens and twenties, I lived like someone already […]

Prophetic Heart Healing

I am you. I have lived through great destruction in my childhood and live a life abundantly full. The pain is gone. The destruction has past. Let me help you get to other side. Not because of who I am but because of who God is. #noreligionallowed Book a one-on-one Prophetic Heart Healing session with […]