Samantha Beardon's Blog, page 84

Words

Words those unsubstantial marks on the page

Describing concepts from the mind, retrieved from life’s  stage

Words those insignificant sounds reaching our ears

Communicating needs, joys and fears

What makes those words a potent force

When each receiver tunes in, differently of course

The pictures produced in the receivers  mind 

Influenced by their experiences, perceptions, beliefs inside

Words that paint pictures of concepts, we feel a need to express

If words evoke reaction maybe that’s a writer’s success

Turbulent sea of life

Bobbing on my raft in the turbulent sea of life

Skimming the vortices, paddling through strife

Armoured with joy to keep me afloat

Holding onto threads of happiness,small but of note

In the shelter from the storm I weave those threads to rope

To hold me safe when that raft rocks and to give me a glimmer of hope

I have my trusty keep net to catch lifes offerings

It holds all that is precious discards the stones and stings

Bobbing on my raft through the turbulent sea of life

Finding happiness in the smallest things is a way to survive

Light my fire…

You said light my fire

An arsonist to light the pyre

Would that be, an all consuming flame

Or a smouldering burn, more easily contained

Is this to be a single conflagration

Or the match, to an eternal flame, of integration

Would it be the flame of lust

Burning heat then ashes and dust

Or the cleansing flame to warm the soul

Your invitation based on desire, wanting to be whole

You said light my fire

Standing with a match do I have that desire?

Emotional baggage reblogged.

Is your partner failing to meet your needs, not making you happy, are you drifting apart?

Are new relationships failing?

Maybe some of the cause of your problems is the amount of emotional baggage you are carrying that is impacting on your behaviour and your expectations.

How much emotional baggage are you carrying ?

Is emotional baggage impacting on a relationship, or stopping you making that new relationship successfully?

To make space in your life for a new relationship or to improve your current one, its time to start releasing anything you’ve been holding on to that is preventing you from experiencing true intimacy(baggage). Identifying those issues and working to eradicate them will bring you to a level of self-awareness that will give you insight, flexibility, and freedom, making you much more available for  satisfying relationships.  Heard the phrase  someone has “too much baggage” to be ready for a committed, connected relationship, its true. We have a set of beliefs about ourselves and others that we have gathered over the years many learned in childhood, these beliefs we use consciously and unconsciously to live our lives. The problem is that some of these truisms, beliefs …are negatives and some are actually untrue but we believe in them and they colour our actions and attitudes as we go about the daily grind.

Baggage isn’t always what we think it is. It isn’t necessarily our circumstances, our past, or even the issues we’re currently working with. Baggage is often just a lack of flexibility about accepting whatever is showing up in our life or someone else’s and therefore an inability to move forward.

We all have baggage. What’s important is recognizing our baggage and minimizing its effects on our relationships.

An underlying feeling of emptiness, loneliness, or longing is something many, if not most, of us have experienced at one time or another. No matter how rich our lives may be, with a satisfying career, material wealth, and plenty of friends, we may still be carrying around a low-level feeling that something important is missing. This can be made worse by negative thoughts about our lives.

The place many of us turn  to in order to address our feeling of incompleteness, is our  relationships.

Great you are saying, I find my other half ,my soul mate and everything will be hunky dorey. Maybe…but if all it takes is to find the significant other , why are so many relationships rocky? Is it that many of us have not  found the right fit, or is it the baggage that one or both of us is carrying that is impeding harmony.

Our  significant other can only offer us acknowledgment, encouragement, approval, acceptance, they cannot make us feel complete and whilst we have our baggage it will  never be enough to end our feelings of dissatisfaction of wanting.

Once we realize that a partner is not going to be the one to make us happy or give us everything we think we need to be complete, we’re likely to feel disappointed, discouraged, and maybe even resentful.

We often unknowingly drag a suitcase full of problems into a new relationship, drop them at our partner’s feet, and say, “Fix these for me!”

The way out of this trap is to make a commitment to ‘being the one’ who will address your own issues,to be honest with yourself and look at the roots of your ideas, prejudices and behaviour. When you no longer need your partner’s validation, then any encouragement, love, or guidance your partner does offer you will be their very best, given freely and from a place of love. When validation is no longer the primary reason you’re in a relationship, you can explore, enjoy, and appreciate everything that relationship has to offer.

Playing scrabble on line with a new male flirt

Playing, positive, pleasure,

Words, wistful, wonder,

Games, graceful, gratification,

Modish, match, mastermind,

Male, mission,mesmerise,

Beware, bewitch, brazen,

Flirt, forsee, future,

Danger, dalliance,dependence,

Raise, rules, rocking,

Prey, prophetic, paralysis,

Hedonistic,hope, hunger,

Ego, extra, extended,

Reason, rationalise, stay in control

Small pleasures

Small pleasures tease my senses

Nature’s bounty so immense

Sitting feeling the warm rays of the sun

Breathing deep, a scent, second to none

Senses almost overwhelmed, with olfactory delight

Beautiful wisteria feasts the eye and intoxicates into the night

Mock orange adds a thread

Smiling, romantic thoughts spread.

Memory Book

For the bemused and bewildered, a memory book

Sets out main events, to reminisce and look

I am bemused and bewildered, by your behaviour

Trying to understand it, taste the flavour

The trouble is, that memories vary

My grasp on events, is contrary

Are the vignettes of life, just pantomimes

Was it smoke and mirrors, no substance, a crime

I need to preserve the essence of us

Treasure the best, keep hold of the plus

Preserve the real, stop looking at rust

Wipe the tears from my eyes, the books,a must

Paste in the photos, add words to describe

My memory book, for a dream that has died.

Novel of life

Outline the novel of my life

Peopled with characters joy and strife

See the plot the twists and turns

Heroine fails will she ever learn

Throw in the spanners, script the reaction

Disappointment and some satisfaction

Add the flaws the miscued beliefs

Got to be loss for winning and release

Can the heroine influence the story

Change direction steal the authors glory

Plot the milestones and sketch the markers

End part one on that cliff hanger, high dramas

Will it be happily ever after

Heroine in charge end with laughter.

Mirage

Shimmering, silvered, dancing light

Looking through I see, delight

Straining eyes, I see you rise

Throwing away caution means, surprise

My body heats, as the light coalesces

Seeing you clear, my breath, sticks in my chest

I smell your musk your aftershave

As I look, I see you stand and wave

Syntillating, brilliant bands of light

I blink my eyes in pure delight

You are coming closer and my body responds

Ready for loving, the reaction ensconsed

I hold out my hand to the shimmering glow

But as I look back that light overflows

Blinking back tears I strain to see

Your image has gone, mirage, not reality.

Deeds

Do my small deeds rock the fabric of time

Is there a counter balancing motion

Somewhere in the universe, a paradigm

Or are my machinations, too small to cause commotion

How about all mankind, in their daily grind

Are our actions sending out waves

Swirling and eddying to far off shores, unstoppable tide

War,death,destruction and unmarked graves

Do these events erupt in space, rolling out, eons wide

Rocking the stars, pushing aside whole galaxies

Tsunamis of emotions, spiralling, sparking, destruction apocalyptic?