Samantha Beardon's Blog, page 80

Interplay

​There is a tingle between us

Electricity when we touch

There is a buzz between us 

Our conversations thrill us much

There is interplay between us

Magnetism drawing us in

There is passion between us

Should our love affair begin

There is excitement between us

Exquisite feelings on display

Is this the day between us

When we consummate  our interplay

Tasting sweetness

​Holding close, seizing strokes

Tasting sweetness, lust evokes

Touching, teasing, squeeze and grind

Tantalising, feelings, feeds the mind

Growing warmth my need inspires

Look in your eyes reflects desires

For my own sanity

​I want you to like me

I think you understand

I hope that our friendship

Will stay until the end

I wanted you to love me

The stars had seemed so right

Those early hedonistic days

Then you stole off in the night

I wanted us to maintain, that special bond

Those special shared moments

That our relationship was based upon

Then you showed they were shared with others, a premise bogus

I think I have been holding onto a relationship, fantasy

It was a relationship built on shifting Sands

That I just didn’t see

I must cut the bonds for my own sanity

Serendipitous soliloquy.

​Serendipitous soliloquy 

Does this tirade scan iambically

I pace the floor while shouting my declaimation 

Trying to rid myself of my consternation

You swore you loved me, You chased and wooed me

I began to trust and became your devotee

How could I become sucked in to this morass

I am feeling such an ass

My ego has nose dived my world has rocked

I am feeling such dismay my system is shocked

This drama is unfolding as I play my scene

Wishing like in Shakespeare the villain could intervene

Or at least eavesdrop on this great soliloquy

Instead of an audience composed of just me

I hope across the ether the echoes resonate

Making you aware of my solitary debate

Reaction choices

We have two choices in how we react to situations from a place of resistance or a place of acceptance.From resistance we get anger, irritation and frustration. We think I can’t concentrate will increase your well being and happiness.with this noise, this is such a waste of time, you should have done….. And this affects what we do and how we behave.

If we can accept what is happening try to relax into the moment then it reduces our stress. Stuck in a queue, stuck in traffic, partner left the bathroom in a mess,small,  examples of things that irritate. Accepting this is how it is in this moment changes our reaction enables us to ride the flow. It doesn’t mean we are happy with the situation or that we won’t try to positively improve the situation. It just means we will choose not to act negatively and become frustrated and upset. If the situation is outside our control then we don’t waste our energies trying to change something we can’t.

We often worked on learned tried and tested reactions without thinking about our reaction. If you are becoming angry and frustrated remember you have a choice in how you respond in any given situation.

When you accept what is happening rather than resist it you can become open to other possibilities within the situation.

Finding something positive in a truly negative situation and focusing on that

In life things are ever changing. We need flexibility to cope in an ever changing world.

This is particularly true in our relationships.

His Fantasy Land

He wants me to join him, in his fantasy land

Put my trust in him and take his hand

I wonder Is his fantasy false or true

Would to enter it, be something to rue

Is it a world of pain or pleasure

Something to avoid or maybe treasure

Could he please, my very core

Leaving me wanting ever more

Am I brave enough to take the plunge

These initial steps can still be expunged

Life’s messy melee

What I need from you and will try to reciprocate

Trust me without the need to interrogate

Give your love without fright

Meet it together, under the light

Accept me as I am and the me I will become

Don’t try to change me to fit your anyone

Desire me with no inhibitions

Let lust turn to love and keep changing our traditions

Want me as partner, friend and lover

With no restrictions that I will later discover

Communicate your feelings and your needs

So I can consider them as part of my analyses

Understand that sometimes our opinions will differ

That momentary spats can make our bond stiffer

Make me a partner, so we both grow

Don’t make me a shackle that will bring us both low

Walk with me and give me support

That’s the way to happiness, living for me

Would be an assault

Mostly let’s just live, laugh and play

Taking in our strides lifes messy melee

If life had been different

If life had been different

Could we have met

Would it have been magnificent

To have tested that set

We have had contact, late in lifes, rolling dance

Met in the ether, a contact by chance

We talk and we share a microcosm  of life

We get on so well no trouble or strife

I know that your charm and wit are real

But I only have moments of time to seal

My reactions about you, are layered with hope

I only know part of you, with that, I have to cope

If life had been different, would passion have won

Not in the way it is done on the net

But meltingly hot under the sun

Instead admiration and fun make our game set.

Maybe in another life?

Tanka 2

Lips tingling citrus

Crushed against his brow

Eyes tight closed

Love flies on gossamer wings

Visiting star studded skies

Heavenly rivers of light spark

Why Rhyme?

Words crawl across the page

Full of ideas, need to engage

Stories, prose or rhyme

Has to be rhyme, when , little time

Rhythms and rhymes feels so easy

Feel so right, work so cleanly

Poetry purists will say how cheesy

Expell their breath, very wheezy

An idea to express, a reaction to provoke

A hope for debate, revolt, or quote

Human relationships float my boat

Love, lust and human trust, my promote

Sadness sometimes lurks in a corner

But as an optimist,I try to be an informer

Why rhyme

Nice line

Tends to keep things

On springs

I can do more rounded prose

Use large words,maybe pose

Metrical composition

Personification recognition

Versification

Conflagragation

As long as it rhymes

Suits my paradigms

Why rhyme

Because I so love it!

What no rhyme ….never does it!